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I would not let him win.
I would never give into the monster inside of me. Whether or not I have a soul, it does not matter to me. I would not harm this innocent girl. She wasn't a threat or even an enemy. Vincent would not be proven right nor would he interfere with her life either.
For the past three months Forks High, the once mundane gathering place of local average teenagers, had become hell on Earth. A hell I knew I deserved. I could not believe how long it had taken me to act civilized once again in her presence. Bella Swan, that name was constant in my mind with every needless breath I took. I remember that day with absolute clarity. The day that changed me, more than the loss of my own humanity. She pulled up into the parking lot in an old beat up,red pick up truck and I thought nothing of her. She nearly fell out of the truck as she opened the door and my family and I ignored this. But what I could not ignore was what happened next.
There, about ten feet away from me stood the most unfathomably beautiful creature I had ever laid my eyes upon. She was small in her size, rather pale and soft. She had the deepest brown eyes that seemed to have no ending. A wave of sock went through my body that I had never before experienced. At that moment she met my gaze and she looked, frightened. Then she smiled a smile that went right through me. I tried to gather my composure and smiled back then turned to face Alice.
In that instance the wind blew a heavenly fragrance in my direction. I winced and started to open my mouth wide as i turned back around to see where the tempting scent had come from. It was her. That defenseless,impeccable beauty had won me over in more than one way that morning. Before I knew it Emmet was at my side shoving me into the driver's side of my Volvo.
"Edward! What in the hell was that about? Do you know what you were doing?" he said.
Alice slammed the back door of my car shut and practically shrieked, " Start the car Edward! We need to go home, right now!" I glanced around and made sure my family was all here. Without thinking I started my car and sped out of the parking lot onto the main road.I caught one last glimpse of the girl I'd been entranced by and saw that she looked very worried. I wanted to ask her what was wrong.
When we arrived home Emmet was the first to hit me,punching me on the arm."Edward, stop looking half dead and say something damn it!" Funny I thought we were as dead as we'd ever be." He will have to go away, I am not picking up and moving because of his nonsense. If he's going to act like an animal then let's send him to live with some." Oh no,Rosalie would surely have her say. She gave me a rather hard slap on the face . I growled in response. Edward,you looked so wild. You looked like a Vampire! You even started to growl when you crouched.... were you about to spring? What am I saying?! Of course you were..You almost killed her! Thank heavens no one else was around.Of all people I thought my Jasper would loose it one day. I should have been focused on you more this morning. Carlisle will be..
What was she saying? What had I done? Had the monster come out of me? "Alice, what are you talking about?" I said."You looked like a crazed newborn Edward. You caught her scent and almost..." She didn't need to finish. " Who is she Alice?" "Her name is Isabella Swan, Chief Swan's daughter. She just moved here from Phoenix." Of course, what an idiot I had been! I had heard her name in all of the students minds this morning. The new girl, Isabella. I suppose after tuning out all of their fantasies I had forgotten all about her arrival.
"Edward, maybe we should take some time off and go out on our own. Just you and me." said Jasper. "You know Carlisle will want to make sure your doing the safest thing for yourself. Being here is too risky. Let's just take a few weeks and go hunting, maybe go to Alaska. I know how you feel right now and I don't want you to loose everything you've worked so hard for because of one human."
Rosalie chimed in "Let's not forget we've got enemies here as well that would love nothing more than to see us fail. If Vincent had been there, he'd have made this a lot harder on you Edward."
She was right. We weren't the only civilized "vegetarian vampires" living in Forks. A friend of Carlisle's named Fredrick lived on the other side of town with his makeshift "family", much like our own. Anna, his wife, was a loving woman, and Fredrick was much like my father Carlisle. But their children were not the same. Dalia, Vincent, and Peter were absolute scum.
After returning from my "trip" with Jasper, I went back to school. Luckily I had no classes with Isabella, whom I always heard of now as "Bella". But in the lunchroom and out on the parking lot I still struggled with her fragrance. What a nightmare it was to make it through the day in peace. She often stood next to me in the lunch line and I swear I almost had her instead of my prop of a lunch. There was always rain in Forks, which I'd never minded until now. It wet my mouth with her scent. Still ,after all of this chaos I couldn't forget the way I felt when I first saw her. I went home every day wishing I could sleep so I could dream about more than trying not to kill her.
I pulled myself out of my reverie and started walking into the lunchroom. After months of training myself to be able to handle this, I decided it was time. I was going to talk to her today.
Chapter One: The Cullens
It seemed that the entire world revolved around Forks High.
At least it seemed that way to me. The past three months had been the most confusing, agonizing, and lovely that I've ever experienced. When I moved here from Phoenix, I was settled in the fact that this rainy little town would hold nothing of importance. It wouldn't be like my life back home at all. I was so sure of that. But I was only correct about one of those things. It had been nothing like my life back home.
My first day of school, I was ready and dressed slightly early. Not because I was excited or anything, just very anxious to get my class schedule and find my classrooms. I would at least try not to draw the whole "new girl" kind of attention to myself as much as possible. The ride to school wasn't so bad except for the drizzle of rain on the windshield. I guess I'd have to get used to that. When I arrived I found a spot fairly close to the guidance office to park in, and was relieved there there was hardly anyone there yet.
There were about five other cars on the lot. One of which was a nice looking silver Volvo. Standing all around the car were five students looking very pale, and very apathetic. I stared at them for a moment trying to make out there features. But as I was staring I accidentally opened the door of my truck and stumbled right out. Great, I thought to myself. What a lovely first impression. I didn't want to make eye contact but I couldn't help myself.
I glanced around at the group of students by the Volvo and they didn't seem to take any interest in my clumsiness But I took interest in them. They were more than just pale,apathetic teenagers. They all possessed a beauty that didn't even seem real. Every one of their face's were so inhumanly gorgeous, I began to wonder if I was dreaming. Their skin was so faint with color that it seemed to glow and light up everything in their surroundings.I stood there in awe, taking in their face's one at a time. On one side of the car stood a tall,slim, goddess like blond girl with a look of confidence all about her. She was standing slightly behind a muscular,rugged, brown haired boy who's size was kind of frightening. By the trunk of the car stood a tall, blond boy with rather wavy hair who was looking into the eyes of the tiny girl beside him. She had dark hair that was wild around her angelic face. She was staring back into his eyes with such intensity it was as if she didn't know anyone else was around. That's when I saw him. He was leaning against the car with their driver's door still open.
He had noticed me to. He was staring at me with a confused expression upon his gorgeous face. More than gorgeous, he was exquisite. His hair was what seemed to be a medium brown color and was what some would call messy. That is, if his hair had been on anyone other than him. It highlighted his marvelous face and complemented his skin. He had perfect symmetry and his body was no less stunning. He was lean and tall but not the tallest of the boys. He was dressed in a tight fitting gray shirt that allowed me to see he had a muscular physic that was not over done, but just right. As I was looking at him, I noticed my heart had been beating far too fast and had no particular rhythm. My body had been frozen and an electric feeling was coursing through my veins. Then my heart stopped beating all together.
I smiled at him, trying not to seem like some sort of freak. He smiled back at me and I felt my knees begin to shake and my checks fill with blood.The next few moments happened so fast I wasn't sure at first if they'd even really happened. The boy who I'd been admiring was on the ground, staring at me like I had threatened him somehow . His teeth were showing and I thought I even heard him snarling. What had I done to him? How had I repulsed him so? I was about to walk over and ask him what I had done,but the largest boy shoved him into the car while the others got into the back seat. The large boy got into the passenger's seat, and they sped away so fast that the Volvo had left tire marks all the way out onto the main road.
I was trembling. What the hell did I do? What if it wasn't even something that I did? What if it was just me? I looked around and saw that no one was looking. I jumped back into my truck's cab and just sat there, horrified. I replayed the scene over and over and nothing made any sense. I sat in my truck until the parking lot was full and made my way to my first class. The rest of the day I tried to concentrate on my school work and forget about what had happened before class.
The next day at school I saw the Volvo again. The blond girl was there and talking with the muscular boy whom looked angry. The tiny girl was there as well but she was standing alone not seeming to focus on anything.Where were the other two boys? Had i really driven two people insane now? I wanted to go talk to them but I was abruptly interrupted in my thoughts by my classmate,Peter.
"Hey Bella! How are you this morning? You look kind of tired" he said worriedly." I'm fine Peter, I just have a lot on my mind." He threw a glance over at the Volvo and it's owners."You interested in one of the Cullens?" he said smugly. Oh so that was them, the Cullens. Not a very common name."Actually Peter, I was just wondering what they are. I mean! Who they are. They're all so..different." "Haha.Someone who actually doesn't know about them. They live jut outside of town with their father Dr. Carlisle Cullen and his wife Esme. The two blonds Rosalie, and Jasper are brother and sister. The other three Alice, Emmet, and Edward are related. Dr.Cullen adopted them when they were all young so they're very close. They've even paired off,well, except for Edward."
So that was his name,Edward. Just hearing his name kept me longing to know more about him. I needed to see him, to ask him what I had done. I wanted to be near him, I just wanted to know him. But, three weeks went by and he never showed. I was beginning to give up hope that Edward and Jasper would ever come to back Forks High. I looked for them every day in the parking lot and in the lunchroom hoping they'd just reappear.
Chapter Two: Breathe
One morning as I parked my truck in my usual spot, not far from the Volvo there they were. All of the Cullens were there that morning. I was so shocked I just hopped out of my truck and ran into the building. I couldn't face him. After all of the anticipation of seeing him again, I was too afraid. Eventually I stopped running into school every morning but not much else changed. He never made eye contact with me, even when I had stood next to him in the lunch line. I thought that maybe he'd want to say something, or maybe I'd scare him off again. But, he just breezed through the line as fast as he could and went to sit with his family.
Two months happened just like that. I was growing sick and tired of the waiting. In calculus one morning I made up my mind. I would rush to the cafeteria as I always had, and I would say "Hello Edward. Just what the hell happened three months ago and why don't you ever look at me?" I would demand an answer and I would even invite myself to his lunch table. We would be friends whether he liked it or not. Not a very calm approach but I would go through with it anyway. I had to, for the sake of my sanity.
When the lunch bell rang I was out of the classroom in a flash. I walked so fast I actually fell down a few times, much to my embarrassment. But I decided to freak out about that later, I was on a mission. the cafeteria was empty except for the presence of the Cullens. Edward was in line as usual right behind little Alice, picking up an apple. I walked up slowly behind him. I moved my lips but no sound came out. I felt so weak. No! You can not let another day go by like this Bella. I thought to myself. Before I could take another breath the sound of his voice filled the quiet room. "Hello Bella.I,um, I was wondering if you would like to do something with me after school? I can pick you up at your house around three, if that is okay." I noticed Alice looking at me wide eyed and curious. Oh my! I hadn't counted on him talking to me! "Sure,that sounds fine, three o clock is fine."I said rather quietly as I stared down at my hands."Great,I'll see you at three then.Enjoy your lunch Bella." "Yeah, you too..Edward."
Then he payed for his food and walked away. I stood there looking after him in shock until someone bumped me from behind. "Bella! What are you doing? Your holding up the line!" said an irritated Amy, my friend from English class. "Sorry Amy, I'm just, uh, I am trying to count my money."I lied rather horribly." Well come on and hurry up so we can eat please." I paid for my food and went to my table with Amy, Peter, Cindy, Julie, and Tim. The motley crew of friends I had made here in Forks. I didn't touch my tray of food, and I didn't concentrate for the remainder of the school day either.
The final bell rang and I headed to the parking lot. Edward and his family were already driving away in the Volvo by the time I reached my truck. I smiled to myself and started to open the door until I heard a deep voice call my name.
"Bella. That's your name right? May I talk with you for a moment?" the stranger said. Was he a student? I had never seen him before. He was just as pale and beautiful as the Cullens except that he was very different. His hair was black and long, and a little untidy. He was dressed in all black and seemed to be rather tall and thin. He had a red lip ring and was wearing some sort of make up it seemed. But that isn’t what made him different. The difference was that the sound of his voice sent chills down my spine and made me feel like running. He looked at me as if he were going to murder me. I felt a veil of heat begin to fall upon me as he closed in the distance between us, and I started to panic. What was happening? It felt wrong, whatever it was. I shut my truck's door and said" Yeah, I'm Bella. And who are you?"
"I am Vincent Mascio. I am a student here. But I am somewhat of an outcast ,so you may not have known that I even exist. I live not too far from here and my brother and sister attend Forks High as well. I know you already know of the Cullens, they're distant relatives of mine you could say. I just wanted to introduce myself, Bella, because I think we will be seeing a lot more of each other." After saying that he began to stroke my face and run his fingers through my hair. Something was wrong, my body was reacting. Why on Earth would I allow a stranger to touch me? I wanted to get closer to him, to be pressed against his body. My mind was telling me not to move, that something was not right. How could I be so physically responsive to this strange boy? He ran a finger down from my collarbone all the way to my navel and I shivered in response." You see Bella, you interest me, and that doesn't happen very often. Truthfully it never happens." He wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his hands on my hips. Then he whispered into my ear." What a lovely girl you are Bella, you've no idea. Your driving me absolutely mad."
All I could do was be still. My body was trying to react to him, and my mind wanted to flee from him. I felt my eyes fill with tears as I mentally panicked. He let go of me abruptly and started walking away, but he turned around and said very slowly ,"I'll be watching out for you. Don't you ever forget that." Then he walked across the parking lot, into the woods and vanished.
All around me people were staring, looking shocked and afraid. I opened the door of my truck again, climbed in and began to burst into tears.
Days are all endless, no matter how you look at them. Not just for freaks like me who never died. No, not just for us immortals. So many things can happen within one day that can erase the importance of the rising sun. Things that will haunt you for all of your life.
"Vincent!" I heard her shout. Oh my,what have we here. Dalia could not live her existence in peace for one moment without bothering me. "Yes my dear sister. How may I help you?" I sighed with much hesitation. Dalia actually made me tired.Something that I am not ever supposed to be. She was a loyal and loving sister, but very paranoid. I somehow bore the brunt of all her anxieties. "Vince, you did it right? That Swan girl, you've got her in your loop? Right?!" said Dalia impatiently. "Yes. Not to worry,I did what I said I would. Maybe even a little more, she's very irresistible you know?" I winked at Dalia to give the illusion of a joke. She would not like it if she knew that I was serious."Shut up Vince.You know why we must do this. The Cullens are a threat to us now, they're no longer just a clan that we despise. Why aren't you showing any little bit of fear? You don't even seem angry?You've always loathed Edward, and now he could really have you incinerated.Don't even you care?! You look so...calm!" Dalia had been yelling so loudly that now my whole family was surrounding me.
"Damn you! I know what I am doing. Just because I am not walking around this place in a constant fuss does not mean I do not care. Our lives are at risk, I know this! Do not think that I am just slacking off. I secured my position with Isabella, of that I am sure. And I am all too aware of our dear Eddie boy and his family of fools. You do not have to remind me every five seconds!" I shouted.
"Son,she is just concerned for us is all. You haven't seemed like yourself lately. Is something wrong?"Said my father,Fredrick. Yes father, I do not want to have a part in your plan to overthrow them anymore. I don't even want to go back there period! I want to go off alone, but that girl is keeping me here with her mere existence. I chuckled then grit my teeth and said "No father, I am fine. I just really appreciate my privacy and time alone. Dalia will not let me rest,not even in my own room. It is overwhelming me and I would like for it to stop immediately and without fuss. I would hate to have to use my abilities on someone like her." At that moment my usually quiet brother,Franco, burst into laughter, and slapped his large hands on knees."Superb Vince, superb!" he exclaimed.
With that, Dalia left the room and shot me a look of hatred. I smiled in response.She knew I meant what I said and that thought disgusted her."Vincent, I would just like you to know that we are here for you. We are all in this together as a family. Your father and I love you very much. We accepted you as you were years ago, and we still accept you for who you are today." It figures my mother would find a way to make the moment sentimental ."Thank you. I know that mother.Now if you all don't mind, I' would like to be alone."
My family sat up from their Indian style positions they had been sitting in on my floor, and left the room. Finally.I thought to myself. I sat up from the chair I had been sitting in and went to lay upon my pointless bed. I stretched myself out along the length of the bed,and even covered myself with a blanket.My bed was on the left side of the room, with two large bay windows.On the other side of the room were my desk,dresser,stereo,and full length mirror. The middle space wasn't very large but my Persian rug made it look quite nice. It was a very quaint room, but I loved it. I began to hum a tune I had not hummed in a very long time, and glanced around my tiny room. My eyes stopped upon the large mirror.I quickly looked away. Golden eyes.Golden eyes.I hated them. Despised them in fact. I missed the shimmer of the red that my eyes once were.Crimson and fierce. Fierce like me. I may not have missed the lifestyle that they came along with so much anymore.But I missed those eyes. I hated anything that made me similar to Edward, and that meant I hated a lot of things. Even my existence.
I felt a smile stretch across my face and I twisted a piece of my hair with my finger.Edward, Edward,Edward. What a fool that boy was. Thinking he could be..happy?! What nonsense! I quickly changed my thoughts to something less bothersome to avoid becoming angry. I needed to relax now. I searched for something calm to think on, and there she was again, that girl. Floating all about in my head bringing these odd feelings along with her. One of those feelings was peace. I welcomed that particular emotion and closed my eyes,thinking of what tomorrow would bring. Thinking of her.
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As soon as I arrived home I started the water for the shower and stripped myself of my clothes. I felt as if I'd been invaded. Mentally and emotionally. All I could take care of now was my physical self, so I tried to focus on that. I let the hot water fall down my back and ease some of the tense feeling in my shoulders. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried so hard not to think of that face. Every couple of minutes my body would shudder without my permission and h is face was so clear in my mind. His voice,his scent,his...NO! I am not going to think about all of that right now. I am finally getting a chance to talk to Edward I will not let what happened stop that from happening.
I turned off the water to the shower,got out and dried myself of. I avoided looking into the mirror until I was sure of my own nerves. I found a light blue top with a neck line that wasn't my usual style and a good pair of jeans, and hurried into them. I walked,hesitantly over to my mirror and night stand with all of my hair and make up products and found that I really didn't look as insane as I felt. I let out a little sigh and glanced at the clock. 2:45.
"Fifteen minutes! Ahh I've got to hurry!" I blew dry my hair in record time,flat ironed a few pieces so that it didn't look to fluffy and put it into a neat looking ponytail. I looked through my make up which I hadn't worm much of since I'd been living in Forks and decided that lip gloss and a little eyeliner liner would do.
My heart was pounding. Since the incident had happened just an hour ago, I hadn't once though of Edward. Even though it was extremely odd that he had asked me to do something with him,even though I'd been waiting all of this time to talk to him. Just what had happened with Vincent? I winced as I thought his name. I felt tears well up in my eyes and snapped out of my silent panic. I breathed two long breaths and hurried down the stairs just in time to hear knocking at the front door.
I opened the door with shaky hands and there he was. The person who had haunted my thoughts and dreams for these these past three months was finally right here within reach.
Edward was staring at me with a questioning look in his eyes and I realized I had probably been starring at him for far too long without speaking."Hi,um, come in", I said in a voice that was somewhat crackly. "Thank you" he said closing the door behind him.
The silence could have truly been cut with a knife. We stood in the hallway just looking at each other for quite a long moment and a new realization hit me. Why hadn't I noticed before? How couldn't I have was the better question. For the first time I was able to really see his eyes. They were a golden color that was so obviously not common I felt stupid for not ever noticing them. I tried thinking of all of the other times I had seen him. What color had his eyes been then? As I thought back to lunch today I realized the were the same then,but the fact that he was even talking to me kept from wondering about them,and everything that happened after school kept from wondering about him at all. Then,other times I remember making eyes contact with him,his eyes were so dark they looked black. But this color was so opposite...Hazel eyes? I suppose I hadn't actually made enough eyes contact with him these past three months to be able to say for certain if something was actually really different about his eyes.
"Is there a place where we can sit and talk Bella?" Edward's voice interrupted my thoughts and I felt my heart skip a few beats. How rude must he think I am? Not even offering him a place to sit, and looking at him as if he were an alien. "Of course! I'm sorry. It's just that, I'm a little tried. Maybe even delirious. Follow me."
I led him into the living room and he sat down on the edge of the sofa,not completely relaxed but he smiled a warm smile an me and I sat down beside him. I was just about to offer him some kind of beverage but he cut me off. " Bella, I just wanted to apologize. That day in the parking lot was so uncalled for. I was so rude to have behaved that way, I can hardly believe that I did. Please, allow me to explain what happened. You see, from time to time, I become overwhelmed with school and I just leave. I had some trouble with a few students and I wanted to get away for a while,you know clear my mind. So i just visited some relatives. I know it seemed like you triggered my outburst but it was simply coincidence. I was so ashamed of myself when I came back, that I just tried forgetting about it and tried avoiding you. But I see now that I owe you a proper apology. Please Bella,forgive me? I'd like a chance to start over."
I couldn't speak. I couldn't pinpoint it, but something about that confession felt wrong. No, it felt like a lie. Another part of it was so genuine that I felt myself get teary eyed and my heart beat was racing. I believed that he was sorry, but I knew that I had been the reason for what happened. I couldn't shake that nagging feeling that there was something,something big he left out of that apology.
"Edward, I forgive you. I was never angry with you or begrudging you or anything. But I know that I was the reason for you freaking out and I want to know why. You can trust me,just tell me the truth." I said, and I inched toward him unconsciously. He seemed to notice and inched away from me slightly.
"Bella, what I am telling you is all that I can tell you. Please,accept this,otherwise there's is nothing left for me to say. Please..."
He looked so fragile and so vulnerable. A complete contradiction to how I'd normally seen him. What could I do? I wanted to push him to answer me. To tell me everything that he was hiding,bit I knew that if I did he would surely leave. And something inside of me ached at that thought and I decided,for now, I'd accept his answer.
"Okay." Was all I managed to say before his phone rang. He gave me a quick smile and said "Thank you Bella. I don't deserve your forgiveness,but thank you." Then he pulled out a slick black phone from his pocket and flipped it open. "Yes,Alice. What? That's strange. Tonight will be my turn then. Yes,see you then." Edward snapped his phone closed then turned his full gaze completely upon me.
I felt my insides flutter and all I wanted was to be close to him. It was an urge,so natural,and so instantaneous, that I had to bite my lip and grasp my hand on the sofa to keep from going insane. What was wrong with me? What was I feeling anyway? I had never liked a guy before, but I didn't like Edward did I? That word seemed so,minuscule.
"Can I offer you something to drink?"
"Thank you, but no thank you. I'm not at all thirsty Bella."
The way he said my name made me smile and without seeing my face, I knew that I looked,stupid. For lack of a better word.
"I was thinking that maybe would could go for a walk,if you'd like."
"Um, I could use some fresh air and we'd better take advantage of the fact that it isn't raining today. So that sounds great to me."
I walked to the hallways closet and grabbed my black jacket and noticed that Edward wasn't wearing one. "Hey I know it isn't raining but it is still kind of cold, it is October." I said, waving my finger up and down in the direction of his upper body.
He chuckled." Oh,I did forget my jacket. But I'm sure I'll be fine. Ready to go?"
"Whatever you say,and yeah I'm ready." He walked over to me and followed me out of the house. I locked the front door and when I turned around Edward was so close to me that I stumbled back upon the door and felt my face get hot.
He instantly looked apologetic and held my arm as if I were falling and said "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to frighten you. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine,I'm just clumsy and uncoordinated. No harm done" I said with my voice,yet again cracking and I held up my hand to keep him from worrying further.
"Would it be alright if I held your hand so that you don't stumble? I'd like to walk into the woods a little and I wouldn't want you getting hurt."
I smiled widely, and instantly said "Yes.That would be great!" He smiled a crooked smile back at me and took my hand for about a split second.
I winced at his touch and at the removal of it. His hand felt like it was freezing.
He looked at me with panicked eyes. Somehow I knew that if I reacted negatively things would not go well. I needed to play this cool and not ask much from him until he was ready to open up to me. I got myself together and said in the most casual tone I could muster up " And you think you'll be fine without a jacket." Then I winked at him took his hand and we made our way off the porch and into the woods across the road from my house.
I tried not to tremble from his ice cold touch,or to stare at the look of horror on his face.
Chapter Four: Reaction
Why hadn't she ran off screaming? What was wrong with this girl? If she were normal,or sane, or at least had any common sense she would have ran back inside her house and hid in a closet at the touch of my skin. She would never have even accepted my offer for a walk. The bigger question was what was wrong with me?
Everything that happened was so out of my character not to mention so completely foolish! I would never touch a human if I could avoid it and here I was offering up my hand to this girl and feeling as if ti were completely normal. That was the problem. I was beginning to feel things, things I couldn't understand let alone ignore. I would have to talk to Carlisle later but for now I needed to act like everything wasnormal. And be thankful that this girl,was obviously not completely sane.
She had been leading me around through the forest for a about ten minutes as I panicked mentally and then collected myself. I needed to be verbal.
" I am sorry, I know I'm a little,cold. I went home today and forgot my jacket before leaving and throwing a ball around with my bothers. I didn't want to be late to see you and I decided that my body temperature wasn't of much importance." I lied smoothly. Not that the jacket would have changed anything. But she didn't know that.Truth was, I was so nervous about seeing her that I forgot not only my jacket but my good sense as well.
"No problem. It's not bothering me. So where do you want to go in here anyway?" She said much too casually.
"Just a little bit further,there's a nice area where the Willow trees make a kind of canopy, though we'll have to sit on the ground. I hope that's okay."
She laughed, and my ever still heart felt a little more alive.
"I'm not usually a nature girl,but I'll make an exception for today."
Then I laughed and we proceeded to walk in silence until we came to the Willows. She let go of my hand with a smile and I was all to thankful. We sat down just underneath the canopy of the trees in the cool mist of the silent forest. Bella tilted her head back with closed eyes and sighed deeply, seeming to forget that she wasn't alone. She opened her eyes and then turned to face me. Her cheeks warmed and I ignored the fact that her blood was sizzling all throughout her veins. I knew her heartbeat was rapid and in this isolated forest her scent was calling my name.
NO! I will not loose control! She does not deserve to die, and I don't want her to! I repeated that over and over until I thought I could speak without an edge of frustration on the tone of my voice. She was staring at me curiously without a hint of fear in her expression. Though I could tell that she was intuitive enough to know something was wrong with me. She wasn't stupid, but certainly not sane.
"Bella I'd like us to be friends. I, don't usually do this sort of thing. You know, hanging out,making friends. But I want to be you friend. I can't tell you why I just do. If you'd rather me leave you alone I will understand,but I wanted you to know that I would like to get to know you."
"No! I mean, I don't want you to leave me alone. I would like to be friends. I mean that Edward."
I wasn't shocked at her answer but I was shocked,and happy to hear the honest passion of her tone.
"I must admit, I haven't a clue at how to begin getting to know someone." I said sheepishly.
"Well I suppose, it's a natural kind of thing. You spend time with the person and in time you will get to know enough about them that everything just feels natural. Asking questions doesn't hurt.
For instance, what are your hobbies?"
"Well,I read often. In fact my room looks sort of like a library . I play piano and write my own music. I suppose I have a lot of hobbies,but those would be my favorite."
"That's amazing! I can't play a single instrument. I have always wanted to learn but yeah, the uncoordinated thing doesn't help."
We laughed together, and it felt so good. We continued talking until sundown about ourselves,our interests,our backgrounds(for me that was a put together story) about the future,and anything and everything that we could think to say.
"It's dark Bella, should I be getting you home?" I asked,hesitantly. I didn't want to leave her, but I knew I had to meet Alice in an hour.
" Your right, Char- er my dad will be home soon and I should be getting dinner ready,like I told you I like to take care of him." She said.
I took her hand and we walked back to civilization,away from the comfort of the forest, and I tried not to think of the way she trembled from my touch every so often.
When we reached her doorstep I didn't know what to say. Thankfully,she saved me from agonizing over my words.
"I had a great time Edward. I guess I'll see you in school,and maybe we can do this again tomorrow." I saw that she had to work up a little nerve to ask this and if I could I would have been blushing.
"Certainly Bella. I had a wonderful time today. I'd love to hang out again tomorrow." I said nervously. We exchanged smiles and said goodbye.
I turned to walk away, and stopped dead in my tracks when I heard her gasp aloud and fall to the ground. Almost simultaneously, my phone rang and something told me it was Alice.
I ran over to Bella and found her unconscious. I picked her up and cradled her in my arms. Then I ran with inhuman speed in the direction of my home.