Hi everyone! In this story Bella has been having dreams since childhood of this man in which she falls in love with. The only problem is that he's only in her dreams or is he?
This story is complete, but I have not added all the chapters. I will add at least two chapters each time. So please read and comment and let me know what you think. The re-posting is because it needed some editing, but hopefully that is all fixed.
These dreams of mine are starting to get on my nerves. When I was younger my mother wouldn't let me watch vampire movies anymore because of them. This however is going too far. I am now eighteen and basically living on my own. Last year, when my mother came up from Florida for my graduation, my parents Charlie and Renee rekindled their relationship. Although I felt bad for Phil (the “interims mate” of my mom for the last 4 years), he really was a nice guy.
The only restrictions my mother had for my dad was that she wouldn't live in this gloomy town – she was referring to Forks of course. Unlike my mother, I rather enjoyed this gloomy town as she put it.
I was happy that they were together again – living alone with Charlie was easy, but I haven't seen him this happy except from old videos that had Mom in them and I always felt that he still had strong feelings for her. I was more than willing to give them some room to enjoy themselves, to get to know each other again, to rediscover their love. So I decided not to stay with them even when they asked me on an hourly basis.
So, my parents finally accepted my argument about leaving me here to take care of myself. The house was paid for and I also got a job – I mean, how much electricity could one girl use a month?
Waitressing was the job l had in a nearby town called Port Angeles. It was not the best job in the world, but it helped paying the bills. There was once a day I had hoped to go to college, but I had to put that on the back burner for now. I rather enjoyed the peacefulness I had at the house these days. Except for these unrelenting dreams. They’re not bad ones it's just that they keep me heated the way I have never been in reality. Being in love in my dreams was never the way I had planned to go about my life.
Some people say that dreams are a foretelling of your reality. Well, if they saw MINE, they would say I have gone completely insane. I have had these dreams since I was about ten or so. At first, they were sort of sporadic flickers, not a whole lot of a meaning, visions of this beautiful amber – eyed god. As beautiful as he was at the time I was scared of him. Something in his eyes made me aware of the depth of pain he had endured. Just glimpses of him now and then is all it was. But down here alone in Forks, in the past few months, they have gotten quite interesting.
Instead of the amber eyes that I was used to, now they were green. All I saw in his eyes now was happiness. These visions lasted longer now as well. We were standing in a meadow and he was on one knee asking for my hand in marriage. This dream had a lot of emotion. The sun was shining down on us, the wind blew, helping me catch my breath from his proposal. There was – I think a cabin far in our view down the hill to the left of us. On our right was a line of trees starting the forest. Turning back to the exceptional smile on his face was breath taking. I of course answered his question with a polite “Yes”. We were in a trance for a while, then we both too soon realized that there was a storm heading in our direction. We chose to go into the trees to cover ourselves from the storm. The air was starting to get a little chilled, so he wrapped his arms around me. Ahh – I could stay in that position forever. He swiveled me around to look at him, I looked deep in his eyes as he said “Bella, I love you – it will always be you for me, love.” In that moment I fully believed him. He passionately kissed me and I felt as though I was sitting on a cloud, everything was weightless. Then something grabbed me from behind roughly, rude. He yelled my name as someone or something was pulling him the opposite direction from my own. I screamed “Edward – help me!”
At this point we were so far from one another that we couldn’t hear or see the other. I felt my body turn to look at who or what it was that was doing this to us. This person gripping me looked very old as I looked into his eyes, but his skin told me differently. “What do you want from us?” I asked. He said “I am so sorry Bella as much as I would love to have you with us, I cannot take the chance that you would harm us in the future.” I was confused, considering I had no idea who he was or what he was talking about at all. "Bella, it’s time for you to leave this earth. Again, I am sorry for this.” He grabbed me from behind my neck ever so slightly while saying “Goodbye, my darling Bella.”
That's when I wake up. It was such a lovely beginning with an ugly end. The smile on Edwards face, oh how I wish he was real. I must have a really hyper active mind. Gain control Bella. Realizing now that I am late getting up for the day, I hurried to the bathroom and took my shower and went back to my room then dressed for work. Waiting for me outside was my old red truck. When I arrived at work, I was happy to see that it was not terribly busy yet. Break time came and as I was walking outside when my boss came to me and asked if I could work the second shift. The other girl had been sick and couldn't come in. Well I don't see why not, I have nothing better to do and to earn some extra money was cool.
So I finished both shifts and returned home for the evening. As tired as I was I decided to go to bed. Again, the same dream appeared and the ending was the same. I was startled by the intensity of this old man's eyes and woke up. ‘No!’ I yelled, late at night, again. Not able to get more sleep in this night I decided to get up. I did my normal routine and made some breakfast, put my laundry in and sat down to read Wuthering Heights again. After my laundry was done I cleaned the house which hardly ever dirty, just dust and mopping.
I was ready for work and then remembered my boss telling me that we would probably have more customers this evening. The local high school had some type of function, so more than likely we would have some. On the way down there I noticed I was still thinking about the dreams. How unbelievably handsome this Edward was. I felt a smile creasing my face. Stop it already, this is crazy! Why on earth am I still thinking of that?
Work was slow when I arrived. I punched in my time card and made my way to the front. “How many tables do I have tonight, boss?". “Oh, hi Bella, well right now I think five maybe more later if Nicole doesn't show up soon.” Sipping on my coke, my boss said “Bella, you have two tables up, hun”. “Thank you” I replied sourly. I went over swiftly and took their drink orders and went to fill those when I heard "Bella, there's another one for you". Oh crap, that was fast, I just walked back here. Hurrying with the drinks in hand I quickly placed in front of the proper owners and started to walk to my new table. Darn paper – come out already! My note pad wouldn't come out of my mini apron. As I looked down to pull it out I tripped over my own foot. Well that is embarrassing.
I finally got up and headed to my table too embarrassed to look up right off the bat, I said, “Hi, my name is Bella, what can I get you to drink tonight?” The female answered “Nothing for me, thank you.” The male started to say “I would like a...” I froze in place, I knew that voice. There is no freaking way, I am not hearing this! I have gone mad. I couldn't help myself and looked up. Noticing I was not breathing at this very moment I tried to turn to just walk away. As I turned I couldn't see anything but darkness.
“Bella are you ok?” “Can you hear me, hon?” “Maybe we should call an ambulance…” my boss stated nervously.
“What happened?” I asked.
“Well we don't know. A couple at your table yelled for someone to come and see if you were alright and then they left. Are you ok, Bella?” my boss asked.
“Umm – I think so.” I said still unsure of what happened.
“Dear, I think you fainted. Maybe you should go home. I will try to find someone else to take your shift, ok?”
“Umm, no. I think I'm fine. If it's alright with you, I would like to stay.”
“Are you sure, Bella?” My boss asked again.
“Yes I'm sure.” I replied absent-minded. What did just happen? I don't know if I could even answer that question myself. I really think it's time I go and see a psychiatrist though. There is no way I just saw the man of my dreams (literally) sitting in front of me. I dare not to say a word of what just happened. I will for sure be the crazy lady across town for that one. So, what is my story then? Oh, this one is simple. ”Uh - I just got light headed, that’s all.” That's believable. I finished work easily except for spilling a few drinks which I thought was pretty impressive for me. I punched my time card out and left.
On my way home I couldn't help but think about what had happened. The thought of him really sitting in front of me was fascinating. Of course I knew it wasn't real. Could it? No, that's just nonsense. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous though. The girl that was with him was very pretty. Short spiked hair, kind of pixie like. Well, if that's the kind of girl he likes I am way out of her league. Alright Bella Marie Swan, get a hold of yourself! Getting jealous over a girl that does not exist and let's not forget about the guy that also does not exist. Maybe it's time to get some sleeping pills and hope there are no more tantalizing dreams to keep from losing my job.
Who is that? She looks like me. The same boring brown eyes as mine, slender, but the face is a little different. I realized I was following her down the sidewalk. She had odd clothes on, something from another era it seems. Looking around I soon noticed that everyone around me were in the same kind of clothing. The woman wore long dresses that belled out, very sophisticated looking. The men wore suits with hats. I pressed on following this woman. It was as if I was stalking her so I was going to stop, but I didn't. Why was I not stopping? I soon realized as I was walking by others that I grew a few inches. She was too tall for it to be me. I walked into a diner and went straight towards the restroom. As I was doing so a man stopped me and said “Sir, I think you are going in the wrong one.” What! The man was apparently startled by this. So I went to the men's room and looked in the mirror. What the hell is going on? This figure in front of me was huge. Ok Bella, time to wake up! I started screaming. That woke me up – thank you, thank you, and thank you! Uh – well, no more pills for me. That just brings out the weird dreams.
Hm – so, now I am dreaming about being a huge freaky man. That psychiatrist thing is looking better and better by the minute. My boss thought it might be best for me to take a few days off. I was happy to oblige and after my latest psycho moment it was probably best. After I ate lunch I had a phone call. To my surprise, it was Jessica from high school. I was excited to hear from her although she seemed to be jealous of me. Why, I did not know, but we still talked off and on.
“Are you busy this weekend?”
“Um – yeah, actually. I have work. Why?”
“Well, I was thinking about coming back to visit. I thought we could hang out on Friday. But if you’re working, I could come some other time. I'm really missing Forks.”
“Um, if you could wait one more weekend I can see if I can take that weekend off.”
“That would be great. So how have you been lately?”
“I've been good, a little bored since all of you have been gone though. Have you spoken to Angela or Mike at all?”
“Well, I heard that Angela was doing well, but she misses her family. Mike is on the college football team from what I know. Hey, something's come up, can I call you more towards next weekend?”
“Um, sure. Hey Jess – thanks for calling.”
“You’re welcome Bell. Talk to ya soon.”
“Ok, bye Jess.”
My weekend was over, which was not the worst thing. Time passed too slowly while alone in the house faced with my nightmares, so I was very happy to go back to work. Of course I also needed the money. There was money in the bank, but just enough to cover a few bills in case I got behind. I told my parents that I wanted to do this alone. I didn’t want any handouts. That's when I remembered my dad Charlie arguing with my mom that he didn't like this idea of leaving me alone. My mother of course knew I could handle it –my living with her told her that I could. So she persuaded Charlie by naming the facts,
“No Charlie, Bella is never going to know what it is like to take care of herself if we don't give her the space to let her show us that she can.” That was all it took; he knew better then to argue with her. He was very disgruntled by the fact that after all these years he was alone, he had to face the music now. But in the end he tends to trust her – again. So he just sighed and kissed her forehead. They looked so happy together; I was happy for them.
When I arrived at work that evening I asked my boss if there was a chance that I could get the next weekend off. “I can do that Bella if you tell me that you can work another double shift next Thursday for me.”
“It's just that Nicole will be gone out of town and I thought you might like to catch up on the days you lost.”
“Yes I do need to so yes I will work it.”
“Great, thanks Bella.”
“No problem, oh and thanks for next weekend.”
Work was a breeze for the rest of the week. Of course the occasional run of the mill trips to the floor and spilling something but good in the average. Tuesday I had off that next week, but I wanted to catch up on the time I lost so I worked that day too. Two more days and Jess would be here, I couldn't wait to see her. Although I had high hopes that there was not going to be any shopping involved, with Jess, shopping was definitely on the agenda. Anyway, hearing what she thought of college was going to be fun. Boys were also going to be a topic, I was sure.
It was Wednesday now and I had work again. While driving to work I felt goose bumps crawling on the back of my neck, I felt like I was being watched. I looked around and saw nothing. Great Bella, here you go with that crazy stuff again! Keep it cool, you don't want another scene at work. Work was the same as any other night, well except for that night last week....We won't talk about that though. Just at work, my boss was calling me “Bella, you have three tables, hun.”
“Thank you.” More and more guests were coming so I was quite busy, always starting with “Hi, my name is Bella, what can I get for you this evening?” That went on for another five tables then two more side by side. I walked to the first table and said the same line. As I was waiting for them to decide I looked at my next table to see how many I had. The same pixie like girl was there again.
This...is...not...happening... I am for sure going to lose my job this time. Keep it together Bells, It's not him with her, there's no way.
“Miss, did you hear me? Are you ok?” My table asked me. I was so not listening to them. This is starting to sound like a broken record. Get it together please.
“Yes I am so sorry what can I get you?”
I cannot believe I let Alice pressure me into helping her with the Fall Dance decor. To make up for it, she wanted to take me somewhere. I asked where to and she replied, “I’m not sure yet, but there is a place in the near future.”
“Alice, please tell me what you’re up to?” I asked starting to get annoyed.
“It's a restaurant. Although I’m not seeing clearly of why I’m supposed to take you there yet, but I will.” She replied amused by my stressed face. A restaurant, why on earth would we go to a restaurant? I'm not surprised by her odd behavior, but of all places… “We don't eat human food in case you have forgotten, dear little sister.”
“Edward please give me more credit than that. We’re not simply going for the food. There’s a much bigger picture for us going, I just can't see enough yet.”
“Well I hope it is much more interesting than this dance of yours.” I teased her a little.
“Hey, don't knock my dance or my decor!” she replied immediately.
“Oh how would I go on if I committed such a crime?” I answered back now a little satisfied that she was on temper.
“Edward Cullen, are you trying to hurt my feelings?” she tiptoed in front of me to get on eye level, nose wrinkled, brows knit.
“No of course not sis, I’m sorry Alice.” I surrendered, smiling at her.
“It's ok. I saw that you were just playing with me anyways so there.” She answered, drawing a chuckle. A slow song began to play, I thought about asking Alice to dance.
“Edward, I would love to. Let's go.”
Urgh!! “Alice, couldn't you have at least waited until I actually asked you to dance?”
“What's the fun in that? Besides, I’m bored. I wished Jasper could have come.”
“Alice, you know how hard it is for him to even survive one full day of school.”
“I know I just don't like leaving him behind. I don't know what I would do without him. Speaking of which, someday you will find someone that makes you happy, Edward.” She announced, seeing my reaction in my mind.
“Alice, I don't think you have heard me in the past. No one will ever replace Bella” I replied sourly with a sad edge.
“Oh Edward I know that, it's just that there has to be someone out there to at least make your days brighter. She doesn't have to take Bella's place, just help you survive day to day happy, why not Tanya?” She asked.
“I’m not having this discussion Alice.” I stated. Why can’t she understand?
“You know Edward; I would have loved to of met her. I feel that we would have been very close like sisters.” Alice said, now in thought.
“I don’t doubt that. You’re an exceptional person.” Sarcastically I added. “Who could not love you just the way you are?” rolling my eyes. She gasped poking me in my side. “Hey, I was just kidding with you Alice.” I laughed at her.
“He he he, I know that silly.” She giggled with me then turning to the door.
“Well, it's time, Edward.”
“Oh right a restaurant in which we will not be eating at. This should be fun.” I said with little enthusiasm.
“Hey, all I know is I’m supposed to be taking you there, that's it. So let's go and see what the fuss is over.”
"After you Alice, considering you know the way. By the way, I’m surprised – I couldn’t see anything. I can usually see what you are seeing, but this one is a blur to me.”
“Yeah, it is for me too.” She replied sighing. “All I see is the place and a waitress that is coming to our table.”
After ten minutes we arrived at the restaurant. Pulling up, I realized the name of the restaurant had Bella's name in it. I thought to myself how ironic that was. Not a big shock to me – I was used to having everything remind me of her. Two hundred years have gone by and still no one else will ever come close to her. If this was my punishment for not being able to save my love on that day then I would take it. Living without her for eternity was the worst punishment I could have received. A few seconds went by while I pondered on this. Then I put it in the back of my mind and said “Shall we?” Alice was still frustrated that she couldn’t see anything other then what she saw already. “Alice, I’m sure we will find out soon enough, let us go in and see what this is about.” The hostess was walking us to our table when Alice spoke up and said. “Miss, I’m sorry, but I would like to sit at that table over there if you don't mind.”
“Oh that’s fine, right this way, please.” We sat down and I asked Alice if she saw this and she replied yes.
“So should we order something and make it look good, Alice?”
“Well we should act like we’re on a first date I think. I won't order anything and seem shy and you order a coke or something. Then we will just talk. We might have to endure a few breadsticks.” The thought of having to eat human food made my stomach turn. In her haste Alice said, “The waitress is coming, so act normal.” As if I was not a pro at this already. I just put my head down, not intrigued by this whole thing.
“Oh, that poor girl, she’s very clumsy. Edward you missed that. The waitress just tripped over her own foot!”
“How interesting Alice.” my gaze still facing down at the table.
"Edward, don't be a prune!”
“Hi, my name is Bella. What can I get you to drink?” I froze with my head still down, unable to move. I knew that voice all too well.
“Nothing for me, thank you.” Alice said. Then the waitress turned to me and all I could get out was “I would like a....” Right before she fully turned to me, I caught a glimpse of her face. When she swirled so quickly I caught her scent. I sat straight up, harder than stone. Locked eyes with Alice, I could see through her mind what she was seeing in me. Shock, grief, every emotion played on my face all at once. Alice saw that she had seemed to pass out and caught her, she laid her down on the floor and yelled for someone to come and check to see if she was alright. Then Alice grabbed my hand and led me out the door.
“I’m so sorry Edward, if I would have seen this coming; we would have never come here.” Alice said, shocked about my reaction. It was apparent that Alice had no clue of the magnitude of what had just taken place. On the way home, Alice could see how distraught I was so she called Carlisle to have him meet us at the door. I just couldn't talk nothing was coming out. Nothing made sense. How after all this time is she really here? Does she remember me? I quickly put that to rest. Considering I was not sold on the idea that anyone could be reborn. At this point I think I will have to reconsider.
My Bella was here again, but how is this possible? I could hear Alice explaining what happened to Carlisle, but I could not speak yet. I was frozen in time. I replayed that entire moment in my head, then remembered the way she smelled to me. A human's blood has never smelled this way to me. I could feel that I was starting to lose it, knowing how I wanted to kill her instantly. Her fragrance was overwhelming. Why? How could I, would I hurt her like that? My throat had never felt this much intensity before. What am I going to do? How can I be around her again knowing what my instincts are telling me to do? But – she is my Bella, no doubt. Despair hit me so hard and I broke.
“Edward, please talk to me. Tell me what happened?” Carlisle asked. All I could get out was,
“Carlisle, can we go for a drive alone?” and I stressed the word alone.
“Yes son, let's go.” He simply replied and we both left without another word spoken.
When we finally left the drive way, he sped as fast as he could to get far enough away that no one in our family could hear us. We were about five miles out when I began to speak. “Carlisle, do you remember the story I told you once about what happened to me and Bella?” I trailed off for a moment.
“Yes.” He answered softly, still willing to listen and eager to get an idea of what I was talking about.
“What if I told you that your belief in reincarnation could very well be possible?”
“Edward, forgive me son, but I’m not following.” Carlisle wondered.
“Alice gave you her version of what happened tonight, but it was much more than that. Carlisle, I saw my Bella at that restaurant! I wanted to take her in my arms and never let go, but I froze at the sound of her voice.” Without giving my father a chance to get a word in I started to explain the thirst that had almost killed her.
“Edward, if you feel you must leave us for a while to sort this out with yourself you have my blessing.” Carlisle finally suggested after he thought it through for a while. That was a perfect idea. I had to clear my head before seeing her again. “Will you tell everyone I said Goodbye for now? I don't know how long I will be gone.”
“I can do that, son, you take all the time that you need, ok? I do hope however that you won't be gone long.” He tried reassuring himself.
“I will try”, I said to him. “Carlisle, can you and the family do me a favor?”
“Yes anything son, what is it?”
“Can you look out for her while I am away?”
“Of course we will Edward. Do you know where you will go to?”
“No, not really, but I will call to let you know if Alice doesn't see it first.”
“Do you want me to drive you anywhere?”
“No, you just let me out here. I need some air anyways.” I said since I felt that a good run would help to clear my mind.
“Ok, we will see you soon then son.”
“Goodbye son.” He finally said before he drove off.
I ran about three hundred miles. I didn’t want anything to remind of Forks so I could clear my head. When I finally stopped, I was hoping I was close to the Denali's. I wouldn’t be bothered there. I realized I had not reached my destination quite yet. So I stopped and sat down and thought for a while on how I should handle this. This is my Bella I am talking about here so not going back is not an option. I would go back, time is what I needed. Could I go back without harming her? Standing right next to my Bella and knowing that I could control myself with her blood arousing and taunting me. Just thinking of her scent sent me into frenzy at that very moment. This was going to keep me away for a while. Contemplating my next move, I finished my journey to the Denali's. As I arrived I noticed Tanya and her family were at the door waiting for me which told me that Alice had seen where I was headed. Now her vision’s wanted to work properly. I swear her visions sometimes worked backwards.
I spent most of the next few days out running the landscape. My thoughts were running just as fast as my body. Tanya tried to talk to me about what was wrong with me. After all this time she still would not let go of her feelings for me. Although I have made it very clear to her many times that I was not interested. None the less I dealt with her. It was now the next Tuesday and I felt that I had come to the conclusion that I could no longer run from my problems. I loved Bella too much to stay away any longer. This time I could make sure she would stay safe. That was it – I had to go back and keep her safe. Even if my new Bella wanted nothing to do with me, I would keep her safe. I knew how her aroma would affect me now; I was hoping that I could handle it this time around. Maybe getting just close enough to get used to her scent so I could become accustomed to it if that was even possible.
When I arrived back at home my family was waiting for me. Again, Alice must have seen me coming. We sat down as a family at the dining room table where all of our gatherings took place. In the end, I decided to go back to the restaurant and try this again. Alice was unsure of this. I asked her why and she replied, “Well, if you don't recall Edward – she seemed to be just as shocked as you.”
“Yes, I do remember that, now.” How strange that I did not remembered this detail? Now, she had me intrigued. So it was set than: Wednesday, Alice and I would go back. Alice swore that she would try to keep her mind open so she could see what would happen. It was about seven thirty that night when Alice and I had left for Port Angeles to the restaurant. “Edward, try not to be so tense. It will not help your current situation any, you know. I’ll try to break the ice for you if you want my help. All you have to do is ask me.” Seeing her smile and the anticipation she also had for this moment helped a little. We arrived at the restaurant and walked in. Alice asked for a specific area to be seated at of course she saw what section she would have.
“Alice, I’m not seeing anything yet. Have you cleared your mind at all?” She could see how tense I was now so she replied soothingly, trying to let me understand.
“Edward, I don't understand this. I have never had this much trouble trying to see anyone. Maybe it's just her I can't see. But – it’s no science, you know? Please be patient.” I pondered this for a few seconds when I heard Alice telling me that she was at the table behind us. Considering I had already held my breath, I couldn’t smell her coming.
“Alice, how does she seem?”
“Well I was about to say fine except that she just looked my direction, completely stunned and then she looked at me with a little bit of jealousy on her face. Oh how cute – she thinks I’m your girlfriend!”
“Alice, please just let me know when to expect her coming ok?” I was about to become impatient.
"Any moment now, prepare yourself.” Alice replied a few seconds later in a low voice. I hope I can do this. Please let me be able to do this.
After looking over to their table, I realized I was shaking. I could feel my face getting heated. “Is that all the drinks you need?” I said to the present table I was standing at.
“Yes, miss. Thank you.” Stepping back, I pretended I was writing something on my notepad. Knowing full well that my next advance should be to go and get their drink order. I can do this. I reciprocated those words again and again in my head. Don't be silly Bella; just pretend it's another couple sitting there. For a fraction of a second I glanced over to their table and caught a peek of the pixie like girl. My body’s reaction to this was to simply walk away. Ok, that didn't work at all. Now what am I going to do? I started to fill the other customer's drinks as Nicole had come over to me and said “Bella, do you not see the over flowing drinks in front of you?”
“Oh crap!” I broke from my thoughts.
“Is there something wrong?” She asked.
“No, nothing at all really, I-I Just…” Then a thought occurred to me. I pulled Nicole closer to me and asked if she could do me a huge favor.
“Yeah sure, what is it?”
“Well, I don't feel comfortable with two customers that I have. Do you think you could take that table for me and I will take one that you don't want sometime tonight?”
“Well, I suppose I could.” She replied, not knowing what to make of it. Before I knew it, I was overly thanking her.
“Hey Bells, calm down. What did they say or do to you, geez?” she asked solicitously.
“Um, I really don't want to talk about it. But thank you so much – you’re a life saver.”
“Alright – which one is it?”
“They’re at table five. The girl kind of looks pixie like, with short spiky hair.” I pointed.
“Are you kidding me Bella, why on earth would you not want that table?” she asked after she shortly checked them over. I was perplexed at her attitude towards me. “What do you mean, Nicole?”
“That guy is so hot! I will definitely take that table. I think I might order something myself tonight.” She teased.
“Nicole, what on earth are talking about now?” She giggled, “Him to go, please.”
“What? Can't a girl dream?” And she was off. She just had to say that one measly word didn't she, dream, which is where all this started from in the first place…
“Miss…miss, Bella was it, right? Can we please get our drinks we ordered?
“I'll be right there, sorry!” I replied automatically – this entire situation is going to ruin my whole night. Bet I don't get a tip from that table. They must think I'm crazy. I kept my eyes on the table I was serving as I took them their drinks. “I’m so sorry it took so long.” I apologized with the typical eyelash playing. Here is where a small white lie comes into play. “The pop dispenser was giving me some problems.” I could tell by the way the man was looking at me that I was still a terrible liar.
“Hey, Bella? Nicole called.
“Yeah?” I said while coming towards her. “What's up?”
“Looks like you’re stuck with Mr. Handsome over there.” She said a little frustrated.
“What! No I can't do it. Why?” I asked her with this strange feeling that you get in your stomach when you get bad news. She shrugged “They asked specifically for you. Have fun, he seems really agitated about something.” Well I guess I had no choice. Ok, breathe Bella, breathe. You can do this. Just walk over there and take charge. Yeah right, that simple, huh. Well here goes nothing.As I walked slowly to their table I realized my palms were sweaty. I pressed them on top of my mini apron and grabbed my note pad and pencil making sure that I was as far away from him as possible and not facing him. I went around their table and faced pixie girl. Looking down, I introduced myself. As if I needed to – it was obvious they knew my name already.
“Um, hi my name is Bella, what can I get for you to drink this evening?” The pixie girl said “Nothing for me, thank you.” I sighed, which sounded a little bit too loud. “And you sir?”
“I will have a coke, please.” As he spoke with that angelic voice I accidently put my pencil out of business. It snapped in half. He spoke once more. “Bella, please call me Edward.”
I burst out something I never should have said. “Is this some kind of sick joke?” facing him now. “You look like him and your name happens to be the same as his too.” At that moment I professed my insanity, realizing what I just said out loud. I buried my face in my hands and took a deep breath and said “I am so sorry sir; I don't know what that was. What I just said, I honestly didn't mean it.” All the while I was hoping to hear his voice one more time. Although he may have some choice words for me given the random outburst I just had towards him.
“Bella, is everything alright here?” My boss asked. I was clueless as to what I should say to him. Well I just went off on some of your customers for no apparent reason so I guess I'm fired Huh. Nope, that won't do. Yep, I’m still clueless. Pixie girl spoke up and said, “No there isn't a problem, Bella here was just exploring her sanity and let me tell you, it was hilarious. Edward, we may have to keep coming here.” Her laughter sounded like chimes.
“Alright then, have a good evening.” He said as he turned back to his place. Pixie girl just saved me from almost losing my job. Great, now I have to apologize and say thank you for saving my butt.
“Again, I am really sorry for all of that and thank you for not getting me fired.”
“Pleasure is all mine Bella.” She answered smiling at me. Wow, did they both have to have such beautiful voices.
“May I introduce you to my sister Alice, Bella?” Pixie girl has a name does she? Wait, did he say sister? Now I seriously felt like a fool.
“Well, it’s nice to meet you, Alice.”
“It’s so nice to meet you as well.” The angelic voice said.
“So, you don’t seem to be a good liar Bella.” Edward stated as one side of his mouth creased almost into a smile. Oh, how I would love to hear him say my name like that all time.
“Well, no not really. “I confessed.
“Would you care to explain what you meant by ‘I look like him and have the same name as him, please?” He asked the dangerous question. I was stunned. All I could come up with was...“I’d rather not talk about it, if you don't mind.” My heart melted as I gallingly gazed into his brilliant eyes. “I can accept that answer – for now.” He said as his eyes were melting all the way to my core right then. I was utterly speechless. Clearing my throat, I managed to get out, “Is there anything I can get you for dinner, besides the drinks I still haven't brought you?” I asked them while looking embarrassed.
“No thank you” Edward stated.
“Alright, I’ll be back in a moment with your drink sir, I mean Edward. Sorry it's a forced habit.” He just smiled as though he was seeing something that he had lost, sort of a puppy dog look. I walked away looking to make sure I didn’t have any other tables besides the two I had already. I was relieved to see that I only had the two. I was hoping this would be a slow night as opposed to wanting many when I started earlier this evening. Time to think is what I needed now. My first table’s food was up. Please do not let me drop this in front of him. Yes, I made without a problem. “Here you are sir, one T-bone with baked potato and no veggies and for you a wonderful grilled chicken breast with asparagus and no potato. Is there anything else I can get you?” What was that? Wonderful grilled chicken breast. Huh, I must be on a natural high. Too much excitement for one evening I think.
"No, that will be all, thank you.”
“Bella, you can take your break if you want, we're really slow.” My boss said.
“Um, Nicole can take hers if she wants. I’ll take mine in a bit.”
“Bella, you’re off in an hour and a half. If you want to wait for yours, you might as well just punch out after your last table leaves.” He suggested then.
“Are you sure?” I asked back, surprised.
“Yeah, just do that. I don't think I'll need you both here considering how slow it is tonight.” I was ecstatic to hear those words. Well, I better go and see if Edward and pixie girl, oh I mean Alice need anything else.
"Is there anything else I can do for you tonight?” I asked them.
“No, no thank you”, he said. “We were just leaving.” Without thinking first, I said. “Will we see you two again soon?” He stood up and faced me and said, “I wouldn't miss it for the world, my sweet Bella.” My body couldn't withstand the sensation that went through me when he spoke to me with that voice. Next thing I knew, he was holding me up. My legs were buckling beneath me.
“Are you alright Bella?” he asked me.
“Um, yeah, I think so.” I could feel how perfectly his hand held the small part of my back as he held his other hand behind my head. It felt like we just finished dancing the way he cradled me in his arms. The sweet smell of his skin took my breath away. I knew that was not any cologne I had ever smelled. He looked deep into my eyes and said, “Bella, are you sure that you are alright?” with a hint of a smile on his face.
“Yes, I'm fine – why?”
“Well, you don't seem to want to move at all so I started to think you didn’t want to leave my arms.”
“Oh, I am so sorry.” I shot up quickly after he stated the obvious, blushing.
"No need to be sorry, Bella.” He whispered in my ear softly and added, “Truth be told, I didn’t want you to leave my arms.” I whispered back “Will I see you again?” He replied, “I will be here tomorrow night and each and every night after, that is of course if you want me too.” I think I barely whispered
“No need to beg, Bella. I am more than willing to oblige. I will see you tomorrow then.”
“Um, yes.” The school girl in me couldn’t say much else.
"Goodbye, Edward.” As he turned away, my body went into a frenzy of sorts. I couldn't comprehend the way I was reacting. Very quickly, I had another face in front of me.
“Bella, I think we are going to become close friends one of these days. Don't you want to see me again too?” Alice asked me clearly teasing. I couldn't turn down that sad look on her face and said,
“Yes Alice, I would also like to see you again.” I felt that her assumption was correct. I could see how we could be good friends although she didn't seem to be anything like me, but I could still see it.
“Great, I'll see you tomorrow then.” She replied with excitement in her eyes, grinning wide.
“Alice?” Edward called her.
“I’m going solo tomorrow night.” He stopped her.
“That's not fair Edward, she likes me too!” she replied, sulking.
“You can come with me on Friday, ok?”
“I'll take what I can I suppose.” Alice replied with a sigh.
“Oh shoot.” I said, before I realized I said it out loud.
“What is it?” Edward asked me. “I just remembered something. I really hate to say this, but I have to
work a double shift tomorrow night which means I probably won't be able to chit chat with you much. And Friday I have a high school friend that is visiting from college coming that I made plans with. So if it's alright with the both of you, can we make plans on Saturday instead?” I explained.
“Bella, you don’t have to make excuses, if you don't really want us around. We will stay away if that is what you want.”
“No, that's really not it at all. I really don't want you wasting your time coming here tomorrow if I won't have time to talk to you. I really did make plans already for Friday and I would hate to break them considering she is coming from out of state.”
“Here’s my cell number.” Edward then replied, sounding released. “Why don't you call when it is most convenient for you? We can talk about Saturday.”
“I hope to hear from you soon.”
“And you will.” Oh, that was just stupid of me. How lame could I be! “I guess this is good bye then.”
“Yes, goodbye Bella.” And then they were gone. I heard someone clearing his throat behind me. When I turned my boss was standing there. With a big grin, he smiled up at me and said, “Your table has now left my lady. You may now leave as well and kiss your prince.” His laughter filled the room. I blushed with irritation and embarrassment and then asked. “Did you hear everything?”
“Just the tail end of it. I'm sorry for eavesdropping, but I have never seen you so love stricken before. It was kind of comical in a way.”
“Oh, is that supposed to make me feel better?” I asked, upset.
“I'm sorry Bella; I was just trying to get a rise out of you, my mistake.” He surrendered. Huh, I just told my boss off and he was telling me he was sorry. What is happening to me? My whole world has turned upside down, or in this case I think it might be safe to say right side up.
“Go home Bella, it's getting late.” He finally said while getting back into the restaurant. Alright, so I punched out and trickled to my truck. In awe of the night’s events that had unfolded around me, I spit out a laugh when I thought of this. My dreams have become reality and my reality has become my dreams. This is going to be very.... complicated.
Please Comment...Thank you, D :)
OMG!!! Awesome, D!!! Can't wait for the new update!!!!
Great Chapter! What is happening to Bella? Please update soon!
Thanks. You shall soon see my dear, lol. Updating tonight.
You are very welcome sweetie. Yeah, that was a bit different with Felix in the way. Oh Carlisle will so don't worry about that.
Chapter sixteen, part Two
I didn’t want Edward to disappear with Alice, my stomach felt achy. The way he held me so intimately yet with an iron grip, confining the both of us in our own bubble, made me feel as if this would be the last time I would see him. Esme was delighted that her and I would be able to spend some time alone, so I managed, although I was miserable; I put a fraudulent smile on my face when we left the house. Despite the fact that I wanted to go, I felt monotonous as we drove to the old house. When we finally reached our destination and got out of the car, my stomach had become unsettling even more. I explained to Esme that I didn’t think that I could go back in yet. Sensing that I was uncomfortable, Esme agreed; she then expressed that maybe we could look on the outside and see what I may want done, then we could go back to the barn. I consented to the idea – we inspected the porch that was falling apart and I contemplated what a wraparound porch would look like aloud. Esme insinuated that she too loved the idea very much. When we walked around the back of the house, I began to get goose bumps, resembling the feeling of someone watching you. Esme also picked up on the altered state of mind I was in and asked what was wrong, but I shrugged it off telling her that I was just thinking on some ideas for the place. I kept getting that tingling feeling up my spine like when it feels like someone was watching you; I didn’t want to alarm Esme so I kept it to myself.
We went into detail of what the outside needed, and then I caught a glimpse of a spacious area that I thought would be perfect for a flower garden in the back so I pressed Esme on whether or not she would like to put one in, but of course she was elated by this becoming exceedingly content. I was relieved – even I liked the idea, I didn’t want to push Esme into anything she wouldn’t like. But I was happy that she was hooked with this new project. I saw her garden at her house – and even a bad copy of this would be so lovely.
About an hour went by, and we almost had designed where the flowers and the makeshift bridge would be. I was excited how Esme placed the flowers in her mind, what lovely little details she put in – amazing. She even thought of some place for remembering my family – a quiet place like a Japanese stone garden, but with key parts of my family, like a place Nathaniel would have loved, or a bench similar to the one my parents liked. I was touched by these thoughts and loved the place already.
We went then to the barn for Esme and Alice’s idea of a club area. It was an old barn that needed to be replaced with a new one, except some part from the inside to give it an authentic flair, so Esme enjoyed the concept of this and began laying out the designs for me to choose from. Eventually, my stomach started to growl, sending Esme into a giggle. “Maybe we should go back for lunch, dear.” she announced. As we left out of the barn, Esme crouched instantly with a growl that I did not know existed from her in behalf of the fact that I just saw her as a great mother. In a panic, I pleaded with her to tell me what was wrong while I simultaneously wanted Edward with me. Esme pushed me back, almost making me fall over, and then out of nowhere Esme was gone. I had no emotions - I couldn’t feel anything but shock. I heard Esme screaming for someone to let me go – but I was not aware that anyone had me. Then I heard a laugh and I knew who it was: the man from my dreams. I went numb and all I could see was his face, grinning from ear to ear. I could barely make out what he was saying to me. I felt paralyzed; I couldn’t move an inch. All of a sudden he grabbed a hold of me and pulled me towards the forest. I looked over to Esme and she looked as though she wanted to cry. She was screaming in agony for me, but I could not hear her. I knew what was about to happen and all I could think about was Edward and how I would never get to say goodbye.
This was the scene I remembered from one of my nightmares.
I knew I was powerless to stop this from happening, so I chose to accept my fate once more, now knowing that I will see my love in another lifetime, hoping at the same time that he will find me again. So I closed my eyes, waiting for it to be over. I started to be able to hear this monster telling me that he wished I would stop coming back, then I felt an excruciating pressure on my neck and the pain became worse. I felt like he was purposely trying to drain me of every drop of my blood. I couldn’t see anything – eventually I felt like I was flying in the air and then felt a hard thump. My body started to feel this heat radiating through my veins, then all I could feel was my body shaking uncontrollably.
I carried the whole of my existence into the house with my family behind me. The sorrow I heard from them made my head spin. All were expressing the pain they felt of losing Bella the way we did. We were all taking some blame for this. Bella was still lashing out while I felt as though I had lost her forever. I could not think clearly when I felt a rush of calmness come over me –Jasper was helping. Although I welcomed his help, I did not want it; if Bella had to go through this I would too.
Politely I asked Jasper to stop, without looking away from Bella. In confusion he did as I asked, but I had no patients to explain this to him. I laid Bella down on our bed, removing most of the covers with only pillows to rest her head. The covers would not help with the constant flow of burning she would have if she could feel them. My family was all wrapped around the bed, hoping that this would dissipate even just a little. Their thoughts became distorted to me, they were all meshed together. On some level there pain was real, although not near as deep as mine. Alice blamed herself with Emmett and Jasper wishing they had gotten there faster. While Esme was clearly heartbroken that she was forced to watch it unfold and was not strong enough to stop it. Her thoughts revealed Bella’s last human moments. Everyone then shuttered at what sounded like a fierce deep howling coming from within me. They all stood silent, I took a deep breath and felt my body shiver to the bone. I turned to Esme and pleaded with her not to think of what happened there when she rushed out of the room, realizing that it was her thoughts that rendered me a monster a few moments ago. I did not have the strength to follow after her and leave Bella’s side; Carlisle knew this and walked out along with Rose.
Bella shook uncontrollably, screaming in agony, while I isolated myself from everyone. I laid her in my arms in the center of the bed, trying to comfort her, numb from the shock of this. While doing so, I witnessed more changes that shouldn’t be happening so quickly – her skin had already remarkably changed to a solid smooth chalk tone, her heart was beating like an engine from a Mississippi steamboat, and her strength was growing almost by every minute.
Emmett, Jasper and Alice all stood near us, unable to explain to them how this was happening so fast. Carlisle came back in the room to check on her and he also had no words to explain this phenomenon. I lightly brushed her hair back behind her neck and laid my hand on her cheek, pleading with her to give me any sign that she could hear me, but nothing; no gestures or any understandable word came from her. Emmett had to intervene meanwhile to help keep her still, she was already very strong. Looking at Carlisle now, saddened by this, I asked if he thought she would make it through this, considering the severity of it. He reassured me that he believed she would make it. Another question was raised then: “Carlisle, how can you be so sure of this?” I asked him, wondering about my own voice – flat, rough and full or sorrow, my questioning was almost not understandable.
“Son there are a lot we need to discuss when this has passed, but please believe me when I say she will be fine.” Carlisle said, looking me in the eyes to ensure that I understood that he was very serious.
Again I had no strength to have a conversation so I let it go for now. Bella’s body had gone into a convulsion that I did not think anyone could survive; the way it had twisted out of our grip was unimaginable when her eyes flew open. I had seen this color in her eyes before and I knew what was about to happen. No one saw it coming and everyone was in fear, screaming in their minds for someone to stop this. My only fear was that I knew it came with much pain if it had gotten too far. I could see everyone in my view but Esme and Rose, although I could hear them. We were all in a frozen state that I did not know when and if we would come out of it if at all. As strong as Emmett was, he was also powerless to stop it. Jasper discovered that he could not change the behavior of what this was. Alice could not see it coming.
My head was lifted just enough to see my family frozen and to visually see Bella still in my arms. Her body was still severely being battered right to left and there was nothing I could do to help her. The dead silence we were being made to endure, made Bella’s screams that much more horrifying to listen to. Her eyes were completely covered with this white film more so now than before. My bedroom walls were mostly that of window panes, so I could tell the change in time. We had been solid for a few hours now and Rose and Esme were screaming for our help, not knowing that we were in the same situation. I then noticed that Bella’s change had gone into a level of utter despair, the pain was immeasurable to anyone else’s.
That is when I began to feel small amounts of pain inside myself. The compact pressure was almost intolerable. My mind was racing to deal with the fact that she could harm us all at any given moment now. My family…they were…pleading for it to stop for whoever it was doing this to them. It was all overwhelming, the pressure became stronger and I feared us all dead, including Bella. I looked at her angelic face and in my mind I told her that I loved her dearly, hoping that she could hear me at the same time letting her know that I will not blame her for the death of us all. I wanted so badly to hold her tight and close my eyes and leave this world with her, when her body went limp in my arms, the shaking of her body stopped. The deep gasp of air that came out of her was nothing short of one’s last breath. I feared there was no hope to save her when we were all spared such tragic deaths ourselves at that moment. And then we were free again.
Esme and Rose were up the stairs. Everyone at once started begging to know what that was and who did it. Jasper and Emmett were gone to check the perimeter of the house, not knowing all the while that it was Bella. Everyone else stood around the bed in fear that it may happen again, while I was begging once again to the heavens not to take her from me. My outcry was too much for them to bear so my mother and sisters walked out while Carlisle was with Bella at once.
“Son you have to let her go.” He said, softly speaking to me.
“I WILL NEVER LET HER GO!” I growled at him with much force in my throat.
“Son, she is still here, I did not mean she was gone. I need to check her, can you please let go of her for a moment please?” Carlisle begged.
With those words spoken, I calmed enough to allow myself a second to listen for her heartbeat. With much relief it was still beating, but very slow and with enormous depth at every beat. Confused by this, I asked my father how that could be.
“Edward, I have no answers to these questions.” He answered as he looked her over thoroughly.
No one had any explanation as to how or why this was happening to Bella. The circumstances of her change had never been seen before or at least by any of us.
Emmett and Jasper were heading to our room when I heard them commenting amongst themselves of no scent around the house. I found that I could not speak a word to anyone again. My mind was shut off from reality while I began to lie next to Bella. Her change had deferred itself for the time being, her face was that of an angel on earth. She was still my Bella but ever more beautiful than before. She looked at peace; I slowly traced the shape of her face with my hand curled. Carlisle decided he would stay alongside me in the room in case there would be a sudden change with her well-being.
All I could do was smile at her then my mind kept showing me flashbacks of Bella in our meadow. I almost felt as I were there, standing around the flowers Bella motioned for me to come to her. I was drawn to her and this memory. I heard my family, especially Carlisle trying to speak to me trying to keep me with him but it was an effortless decision to make. I went to Bella not looking back although I loved them dearly, I could not say no to Bella. When I finally reached her, she took my hand and I knew then that this was not just a thought or a dream but real. Bella walked me to our tree then we sat, I began realizing how sunny it was here, looking down at my skin I noticed no shimmering. Was this real or not, I could not decide. Bella raised my head to focus on her then she spoke with a calm voice telling me that she would be fine also that she felt no pain. I was relieved by this then she told me that I needed to go back to talk to Carlisle. What! How does she know this, an explanation would have been good but she then pulled me to her and kissed me gently. All of a sudden I felt my body floating backwards and I could not control it, then she was gone.
When I got the call from Vidal, I was shocked. How could this happen? They lost the trace of Felix! Why hadn’t I left earlier?! Well, ok, there was hardly a chance, and it looked quite ok so far. I simply cut Vidal off – I needed to call Edward- NOW!
He picked up the phone after the second ring and I heard Alice screaming – not good. “Edward, we have a serious problem.” I started, but was then cut off by the yelling of Alice. “What’s wrong Edward?” I asked, but I knew already – Alice could see Felix attacking.
“Alice see’s Esme and Bella getting attacked!” Edward spit out, and then he hung up. He had not wasted much time. Esme and Bella, were they alone? How could I help there? I called Emmett and Jasper – they already got a call from Edward and were heading to the place. They just knew that there was an attack – I briefly told them about Felix and the other guy, and that I would go home then to be ready for whatever support was needed – having Emmett there was all they needed to handle Felix, and I would not be there in time.
So I headed to my car and drove home, thinking about the possibilities. The worst thing was that the attack could cost Bella her life if they are not there in time. Esme was able to defend herself, which I was sure about. I arrived without notice – all of a sudden, I was at home.
I just went in – nobody was there. Then I heard a car screeching towards the house. As I went out, Alice and Edward arrived, with Bella – bitten. I started to become numb inside – the worst thing has not happened, but this was – hm, was still bad though? I tried to say my sorry, but Edward was not able to respond – of course. I thought about the best time to speak with him, but when I saw his reaction to Esme, I thought that he would need some time to absorb the new situation. I went after Esme – she was horrified, but I knew that she had not too much reason to feel like this. “Esme – wait.” I asked her as she headed to her garden – her own refuge to find some peace whenever she needed to do so. She slowed, but did not stop. I took my place beside her at her preferred bench, and explained briefly that she does not need to worry – it WILL be good after all, as long as the change will happen.
We came back to the house then – Esme was still not able to face Edward again, so she went to Rose. I was – curious I would say. Seeing Bella here, hearing the powerful beat of her heart – I was now confident that she would be fine. Still, I was worried – even when I KNEW that this was somehow her destiny, nobody told me that her change was that different from everything I knew. I SAW it, but it was too weird to believe it. Nevertheless, Edward was in despair – he does not need another weak person right now beside himself. So I told him briefly about my confidence regarding Bella – and he of course was not satisfied. As he asked me about the reasoning behind my thoughts, he sounded more like a rough old Studebaker then like himself – hm, he was more beside himself then I thought.
“Son there are a lot we need to discuss when this has passed, but please believe me when I say she will be fine.” I said, looking him straight in the eyes to ensure that he understood that I was very serious and confident in this. I wanted to continue with the explanation – but he just bought it and was again focused on Bella.
I wanted to get his attention again and went to the bed – at least I TRIED to do so. I – I was frozen! What was this? Even when I panicked in the first moment, expecting an attack, unable to follow my instinct, to crunch, I then saw that we were all in the same frozen state. Bella had her eyes open – a strange milky shine on then, a bit like Aro’s. I felt very strange with this.
Hm, so, this is her then – this was the only logical explanation. At least my mind was ok – so far. Think, Carlisle, THINK! What can we do to bring her out of that state? I remembered what Edward told me about the last time – it seemed that she reacted by emotions – and it seemed like she had no control over them. Oh no – going through a change has quite an unrestricted balance of emotion.
Since there was nothing I could do but think, I thought about the myth again, and what this meant for us, for Edward. It just came back into my mind that The Registrar had said that he has his part in this too. But what will be his part? OK, besides the obvious – he does love Bella – so, hm, could he be some sort of prince? Will they run a castle? What are we then – still family, or royal household and what about Aro then? He tried so hard to avoid this outcome so he would not be amused. What will he do? What can he do?
While thinking, I was not aware what happened around me, but eventually I felt – PAIN! The pressure was becoming unbearable and then it was gone.
First, I was a bit disoriented, but then I saw how miserable Edward was, so I went over to him, to Bella, to check her. Edward misunderstood that – he thought I would do some harm to her. So I explained that I need to check her, and as he left me some space, I made a quick examination. Her skin – hm, vampire, but as well not REALLY – she had still some – color, she was not too cold as well. Her face: still, calm now, but her eyes still not steady, rolling, color – hm, permanently changing? That was strange….
However – her heart beat was still there – slow, but strong. Edward noticed this as well and asked. “Edward, I have no answers to these questions.” I answered, while continuing my checkup.
We had still no real explanation – at least I haven’t heard about anything like this. But – I never heard about a human that was murdered and came back, again and again. So what was normal anymore?
Bella was – relaxed I would say, so Edward relaxed too…good. “Edward, can you please get me my bag?” I asked him – I wanted to check Bella’s eye reflexes.
This was when I realized that Edward – was not just relaxed; he was in a, hm, I would name it trance-like state, or as in a coma. There was no reaction from him – beside a strange smile. Both Bella and Edward were somehow frozen now, not moving, not reacting. I was worried – and it helped not much that Alice came in, screaming about “Come back Edward!” She told me that she saw Edward as a lost, frozen body, motionless, numb, and not reacting to anything. Well – that we had right in front of us.
We tried to get something out of him, to move him, but he was hard as rock, the only thing showing that he was alive was not his breathing (he had stopped this as well), but his smile.
It was almost midnight, when he slowly started to become himself again; when he opened his eyes eventually, he said “Bella is in no pain Carlisle. Everything will be alright.”
Well, yes? I was wondering – we SAW that she was alive! He then explained that he was with her in their meadow, and that she explained that he can now join her in her places too.
This was when I asked him to follow me – I needed to explain the myth to him, to the family. He agreed, and we were about to go downstairs, as a yell come from Bella: “They are coming!”
Thank, D! That was fast! lol Can't wait for what will happen next. :)
I was reading – I just got an old script from Egypt, telling me the latest (well at this time) version about Ka, the old Egyptian vampire. Interesting that the people knew about him – even if they put him in the role of the Chi like the Chinese and Asian people did. But still, the connection to blood needed to bring people back was close enough.
As I wanted to turn to the next side all of a sudden a shock began running through my body – an experience I haven’t believed to get. My head turned numb, cleared by everything I was thinking about, listening with joy to the sweetest telling ever:
“I am here.”
I read about this, yes, but the first-hand experience… this was different. I should have been prepared though – haven’t I spoke with Carlisle just a few days ago? And – THIS was the strange part about this. Why on earth could I get The Call that early…?
It was told in my books, from the very first days on, that there will be a true leader of us, and that only he (or she) can use The Call to broadcast to their subjects. The Call will reach us, wherever we are – hm, not that we are that many in the meantime. It was said that only the old ones, meaning the vampires older then about 1.500 years (now the era called as “BC”), meaning the experienced ones, the ones familiar with the old traditions, created by the very rare old family of the founder of our kind (the old Cain and Abel story), have the ability to receive The Call. And, well, I just knew a few of us. And I knew the reason for being that few.
We killed each other – there was a war, long time ago, where we fought, seeking the truth, meaning to have the right to decide whether we or they shall rule our world. It was in those days that I started my little collection of stories and myths about us – mainly caused by that one story, telling about the True Leader, or as well named The Grail, at this time open on the specifics, but already with the telling of peace, of change. I, as others, believed that this was a story that told us we would be then forgiven for the murdering of Abel, that we would be able to return to “normal life”, whatever this would be.
The others, well, they were not happy about this, they tried to erase every single source of that myth, they were afraid that they would lose their power, their influence.
It was then that the few of us believing decided to help each other, to hide each other, whenever there was a need for this. Well, ok, we had our powers, our abilities – but you cannot stand alone against furious fighters, coming in waves to kill you.
The luck in that was, however you can call it like this, that the others fought against each other too, to keep their position, their power, to enlarge it even. So, they were not that much interested in us, as long as we made not a riot about the myth.
In the meantime the story was told that the True Leader is supposed to be a woman, a girl actually, and they went out to kill this girl – this part of the story I told Carlisle already.
I was curious – well, I knew about the existence of Bella, my old hermit Cernunnos of course who was with me in those days knew it as well and will know how to contact me, and at least one other should be still out there – Hildr, my cold partner from the North, known to mankind as a Valkyrie, and still out there to fight and to love. I would not be able to find her, but I was quite sure that she got The Call herself, and since the rumor was told that she can locate the source of The Call, she will be on her way anyway.
This was on my Pro – side.
The Con side – hm. The others will get The Call too – but they should know meanwhile that it will be too late to fight Bella, since it was obvious that the myth had been fulfilled.
Well – this will be an interesting week then – I headed up to my rooms to prepare my travel to Carlisle. While preparing, I got a call “Hello, Temujin. It’s me, Cernunnos. Have you got it, too?”
A day passed. Another one…
I was more or less in a permanent daydream, encapsulating myself from the outside world, just barely moving when there was a need for doing so (the last was for hiding myself into the deeper part of my cave, when the humans tried to make party down here; good that they are not able to move the stone that I use now as my capstone). However – the daydreaming was meaningless, but this clear vision trumped over all else before it, with it came the most serene and peaceful voice.
I was shocked.
I was frozen.
I was – about to move, again, with a given focus of what to do. Man, my bones were almost fixed – this is how old humans must feel their age. I need to feed – good that it was daytime out there, and visitors were there as well. It was feeding time.
The two old ladies will not be missed I hope – I took them aside, showing them the hidden places. Hidden was only MY place actually. But they were brave and faded out before they could start the crying. I was fair to them as well; I was sure that they had not much pain. Still – I was sad after that, but what could I do? I needed to be at my powers. There was this guy, looking for treasures, was a nice bonus, I mean, I needed clothes from THIS century, right? And ok, I was old, bud not stupid – I needed papers in these days, and he would pass as me, if you look not that closely.
Hm, what next? Temujin! He must be still out there. He was my oldest, and I guess my only true friend. Hm, how to get in contact? Well, hm, I still had to wait a while – it was still sunny outside, so….
Ah – yes, I saw that once. The man I took the clothes from had in his pocket one of those little useful things the humans had made lately, a – telephone they call it if I was not wrong on that. Hm, ok…? Man, how can they handle those little buttons? What are they for?
“This is the Éire COM Switchboard, how can I help you?”
OOPS! “Er – hi, I am looking for an old temple in China; can you help me out there?” It took only a few minutes, and then I had the number of my friend – wow! These times do have their advantages…
I called him….
As Carlisle pulled me out of the room to have a talk with me, we heard Bella scream “They’re coming.” My eyes shot wide open as I heard her voice – angelic as ever, but now embellished with a beautiful chime. “What but…how…how could she be awake this soon?!” I gasped, looking as shocked as Carlisle. We ran with much speed back to my room, stopping in front of the bed to see whether she was ok. She was awake and with a sunshiny smile she welcomed us, eyes locked on mine. I felt an instant rush of joy – and my own grin crossed my face. Bella was back! But – even when I saw the evidence right in front of me, facing her now, I asked if she was alright, considering her change happened in a mere twelve hours. Bella replied that she did not know.
The others arrived shortly after us – of course they had heard her scream as well. Everyone hastily began asking Bella who was coming and how would she knew. I on the other hand was much more worried about her well-being. Her face became flushed and everyone noticed and gasped. Although I loved that about her, this however was not what should be happening – she was a vampire now, wasn’t she? We stood there stunned for a brief moment when I was able to speak, but Bella had then answered the question everyone wanted to know.
“I…I don’t know who they are, but its three people coming, two men and a woman.” She bellowed out in a hurry.
Jasper began trying to decipher whether or not we needed to prepare for a fight, when Bella intervened to let all of us know that she strongly felt they were here not to fight with us.
Again we were shocked into silence, Bella did not look as though her change fully took its course, but yet she shows such self confidence in her statement as if she got this from her potential powers. And I was so intrigued how Bella shined even more so than before that I did not catch what was happening in the meantime, Bella bowed her head, smiling and said,
“Carlisle what is it that is the most intriguing?”
Carlisle walked up and sat on the edge of the bed. He then raised Bella’s face with a smile crossed his face, beginning to tell her that he is grateful to have her with us finally. This was most certainly not making sense to me. I had to ask him what this was about; the feeling I had received from his statement was one of loyalty or maybe more like he was blessed to be in her presence.
“Carlisle, can you please explain why you are treating her like a goddess at the moment?” I asked, trying to sound normal, still with much confusion in my voice.
“Son, this I guess is the best time to explain my trip to all of you.” Carlisle answered with a gracious smile as he laid one hand on Bella’s shoulder.
“Please do us the honors father.” I replied,
“Well, I started out going to see an old friend of mine that does nothing but collect old myths and stories…”
Carlisle did not get too far into the telling of his trip, when Bella’s eyes shot open and said “Oh yes that is one of the people coming.”
How on earth would she know that?! I thought. I was about to ask as Bella,
“I don’t know how I knew.”
WOW – what? Now I got it – even I did not believe what just happened – and what obviously happened before when she asked Carlisle.
“Wait…love did you just answer my question?” I asked, shocked.
Bella blushed again “Um, yes you just asked me how I knew…didn’t you?”
We all just stood there for a moment.
“Love…I thought that question, yes, but I had not voiced it yet.” I replied, smiling now that we had found her power – she could read minds as I could; well, except I could still read hers.
“What! Wait!” She said, holding her head now, confused by this.
“Please, Bella, Edward, I really think I need to tell you about my journey, this will clear things up for you, ok?” Carlisle intervened, and continued his report. Carlisle left off where he started by telling us of his journey from China to Ireland and the visit with the werewolves. The whole story sounded like that of a story telling, nevertheless very true in this situation.
My mind tried to take it all in, but when he told me that I too had been reborn to find Bella each and every time, I just went solid. Esme joined in as well as everyone else at that time asking a ton of questions.
I was – shocked by the information he gave us with this. What was this about? Why on earth was I involved in this? What was this with Bella? Bella, was supposed to be a leader of us? I felt that this was a little bit too much for now. This was when I remembered the very basic stuff – Bella had just become a vampire! She was alive, was with me, and – was a newborn somehow? But - when I remembered that she may need to feed, I hushed everyone.
“Bella, is your throat bothering you at all?” I asked, hoping that my question did not put her into a rage of the realization of the burn. Bella raised her hand to her throat and with a confusing look upon her face answered.
“Um, no it’s just fine, why? Should it be?”
I could hear the gasps coming from the whole family, this was astonishing. “Love…it does not burn?” now clearly knowing that my Bella was different from any other.
“No, not at all...Is there something wrong with me?” She asked like a child that had done something wrong.
I giggled with delight “No love, you are perfect as ever.” With the biggest grin on my face I grasped Bella from the bed and put her onto my lap, caressing her all the while everyone took turns in asking Bella and Carlisle questions.
To me…it was all Bella that I had any need for. My mind began thinking of us in our meadow together, they way I touched her and how it felt to me with so many other things I was thinking at once, when I heard my whole family snickering in disgust. I froze, thinking there was an immediate danger around us, looking for the reason that I may have missed from the conversation they had. When I looked up at them, they were all staring at me in awe as well as a bit - abashed it seemed.
“What is the matter?” I yelled?
“Um bro, I think we all just saw what you were thinking right now.” Emmett stated with a grin of his own.
What! “There is no way you could.” I stated.
Alice chuckled and agreed with Emmett as well as everyone else. The house was filled with laughter, except for Bella and me. Carlisle asked if I felt any different somehow and my reply was “Well yes, but only happy that Bella is here safe in my arms. Why do you ask Carlisle?”
“Son we do not have all the answers to this myth because it has been written long ago, and as I said, the parts were split up in three separate binders, but I am guessing that when Bella was changed, it had changed the course of your powers as well.”
“After all this time, father…? I do not see how this is possible.” I asked, confused now – this was way too much for one day, even for me.
“Son I am sorry to inform you like this, but you have just proven your own disbelief in this matter.” He said with much laughter. “I have become very intrigued with your new ability as much as I am with finding out what all Bella can do and why she does not need to feed right now - may be it is just taking a bit longer to settle in for her. I even do not know how the other things can happen – her blushing shows that she has blood, and her heart beat shows that she is not a vampire as we know vampires are. So much to discuss and to find out...”
Another shock – well, yes, I saw the blushing, and I was fascinated because this simply was the part of my Bella that I loved the most, but I haven’t thought about the reason behind, and now… Well, after Carlisle mentioned it, I was aware of her – her heart beat! She had a heart beat – unbelievable; I was now concentrating on that – how could I have missed that? The sweetest melody I heard while being with her, listening to its speeding up when we were together, to the missing beats when we kissed? Now listening, I heard the reason why I was not aware of it in the first place – its rhythm had changed. It was no longer the beat I was familiar with; now beating about once every minute, it was a profound tone, like the sound of a huge bell going through the bone, more of a feeling then a tone, confident to come up again and again, spreading joy. Why on earth was I not shocked by this too? As a newborn, her eyes MUST be crimson – but they were a lovely brown as ever – another miracle that I was happy about.
Bella then wanted to know what was there to find out. Carlisle mentioned that she clearly had or will have more than one ability, also that her eye color is off the normal and herself control for not wanting to feed right away as another one. Although he said there could be much more to all of this then we can see at the moment. He said as well that he was certain that if his friend The Registrar was coming with other guests, they are coming to help.
“We should be ready to greet them as family when they arrive, is that understood?” He turned to us, acting as head of household now.
In unison we all agreed on it, but Bella began to smile anxiously while her cheeks turned that lovely shade of rose that I loved.
“Love, are you alright?” I asked while holding her face to look at me.
“Um, yes actually, I cannot wait for them to come. I feel like I have known them for so long.”
Technically she may know them I guessed but so long ago –how could her mind absorb all of this? At this moment all I wanted was to be with her alone, the pureness of my feelings was all over the place. Again my family felt disgusted, I laughed at this when Carlisle said we would have to figure out how not to broadcast every detail in my mind. Then Bella’s body froze in an instant when she spoke.
“We…we have others coming as well but not good ones this time.” she said in a plain flat voice.
Everyone looked to Alice to confirm as we usually did, but she was confused and had nothing. We looked back at Bella when we heard Alice inhale loudly.
“What is it Alice? Do you see what Bella sees?” Asking with my voice quickened now.
“Bella is right, they are coming. “ Alice said, as well with a flat voice.
“They have decided and are making their preparations for the trip.” Bella stated again plainly.
We all wanted to know so I asked the both of them “About whom you are talking?”
Bella said “The other man from my dreams.” Which I had no clue to who this was when Alice began to answer, and when I saw her vision too …
To be continued…