The Twilight Saga


It has been 20 years since Edward left. Bella never stopped loving him.
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After All These Years


Setting: 20 years after Edward leaves in New Moon.

Chapter 1

Unlike some people, I loved washing dishes. It was the time that I allowed my mind to wander freely; the time where I replayed the day in my head; the time when I allowed memories to wash over me. Maybe it was the warm water. Maybe it was the feeling of washing everything away. Maybe it was that the window over the sink faced the forest and brought Edward back to my mind each day.

I didn’t push Edward from my mind anymore. The first year after he left, I couldn’t even think of him without clutching myself in physical pain. I couldn’t bear to say his name…couldn’t bear to hear it. But that had changed over the years. I welcomed the memories now. For me, there would never be another love. I knew I had found my one true love as a young woman. I knew Edward was the only piece that could complete me. Twenty years later, I still loved him.

Tonight, Edward was so clear in my mind. Jacob and his family had surprised me with a birthday cake. It was the first birthday since Charlie had died and they didn’t want me to be alone. I preferred to skip over birthday celebrations. Like most women, the thought of getting older was offensive, but for me birthdays also signified the end. The end of Edward and me-----the memory of my eighteenth birthday party at the Cullen’s was one of my blackest memories.

Jake and I remained best friends all these years. He imprinted on Anna when he was nineteen and they were married shortly after. Life had changed for Jacob after the Cullens left Forks. He no longer shape shifted. There was no need. Once in a great while, he would tell me that he smelled a sweet smell in the air, warning me to be careful. I think he thought it would scare me. It never did. I only hoped that meant that an old friend was passing by, or more importantly, Edward was near.

As I washed and dried the last plate, I replayed Jacob’s last words to me tonight. “Lock up good tonight, Bells. I smell a strong sweetness in the air.” He had no idea how I wished that were true.

I hung the dishtowel to dry and went out on the back stoop, staring at the forest. It was dark, but it didn’t scare me. Before turning in for the night I spoke out loud, “Good night, Edward. I love you.”





Chapter 2

I still kept the bedroom at the top of the stairs. I had repainted and gotten new furniture along the years. But in all those years, I never replaced the mattress. It was there that we talked for hours; there that he held me, and that we kissed. It was worn now, and honestly my back would most definitely benefit from a new mattress. I just couldn’t part with it.

I got ready for bed and turned on the bedside lamp. I opened my window a crack, like I had every night since he left. Then I took out my journal. I always wrote in it on nights that I felt particularly preoccupied with memories. I learned years ago that writing my thoughts down would often ward off the nightmares I had so often. Somehow I wasn’t sure it would help tonight. My journal, like anything else about my life, was not a typical journal. I actually wrote letters to Edward. I had filled over a dozen blank books with letters to him. Maybe someday, when I was gone, he would read them and understand the depth of my love for him. He would know that I figured out why he really left and that I eventually forgave him. Tonight was a night I knew I needed to write to him. And so I began…

My Dearest Edward,
I’ve missed you so much today. It’s my birthday. I turned thirty-eight today. That means it is almost 20 years to the day since you’ve been gone. I never would have believed that I would be without you after all these years. On days like today, I still feel the hole in my chest. I know it was your love for me that allowed you to leave. But, I wonder, do you still think of me? I love you, Edward...as much now as ever before.

I stopped there because tears were making it difficult to write. I cried myself softly to sleep.

Shortly afterwards, the nightmare began. It was always the same when it came. Wandering in the forest. Calling out his name. Crying. Never finding him. Feeling so alone. And then…waking up in a cold sweat, sobbing for what I would never have again.
I tried to calm myself, counting my breaths, in and out.

Then I heard his voice, “Bella.”

I sat upright and looked around the room. It was empty, of course. But, I didn’t feel alone in the room. Oh, God. Tonight was particularly bad. I was having delusions again. It was years since I had heard the delusions this clearly. I tried to concentrate harder. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in…

I felt a cool breeze in the room and instinctively pulled the blanket higher to my chin.

“Edward?” I whispered into the dark room.


Table of Contents
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Chapters 1 & 2- on header of each page
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14

Chapter 15 -This is not clickable....look for it near p. 34

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21

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Wow, so sweet!!

Now, down to business! Come on Edward, you will give in to your Bella! Do not deprive her of yourself! Please, we won't have it!!

Also, what did Alice see?? Who was coming??? Carl Isle!! LOVE IT!!

Poor Edward, I know it has to be so hard for him to read the journals, but he has to understand that is the past, not their future and it defines them for who they are now, which is who they love! Right?!

EVERYBODY, GO VOTE FOR THESE WONDERFUL STORIES!!! We would be lost without them!!

Wendy
I think we are up to third place today! Woo Hoo!! Thank you, Wendy for all of your cheerleading! Do you think Edward will be able to turn Bella down...hmmm...
Ummmm, we know in the past he has tried! *sighs* But, surely now he will not. He is too tormented by her journal and would not want to make her feel any worse. I think he NEEDS her now more than ever!

*thinking sweet thoughts*

Wendy
I think needs and wants may soon combine. :)
And we are all patiently waiting for that to happen!! hehehe!
You go girl!! Wish I could sneak in a couple more votes!!

*thinking.....how could I do that?? Think they would notice??*

Wendy LOL!
Yep-sure they would. Lol
Wow... sounds like Bella's losing it.
I MUST READ MORE!!!
Losing it?? Oh, because of her writings in her journal? Well at the time, she was "losing it". Actually, she LOST it/him, Edward! He left her! *thinking...silly Edward...what were you thinking??*

Gotta love them for staying true to each other, even "After All These Years"!

Awwwwwwww............

Wendy
the ending of this chapter is wonderul! that is so paceful, so safe and warm, nothing else is important just this moment is belong to them~
Love It!!!!!
The wait for that chapter was excruciating- but totally worth it. Carl Isle, I loved that- brilliant! I loved this chapter- although the flight was pretty upsetting with the journals. But hopefully this will allow Edward to see how much Bella really loves him, how she always has. I will be patiently awaiting for the next chapter! Oh, and Edward's deffenses will surely crumble- Bella gets everything she wants. Lol.

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