The Twilight Saga


Edward returns to Forks to fight for a hurt and angry Bella. Not such an easy thing to do in this story. This is set after the Cullens have been away for quite a few months but before Bella makes the decision to cliff dive. I hope you enjoy the differences. A huge thankyou to Shellym127 and Wyldfyre for my wonderful banners.

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Michelle 
 Chapter One (BPOV)                 Chapter Two (BPOV)  
Chapter Three ( BPOV)               Chapter Four ( APOV)  
Chapter Five (EPOV)                  Chapter Six (EPOV)  
Chapter Seven (EPOV)               Chapter Eight (BPOV)  
Chapter Nine (APOV)                 Chapter Ten (EPOV)  
Chapter Thirty One (APOV) - Page 50 Chapter Thirty Two (BPOV) - Page 53 Chapter Thirty Three (EPOV) - Page 57 Chapter Thirty Four (BPOV) - Page 60
Chapter Thirty Five (EPOV) - Page 65
Chapter Thirty Six (EPOV) - Page 68
Chapter Thirty Seven (BPOV) - Page 71
Chapter Thirty Eight (APOV) - Page 74


Chapter One
The small pockets of warmth and hope that had been slowly finding their way into my damaged soul were threatening to disappear and it left me with a feeling of despair. Just when I thought that I had found some kind of reasonable existence – even a small tinge of happiness – I could feel that it was slipping away. Why did Jacob, my loving, fun, happy source of sunshine have to confuse our friendship for something more? Why couldn’t we just keep being friends and continue healing the broken pieces of my soul one small piece at a time through the warmth he had managed to bring to my life. Selfish, selfish. I knew it for what it was. I was being remarkably selfish to put him through this. To make him keep his distance at the same time as trying to pull his warmth into my very being. I was being unfair. He was being accepting. I should leave him alone but I really wasn’t sure that I could. I needed him to get me through this. It was only with him that I felt even remotely like myself – a shadow for sure but at least it was something beyond that awful place I was at when the other one left. I started to see the other’s face but I pulled myself away from that image and concentrated on Jacob, a different type of pain but somehow something less confronting. What choice was I going to make here? Neither choice would help. I would never love Jacob the way he wanted. Who am I kidding, I would never love anyone the way I should. I was damaged in that respect. I had known love and it had been ripped away. The darkness threatened to engulf me again. Concentrate - we are not thinking about that appalling time. Jacob. Yes Jacob. He knew that I couldn’t love him that way but he felt it might happen in time if I just let it. My choices could lead to even more heartache for him and I knew what that was like. Was I willing to put him through the emotional void I had experienced just so I could start to feel better myself? I had never been a selfish person. I had always been the one to look after others but……. I needed help and he was the only one who could give it.

“Bella. Are you home?” The front door slammed as Charlie entered the house. I quickly studied myself in the mirror. Not that I really cared what I looked like but I didn’t want Charlie to see that I had been crying again. It would break his heart if he thought that I was returning to that awful place I was at a few months ago. He was happy that I had finally managed to pull myself out of that hole and I was pretty sure that he was thanking Jacob for that in his own head. He knew I had a long way to go but I didn’t want to give him even an inkling that I could fall back into that abyss with the slightest provocation. It would hurt him. I sighed. There was always someone for me to hurt.

“Here dad”. I called as I made my way downstairs.
“ How was your day? Did you have fun with Jacob?” he enquired while he studied my face.
I pulled my face into a calm mask and answered the way I knew he wanted. “ Sure, we always have a good time together. We just hung out. You know how it is dad.”
“ When are you seeing him again?” Subtle Charlie. Why don’t you just ask me when are we going to get married and have kids so that you can be sure that I won’t completely lose it again.
“ Um. Not so sure. We are both pretty busy from here on in. You know school going back and all. I am sure it will be soon though” I added because I saw his face show a small sign of panic. “ Have to go dad the grocery store is calling or we won’t have any food. See ya.” I made a dash for the door before he could continue with the discussion and lead me to confess that not all was right between Jacob and I. It wasn’t something that I wanted to face.


Chapter Two
Life was full of mundane everyday routines and this was one of them. Grocery shopping. Thank goodness for the mundane. It let me look like I was functioning without really having to think about what was going on in all the other parts of my life. It made people think that I was surviving when all I wanted to really do was curl up into a ball and……. Not an option I told myself firmly. You are not the only person that is impacted by your choices. Charlie, Renee, Jacob, Angela. All people I loved and wanted to protect. One step in front of the other. Slowly but surely things would get better.

I had finished the shopping and was heading out to the carpark. I looked up to see that the shadows were deepening and that twilight was upon us. Twilight was his favourite time. I shuddered and deliberately made my thoughts wander from that potentially destructive course of images. When would this stop. I sighed for the umpteenth time and started to put the groceries in the boot of the car.

“ Bella”. I closed my eyes tightly. Why on earth was I hearing his voice. I was putting groceries in the car for god’s sake. I wasn’t doing anything dangerous that could lead me to hearing his voice. I wasn’t trying to be reckless on one of the motorbikes that Jacob had fixed for me. I wasn’t putting myself into any danger by talking to strange men in the middle of a quiet Port Angeles street. There wasn’t anything remotely threatening in what I was doing at all. I chose to ignore it and kept packing.

“ Ah excuse me Bella”. Now I know I am going mad. His voice was never pleasant when he spoke to me in my mind. He was always angry at me for what I was doing. What a joke. My mind obviously wanted to believe that he cared when I put myself in danger even though I knew that there was nothing further from the truth. This was different though. This was that beautiful sing song voice that I had cast from my mind when he had told me he didn’t love me anymore. When he had told me that he no longer existed. Why on earth was I hearing it now?

I slowly turned around to see what was going on. I gasped and instantly felt a fierce joy overcome me. It was instantly rebuffed however as my mind began to register what was happening in front of me. This could not be real. Edward stood about two metres in front of me, flanked by his family. Every single one of them. How could that be? Why on earth were they all here in front of me in a carpark of all places. Edward looked nervous. Alice looked elated. Jasper was worried. Emmett was smirking. Rosalie looked bored. Carlisle and Esme stood a little behind. It seemed like ages before anyone spoke. I couldn’t even grasp if this was reality or some sick fantasy. I had pushed all these people to the bottom of my subconscious in the hope of gaining some semblance of normality. Yet here they were looking as real as uniquely beautiful people can look.

I felt my hands reach across my stomach as if to protect myself. I hugged myself fiercely. This was not happening. This could not happen now. Please, please leave me alone I yelled to myself silently.

“ Bella. we were um….. that is Bella we were hoping……..” His voice trailed off as I stared at him coldly. I watched as he slumped slightly and turned to Alice for help.

Alice placed her hand on his arm and turned to me smiling. “ Hi Bella. We are so happy to see you”
Was she joking? What were they doing? Happy to see me? I had never heard anything so absurd in my life.
Alice came towards me. ‘She is going to hug you.’ my inner voice yelled at me and I reflexively placed my hands up to ward her off. I saw her stricken face as she quickly moved back to her spot next to Edward without touching me at all. Jasper grasped her hand and I knew that he was using his gift to help her. I didn’t care. I was beginning to spiral out of control. I could feel it. I needed to get out of here.

I turned back to the car and slammed the boot closed with as much ferocity as I could manage. My mind was still yelling at me to get out of there. I moved towards the car door. I still had not said a single word and I could still feel seven pairs of eyes staring uncertainly at my back.

“ Please Bella. Don’t go”. His voice was pleading. There was something there but I couldn’t quite get what it was. I was too full of my own anguish that I didn’t want to see what he was trying to do. “ I am so sorry Bella. I truly am…
“ You. Are. Sorry.” I spat out at him. He looked like I had slapped him across the face but he remained calm and tried again.
“ Yes Bella. I am sorry. I should never have left you like that. I have been….”

I could feel the red hot emotion of anger come over me. I couldn’t think straight. All I knew was that the one that had hurt me the most , the one that had ripped my heart out and left me to fend for myself was standing in front of me saying that he was sorry. What did he want from me? Hadn’t he hurt me enough?
“ You left me Edward. You made me think that you loved me and then you just decided that I wasn’t good enough for you and you…. left…. me. Do you think I care that you are SORRY. I DO NOT CARE” I yelled at him furiously and then realized where I was. The carpark. I made my voice softer but kept the anger in it. There was way too much pain involved to just let this go. “ You made your choice Edward. You made my choice for me. Not only did you take yourself away from me… you took everyone.” I glared at the whole family. Oh god how I had loved this family but now all I felt for them was anger. “ Not one of you cared enough about me to check that I was alright. Not one of you tried to keep contact”. I looked at Alice as I said this and I saw her cringe and Jaspers hand tighten on hers.

“ I’m sorry Bella” Alice moaned “ I know it seems like we didn’t care but of course we did. We just had to do the right thing”
“ The right thing, the right thing. Are you serious. You were my best friend. I loved you like a sister. I would never EVER TURN MY BACK on you” I was becoming hysterical. “ You are as bad as him. You LEFT me”
“ We did it to protect you Bella” Alice stammered. “ We were thinking of you”
“ How could going away possibly protect me Alice. How could leaving me to face the others possibly help me. Laurent, Victoria and any other blood drinking mythical creature that feels that I am their personal magnet. It’s neverending. Every sound, every shadow. Constant fear and NOONE to protect me. “ My breathing was becoming quicker and I could feel the shock oozing out of every one of them. I didn’t care. “ How was leaving the right thing to do when I couldn’t feel or breath for god knows how long?”
I caught the significant look that Alice gave Jasper and I turned on him ferociously. “ DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT CALMING ME DOWN. You have no right. Let me be. Let me feel what I am feeling Not what you want me to feel. You owe me that Jasper” Another stab in the heart for someone I had once cared for. He would never forgive himself for what he had done that helped lead us to this moment and I had just driven it home even more. He stopped though. I didn’t feel any calm just the red hot anger. It made me keep the poisoned arrows hurling at the Cullen family. “ and you Emmett. Have you come back to tease me more. Bored, are you, without the silly human to entertain you – obviously I wasn’t entertaining enough to keep around hey even though I thought of you as the big brother I had never had?”
I turned to Rosalie as she hissed at me. No one insults Emmet without earning her wrath. What could I say to her? She had never professed to care so what had she done wrong? “ At least you never pretended to care Rosalie. At least when you left you didn’t make a mockery of a friendship. There never was one between us”
I turned to attack the two remaining Cullens and felt the wind come out of my sail. I had had enough. What could I possibly say to two of the most amazing people I know. I couldn’t inflict any more hurt tonight.
“ Please stop Bella. This is not my family’s fault. They only left because I forced them to…..”

“ Do you know what Edward, I am finished. When you left me you told me to forget that you or any of your family ever existed. Well you have got what you wanted. As far as I am concerned none of you exist. Go away and leave me alone.” I turned away from all of their shocked faces and numbly placed myself in the car as I whispered “I don’t need ANY vampires in my life – NONE”

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way to go Michelle
I love it LOL Ha Ha
That is a fab twist, and so unpredicatable, I would never have thought that the Volturi were on there way, you have taken your story up a notch, can't wait to hear the outcome.
cant wait for the next chapter please hurry and write it like now!!!
wow those last 2 chapters you wrote are amazing...excellent job!
i love it... i thought it was all over but now u've made iet even more exciting...
well done! cant wait 4 the next chapter!
I just sat for over 4hours and read this entire story, well up to this point. It's fantastic,
my butt hurts, but i had refused to move. It kept me glued to my chair. Great story Michelle.


Chapter 30

BPOV
My eyes were itching with the effort of keeping the tears from falling. There was no way I was going to cry in front of Rosalie. Whatever her reasons were for taking me to La Push I was pretty sure they wouldn’t extend to offering me sympathy. No doubt she would blame me for this most recent turn of events. I glanced sideways at her. She had her eyes on the road and her fists firmly clenched around the steering wheel. She looked like she was in no mood for talking. That suited me fine. I had to work out how to get into La Push without causing too much more drama. Jacob wasn’t talking to me and I wasn’t sure if any of the other boys would even be willing to get involved after all that had happened. It was going to have to be Jacob. Surely he wouldn’t turn his back on me at this point. I rang his number and was disappointed to hear Billy’s groggy voice on the other end.

“Hello Billy. It’s Bella.”

Billy interrupted me “ Bella. What’s wrong? Is Charlie ok?”

“Yes, yes. Charlie’s at work. It’s me who needs the help. Is Jacob there please?”. Rosalie was looking at me in disgust and I almost didn’t catch Billy’s answer.

“Sorry Bella. He is out with some of the other boys. Apparently there has been some disturbance up at one of the camping grounds. They went to check it out. What’s the time? Oh. I would have thought they’d be back by now.” He murmured those last words to himself. “ Can I help you with something Bella?”

What should I do? I had been relying on the hope that Jacob would come and get me so that Rosalie could get back to the others and not even have to go into La Push. “Billy. I need to come to La Push. There is a problem and the safest place for me to be, for all involved, is there with you. Rosalie Hale is driving me. Can you possibly give us permission to cross the line? I need your guarantee that she won’t be hurt because she is helping me?”

Rosalie stared at me with her mouth open but I ignored her reaction to my words. The silence on the other end of the line frightened me in its endlessness. He was going to deny me this request and I didn’t know what else to do. As much as Rosalie and I did not get on I would not put her at risk to save my own skin.

“Ok Bella. I give you permission. There will be no repercussions for Rosalie crossing the treaty line. I will try and contact the boys and let them know that you need their help. You can explain what is going on when you get here. I trust that she will be leaving as soon as she has delivered you to us?”

“Yes, yes. Rosalie won’t be staying. Thank you Billy. I will see you soon.” I almost laughed when Rosalie physically gagged at the thought of staying anywhere near La Push and the werewolves.

“Like I was going to stop if they didn’t give me permission Bella.” She looked at me scornfully but I saw another emotion behind her eyes that I could not read. I didn’t respond. She probably wouldn’t have stopped but I felt better knowing I had covered all bases.

“Why do you always do that Bella – the whole I have to put everyone else ahead of myself routine?” she swore under her breath and then continued talking at me. “For god’s sake I don’t even like you and you still have to make sure of my safety before thinking of your own. It’s damned annoying. Don’t you ever get sick of being so…so… giving?” Her voice was full of bitterness.

What was I meant to say in answer to that question? More importantly – why did she care?

“I don’t understand Rosalie. Why are you even here if you hate me that much? No-one expected it of you. You could have just kept quiet.”

“That’s exactly it, isn’t it? No-one ever expects anything from me except selfishness. Even my own husband, who I know loves me with everything he has got, was surprised by my offer. Maybe I am here because I don’t want to feel guilty anymore for who I am and the more you are around me, and my family, the guiltier I become. I don’t like the fact that I am so self absorbed and I hate it even more that you are so naturally the opposite to that.”

“Rosalie. Why are we talking about this now? “ I asked gently.

“Because most probably we all die tonight Bella and I have some things to get off my chest.” I cringed inwardly as she said those words but tried to keep my face composed. I was not going to admit to even myself how frightened I was of tonight's outcome.

“ I owe you a huge debt and I have never had the guts to say it. Thank you for loving my husband enough to try and stop Jacob from killing him. If I had lost Emmett I do not know what I would have done. He is my one constant in life and…well thank you.” She paused before continuing “ and secondly I need to apologise for something I did. You see it was me who got Tanya to come down here in the hope it would bring Edward to his senses about loving a human… about loving you. I thought I was doing it for all the right reasons but now I realize that I just made things so much worse. My actions almost drove Edward away again. I can see that he belongs with you and as much as that goes against what I want, I understand your importance to him.”

I watched the dark trees speed by us as we got closer to La Push. Inside I was reeling from Rosalie’s confessions, not because of what they were but more because she was actually voicing them. It was a strange course of events that had brought us to this point. For some reason it was important to her that I should understand her a bit more in case her existence was ended. I could feel her agitation as we sped towards the spot where she could deliver me and then get back to where she really wanted to be – beside her love. If they were going to die she would want to be with him – I fully understood that need and wished that it was a choice I could make also.

“One more thing and this is probably a moot point because the chances of us surviving through tonight are pretty slim but….. Alice told me earlier today that she saw a vision where you were asking us to take a vote about you becoming a vampire like the rest of us. I guess things have changed now but just in case we ever get to make that vote I want to explain my answer to you, and you alone. It will be no. Not because I don’t want you as part of our family. You already are – whether I like it or not. I am going to say no because I would never have chosen this path for myself. My human death was horrific Bella. It was a violent and repulsive lead up to death for any person to endure and it ripped away all my hopes and dreams of having my own family, my own children." the pain in her voice was very real and it made me see her in a different light.

" There are times when I wished Carlisle had left me to die that natural death so that I wouldn’t be the bitter and selfish person I am today. I wish I’d had a choice. You do. I don’t want you to waste your life by giving it away so easily. I want you to experience every aspect of life – all the things I missed out on - so I am going to vote no. I hope you understand.” Rosalie couldn’t even look at me.

I nodded slowly. “I do. Thanks Rosalie for your honesty.” I tried not to think of the horrors she had indicated she had seen and experienced during the lead up to death. I wanted to reach out to her to tell her that everything was ok but I knew that she would not want me to. Instead I stated “I believe there is more to you than what you are saying Rosalie.” I didn’t expect her to answer.

I turned back to my own thoughts. Alice had seen us take a vote about me becoming a vampire. I hoped that if we had the opportunity to follow through on that vision that Rosalie’s no would be the only one. I understood where Rosalie was coming from. I had thought of the sacrifices that I would have to make in order to be with Edward, including the inability to have his children but I was willing to go through with it anyway. He was the most important thing in my life. I grasped onto the hope that tonight was not an ending for all that I loved and wished for.

The silence in the car was broken by the splintering of glass as the front windscreen shattered. Rosalie put her foot on the brake in response and I felt the car skidding uncontrollably towards the trees. We landed with the noise of the car grinding against the tree filling our heads.

I looked at Rosalie in disbelief. “What on earth was that?”

“Vampire,” she hissed “I can’t believe I missed it. We are in trouble.”
Holy Crow!!! What is going to happen now. Michelle...please...you have to write at Vampire Speed!! This is a major cliffhanger!!! Who is it?? It has to be part of the Volturi right?? Loved it Michelle...can't wait for more!! Oh and I am very proud of Rosalie. That must have been very difficult her..now she is probably gonna have to fight for Bella too...
Sarah
Holy Crap, Michelle, Major CLIFFHANGER!!
Why are you doing this to me! **rips out hair**
OUCH!!
**smiles sheepishly**
You are amazing, I am hooked to this, awesome chapter! I liked the bonding with Bella and Rose, you covered Eclipse here, again, great job!
This is incredible! the story just keeps taking different turns at different times, and each time there is a new twist the story gets better and better than it already is! Please keep writing, and let the mean volturi vamps go away from forks by doing no harm and in shame, let the Cullens show them reason!
hope to be able to read the next chapter real soon!
I LOVE IT!! there are no other words for it!!
This is getting really exciting! :p I loved this chapter! More now!
you had to leave it right there did'ent you darn cliffhangers lol great chapter post more soon i want to know who the vampire is!!!!

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