Broken Hopes: Sam meets his daughter.
“When you break a promise…even that trust is broken.”
Sam broke her heart, he dumped her for her cousin. Leah is completely broken…Sam leaves her in her most vulnerable state! She would have preferred death but something living inside her kept her alive.
It was raining down hard, defining the pain I had in my chest. I didn’t have anywhere to go. I hated him for doing this to my mother and me, his words had crushed me. I wish, I wish things were different. I sat down leaning against the rock and hugging my self. I realized I was shivering, but the cold rain and my drenched body wasn’t helping.
I started sobbing, wishing I had someone to love…someone to care for me.
“Mom, I want you…” I said through my sobs.
Note: All the known characters belong to Stephanie Meyer! And very few ones are mine.
Say no plagiarism. :)
Well we all know who she is. Not really. Leah Clearwater.
Imprinted can be a lame reason...at times. When you have to leave the person who gave you her whole life. Sam Uley.
You're present maybe different.
But the future is the reflection of past!~Adriana Uley.
I'm always here for you...I just want you to accept me. Yeah, that's all~Darren McKay
Chapter 1: Suicide
I was just back from work, without eating anything I went up to my room. I didn’t care for anything anymore; the only one I care for was taken away by my own sister! Of course she was my cousin but we were like own sisters, I had shared my every secret and trusted her but she stole the reason of my life from me. I would never forgive her…never. Sam and I had been a perfect couple, but suddenly had disappeared for two weeks, and then returned looking and behaving totally different. Though many people had suspected and believed he was up to no good, I trusted him but he wouldn’t tell me anything. But we still continued going out, things were better…almost better. And then came Emily, to ruin my happy world, to take my life away. I had been so very excited to introduce my boyfriend to my cousin, and then Sam looked at her and never took his eyes off her face.
It was as if I had never existed. I still couldn’t believe how Sam had fallen for her just by looking at her! We had been so much in love, so very much, he had promised me everything. The night before Emily came had been the happiest night, he gave me a promise ring and told me that he would love me forever, I was nineteen and Sam promised to marry me one day, and after that things between Sam and me just got intense and passionate. Making love with Sam had been the best, I was more than happy. And then the next day after meeting my “dear” sister he dumps me.
Tears rolled down my eyes as I thought about it, it had just been a week since Sam had left me, now I wanted him, no I needed him. I knew he still loved me; it was impossible to fall in love with someone by just looking at them! Of course there was love at first sight and all but Sam was mine, he loved me not my backstabbing sister. Ugh! My head was bursting in pain, I couldn’t bear it. I loved Sam more than my own life, and I couldn’t live without him. And I wouldn’t!
I got up and wiped my tears and went to the drawer, I searched through it until I found what I needed. It was a metal blade, quite sharp…sharp enough to cut through my skin, my veins and kill me. It was stupid of me to take this step; I remembered learning about suicide in school that it was a step only cowards take. I didn’t care, fine then I was a coward! I couldn’t bear the pain, so I was ending it…permanently.
I took the blade and headed to my study table; I took out my book and tore two pages from it. Before dying I will leave my last letters. I decided to first write to my family.
‘Mom, Dad and Seth; I m really very sorry for doing this, but I can’t live anymore. It’s too much to take, and it’s not for me.
I m very sorry again.
Love you all,
This was enough; I folded it and placed the second page. This was for Sam, to know tell him that he was the reason, to tell him my love for him was more than Emily’s.
We were very happy together, I don’t know, what made you hurt me so badly. I thought we loved each other, at least I still do. But what’s the matter with you? You promised to love me forever and now you choose Emily, you don’t even know her, how could you fall in love with her?
I love you Sam…with all my heart and I cannot live without you and I wont LIVE.
I wish, I wish things were different.
I love you Sam, forever; wish you did too.
I read the letter again and again; it mildly explained how I felt. I folded the letters, took the blade and went towards my bed and sat on the floor. After placing the letters on the table beside my, I examined the blade.
It looked crisp and sharp; I sliced a part of my index finger, soon enough blood rushed from the cut. I took a deep breath and brought the blade close my left hand’s wrist. Without hesitating for a moment I cut both of my wrists. At once the blood started rushing out, I could have died an easier death by taking pills or something, but I was feeling very masochistic.
Blood covered my hand, my clothes and the floor. Slowly, I felt myself slipping away, everything around me was turning black, and I fell on the floor.
“Sam, I love you,” I mumbled. The blackness was overpowering me, I was dying at last and it was soothing…for once I felt peaceful.
Yes, this was the end. I wouldn’t feel the pain any more. Death was numb…to me it was welcoming.
My eyes closed, my senses numbed; there was a buzzing in my ears, I smiled my last smile…a bitter smile, a helpless smile.
“Leah!” was the distinct panicked voice I heard.
After that, everything was black. It had ended.
It felt like I was on the verge of waking up from a dream, my head ached a bit, I felt confused. I could hear dull voices around me, slowly I opened my eyes. Everything around me was white; I realized that my left hand was covered with IV and a bandage.
“Leah, are you all right honey?” it was mom, she sounded extremely worried.
“Mom…” my voice was hoarse. I was still taking in the situation; I started recalling what had happened. Crap! I had to be dead, I didn’t want to live.
“Why did you do this to us Leah? We were so worried,” She had tears in her eyes, I looked at her shocked, she never cried.
“I had to Mom,” I whispered and tears escaped my eyes as I thought of it.
“Take rest, recover soon,” she said closing the subject for now.
I was in the Forks hospital for almost 3 days, most of the time mom would stay with me, Dad used to me there too and Seth too visited. But the one person I wished to see never came. How could he stop caring about me? This pained me even more. I was waiting to get out of the hospital, I had already planned how to end myself again, and this time successfully. I would take sleeping pills; they would put me to sleep forever. I knew my family was hurt, and would be heart-broken when I kill myself. But there was no more reason for me to stay alive.
The day of my discharge, I sat on the bed waiting for my mother to join me. She was speaking to Dr. Cullen. I knew what he would be telling her, that mom shouldn’t leave me alone not even for a moment.
“Leah, please take care of yourself, and no more childish games, okay?” he said smiling. For a moment I felt lost, even though he was really young he sounded so…fatherly?
I simply nodded.
The ride in the car was awkward; I knew she would start telling me how stupid I was to try to kill myself.
“Leah, I m so sorry for what Sam did to you honey,” she said.
“Mom, I don’t want to talk about it,” I said closing my eyes.
“Yes we do,” she said.
I didn’t answer.
“Look I know you are hurt and depressed, but acting this way wont help Leah, life is a gift, treasure it, that boy has been in your life just for a few years but we have been since you were born, we love you Leah,” she said earnestly.
“I know,” I said firmly.
“We will get professional help to get you over him, but don’t do these acts Leah, you don’t how much pain we were in, to not know whether you will be saved or…” he eyes were frantic.
I started feeling guilty, “I m sorry,” I whispered.
“Everything is fine now,” she smiled.
I didn’t say anything, because nothing was fine.
I was wreck before and I was a wreck even now!
A/N: Hello! This is my third fan fiction (excluding the one-shots) and I really liked the idea! I have always like Leah’s character and I think it horrible that she has to go through such a bad time in the twilight series! But never mind, here’s my own little version, some of you might like it and some may not (but I really hope you do like it) anyway I want to know what you guys think of it! Please please do review! =)
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