The Twilight Saga

It has been 20 years since Edward left. Bella never stopped loving him.
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After All These Years

Setting: 20 years after Edward leaves in New Moon.

Chapter 1

Unlike some people, I loved washing dishes. It was the time that I allowed my mind to wander freely; the time where I replayed the day in my head; the time when I allowed memories to wash over me. Maybe it was the warm water. Maybe it was the feeling of washing everything away. Maybe it was that the window over the sink faced the forest and brought Edward back to my mind each day.

I didn’t push Edward from my mind anymore. The first year after he left, I couldn’t even think of him without clutching myself in physical pain. I couldn’t bear to say his name…couldn’t bear to hear it. But that had changed over the years. I welcomed the memories now. For me, there would never be another love. I knew I had found my one true love as a young woman. I knew Edward was the only piece that could complete me. Twenty years later, I still loved him.

Tonight, Edward was so clear in my mind. Jacob and his family had surprised me with a birthday cake. It was the first birthday since Charlie had died and they didn’t want me to be alone. I preferred to skip over birthday celebrations. Like most women, the thought of getting older was offensive, but for me birthdays also signified the end. The end of Edward and me-----the memory of my eighteenth birthday party at the Cullen’s was one of my blackest memories.

Jake and I remained best friends all these years. He imprinted on Anna when he was nineteen and they were married shortly after. Life had changed for Jacob after the Cullens left Forks. He no longer shape shifted. There was no need. Once in a great while, he would tell me that he smelled a sweet smell in the air, warning me to be careful. I think he thought it would scare me. It never did. I only hoped that meant that an old friend was passing by, or more importantly, Edward was near.

As I washed and dried the last plate, I replayed Jacob’s last words to me tonight. “Lock up good tonight, Bells. I smell a strong sweetness in the air.” He had no idea how I wished that were true.

I hung the dishtowel to dry and went out on the back stoop, staring at the forest. It was dark, but it didn’t scare me. Before turning in for the night I spoke out loud, “Good night, Edward. I love you.”

Chapter 2

I still kept the bedroom at the top of the stairs. I had repainted and gotten new furniture along the years. But in all those years, I never replaced the mattress. It was there that we talked for hours; there that he held me, and that we kissed. It was worn now, and honestly my back would most definitely benefit from a new mattress. I just couldn’t part with it.

I got ready for bed and turned on the bedside lamp. I opened my window a crack, like I had every night since he left. Then I took out my journal. I always wrote in it on nights that I felt particularly preoccupied with memories. I learned years ago that writing my thoughts down would often ward off the nightmares I had so often. Somehow I wasn’t sure it would help tonight. My journal, like anything else about my life, was not a typical journal. I actually wrote letters to Edward. I had filled over a dozen blank books with letters to him. Maybe someday, when I was gone, he would read them and understand the depth of my love for him. He would know that I figured out why he really left and that I eventually forgave him. Tonight was a night I knew I needed to write to him. And so I began…

My Dearest Edward,
I’ve missed you so much today. It’s my birthday. I turned thirty-eight today. That means it is almost 20 years to the day since you’ve been gone. I never would have believed that I would be without you after all these years. On days like today, I still feel the hole in my chest. I know it was your love for me that allowed you to leave. But, I wonder, do you still think of me? I love you, much now as ever before.

I stopped there because tears were making it difficult to write. I cried myself softly to sleep.

Shortly afterwards, the nightmare began. It was always the same when it came. Wandering in the forest. Calling out his name. Crying. Never finding him. Feeling so alone. And then…waking up in a cold sweat, sobbing for what I would never have again.
I tried to calm myself, counting my breaths, in and out.

Then I heard his voice, “Bella.”

I sat upright and looked around the room. It was empty, of course. But, I didn’t feel alone in the room. Oh, God. Tonight was particularly bad. I was having delusions again. It was years since I had heard the delusions this clearly. I tried to concentrate harder. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in…

I felt a cool breeze in the room and instinctively pulled the blanket higher to my chin.

“Edward?” I whispered into the dark room.

Table of Contents
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Chapters 1 & 2- on header of each page
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14

Chapter 15 -This is not clickable....look for it near p. 34

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21

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Hi, Everyone. Here's Chapter 5--I'm working on 6. I might even have it up tonight.

Chapter 5

“It’s been a long time, Jacob.” Edward said calmly.

“Not long enough, if you ask me.” Jake replied harshly.

“Jake, it’s probably best if you go. I’m ok, really.” I said, trying to avoid what I knew could be an ugly confrontation.

He ignored me. His anger was getting the best of him. His face had already turned red, his hands were in tight fists, and his body was visibly shaking. For a moment I wondered if it was possible that he could actually shift shape right in the store. “How long are you staying?” he growled at Edward.

“As long as Bella wants me to stay.” Edward answered.

“Bella doesn’t always know what is best for her. I suggest you head out the door and go back to where you’ve spent the last 2 decades.” Jake seethed.

“Jake!” I said obviously angry.

He turned and looked at me. “Stay out of this, Bella. He has no right being here.”

“No, Jake. YOU, stay out of this. This is my store and I decide who has the right to be here. I am perfectly capable of handling myself with Edward.”

He laughed angrily. “Yeah, I remember very clearly how well you handled yourself the last time that filthy bloodsucker was here. The catatonic look wasn’t so attractive on you, Bells.”

Now I was really angry. “Don’t go there, Jake.”

Edward spoke up, “Bella, Maybe I should go. We can finish our talk tomorrow.”

I turned on my heel, facing Edward. “Don’t you dare go anywhere, Edward Cullen!” I said raising my voice.

I turned to Jake poking him in the chest, “You, Jacob need to leave, NOW.”

“Bella, don’t be angry with Jake.”, Edward interrupted. “He’s just trying to protect you. I understand that.” Edward continued, “I’m not going to hurt her Jacob.”

Jacob laughed angrily, “Yea, where have I heard that one before?”

Jacob turned and looked at me. “I will have my phone on all night. If he so much as even makes you feel one ounce of discomfort, you call me. I will personally escort his sorry ass out of Forks.”

Then turning to Edward, “I’ll be watching you, Leech.” He stormed out of the store leaving us standing there.

We stood in silence for a while, both not knowing how to proceed. My growling stomach finally broke the silence.

“It’s time to get some food into the human,” Edward laughed.
“Yeah, like I could eat right now.” I said.

“Seriously, Bella. Let me take you out for a nice dinner.”

“Honestly, Edward, I would rather just go home and heat up some leftovers if you don’t mind..”

“Oh, ok.” he said. He seemed disappointed, though I couldn’t understand why.

I walked around the store, turning off all the lights, before we headed out the door. I double checked the lock, like I always did and then turned towards the parking lot. My car was the only one left. “Where’s your car?” I asked him.

“With Alice.”

“ Oh, do you want to drive with me then?” I asked.

“No, Bella. It’s ok, I’ll just run home.”

I looked at him puzzled. “Home? Aren’t you coming with me?”

He tilted his head, processing my question, “Do you want me to come home with you? I thought you didn’t want to have dinner with me.”

“I never said that, Edward. I said I wanted to eat at home. And if my memory serves me correctly, we’ve actually never eaten dinner together.”

He laughed at that. “Well then, allow me to rephrase. Would you like to have the pleasure of my company while you are eating your human meal, Miss Swan?”

“Why, Mr. Cullen. I thought you’d never ask.” We both laughed as he walked around to the passenger side and got in my car.
it seems pretty wierd. a 38 year falling in luv with a 17 year old, or if u prefer 128 year old.
thanx u i was just thinking that!!!

Renesmee carlie black
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Chapter 6

The ride home went quickly as Edward and I made small talk about the weather and my "new" car. I had driven the big red monster longer than I thought possible, but it just never died until about five years ago. My "new" car was actually not so new and both Charlie and Jake had given me a lot of grief for buying it. Not because it wasn't a good car, no in fact it was a great car, even though it was already old. But that wasn't the reason they hated it. The real reason they hated my car was because it was a 2003 Silver S60R Volvo, the exact model Edward had driven when he was here in Forks. Edward, on the other hand, was getting quite a kick out of me driving it.

"Do you have an aversion to new vehicles, Bella?" He laughed when he saw it.

I must have looked as embarrassed as I was feeling, because he suddenly got more serious, "Bella, I'm kidding. I'm flattered, really. Honestly, I wouldn't have even guessed that you had been paying attention to what make or model I drove. You never cease to surprise me."

When we finally got inside the house, I went straight to the kitchen to scrounge up some leftovers. Edward was checking out the renovations I had done to the house. "You did a really nice job decorating in here, Bella. Your personality really comes through."

"Thanks," I mumbled. I still wasn't the greatest at accepting compliments but it pleased me that he liked what I had done.

He walked over to the living room, looking at the artwork on the walls, stopping to stare at the painting hanging over the couch.

"That's my favorite." I said watching him from the kitchen.

"Is this what I think it is?" he asked softly.

I nodded, "Umhm- Angela painted it for me."

"It's still there?" he asked incredulously. "It still looks like this?"

I nodded again. "I go there when I need to think. I took Angela with me one day. She was curious about the place I was always running off to. On the way up, I told her the reasons I loved it so much. She surprised me with the painting a few weeks later."

"She's very talented."

"Yes, she is. In fact, most of my artwork is Angela's."

He continued staring at the painting. I joined him in front of it now. "I never got to finish telling you why I'm here," he said, eyes still transfixed on the picture.

I waited silently for him to continue. But instead of finishing his thought he said, "Can we go there now?"

"To the meadow?" I clarified.

He nodded.

"Edward, it’s dark." I said.

"I know. I just really want to see it. Do you mind?" He asked.

"Edward, it'll take us hours to get there. We won't be able to see where we're going. You do remember I have coordination issues…Are you trying to kill me?"

"Silly, Bella." he laughed, " Do you think I'd make you walk? Besides, running in the dark is my specialty." He smiled that smile I love and I knew I couldn’t turn him down.

"OK." I agreed, "Just let me let me finish up here and change my clothes." I finished my dinner and washed the plate, then headed upstairs to change. Edward called Alice to tell her his plans for the night. That made me laugh since I was sure she already knew the moment we had decided.

I changed into a pair of jeans and a white long sleeved t-shirt. I pulled on a fleece top and found my hiking shoes before I headed back down the stairs. I was actually feeling excited about this trek. My favorite place in the whole world was the meadow...our meadow. I was looking forward to seeing it under the night sky.

Edward convinced me to let him drive us to the trail. His driving speed still petrified me, which he sensed. He looked over at me and smiled, "Built in radar, "he said tapping his forehead, "Remember?"

I smiled back, nodding. I still couldn't believe he was here, sitting right next to me. I stared at him as he drove. He hadn't changed at all. His skin was flawless and smooth. He was still so breathtakingly beautiful. It was like looking at the face of an angel. He hadn't aged at all. I wished I could say the same about myself. But the fact was that I had aged. I wasn't a teenager anymore. My face had some laugh lines now and the other day I had actually found my first gray hair. I sighed.

Edward frowned. "You're so quiet, Bella. What are you thinking about?"

“Just trying to take everything in that’s happened today.” I leaned my head back on the seat, still staring at him.

He smiled at me and reached for my hand. “You’re tired. I shouldn’t have pushed you to do this tonight. Do you want me to turn around? We can come back in the morning if you’d rather.”

“No, I actually am looking forward to this. As many times as I’ve come, I’ve never been here at night.” I answered.

The highway ended, and Edward pulled the car to the side of the road. We both got out and started towards the dark forest.

“Do you remember the way?” I asked.

“Like the back of my hand.” He replied. “Are you ready?”
“As ready as I’ll ever be.” I swallowed.

“Come on then, get up on my back.”

He reached for me and helped me up. My heart reacted to his touch as it always had before. His smile let me know that the pounding in my chest had not gone unnoticed. I clamped my arms and legs tightly around him.

“It’s been a while for you, Bella. I think you should close your eyes on the way up.”

He obviously hadn’t forgotten our first run and how dizzy the speed had made me. I hadn’t either for that matter. I nodded my agreement. And then we were running.

I kept my eyes tightly shut and my body wound around his. The movement was so smooth that if not for the feel of the wind, I’m not sure I would’ve known that I was moving. I opened my eyes partway through the run, only to shut them just as tightly as before. I had forgotten just how fast Edward could move. But then it was over.

“Bella, you can open your eyes now. We’re here.”

I opened my eyes but couldn’t see anything. The forest was pitch black. He unloosened my hold on his neck and pulled into a standing position next to him. He started to walk forward and I grasped his arm, stumbling as I walked into the blackness. He lifted me then and carried me a few steps until the moonlight broke through the trees, setting me down at the edge of the forest.

It was beautiful as usual, but in a completely different way. The moon hung directly over the small round meadow, as if God had placed it there just for tonight. A gentle breeze stirred the grass and crickets were playing their lullaby.

“Beautiful.” Edward whispered.

“It is,” I agreed.

“I wasn’t referring to the meadow, Bella. I was talking about you.”

I turned to look at him, feeling the blush on my face. He smiled and touched my cheekbone. “God, I’ve missed that blush.”

We were standing so close. My skin felt tingly like electrical currents were bouncing between us. His eyes were fixed on mine and I could smell the sweetness of his breath.

"Bella," he started in barely a whisper, "I need to tell you why I came back to Forks now.” He looked so serious that it scared me.

“Ok, “ I nodded, swallowing.

“Bella,” he said cupping my face in his hands, holding my eyes to his gaze, “ I love you. I’ve always loved you. And, I can’t be without you one more day. That’s why I’m here.” His hands left my face and came to rest of my arms, holding me gently. He looked tenderly into my eyes. I knew he was waiting for me to speak.

I stared at him for a long time. The tears came silently before any words. He waited patiently knowing I was trying to process what he had just told me. I didn’t think I could form any words. But I did know how I felt. I rose up on my tiptoes and took his face in my hands. Slowly, carefully I pressed my lips to his cold marble lips. I felt him stiffen slightly, but I wasn’t going to let him go. I had waited too long for this day. I pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. He gently pushed me back from him. “Bella, he said raggedly, “ It’s still dangerous. You can’t forget what I am.”

“I haven’t forgotten, Edward. I just don’t care how dangerous it is.”

He shook his head, looking at me incredulously, “Some things never change. ”

“Edward, my whole life has been dangerous. I’m not worried.”

“You should be,” he said solemnly. “You still smell more enticing to me than anything in this world.”

“Has it been hard for you tonight?” I asked. “Being near me, I mean?”

“Yes, but I’ve been gradually exposing myself to your scent each night when I visit, so it’s not as bad as it could be. The first night I came into your room was the worst so I stayed only a few minutes. Each night I increased the time, until I could tolerate the burn.”

I bit my bottom lip. I had always hated knowing I caused him pain.

“Don’t look so sad, Bella. It’ll get easier, the longer we’re together.” He lifted my wrist to his nose and inhaled deeply. “See, easier all the time.” He smiled.

“Now,” he smiled slightly, “I want to hear your thoughts.”
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