Broken Hopes: Sam meets his daughter.
“When you break a promise…even that trust is broken.”
Sam broke her heart, he dumped her for her cousin. Leah is completely broken…Sam leaves her in her most vulnerable state! She would have preferred death but something living inside her kept her alive.
It was raining down hard, defining the pain I had in my chest. I didn’t have anywhere to go. I hated him for doing this to my mother and me, his words had crushed me. I wish, I wish things were different. I sat down leaning against the rock and hugging my self. I realized I was shivering, but the cold rain and my drenched body wasn’t helping.
I started sobbing, wishing I had someone to love…someone to care for me.
“Mom, I want you…” I said through my sobs.
Note: All the known characters belong to Stephanie Meyer! And very few ones are mine.
Say no plagiarism. :)
Well we all know who she is. Not really. Leah Clearwater.
Imprinted can be a lame reason...at times. When you have to leave the person who gave you her whole life. Sam Uley.
You're present maybe different.
But the future is the reflection of past!~Adriana Uley.
I'm always here for you...I just want you to accept me. Yeah, that's all~Darren McKay
Chapter 14: It’s my fight…I chose it
I had been staying here for more than a week now, and things had changed entirely since Darren told me that he had imprinted on me. I had come here to find my father…and eventually call him Dad, but it had gotten complicated! Not only had I found my Dad who decided to accept me but also a guy whom I liked but unfortunately he was in love with me only because of some stupid wolf connection! Seriously!
But what I hated the most was that I was head over heels in love with Darren! Everything about him was just so attractive! But I didn’t let myself loose control and blurt out that I love him too. I couldn’t accept that…I shouldn’t.
“Mom…I miss you,” I whispered. I had become very familiar with La Push now, I was sitting alone on the rocks, and the ocean waves crashed strongly against them, and sprayed my face slightly.
I had learnt to control my emotions, it was always in the nights while going to bed I cried. I missed her warm hugs.
I sat thinking of what she would have said if she knew Darren and my situation. I had run this idea through my mind thousands of times but I never came up with any answer. I started thinking of other things to distract myself-Emily…I didn’t like her. She seemed so different when Sam was around, but when he wasn’t she acted different toward me. Double faced, that’s what I thought of her. She did provide me food and all but acted like I didn’t belong here…like I shouldn’t be a part of what was my right! And as far to her son-Alex, he still hated me, and I didn’t really care! Derek played up the brotherly role that he could have done if he hadn’t be so hateful toward me. I got along with the teenagers here quite well, but Derek was the one who had become my best buddy. And the grown ups, they absolutely considered to be one of them…Jared and Kim were extra special to me…I was sure that’s because of Darren.
All in all I didn’t regret coming to La Push. Well, sort of.
“Hey…” I looked around startled. It was Darren.
“Hi,” I gave him a small nervous smile.
“Sorry,” he muttered.
“It’s okay…I can’t keep up with the wolves ‘I-m-way-too-silent-for-you-to-notice’ attitude!” I joked.
“Next time I will make some noise,” he smiled and sat next to me. Unlike the other ‘wolves’ Darren was wearing a t-shirt. It was quite transparent and I could trace his muscles and abs. Well, at least he was wearing one.
He noticed me watching him; I looked away blushing.
“How come you’re here?” he asked.
“I like coming here…I end up thinking stuff,” I said indifferently.
“May I know what?” he asked.
“Umm…I was thinking about how much things have changed since I came here,” I just said it without thinking and then started wondering if I had hurt him or anything.
“Hmm…” was all his said. I couldn’t read the blank expression on his face.
We didn’t speak for a while.
“What are you thinking?” I asked unable to bear the awkward silence. This was how things had been with him and me recently…whenever he came to hang out with Alex he would glance at me frequently but not say much…of course Alex had been way too happy that we weren’t together. And that made the situation worse.
“I was thinking about the waves,” he looked at me, and the intensity with which his eyes pierced mine didn’t allow me to move.
“What about them?” I managed to say.
“They start off from great distance, building with each step and finally rush toward the end and break…but they always come back,” he was whispering and I just stared at him in confusion.
“They never give up…” when he said that I understood what he meant. He was actually talking about himself…and I knew he would never give up on me. And to be honest with myself, I part of me was glad that he wouldn’t.
Until I felt my arms tingle I realised that I was holding my breath, I let out a sigh and started breathing heavily. He leaned in closer and placed his hand on my chin. I was still under the spell of his piercing eyes. I never wanted to look away…I wanted him to hold me, I wanted him to kiss me…I wanted to admit my love toward him…my need for him.
But I kept my mouth shut. And then I realised what was happening and I knew I had to stop this.
“Darren…” I whispered and moved back.
He was frozen for a moment and then he moved back too.
“I m sorry…I shouldn’t have done that,” he said without looking at me.
I didn’t say anything, my heart reached out for him. I felt miserable for hurting him like this; I hated myself for doing this to him. He was really sweet and loving, and I really wished that I could tell him everything.
“It’s getting dark, you should go home,” he said.
“Yeah…I think I should.” I muttered and got up.
Darren helped me get down and both of us walked in silence. It had gotten dark and we led our way with the help of the bright moon and twinkling stars. I realised I was shivering when I heard my teeth chattering. I hugged myself. Darren seemed to have noticed that a lot earlier and had a worried expression on his face.
“I wish I had my car here,” he groaned hovering over me.
“We are gonna walk home?” neither of us missed the panic in my tone. I was already freezing…I couldn’t believe how the temperature had dropped by night fall.
“Unfortunately,” he muttered and took of him full sleeved t-shirt. I stopped myself from rolling my eyes…that shirt was way thin and I couldn’t see how it would keep me warm from the fierce wind.
He put it over my head and made me wear it, I felt like a kid. A shiver passed down my spine as the warmth of his t-shirt hit me. I rubbed my palms together trying to get some heat.
“Shorts and windy beach aren’t a good combination,” he said hesitantly. I bit my lip and started feeling self conscious under his gaze. His t-shirt was loosing its warmth, and I was trying hard to warm it back.
“Maybe I should…” Darren watched me with concern.
“Should what?” I mumbled.
Without saying anything he hugged me. I froze…his body was hot! And not just in literal sense. I would have moved back any other time but now I was glad, it felt so good! I moved closer until there no space left between my face and his chest. My heart was beating wildly against my rib cage. I was very conscious of the fact that he was bare-chested. My face lay on his chest and I let him warm his arms around me and rub my back. I inhaled his warm woody homey scent. I wanted more of him.
We stood there in the position for a long while. First reason-I didn’t want to be exposed to the cold again. And secondly-I didn’t want to get out of his arms. MY heart began to slow, I could hear his too…a steady rhythm.
I sighed…both of us moved back. I couldn’t look at his face but I was blushing way over the limits and I knew that the darkness wouldn’t hide my flushed face.
“Come-on,” he whispered gently and slipped his hand through mine and moved me closer so that I was still in contact with the side of his body.
“But we aren’t together…” I said in a small voice. Whatever that happened between me and Darren-even though just a hug…it had been different and very special and I knew it could be compared to a ‘first kiss.’
“I know…but you’ll freeze,” he replied.
I looked up at hearing the change in his voice, he was smiling and I knew he knew it. And I also knew, that he liked whatever that had just happened.
Again I wished I could change things. I didn’t want them to be this way…but this was what I had chosen and I had decided to live with this.
“Okay,” I said. And we continued to walk side by side…still very close.
I wanted to enjoy being with Darren…wanted to enjoy the feel of him…wanted to enjoy the way he was making me react…wanted to watch his cute smile. But every time I tried, a small voice reminded me, ‘that I have to live by what I have chosen, and I have to fight against what I really want to do and feel.’ And I knew this is what I will be doing.
We reached home, Sam opened the door before we could knock he looked more than worried. Okay! This has so got to stop…!
“Thank god you’re okay!” he said and pulled me into a surprised hug.
“Oh…yeah I m,” confusion lingered in every word of mine.
“Thanks Darren,” he said.
“It’s not a problem,” Darren muttered.
“Really what’s happening? I m just late a few minutes, nothing wrong,” I rolled my eyes. Sam was acting like I had been lost and found.
“There is a huge storm building up and its going to hit the town soon, I was afraid something had happened,” he explained.
“Oh…” was all I could say. This sudden concern had shaken me up.
“If you hadn’t come home I was going to search for you soon,” he said.
“I m okay,” I mumbled.
“I will leave then,” Darren said.
“No, the storm!” I held his arm.
“I m wolf, it wont hurt me,” he placed his extra warm hand on my cheek and smiled.
“Oh…okay,” I still wasn’t convinced. Wolf or no wolf I didn’t want him lingering in the woods in this storm.
He smiled even wider as if he knew what I was thinking.
“Go straight home and call me,” I ordered.
“Yes ma’am,” he chuckled and saluted and nodded to Sam and took leave.
As we walked in Sam said hesitatingly, “I m really glad you’re safe…I was so worried.”
“I m really fine,” I smiled at him.
“Okay,” we walked in; Emily was sitting on the couch with a grim expression.
“Is that your shirt?” she asked sharply. Sam gave her a look.
“Oh! It’s Darren’s, he gave it to me because I was feeling very cold,” I blushed.
“I didn’t know you two were getting along well,” she said in the same voice cold voice.
“We’re good friends,” I muttered getting angry.
She didn’t answer, I walked to my room. But I also caught Sam saying, “What was that?”
“No worried about Alex are you?” she in turn asked.
“Em…he’s a wolf, he knows how to take care of himself,” Sam said in a care-free voice.
“Apparently not!” she spat.
I closed the door with a not in my stomach…things certainly weren’t as simple as they used to be. And I knew that they could get worse…this was just the beginning.
A/N: So…did you like a little Adriana and Darren action?! Oh gosh! I love the couple! Your thoughts please! =)
PS: I might not be around to wish you guys on 31st night…1st Jan…so Happy New Year! May we all have a wonderful joy and success filled amazing year! Love you all…thanks for reading my fan fictions and encouraging me to write more! Xoxo.
I hate Emily! Honestly...give the girl a break...
Update soon! :)
Thanks Amanda! :)
Wow. I always saw Emily as compassionate and kind. Never did I think that she could be bitter O.e Well, I guess if your husband's long lost daught showed up out of the blue, I'd be kind of pissed too, but not that angry,....
Still lovin Darren <3
lol...............loved the chapter and sames 2 yew hope ur year is filled with love and happiness
Sure, I will! :)
Thank you! :)
I kinda see Emily's POV. It must be hard to realize your husband had a child with someone else, and to have that child just show up in your life.