Would I have the sufficient force?
The control on my emotions, the control to turn the person who more had I loved in my life, to that one that I would love until the end of my days?
I did not know it, it terrified me of the most terrible form, the alone possibility of losing her. But already I had committed another horrible mistake. I, after all
my efforts for protecting her, had submitted her to the worst damage and pain,
I had made it come to the point of her being dying.
But I could not even do anything against what was killing her.
How to fight against it, when to do so, would kill her?
Simply she was a magnet of danger. And she was still pulling me towards her. Is it that some day I would stop hurting her, with my love or my strength?