This starts off in Eclipse and then becomes a Jacob/Bella story. Written all in Jacob's pov.
Summary: What if Bella wasn't able to handle some of the things that Edward pulls and she decides to leave him? Will Jacob be able to put her back together once again?
(This story starts off the same as Jacob's Eclipse, and will detour in chapter 3)
Again! Sam yelled, as I picked myself up from the ground shaking dirt and gravel from my fur. Paul crouched down and we circled and evaded one another, each of us reading the mind of the other. Our pack mates watched closely and their own thoughts mixed in as well intensifying the challenge. We all have been practicing for days trying to sharpen our reflexes, and allowing our wolf to react rather than think and decide. When successful our wolf would move almost completely without thought and catch the other one by surprise, it was fantastic. Sam was careful not to let any of us get too seriously injured, but lets just say it is a good thing we heal fast.
When I returned from Bella's with the knowledge that she wanted the Cullens to make her one of them it became clear that the treaty was going to be broken. We had no idea how much time we would have, but we wanted to be ready.
Our greatest obstacles were Edward's ability to read our minds and Alice's ability to know the future. Her knowing what we were going to do the moment we decided was scary and our only option was to be faster than ever before. There would be no time to hesitate or second guess, no time to think. Jasper's ability to control our emotions was equally scary, and I sure hoped that Sam had some idea of how to counteract that because I could think of nothing. We knew that the Cullen coven would be a united front and we would have to be ready.
Fight training turned out to be a perfect way to vent our pent up anxiety and frustration. None of us took the treaty being broken lightly, and would not hesitate to declare war. However for me it was so much more than a treaty that was being violated, it was Bella who was putting herself on the alter as a human sacrifice. How could she not value her life more than that? Does she not see how important she is?
Suddenly I felt Paul's hard head directly into to my chest and I was on my back and his teeth instantly went around my throat making it where I couldn't breathe. Paul stand down. Sam ordered, and Paul's hold immediately released and oxygen refilled my lungs. Great job Paul, Sam acknowledged. Jacob distractions like that are going to get you killed.
Once again I picked myself off the ground and was angry and embarrassed. I hated that Bella still had that affect on me. I couldn't help but think about her, she called all the time and just wouldn't take the hint that we were over. There was never a we to begin without, outside of being her “best friend” and I knew that the love I had for her could not be stuffed back inside the ''friendship box”, we had gotten too close for that. That ship had sailed, and along with it my hopes and dreams of a life with Bella.
Pulling myself together I sat to the side and watched the next set sparring with one another, sometimes it was one on one and other times we had two on one. Some days were spent more on the mental training of combat and others were more physical endurance. Fighting against a large coven was mostly likely not going to be over very quickly and we so we ran for hours and hours. Most of the time we could make a game similar to tag, where one or two wolves would be “it” and would try and hit the others to work on dodging and running. After a couple more hours Sam declared training over and we all went home hungry and tired.
Quil had joined the pack about one week after the Cullens returned. He was so freaking excited to be in on the secret, and have his friends back, he didn't care about anything else. He stayed a wolf for just over a week, not in any hurry to get back to his human life and his girlfriend got frustrated not knowing where he was and broke up with him. They had only been dating about a month, so Quil took the break up well and really so did she. I must admit it is fantastic to have Quil with us and to not have to keep it from him anymore.
The pack feels complete and there is a sense of unity among us all, a brotherhood. Well maybe not all, Leah is still as difficult as ever and never fails to remind us of how she feels like an 'outsider' among 'outsiders'. We have all learned to pretty much take her moaning and complaining as just part of her charming personality.
In no time I made it home, landing on two feet, slipped on my shorts and walked inside. It was dark inside with only a handwritten note indicating that dad had gone fishing with Charlie. I cringed at the idea of what those two gossips would plan and scheme while having the whole day together. As much as I loved my dad, he really needed to get a life so he could stay out of mine. I suppose I could try and just pretend like I wasn't dying a little more each day that I ignored Bella, and then he wouldn't worry so much, but I wasn't really good about hiding my feelings. I always seemed to lay things out straight, just how it was. You couldn't sugar coat crap, and that is just how things are right now.
I walked over to the freezer and smiled when I saw three boxes of pizza staring back at me. I got them all out and turned on the oven while I sat them on the counter. I opened one box took the plastic wrap and cardboard off and placed it in the oven. It would need to cook for 20 minutes so I decided to jump in the shower and get cleaned up. The water felt great relaxing my tired muscles and I washed my hair and realized I would need to cut it again soon. I probably should have weeks ago, but I just didn't have the energy to care.
I got out of the shower, dried myself off, and walked to my room for some sweat pants. As I entered the kitchen I could smell the pizza and my mouth began to water. I removed the hot pizza from the oven and got the second pizza out of the box placing it in the oven to cook. I ate the first pizza while the 2nd cooked, and when it was ready did the same with the third. Once I was finished eating I sat down in front of the TV for some mindless relaxation.
It didn't take long before I heard my dad rolling in the front door.
“Hey Dad, there is some pizza on the counter if you are hungry.” I said from the couch.
“Okay, thanks.” Billy replied as he rolled over to me and dropped a folded square piece of paper that said 'Jacob' across the front into my lap.
“What is this?” I asked picking it up. He completely ignored me as he rolled back into the kitchen, I assumed for pizza. I opened the paper and my eyes about jumped out of their sockets as I read.
Please Jacob, talk to me!! I didn't read any further as the paper dropped from my hands and floated like a feather to the floor, as I bolted from the couch and stormed into the kitchen.
“What the hell was that!?!” I yelled.
“Jacob she's trying. Give her a chance to fix things.” Billy took two slices of pizza and set them on his plate and rolled in front of the kitchen table.
“What on earth for? Do you want me to just pretend that she isn't suicidal? Or has she given Edward up?” I asked sarcastically while pacing back and forth in our small kitchen.
“No. She hasn't. But she cares about you, maybe you could get her to change her mind.”
“Like that'll ever happen.”
“Well maybe it would if you would stop sulking, put on your big boy pants and read that damn note. You might just learn something.”
I stopped dead in my tracks in the middle of the kitchen, “Did you read it?” I was so shocked I didn't know what more to say.
“No, good grief Jacob. Neither Charlie nor I have read it. But the fact that she sent it in the first place is all I needed to know.”
I pulled my chair out and slumped into it, “I can't believe this.” I said shaking my head.
“Come on Jacob, she needs you and I know you need her too.”
“But that's the problem Dad, I need her far more than she needs me. I can't go back to being the friend she wants me to be, too much has happened.”
“Wouldn't her friendship be better than nothing at all?”
“I don't know. What would be the point?”
“And I think she needs you even more than you need her, she just doesn't realize it.”
“I know.” I looked up and I could see the note shouting at me from the living room floor. “I can't deal with this right now, I'm going for a walk.” I said as I stood from the table.
“Okay. Hey there is a bucket of fish outside, would you mind bringing them in.”
“Sure, sure.” I said as I got up and walked outside grabbed the bucket and brought inside next to the kitchen sink. “I'll be back before too late.”
As I stepped outside I could see the sun start to descend and I knew it would be slipping away into darkness soon. I walked over to the beach and listened to the waves come and lick my feet before receding back into the ocean. My mind was a mess, I didn't know what to do about Bella. Why was a friendship with me so important to her if she wasn't planning on giving up Edward and her desire to be one of them? I did the best I could to avoid thinking about that last part, how her skin would ice over, her beautiful heart would no longer beat, and her chocolate brown eyes would be lost forever.
A silent tear slipped out of the corner of my eye and my heart ached at the possibility of Bella being my enemy. The instinct to attack and kill would spread through my body regardless of the face that stood before me. I felt helpless as I sat down in the rough sand, laying flat on my back as I watched the sun continue to slip away. I felt someone come and sit beside me, but I didn't bother to turn my head to see who it was, instead I just watched as the sky filled with blazing oranges and pinks until slowly the colors slipped away into black.
I felt a hand, small and cold, settle itself into my own. For a second I didn't move, had Bella driven out here? I had never known Bella to be this silent, and I'm sure she would have had plenty to say if she were here. Also I knew Bella's scent by heart and this was very different. I could smell sweat mixed with a sweet apple smell, like a lotion or perfume. I lightly moved my hand and could feel the delicate fingers and my thumb rubbed the soft skin at the wrist, it felt so different that I had no idea who's hand it could be. Slowly out of curiosity I turned my head and saw the dark russet skin and hazel eyes that I knew to belong to Jackie.
I laid my head back down and relaxed my hand, which she didn't let go of, and looked out across the night sky. “What are you doing?” I asked.
“You just looked so lonely.”
“Did it ever occur to you that I wanted to be alone?”
“Yes.” She took a deep breathe. “Something has happened to you Jake, and it scares me sometimes.” Her voice trembled some and I looked at her arms covered in goosebumps. She had a tight sleeveless shirt, matching pink and brown pants, and running shoes, I guess she had been running along the beach when she found me.
I brought my hands to my side, making her drop mine, and pushed myself to a sitting position brought her to my side. “Where's your jacket?” I could feel her cold arm against my hot skin and brought my hand around to her other arm.
“In my car, I get really hot when I run so I don't usually need it. I didn't exactly plan on being out so late.”
“Oh.” It was painfully obvious that I was the reason that she was still here and I didn't really know what I thought of that. Jackie was a nice girl when she wasn't spreading rumors about our romance, a romance that was about as real as the Easter Bunny. She had kissed me once in the school parking lot, I didn't kiss her back so it didn't really count as a real kiss, however no matter what I said no one believed me that nothing was going on. I knew it was bad when even Quil and Embry thought I was holding out on them and keeping it a secret from them. Truth be told there was nothing to tell, other than today the only times I saw Jackie was at school and these days the pack pretty much stayed to ourselves.
I heard Jackie take a deep sigh and felt her body relax so that her head rested on my chest. “You're really hot Jake.”
I couldn't help but chuckle. “Thanks.”
She lifted her head and smacked me in the chest with her hand. “Not like that, you dork. Well maybe that is true too.” She ducked her head embarrassed. “But that wasn't what I meant.”
“Sure, sure. It's no big deal.”
“Why are you so hot? You're not sick are you?” She asked as she reached her hand out to probably touch my forehead.
I leaned out of the way. “No I'm not sick. The heat is just genetic, just part of who I am.”
“Your dad's not this hot.”
“Glad you think so.”
She just rolled her eyes. “Ha, ha. Okay, I admit I walked right into that one.”
“The heat skipped his generation, and my mom's family had this issue as well.” We were both silent for a moment, and I hoped that explanation was good enough. “And speaking of my dad, I need to be heading home.”
We each got up and brushed the sand from our legs and back side. “Do you need me to walk with you to your car?” La Push was a pretty safe area, but I thought it would be rude to just leave her there.
“Sure, thanks.” She said with a smile.
Her car wasn't far and we walked in silence. I watched as she unlocked her door and I waved 'goodbye' as she climbed in.
What an unexpected evening this has turned out to be. When I got home I helped dad get to bed, neither of us speaking and I crawled into bed shortly after. The note was still on the living room floor exactly where it had landed and stayed there for two days, neither of us wanted to touch it. However the longer it stayed there the bigger it seemed to grow, soon it would fill up the whole living room.
Finally as I was eating breakfast before school, dad wheeled himself in to watch some TV as he straddled his chair over the note he had had enough. “Jacob pick up that note or I will. And if it is still there I'm reading it this time.”
I glared at him as I finished my last bite of cereal and placed the bowl in the sink. I went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and then gathered my books placing them in my backpack for school. As I walked back in, I planned to simply walk right out the door until I saw my dad with the note open on his lap. “What the crap Dad?”
“Hey, I warned you fair and square. If you didn't want to know what she had to say, that is your problem, but I sure as hell did.”
“I can't believe you.” I walked over and yanked it from his lap and shoved it in my backpack and walked out the door making sure that it slammed loudly behind me. I knew he hated it when I slammed the door and I could hear him grumbling inside.
He totally deserved it noisy old man. I never dreamed he was serious with his threat, but I knew I should have. He never has handled secrets very well. I approached Quil and Embry who were both waiting for me at Embry's house, I hoped that they would be able to see my irritation and just let it go, but I guess nothing was going my way today.
“Hey Jake!” Embry called.
“Hey.” I answered sourly.
“Dude Jacob, what crawled inside your pants and died?” Quil snickered.
“Ohhhh.” They both said together.
“Are you still ignoring her calls?” Quil asked.
“What did she do this time?” Embry asked.
“She sent a freaking note from her dad, to mine, to me!”
Quil clutched his stomach and started laughing so hard he almost tripped. “Man, that is awesome.” Quil stammered once he could breathe again.
“You are seriously messed up.” I said shaking my head.
“So what did the note say?” Embry asked.
“You'll have to ask my dad, he's the one who read it.” This time is was Embry's turn to almost fall over laughing.
“Why haven't you read it?” Quil asked.
“If I wanted to know what she had to say I would answer the damn phone, not pretend I was in 2nd grade.” I gave a frustrated sigh.
These guys knew my frustration with Bella more than anyone. Despite my best intention I couldn't help but have her on my mind each and every time we patrolled and they probably wanted me to move on. Or at least settle things so that I could pretend to move on, having Bella tangling in the air wasn't good on anyone. However, I couldn't think of anything that she could possibly have to say to me.
We made it to class and as I pulled out my stuff from my backpack I saw the crumbled note buried deep inside, calling to me, begging to be heard. I know I was being stubborn and stupid, but I couldn't handle feeling the hope that she still cared about me or the pain of knowing it was really over. Finally by 3rd period I had had enough and I couldn't take it any longer, so when I pulled out my books and notepad I reluctantly pulled out Bella's note. I smoothed out the ruffled edges.
Please, Jacob talk to me! There has got to be something that I can do. I'm sorry, I know that it hurts you that I am friends with the Cullens, but they are part of my life too. You are my very best friend and I know that we can make this work. I miss you and I need to figure out a way to be your friend as well, if you would only just talk to me, please Jake, please.
After reading the note, I knew I should respond. There is just something so personal about hand written words that is so much harder to ignore. Maybe it was because it was such a physical reminder, as soon as the phone stops ringing than your window of conversation is over, but with a note that window never closes. I flipped to the next page of my notebook and started to write.
What were you thinking! I do not want to talk to you.
No that wasn't really what I wanted to say and I ripped the page from my notebook and it made a loud tearing sound and everyone stared at me, including my teacher who stopped and looked confused.
“I'm sorry. I won't do that again.” I stammered.
I don't know why you're making Charlie carry notes to Billy like we're in second grade – if I wanted to talk to you I would answer the . . . Well that wasn't really what I wanted to say either, but instead of ripping the page out, I just crossed it out, and tried again.
You made the choice here, okay? You can't have it both ways when . . . It is not like she could have us both she needed to understand that.
What part of 'mortal enemies' is too complicated for you to . . . I had been writing so hard that I broke the tip of my pen and ink leaked over the page.
Look, I know I'm being a jerk, but there's just no way around . . . Dammit it was no longer just the tip that broke as the pen shattered between my fingers. I grumbled to myself as I reached inside my backpack for another pen, making sure that I didn't hold it quite so tightly.
We can't be friends when you're spending all your time with a bunch of . . . Oops should probably stop there, she hates when I use the terms 'bloodsuckers' or 'leeches' to describe her 'friends'.
It just makes it worse when I think about you too much, so don't write anymore . . . Nothing I could think of was coming out the way I wanted it to.
Yeah, I miss you, too. A lot. Doesn't change anything. Sorry.
Angrily I put a dark black line through every word I had written, I was afraid that my arm would start shaking and give away the pain and anger that I felt. I got to the last line and I just couldn't mark it out, the truth of the words sprung from the page. So I simply added my name to the bottom and folded it. I was about to put both notes back in my backpack when the bell rang and Quil leaped from his desk grabbed Bella's note and sprinted out the door.
Quil was going to be one dead dog by the time I got to him as I sprung from my desk to follow him down the hall.
“Oh come on Jake, you know we all were going to know what it says anyways.” Embry tried to reason with. “This will just save you from having to think of it later.”
“That is so not the point Em.”
Embry and I caught up with Quil in the cafeteria with a huge tray of food looking completely innocent, like there was no reason for me to punch him in the nose. He was very wise to remain in a public place otherwise I certainly would have. The rest of the day was uneventful, Quil grew a conscious (black and blue in color) and gave me the note back before walking to my house.
We had an afternoon snack, that would probably be two full meals for a normal person, and then hung out in the garage. I was still in a pretty sour mood, but thankfully they chose to ignore me and just let me sulk. The best of friends knew when to push you on an issue and when to let it go, and these guys were the best.
At dinner Dad apologized for invading my privacy with the note and I easily accepted, but I could still feel the tension between us. Bella had become a thick cloud hanging over both our heads and I knew it would burst at any moment, I just wasn't sure what the damage would be once it started. As I got Dad ready for bed I placed my note back to Bella on his dresser.
“This is my response to Bella, you can read it if you want to, I don't care. I won't reply to another one so if another comes, read it, burn it, whatever, but don't give it to me. I'm done.”
I saw the sadness mixed with understanding in his eyes as I walked out the door. I just wish that my heart would be as “done” as my brain was. I hated the powerful affect that she still had over me, but I was going to simply take one day at a time and keep putting one foot in front of the other. I would make my dad proud and continue to serve the pack to the best of my ability.
Thanks Anita. I don't mind the black or white either, it was just weird. I didn't 'do' anything in particular to make it go black, so I couldn't figure out how to fix it, and decided to just put a comment.
Yes the books would have been huge if SM had told every character's side of the story. Thanks for your support. :D
I love Quils song... Totally cracked me up! It was so interesting to read the chase through Jacobs POV instead of retelling through Bellas. This second chapter was really good! I already am so in love with this story! I can't wait for more!!!
REMINDER: This chapter is when this story will split from Jacob's Eclipse into it's own story.
Song for this chapter
I got up the next morning with a title wave of emotions. Yesterday with the pack it was such a mess, and I was so exhausted that I hadn't really had a chance to let my mind adjust to the news that Bella was indeed home safe and sound. Well maybe not safe or sound, but she was certainly home and very much human. I can't even start to express what my heart has gone through with the fear that she had been changed and the relief knowing that it hadn't happened. I wish that there was something more I could do to stop it, but if I couldn't compete against the memory of Edward Cullen, I do not see how I could compete with him breathing down her neck all the time.
The thought made me shudder, which Dad noticed sitting across the table from me. “Are you okay, Jake?”
“Yeah, just thinking.” I continued to shovel the cereal into my mouth, sometimes I wasn't even sure if I completely chewed my food anymore.
“You seeing Bella today?”
“I'm going to the school, she said she would be there, so I assume I will see her.”
“You don't seem very excited about it.”
“I'm not. The last experience I had talking to the two of them didn't exactly go so well.” I grumbled.
“How did you expect it to go, ratting her out to Charlie like that? By the way, you totally should have given me a heads up, Bella wasn't the only one Charlie was furious with.” He rolled over to the sink and washed and dried his bowl and spoon.
“Yeah, I know that was really stupid on my part. Thinking about it now it was about the dumbest thing I have ever done.”
“You know she has already forgiven you. If you would just give her the chance to prove it to you.”
“We've already talked about this, there is no point.”
“I think you're wrong, Jake.” He said shaking his head. “However, you are right we have already talked about it, just think about it today when you see her. You'll never forgive yourself if you learn after the fact that you could have done more.”
Like I really needed anything else to think about as I pulled my bike out of the garage and headed towards Forks. I arrived in the parking lot and popped the motorcycle on to the sidewalk. I'm sure I didn't need to be quite so obvious about being there, I stuck out like a sore thumb surrounded by all these tiny pale faces. It was almost funny to watch everyone stare at me and give a wide berth to me as they walked around to get inside the school.
It didn't take long before I heard his car pull into the parking lot and saw Bella sitting in the passenger seat. I could hear him speaking to her in the car trying to get her to stay inside, what a loser. The moment that Bella lifted her eyes she looked right at me and I saw her get out of the car. No one could tell Bella what to do.
Standing in a parking lot full of people I knew that I was going to have to be extremely careful, so I took a deep breath and focused on the task before me. Let's get this conversation with Edward over with, a simple warning to stay off our land. They walked towards me hand in hand, Edward stopped several yards away and pulled Bella behind his body, it was another reminder of how this was not going to be easy.
“You could have called us,” Edward said in a steel-hard voice.
“Sorry.” I sneered. “I don't have any leeches on my speed dial.”
“You could have reached me at Bella's house, of course.” My teeth clinched together, I didn't really like the mental picture of how much time Edward spent at Bella's house. “I already know what you came to say. Message delivered. Consider us warned.”
“Warned?” Bella asked. “What are you talking about?”
“You didn't tell her?” I asked shocked, I couldn't believe it. “What, were you afraid she'd take our side.”
“Please drop it, Jacob.” Edward said evenly.
“Why?” I challenged. What is he hiding from her? I saw the confusion on her face it was clear she did not have any idea what we were talking about.
“What don't I know? Edward?” I waited a moment to give him a chance to answer her, but he just continued to glare at me, like I was the one who messed up here. What was that about?
“Jake?” She asked.
It was in this moment that I realized how completely in dark Bella was. “You didn't tell her anything at all, did you?” I turned giving Bella my full attention, “Overprotective, isn't he? A little trouble makes life fun. Let me guess, you're not allowed to have fun, are you?” I saw Edward glower at me as his lips moved back exposing his razor sharp teeth.
“Shut up, Jake,” Bella said.
I laughed. “That sounds like a no. Hey, if you ever feel like having a life again, you could come see me.” I leaned forward, without really meaning to, it just came naturally with being around Bella. “I think I might have been wrong before, you know, about not being able to be friends. Maybe we could manage it, on my side of the line. Come see me.”
“Hey,” I turned looking at Edward, “Is that why you took her away? So she wouldn't know that – ”
“Leave now.” Edward cut me off way too fast, I knew that I was exactly right. He glared at me revealing the monster that he truly is.
“Why haven't you told her?” You know she is going to be pissed off when she learns you kept this from her. I let the silence remain and watched Bella's face as she processed the new information that she has received. I saw her start to tremble and it hurt to see her so fearful, but I knew that she understood the situation.
“She came back for me,” she choked out.
Edward touched her face giving her the comfort that I so wanted to. Bella pushed his hand away I could see the furry in her eyes and I was so grateful that it wasn't me she was angry with. She stood for a moment like she debated coming towards me, and then stormed off into the school.
Edward watched her go, then suddenly he turned his head towards me glaring. “Does that answer your question, mongrel?”
“You don't think Bella has a right to know?” I challenged. “It's her life.”
“Why should she be frightened when she was never in danger?”
“Better frightened than lied to.”
“Do you really think hurting her is better than protecting her?” he hissed.
“She's tougher than you think,” I said. “And she's been through worse.”
Immediately I brought up one of the most painful memories that I had, strangely it isn't even one of my own, but rather the night that Sam found her in the woods. When Sam found her he thought she was dead, it was only her soft heart beating that proved otherwise. I knew that it had hurt me when I saw that moment, and I could only imagine what it would be like for Edward to see the damage that he had done. I couldn't help but grin as my memories shifted into the first day that Bella brought the bikes over to me, she was deathly skinny with dark circles under her eyes, her hair was limp and messy. I showed how she would wrap her arms around her torso trying to hold herself together.
“That's funny,” I laughed as I watched his face squirm.
A man, that I assumed to be the principal, made his entrance breaking up the audience that remained in the parking lot. He asked if I were a student and after confirming that I was not, he threatened to call the police if I didn't leave. I'm sorry but the thought of Charlie coming to arrest me was too funny and I sarcastically jumped on my bike and road away.
Leaving Bella's school my mind was a mess. I had officially extended the olive branch of friendship, and I could see that she wanted to come to me, but once again Edward was holding her back. Sam wanted me to check with him first thing, so I probably wasn't going to school today. That was fine, it was my turn to patrol so I would do that after meeting with Sam.
Meeting with Sam was uneventful and he agreed for me to patrol so for the next several hours it was just him and I running through the trees. We didn't really talk and both just let our minds wonder, we both knew that patrolling our small land didn't take much time and we could probably stop, especially during the day time.
So when we took a break for lunch I went home to spend some time with my dad and do somethings around the house. I know that my dad has really felt neglected lately and my strained friendship (if that was what it was) with Bella was having an affect on him and Charlie as well. I heard them on the phone several times and it seemed that Charlie was doing everything he could on his end to make it possible for Bella and I to spend time together.
Now that I have done my part and opened that door back up, maybe we can actually go some place with it. It was a great afternoon with dad, he was pleased about the conversation I had with Bella this morning and for the first time in a long time I felt some hope. After several loads of laundry and general cleaning I decided to head out to the beach.
The clouds were starting to gather and I was sure that a storm was coming our way. It didn't really matter to me, I could care less about getting wet. I have really started to enjoy coming to the beach and sort of found a new spot where I could sit down in the pebbly sand and just listen to the sound of the waves coming and going.
I haven't been sitting long when I saw someone jogging along, it didn't take much to notice that she was Jackie. She came up and stopped where I was sitting, she was a little short of breath and had a huge smile on her face.
“You ditched school today.”
“Yeah, I had some things I needed to take care of.”
“Is everything okay?”
“I don't know yet, but maybe.” Though she had stopped jogging she was still pacing back and forth, I assume to keep her heart rate up. “How long have you been jogging?”
“About 20 minutes, I try to go for an hour. Do you want to come?”
I remembered how much I had enjoyed running right before I phased, it felt really good to use the muscles. Now running as a human wasn't really much of a challenge. “You go ahead.”
“What, are you afraid you might slow me down?”
“Are you implying that you are a better runner than me?”
“Alright, you're on.” I jumped up off the ground and immediately started sprinting down the sand. My bare feet and long stride were a benefit, however Jackie is tall and at 6'2” her stride isn't far off from my own. She had on a similar tight spandex pants and shirt similar to what she ran in last time and the same running shoes. I could easily tell that she ran often and was in good shape.
We ran for a solid 30 minutes and I made sure that I stayed at least a step ahead, until the clouds gave way and started to pour rain on us. It was the type of rain that instead of starting slow and building, it just dumps buckets of rain.
“Yeeek!” Jackie shrieked. “I'm totally soaked.”
“Come on, lets get you back to your car.” We turned back around and at a light jog we made it back to her car.
“Can I give you a ride home?” She called as she pulled a key out of a small pocket on her shirt sleeve.
“Nah, I'm good.”
“You are really strange, you know that Jake?”
“Yeah.” You have no idea. “I'm already soaked as it is, no big deal.”
She shivered a little, cold now that the rain had soaked her clothes. “Okay, if you catch a cold I'm making you get in the car next time.”
“Deal.” I couldn't help but smirk at the possibility of me catching a cold. She quickly opened the door and jumped inside trying to get as little rain as possible in the car with her.
I walked back home, not really in any hurry, the rain had changed to a light drizzle, but the clouds seem to promise more to come. It is funny how we are such creatures of habit and tend to walk the same path even if there are several options to get to the same area. For that reason I was able to easily walk just about anywhere in La Push and would simply walk the same imaginary path that I always did. I was about half way home, when Quil ran up to me screaming my name.
“What is wrong with you?”
“What wrong with Bella?” I asked, much more scared that I wanted to admit.
“Nothing. Well probably something . . .”
I grabbed him by the shoulders, “Spit it out!”
“She's at your house.”
“What?” I started to run and he trailed behind.
“I don't know much, your dad called over at Sam's saying that she looked upset.”
I ran up towards the house and didn't see her truck anywhere. “Where's the truck?”
“I don't know. Your dad said she knocked on the door soaking wet.”
I leaped up to the front door and opened it quickly. I saw Bella sitting on the corner of the couch with a towel wrapped around her, she looked up at me. It only took her about a second to bolt from the couch and launch herself into my arms, and wrap her legs around my waist, I easily caught her and held on to her hips to steady her. It would have been perfect if not for the sobs that erupted out of her.
“Bella, what's wrong?”
She continued to sob and I saw Dad coming down the hallway, I gave him a confused look and he simply shrugged his shoulders and parked himself in the living room. I walked over to the couch and sat down with Bella straddling my lap. “Honey, you need to tell me what is going on?”
She shook her head 'no' and wrapped her arms even tighter around my neck, for any normal personal they probably wouldn't be able to breathe.
We were both soaking wet, I leaned over and picked up the towel that she dropped on the floor and wiped my arms and legs and then draped it over her back. It was clear that she wasn't ready to talk, so I just rubbed my hands in circles on her back hoping that it would be calming. Dad and I had a silent conversation that expressed that neither of us knew what to do.
After 15 minutes Bella was still sobbing and despite being in my arms was still shivering cold. “Hey Dad, I'm taking her to my room for some dry clothes.”
“Okay,” he nodded.
I picked us up from the couch and carried her to my room. I sat on the bed and tried to pry her arms and legs from my body. “No, please don't leave me,” she begged.
“Bells, please we both need dry clothes. I'm not going far.”
She released her grip from me and I scooted her to the bed. I poured out the contents from my drawers looking for something that I have not worn in a long time and found an old pair of sweats and a sweatshirt.
“Here Bella put these on.”
“I don't want you to go.”
I grabbed a pair of cut of sweats, nothing was ever long enough so it was just easier to cut them to be long shorts, and I grabbed a shirt. “I'm going to the bathroom the change, if you aren't in dry clothes when I get back than I am taking them off for you.”
“No, you won't.”
“Yes I will.”
“Try me.” I challenged, and walked out the door.
As I walked out the door I wasn't completely sure if I wanted her to change, but also not really sure if I could follow through with my threat. It didn't take long for me to change clothes, as I was heading back I heard Billy on the phone and I could here Charlie on the other side.
“Thank God, she is there.” Charlie said.
“I'm sorry, I would have called sooner, but I didn't realize that you didn't know she was here.”
“Yeah, I came home and the place was dark and way too quiet. I'm just glad that she finally went to hang out with Jacob.”
“Um . . . Charlie, I don't think Bella is here to just hang out.”
“What do you mean?”
“She knocked on the door completely soaked and hasn't stopped crying since Jacob got here.”
“What is wrong? I swear if that Cullen boy hurt her again I am going to kill him.”
“Hold on Charlie, lets get some more information first. I asked her if she were hurt and she told me no, but I also don't know where the truck is so that is pretty odd.”
“She can't walk there? Maybe Edward dropped her off.”
“Not likely. Look I swear I will call you the moment I know anything. You know Jacob will not let anything happen to her, she is in good hands.”
“Yeah I know that.”
I was glad to know that Charlie had faith in me. With a smile on my face I decided to go check on Bella. This should have given her enough time to change, but just to be sure I knocked on the door to my room. I didn't hear a response, but I could still hear her crying inside so I cautiously opened the door. She was curled up on my bed, her head resting on my pillow, with the sheet pulled up to her chin. I didn't need blankets, but still enjoyed the feel of being covered so all I had was a sheet.
“Are you cold?” I asked.
Her lips quivered and I wasn't sure if that was from being cold or from crying, however I went back to the hall closet to get the blankets that used to go on my bed, and an extra pillow. I came back and shook the blanket out opening it wide and laying it across her body and set the pillow next to her.
“Come here,” she called.
“Okay,” I smiled. “Scoot over.”
As she moved back towards the wall I could see the collar of my sweatshirt, and I was glad that she had at least put on the dry clothes. She scrunched her back up against the wall giving me as much room as possible. I laid down and pressed my back into the blanket, she snuggled in and rested her head on my chest as I wrapped an arm around her. One of her arms draped around my waist, I looked at her small hand and I could see her knuckles were bruised.
“Bells, what happened to your hand?”
“I was punching the truck's steering wheel.”
“It broke down on my way here.” I made a mental note to try and find it later, and see if I could either fix it or push it home.
“Is that why you were soaking wet when you got here?”
She simply nodded her head, talking about the truck seemed to be a reminder of why she was here, and she started bawling all over again. I had a feeling it was going to be a long night. At some point I was going to have to try and figure out a way to get her to explain exactly why she was here, not that I'm complaining. Having Bella lay here next to me was the best feeling in the world, even with her tears soaking through my shirt.
It was pretty clear by how upset she was that it has something to do with Edward. Nothing would make me happier than for him to be out of her life for good, but I wasn't really sure if Bella could survive loosing him again.
We laid there for a long time, neither of us speaking. Despite the mystery of what was troubling Bella we were both comfortable with the silence, I knew that she would tell me when she was ready. There was something about it that just felt completely normal, like Bella always stayed here instead of this being the first time. Maybe it was all the time she used to spend here while we were hunting the red head, I'm not really sure.
Dad rolled in, by then Bella's crying had soften to just a gentle hiccup here and there, however my shirt was completely soaked. “What do you want me to tell Charlie?” he asked.
I paused a moment, I wasn't completely sure if he was asking me or Bella. “Bella?” I directed the question towards her.
“I don't know,” she answered, her voice was hoarse.
“Is it okay if she stays?” I asked.
“I'll ask Charlie, it's his call.” He rolled back into the living room to give himself some privacy.
“Will you be able to hear what Charlie says from here?” Bella asked, in a quiet voice.
“Yes,” I whispered back.
“Okay, tell me please.”
“Sure, no problem.” I wrapped my other arm around her giving her a little squeeze and then rubbed her back while I listened to my dad talk to Charlie, and quietly told Bella what they said.
“Hey Charlie.” Billy said.
“What is going on over there? I am about to loose my damn mind.”
“I'm sorry. I really don't have anything more to tell you.”
“Why the hell not?” Charlie yelled, it was clear he was really frustrated. Bella flinched when I relied that message, and I gave her another gentile squeeze.
“Bella hasn't said anything, she has just been crying.”
“And your sure that he didn't hurt her?”
There was a long pause and I am guessing that dad was trying to figure out how to ask for Bella to stay here.
“Charlie, I think it would be best if she stayed here tonight.”
“What?! You have got to be kidding me! I have been pacing the floor all evening, seconds away from arresting Edward just for the hell of it, and now you want me to let her sleep with Jacob!” Yeah, there is no way I am translating that one for Bella.
“Charlie, believe me I understand I would be the same way if it were my daughter staying the night with some guy. But this isn't just some guy, you know Jake. He is her best friend, let him be that friend for her.” Good job Dad!! I must admit I was impressed.
There was a long pause and I heard Charlie take several deep breathes. “Okay, but that bedroom door better stay open all night.” I can definitely agree to that, and finally something I can rely to Bella.
I whispered to Bella, “You get to stay.”
A weak smile spread across her face, “Thank you.” She squeezed me tightly across my waist and quickly pressed her lips to my shoulder. Before I had time to react she laid her head back down on my chest. Maybe this night was going to turn out better than I thought.