Broken Hopes: Sam meets his daughter.
“When you break a promise…even that trust is broken.”
Sam broke her heart, he dumped her for her cousin. Leah is completely broken…Sam leaves her in her most vulnerable state! She would have preferred death but something living inside her kept her alive.
It was raining down hard, defining the pain I had in my chest. I didn’t have anywhere to go. I hated him for doing this to my mother and me, his words had crushed me. I wish, I wish things were different. I sat down leaning against the rock and hugging my self. I realized I was shivering, but the cold rain and my drenched body wasn’t helping.
I started sobbing, wishing I had someone to love…someone to care for me.
“Mom, I want you…” I said through my sobs.
Note: All the known characters belong to Stephanie Meyer! And very few ones are mine.
Say no plagiarism. :)
Well we all know who she is. Not really. Leah Clearwater.
Imprinted can be a lame reason...at times. When you have to leave the person who gave you her whole life. Sam Uley.
You're present maybe different.
But the future is the reflection of past!~Adriana Uley.
I'm always here for you...I just want you to accept me. Yeah, that's all~Darren McKay
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Chapter 7: Taking hard decisions
It felt like an entire part of me had been taken away, I didn’t have anyone left in the world…I hated what had happened. I was sitting outside on the white wooden chair staring at nothing. I couldn’t look at mom’s body any more; I had just walked down to a secluded spot in the garden and sat there hugging myself. My face was covered with dry tears, it was dark now, the cold wind blew but it didn’t matter. Mom! I want you back! I love you…
“Adriana?” I heard Shane call me.
I looked away; I didn’t want to talk to anyone! I didn’t want anyone except my mom!
He sat down beside me and out his arm around me, “I m sorry honey.”
Again I didn’t reply and sat staring at the same spot.
“She is with us you know,” he whispered.
“Why did this happen to me?” I asked him in a dead voice.
“I don’t know Ade,” he sighed.
Of course he didn’t know…I felt like I was screaming loudly but no one was even looking at me.
“Come, let’s get you home,” he said getting up and holding out his hand for me.
“No,” I muttered. I didn’t have a home any more; home was where I had my loving mom.
“Ade, Leah wouldn’t want you to be like this,” he kneeled down and told me holding my hand.
I looked at him realizing the truth in his words…mom wouldn’t want me to be like this…
“Come, let us help you,” he smiled a bit.
I stood up and he too stood and he led to a brightly lit place, I saw Carol and Peter sitting on the couch, Carol looked broken, her eyes were red and puffy, and Peter sat next to her holding her hand. Shane told me something about getting done some arrangements so I walked over to Carol and Peter. We just stared at each other and then I leaned against her and she hugged me.
Shane came back; he told that Mom’s body would be kept in the hospital until the funeral. I held back my tears. We went to the parking lot, “please, drop me to my house,” I requested Shane
“Ade, stay with us for tonight, I will take you there in the morning,” Carol moved her hand through my hair.
“No it’s fine,” I protested.
“I m not going to leave you alone,” she said in a firm voice.
That night I stayed at Carol’s place, she gave me dinner and asked me to eat but I didn’t even touch it…I wasn’t hungry. I spent my night in the guest room; I just stared into the darkness and cried. I hugged the pillows wishing that this was just some dream and that I should wake up soon…but I knew it wasn’t.
The next morning I told Carol to let me go back to my house, she looked worried and told me to stay at her place for a few more days. But I couldn’t…I kept telling her that I should go, and finally she agreed. She dropped me at my house and also ordered some food, she promised to come back in few hours. I simply nodded and closed the door after she left.
I stared around the room and remembered every single moment mom and I had spent together…my tears couldn’t be held back. Soon I was on my knees crying harder and trying to hold myself together. After what seemed like ages I got up and went to my room, I stared at myself in the mirror, I was a wreck. I couldn’t recognize myself.
‘I will always be with you’ I heard mom’s voice echo. ‘I will always be with you’…I thought of those words again and again. I felt strong in a strange way…I went to the bathroom and without even bothering about the temperature of water or stripping off I stood under the shower. I closed my eyes…the cold water was oddly numbing, it stopped me from thinking, and that helped a bit. I turned off the tap and stripped off my clothes. I wrapped myself in a towel and headed to my closet. I grabbed whatever came to my hand and put it on. With damp hair I went and lay on the couch. I closed my eyes thinking of mom…
I was on the beach, and it was drizzling; I knew for sure this wasn’t Phoenix. I saw a figure similar to mom. I ran up to her and it was mom! She was smiling widely; she looked younger, prettier, and happy.
“Mom!” I ran and hugged her and started crying.
“Shush baby, shush,” she patted my back.
“Don’t leave me mom,” I stammered.
“I m not going to come back Ade,” she whispered.
“What?” I mumbled moving back and looking at her.
“I m sorry, but please take care of yourself for me darling…I love you and I can’t see you hurt,” she said smiling sadly.
“But mom…” I started.
“I will always be with you, in your heart…if you ever feel scared or lost just think of me sweet heart and you know I will be with you,” she told me.
“You promise?” I asked childishly.
“Yes, I promise,” she said.
“I love you mom, I wish you were alive,” I whispered.
“I wish that too honey, and of course I love you,” she smiled.
“Mom?” I asked holding her hand and walking.
“Yeah,” she said.
“Where are we?” I asked looking around. All I could see was grey Ocean and wet sand under me, and cliffs bordering the woods far away.
“Where do you think we are?” she asked.
“I don’t know, I have never been here…its nothing like Phoenix,” I shrugged.
“Well, it’s La Push, my home town, I missed this place,” she sighed.
My eyes opened, I was breathing heavily and sweating, I was crying too, I wiped off the tears. I had dreamt of mom! I had talked to her! I was trembling, I heard a noise in the kitchen, and I ran up to the kitchen thinking it was mom. Maybe everything that had happened was only dream…
“Mom?” I called.
“No, it’s me,” Carol smiled sadly.
“Oh.” and then again the reality dawned up me. But I also had the dream in my mind.
“Hear, eat something,” Carol said, she placed the sandwiches in front of me.
“Thanks,” I told her and sat down and picked up a sandwich.
I took one bite, the dream I had had left me assured. I knew mom would always be with me, she had promised me.
“Are you better?” Carol asked me.
“I guess…” I whispered closing my eyes. I needed to be strong! I had promised mom.
“I need to talk to you about something,” she said hesitatingly.
“What?” I looked up.
“Her funeral has been arranged, it’s going to happen this evening,” she whispered.
I stared at her for a long time and then said, “Okay.”
I dressed up in black for the funeral, it was a short ceremony, as my mom lay there people went up there and saw her. I sat there alone waiting for everyone to finish looking at her for one last time, not many people were there, it was a small gathering but all those who knew my mom were here. When they had seen me, they squeezed my hand and hugged me. I simply nodded at them; I didn’t want to break down here. I found myself wishing that at least any one from mom’s family was with me to go through this…but mostly the man my mom had loved, the man who was my father…Sam Uley.
Everyone were back in their places, realizing that it was time for me to see her I walked up to the coffin and stared at her, she looked so peaceful, I bent and kissed her head. And that was it. I placed the flower, a white rose between her hands and walked back. I saw Carol crying into her husband’s arms, I felt lonely. Shane walked up to me and gave me a side hug. I just stood there leaning against him thinking of my father as everything went on.
I went back home, Carol pleaded that I should stay with her or I should let her stay with me but I refused both and thanked her for all that she had done. She understood when I told her that I needed some alone time. After eating plain bread and drinking milk I went to bed…not in my room, I slept on mom’s bed.
I woke up in the early hours of morning and my mind started racing. When mom was with me I didn’t have anything to worry about, she always had made everything perfect for me but now I didn’t know! I knew I would have to leave this apartment soon; this was just rented after all. I didn’t even earn! And I didn’t feel like living in Phoenix any more, these bright lights and cloudless sky just didn’t seem enough! Even the beach wasn’t as tempting…all these surroundings would just bringing back memories.
Carol came to me the following day; she was helping me a lot. She told me that I had to pack up the things and the furniture would be sold. I had agreed, she offered to help me but I said I would it myself. She even asked me to come and stay with her, and that too I agreed. For a few days I would stay there and then later…I didn’t know.
First I went to my mom’s room and started packing, I was going to leave everything unimportant here, Carol would see to those things. From mom’s closet I took two of her favorite dresses and kept it with me. Also her accessories, in the drawer I found a delicate gold chain with a heart shaped pendent, it was an old one, and she said her mom had gifted it to her when she was 18 and promised to give it to me too. I also found a scrap book; it had all our photos starting from when she had been pregnant with me. I took mom’s favorite books, antiques, and a few other things and left the room. It just seemed so empty without her. I went to my room and started packing up everything in my room. After taking everything important, I had an average size suitcase, a rucksack and a duffel bag.
When Carol came I locked up the house and I knew I would never come here again.
I stayed at Carol’s place, I tried to behave as normal as possible. I didn’t want to trouble Carol and Peter, I wasn’t perfect at it but still they supported me. Soon the things that were left were sold and some were given to charity. On the third evening at Carol’s place I sat on the floor thinking…for the past few day’s I had been thinking of La Push and my father a lot. I had developed an urge to go and meet him, stay in La Push itself. Mom loved La Push, she had always missed it…maybe going back would make us both feel better.
Carol entered my room, she saw my unpacked suitcases, and “why don’t you unpack Ade?” she asked.
“Carol, you can’t take care of me forever,” I sighed.
“Yes, I can, I know Leah would want me to,” she said.
“I don’t think I can stay,” I whispered.
“Where will you go then?” she asked.
“I was thinking of, going to my father…to La Push,” I told her.
There was dead silence. “Leah told you?” she asked.
“Yeah, recently,” I nodded. She came and sat down next to me.
“Honey, I don’t know how Sam will react, what if-” she stopped.
“What if he turns me out? Doesn’t believe me? Is that what you are thinking?” I completed her questions.
“Yes,” she squeezed my hand.
“In that case, I will come back,” I told her, hoping that wouldn’t be the case.
“Well, I guess it is your right…I mean to go meet Sam,” she surrendered.
For the first time since mom had died, I felt a bit alive. I didn’t know how Sam Uley was going to react, I didn’t know how his family would react to me, and I didn’t know whether he would accept me or turn me out of his house. I didn’t know anything! But I just didn’t care! I had to try; I had to find out the answers. I was going to La Push…
And this decision of mine was made.
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