The Twilight Saga


Edward returns to Forks to fight for a hurt and angry Bella. Not such an easy thing to do in this story. This is set after the Cullens have been away for quite a few months but before Bella makes the decision to cliff dive. I hope you enjoy the differences. A huge thankyou to Shellym127 and Wyldfyre for my wonderful banners.

Cheers
Michelle 
 Chapter One (BPOV)                 Chapter Two (BPOV)  
Chapter Three ( BPOV)               Chapter Four ( APOV)  
Chapter Five (EPOV)                  Chapter Six (EPOV)  
Chapter Seven (EPOV)               Chapter Eight (BPOV)  
Chapter Nine (APOV)                 Chapter Ten (EPOV)  
Chapter Thirty One (APOV) - Page 50 Chapter Thirty Two (BPOV) - Page 53 Chapter Thirty Three (EPOV) - Page 57 Chapter Thirty Four (BPOV) - Page 60
Chapter Thirty Five (EPOV) - Page 65
Chapter Thirty Six (EPOV) - Page 68
Chapter Thirty Seven (BPOV) - Page 71
Chapter Thirty Eight (APOV) - Page 74


Chapter One
The small pockets of warmth and hope that had been slowly finding their way into my damaged soul were threatening to disappear and it left me with a feeling of despair. Just when I thought that I had found some kind of reasonable existence – even a small tinge of happiness – I could feel that it was slipping away. Why did Jacob, my loving, fun, happy source of sunshine have to confuse our friendship for something more? Why couldn’t we just keep being friends and continue healing the broken pieces of my soul one small piece at a time through the warmth he had managed to bring to my life. Selfish, selfish. I knew it for what it was. I was being remarkably selfish to put him through this. To make him keep his distance at the same time as trying to pull his warmth into my very being. I was being unfair. He was being accepting. I should leave him alone but I really wasn’t sure that I could. I needed him to get me through this. It was only with him that I felt even remotely like myself – a shadow for sure but at least it was something beyond that awful place I was at when the other one left. I started to see the other’s face but I pulled myself away from that image and concentrated on Jacob, a different type of pain but somehow something less confronting. What choice was I going to make here? Neither choice would help. I would never love Jacob the way he wanted. Who am I kidding, I would never love anyone the way I should. I was damaged in that respect. I had known love and it had been ripped away. The darkness threatened to engulf me again. Concentrate - we are not thinking about that appalling time. Jacob. Yes Jacob. He knew that I couldn’t love him that way but he felt it might happen in time if I just let it. My choices could lead to even more heartache for him and I knew what that was like. Was I willing to put him through the emotional void I had experienced just so I could start to feel better myself? I had never been a selfish person. I had always been the one to look after others but……. I needed help and he was the only one who could give it.

“Bella. Are you home?” The front door slammed as Charlie entered the house. I quickly studied myself in the mirror. Not that I really cared what I looked like but I didn’t want Charlie to see that I had been crying again. It would break his heart if he thought that I was returning to that awful place I was at a few months ago. He was happy that I had finally managed to pull myself out of that hole and I was pretty sure that he was thanking Jacob for that in his own head. He knew I had a long way to go but I didn’t want to give him even an inkling that I could fall back into that abyss with the slightest provocation. It would hurt him. I sighed. There was always someone for me to hurt.

“Here dad”. I called as I made my way downstairs.
“ How was your day? Did you have fun with Jacob?” he enquired while he studied my face.
I pulled my face into a calm mask and answered the way I knew he wanted. “ Sure, we always have a good time together. We just hung out. You know how it is dad.”
“ When are you seeing him again?” Subtle Charlie. Why don’t you just ask me when are we going to get married and have kids so that you can be sure that I won’t completely lose it again.
“ Um. Not so sure. We are both pretty busy from here on in. You know school going back and all. I am sure it will be soon though” I added because I saw his face show a small sign of panic. “ Have to go dad the grocery store is calling or we won’t have any food. See ya.” I made a dash for the door before he could continue with the discussion and lead me to confess that not all was right between Jacob and I. It wasn’t something that I wanted to face.


Chapter Two
Life was full of mundane everyday routines and this was one of them. Grocery shopping. Thank goodness for the mundane. It let me look like I was functioning without really having to think about what was going on in all the other parts of my life. It made people think that I was surviving when all I wanted to really do was curl up into a ball and……. Not an option I told myself firmly. You are not the only person that is impacted by your choices. Charlie, Renee, Jacob, Angela. All people I loved and wanted to protect. One step in front of the other. Slowly but surely things would get better.

I had finished the shopping and was heading out to the carpark. I looked up to see that the shadows were deepening and that twilight was upon us. Twilight was his favourite time. I shuddered and deliberately made my thoughts wander from that potentially destructive course of images. When would this stop. I sighed for the umpteenth time and started to put the groceries in the boot of the car.

“ Bella”. I closed my eyes tightly. Why on earth was I hearing his voice. I was putting groceries in the car for god’s sake. I wasn’t doing anything dangerous that could lead me to hearing his voice. I wasn’t trying to be reckless on one of the motorbikes that Jacob had fixed for me. I wasn’t putting myself into any danger by talking to strange men in the middle of a quiet Port Angeles street. There wasn’t anything remotely threatening in what I was doing at all. I chose to ignore it and kept packing.

“ Ah excuse me Bella”. Now I know I am going mad. His voice was never pleasant when he spoke to me in my mind. He was always angry at me for what I was doing. What a joke. My mind obviously wanted to believe that he cared when I put myself in danger even though I knew that there was nothing further from the truth. This was different though. This was that beautiful sing song voice that I had cast from my mind when he had told me he didn’t love me anymore. When he had told me that he no longer existed. Why on earth was I hearing it now?

I slowly turned around to see what was going on. I gasped and instantly felt a fierce joy overcome me. It was instantly rebuffed however as my mind began to register what was happening in front of me. This could not be real. Edward stood about two metres in front of me, flanked by his family. Every single one of them. How could that be? Why on earth were they all here in front of me in a carpark of all places. Edward looked nervous. Alice looked elated. Jasper was worried. Emmett was smirking. Rosalie looked bored. Carlisle and Esme stood a little behind. It seemed like ages before anyone spoke. I couldn’t even grasp if this was reality or some sick fantasy. I had pushed all these people to the bottom of my subconscious in the hope of gaining some semblance of normality. Yet here they were looking as real as uniquely beautiful people can look.

I felt my hands reach across my stomach as if to protect myself. I hugged myself fiercely. This was not happening. This could not happen now. Please, please leave me alone I yelled to myself silently.

“ Bella. we were um….. that is Bella we were hoping……..” His voice trailed off as I stared at him coldly. I watched as he slumped slightly and turned to Alice for help.

Alice placed her hand on his arm and turned to me smiling. “ Hi Bella. We are so happy to see you”
Was she joking? What were they doing? Happy to see me? I had never heard anything so absurd in my life.
Alice came towards me. ‘She is going to hug you.’ my inner voice yelled at me and I reflexively placed my hands up to ward her off. I saw her stricken face as she quickly moved back to her spot next to Edward without touching me at all. Jasper grasped her hand and I knew that he was using his gift to help her. I didn’t care. I was beginning to spiral out of control. I could feel it. I needed to get out of here.

I turned back to the car and slammed the boot closed with as much ferocity as I could manage. My mind was still yelling at me to get out of there. I moved towards the car door. I still had not said a single word and I could still feel seven pairs of eyes staring uncertainly at my back.

“ Please Bella. Don’t go”. His voice was pleading. There was something there but I couldn’t quite get what it was. I was too full of my own anguish that I didn’t want to see what he was trying to do. “ I am so sorry Bella. I truly am…
“ You. Are. Sorry.” I spat out at him. He looked like I had slapped him across the face but he remained calm and tried again.
“ Yes Bella. I am sorry. I should never have left you like that. I have been….”

I could feel the red hot emotion of anger come over me. I couldn’t think straight. All I knew was that the one that had hurt me the most , the one that had ripped my heart out and left me to fend for myself was standing in front of me saying that he was sorry. What did he want from me? Hadn’t he hurt me enough?
“ You left me Edward. You made me think that you loved me and then you just decided that I wasn’t good enough for you and you…. left…. me. Do you think I care that you are SORRY. I DO NOT CARE” I yelled at him furiously and then realized where I was. The carpark. I made my voice softer but kept the anger in it. There was way too much pain involved to just let this go. “ You made your choice Edward. You made my choice for me. Not only did you take yourself away from me… you took everyone.” I glared at the whole family. Oh god how I had loved this family but now all I felt for them was anger. “ Not one of you cared enough about me to check that I was alright. Not one of you tried to keep contact”. I looked at Alice as I said this and I saw her cringe and Jaspers hand tighten on hers.

“ I’m sorry Bella” Alice moaned “ I know it seems like we didn’t care but of course we did. We just had to do the right thing”
“ The right thing, the right thing. Are you serious. You were my best friend. I loved you like a sister. I would never EVER TURN MY BACK on you” I was becoming hysterical. “ You are as bad as him. You LEFT me”
“ We did it to protect you Bella” Alice stammered. “ We were thinking of you”
“ How could going away possibly protect me Alice. How could leaving me to face the others possibly help me. Laurent, Victoria and any other blood drinking mythical creature that feels that I am their personal magnet. It’s neverending. Every sound, every shadow. Constant fear and NOONE to protect me. “ My breathing was becoming quicker and I could feel the shock oozing out of every one of them. I didn’t care. “ How was leaving the right thing to do when I couldn’t feel or breath for god knows how long?”
I caught the significant look that Alice gave Jasper and I turned on him ferociously. “ DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT CALMING ME DOWN. You have no right. Let me be. Let me feel what I am feeling Not what you want me to feel. You owe me that Jasper” Another stab in the heart for someone I had once cared for. He would never forgive himself for what he had done that helped lead us to this moment and I had just driven it home even more. He stopped though. I didn’t feel any calm just the red hot anger. It made me keep the poisoned arrows hurling at the Cullen family. “ and you Emmett. Have you come back to tease me more. Bored, are you, without the silly human to entertain you – obviously I wasn’t entertaining enough to keep around hey even though I thought of you as the big brother I had never had?”
I turned to Rosalie as she hissed at me. No one insults Emmet without earning her wrath. What could I say to her? She had never professed to care so what had she done wrong? “ At least you never pretended to care Rosalie. At least when you left you didn’t make a mockery of a friendship. There never was one between us”
I turned to attack the two remaining Cullens and felt the wind come out of my sail. I had had enough. What could I possibly say to two of the most amazing people I know. I couldn’t inflict any more hurt tonight.
“ Please stop Bella. This is not my family’s fault. They only left because I forced them to…..”

“ Do you know what Edward, I am finished. When you left me you told me to forget that you or any of your family ever existed. Well you have got what you wanted. As far as I am concerned none of you exist. Go away and leave me alone.” I turned away from all of their shocked faces and numbly placed myself in the car as I whispered “I don’t need ANY vampires in my life – NONE”

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this is so good i can't wait to see what happens next
jts good

Thnaks Jettie. I hope you continue to read and enjoy.

 

Cheers

Michelle

omg omg omg this is amazing i love it! u r a great writer! hurry hrry hurry!
Awww thanks for saying such a nice thing and thanks for reading it.
OMG! shes gonna go cliff diving...
i cant wait to see how that turns out! post soon!
Chapter 9
APOV

“We just let Bella drive off with a werewolf”

I looked at Edward as if he was losing it. There was absolutely no way Edward would have let Bella get into that truck if Jacob was a werewolf. Werewolves were too volatile in nature. They could damage anyone near them with one stroke if they lost their temper and thus their control. I looked at Edward again for reassurance but found none. He was not joking. “You are a jerk, Edward Cullen. We are meant to be protecting her not sending her off like a lamb to the slaughter”
Edward hissed at me “It’s not like we had any choice Alice. Take a look around us.” I turned to see that there were still stragglers coming out of the school and that the principal had left us, but was still watching to ensure that there would be no trouble. “Believe me if I could have I would have torn that dog apart with my bare hands before I let Bella go with him. I had no choice.” I noticed the strain in his voice and knew that it had taken all of his control not to do what he had wanted.

“Well what are we waiting for? Let’s go get her.” Jasper was in soldier mode. He had a mission and he was going to fulfill it. There was no way he was going to let Bella remain in enemy hands when he knew the danger it entailed.

“He is taking her to La Push. We can’t follow them there and he believes that he is protecting her. I saw it.” He grimaced at me in response to my questioning look. “I have to admit that he has already saved her life once… him and the other….. werewolves so maybe she will be ok?” He didn’t look like he believed his own response. He had turned the word werewolves around his tongue as if it had been poison.

“We need to talk to Carlisle now.” We drove home as quickly as possible while Edward recapped what had been shown to him through the thoughts of Jacob. We now knew that Laurent had almost killed Bella and that it was thanks to the wolves that he hadn’t succeeded in that attempt. It also gave us insight into the mystery that I had been worrying about when Bella had first told us that she was terrified of Victoria. It was evident that the wolves had protected her. It wasn’t pure luck on Bella’s side. It made much more sense now. Bella was no match for a vampire.

Carlisle tried to calm Edward, Jasper and Emmett down once the story had been retold for the rest of the family’s benefit. The treaty was still intact and we could not break it without risking bloodshed. We had achieved our aim of keeping humans safe by not feeding on their blood. We couldn’t risk what would happen if the wolves felt we were invading their territory. The boys were not happy with this and continued to dispute the need to be rational about it. They wanted to fight and get Bella back to safety. Carlisle was insistent in there having to be another way to do this. He loved Bella but he was not willing to deliberately set out to break the treaty.

“We are just going around in circles. I can’t sit here any longer and just do NOTHING.” Edward was beside himself. “I am going to wait for her at the treaty line. He has to take her home eventually if he means her no harm. I will honour the treaty, Carlisle, up to a point but if he has hurt her I promise that I will not be held accountable for what I will do.” Jasper followed him and I knew his intention was to keep Edward calm for as long as possible but to also be there if a fight did occur. He didn’t want to sit here and wait either. He wanted to be beside his brother and I respected that but I suddenly felt the fear that I was about to lose him and I wanted to call him back. I knew I wouldn’t do it though. This was another step in his healing after what happened with Bella. He still felt he owed her and Edward. Emmett looked imploringly at Rosalie and I saw her nod her head slightly. He dashed off after the others.

“They will be ok won’t they Alice” Rosalie begged for reassurance. I could give her none. I could not see anything when it came to the wolves. “All I can see is Edward pacing along the line and Emmett and Jasper sitting waiting.” Nothing is happening.

“What about Bella. Can you see anything from her end?” Carlisle was interested to see if my gift was working any better when it came to Bella. It had been an unusual occurrence for me not to be able to see someone’s future, particularly if that someone was a person I cared about. I concentrated hard on Bella and what might be found in her future. With a great sense of relief I did find something. So my gift had not left me as I was beginning to worry about. I saw Bella sitting silently watching a woman move around the house. She looked frustrated and scared but she did not appear to be in any kind of danger. Then I gasped and the others watched me to determine if there was a danger they needed to be aware of. There was no danger. The other woman had turned and for the first time I saw her features. She was a lovely looking woman except for the large scar that ran down her face giving her the appearance of wearing a grotesque mask. She had been hurt badly and in an instant I knew that a werewolf had done this to her. How could Bella sit there so calmly when the evidence of just how dangerous werewolves were was standing right in front of her? Bella certainly liked to keep strange company and I did include us in that list when I said it.

The afternoon wore away painstakingly slowly. I had a brief vision of Victoria but felt that she was in no immediate vicinity to us or Bella so chose to ignore it. It almost looked like she was getting further away rather than closer. I wondered what was making her follow this different path but I was more concerned about the current wolf situation than what her sickening mind was thinking.

I kept a watch on our boys but nothing was happening there. Just poor Edward pacing backwards and forwards. I am sure there were times when he was going to ignore Carlisles instructions not to break the treaty and just cross that line but he never chose to go that way and it was with relief that I could report this back to the others.

I was again frustrated by the fact that I could no longer see Bella’s future. It was as if something was getting in the way. I started to realize that it might be the wolves and was turning that theory around in my head when all of a sudden an image did come that I wasn’t prepared for. I screamed for the phone and Esme was instantly at my side. “I need Edward quickly.” His mobile was picked up on the first ring.

“ Alice?” he queried.

“ Quickly Edward she has just jumped off the cliff. Quickly… please save her … she is not going to make it if you don’t hurry. La Push beach ….off the cliffs. There is no time to worry about treaties.” I croaked as I tried to get him to see the gravity of the situation but the phone had already gone dead.
omg
what is bella thinking
who will get to her frist
love it
Thanks so much for reading this story too Sherry. There are lots of little mistakes in it because it was my first one but I hope you enjoy it anyway.

Cheers
Michelle
I needed some action so I thought why not?
Thanks Mandy-Renee. I have been enjoying your fanfic too so keep going with that one too.
hurry write more you are really good please keep me updated on your story please!

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