Broken Hopes: Sam meets his daughter.
“When you break a promise…even that trust is broken.”
Sam broke her heart, he dumped her for her cousin. Leah is completely broken…Sam leaves her in her most vulnerable state! She would have preferred death but something living inside her kept her alive.
It was raining down hard, defining the pain I had in my chest. I didn’t have anywhere to go. I hated him for doing this to my mother and me, his words had crushed me. I wish, I wish things were different. I sat down leaning against the rock and hugging my self. I realized I was shivering, but the cold rain and my drenched body wasn’t helping.
I started sobbing, wishing I had someone to love…someone to care for me.
“Mom, I want you…” I said through my sobs.
Note: All the known characters belong to Stephanie Meyer! And very few ones are mine.
Say no plagiarism. :)
Well we all know who she is. Not really. Leah Clearwater.
Imprinted can be a lame reason...at times. When you have to leave the person who gave you her whole life. Sam Uley.
You're present maybe different.
But the future is the reflection of past!~Adriana Uley.
I'm always here for you...I just want you to accept me. Yeah, that's all~Darren McKay
What happened to chapter 16?
It was deleted because of use of slang, I have uploaded it again correcting it. =)
A/N: I’m so very very very sorry!!!! I know I’m a horrible person for not updating sooner, but I was going through some really tough weeks! And I would have updated sooner, but I don’t have net connection anymore…I updating from a cyber.
A little brush up before you read this chapter… Adriana got some bonding time with Sam, he took her to PA and then they spent some time with Charlie and Sue and came back to find a very pissed Emily since Sam had stood her up!
Chapter 16: Destruction
I dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore…Anywhere, Evanescence
I sat on the bed hugging my knees, I was scared! I wanted someone to come and tell me that everything is going to be okay, I felt like a 5 year old. I was in my room; even though the door was closed I could hear Emily’s shouting…thankfully I couldn’t make out the words. I knew I didn’t want to hear them. I thought about how she had glared at me…until that moment I didn’t know she hated me so very much! I cringed.
All of a sudden everything was quiet. I couldn’t hear any more shouting. There was an edge in this silence…it was entirely eerie. After a while I heard footsteps and the door opened slowly.
“You’re still awake?” Sam asked. I nodded and studied his expression-it was helpless.
“I thought you would be asleep,” he said looking down.
“Well, she’s not so you better say it Sam,” I didn’t realise Emily was standing behind him until she spoke.
“I-I…” he stammered.
“Go on honey,” she said with sudden gentleness. I couldn’t doubt her love for him…she only hated me.
“Adriana, I want you to leave,” Sam said not looking at me.
“What?” I asked not understanding.
“I don’t want you here anymore, I love my family, and it’s they who matter more,” he looked in my eyes with so much composure that I believed him. They did matter more than me. Of course.
“Oh…” I found myself saying, my eyes had blurred.
“I m sorry, you staying here these past days was really nice, and I had a great time knowing you…but this has to end, you have to leave,” he said, I couldn’t read his eyes.
Finally the numbness broke. At his last words anger pulsed through me, I wiped my tears away with trembling hands.
“Fine!” I spat and got off the bed. He had done it again…first to my mom and now to me! I was his daughter! I was a part of him and now he was shunning me out of his life as if I was a piece of some trash!
“Look, I will arrange everything for you, you don’t have to worry, I will send money regularly and do everything I should, stay here for a couple of days and you can go back to Phoenix then,” I couldn’t believe what he had just said! He had the nerve to say that?!
“I m leaving now and I don’t want anything to do with you! Okay? I have lived 16 years of my life without a father and I know how to do that even now! Coming here was just a mistake…I thought it would be nice to have a Dad, but apparently I was wrong and I will leave,” I shouted and started putting my belongings in my bags.
“Look, don’t be like that. I m glad you came here…” he said. I ignored him.
“You don’t have to leave now, I will arrange everything!” he said and stopped me from packing holding my hand. Both of us were trembling.
“Let go of my hand!” I ordered with pure anger. Startled he left.
“And didn’t you hear what I said? I don’t want anything thing to do with you! Keep your money to yourself and your family!” I spat and continued with my packing.
“Don’t create a scene, its night any way…you can’t go any where,” he said shaking his head.
“Oh yeah? Watch me,” I said through gritted teeth. Everything was stuffed disorderly in my bags. I hadn’t changed into my night clothes, I put on my jacket and got the picture of mom and me and other little stuff left out. Also, I didn’t pack a single thing he got for me today.
“It doesn’t have to be this way,” Sam said defeated.
“It does. You said you didn’t want me here anymore! You don’t want me to be a part of your life…that’s what you told mom didn’t you?! Well, you’re saying it again..! I had started thinking nice of you…started forgiving you for what you did to my mother! But now you know what I think? I was wrong! Mom never forgave you…and I too m going to do the same, you want me out of your life, guess what? I don’t need you in mine.” my voice shook with pain.
I moved past through him carrying my luggage.
“Ade…” he called me.
“And one more thing…Sam Uley, you don’t deserve to be called Dad!” I said angrily and marched toward the main door.
Emily just stared at me.
“You’re such a witch! Always have been haven’t you?” I snorted, her eyes narrowed in order but she didn’t reply. She had gotten what she had wanted all along. Me out of her perfect life!
I walked out into the cold night ignoring Sam calling my name. I knew I didn’t have anywhere to go. Everything that I had was just left behind by me. The night enclosed me; I felt some reassurance which was very weird. I didn’t know where I was walking to…but I just walked.
I realised where I was and stopped. I was near the rocks on the beach, it had started to rain and I was drenched from head to toe. But I didn’t really feel cold…I was too numb for that. This was the only place that felt homely. Everything else was a stranger.
I sat on the cold rocks and hugged myself. I felt the hot tears roll down my eyes, and soon I sat there sobbing so hard that I shook. I still couldn’t believe what had happened. I wanted my mother! I wanted her to hug me! I wanted her to look after me! I wanted her to tell me she loved me and I didn’t need anyone else to make me feel special! I wanted her to tell me that she was my family! I wanted her to tell me that she will never quit loving me! I wanted her to be alive.
“Mom! I need you so very much,” I sobbed. I lay down on the rocks, the rain just poured harder and the night was very dark. I couldn’t even close my eyes. It was all coming back again…the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of not having anyone…the feeling of being left…abandoned.
Tears never stopped. I didn’t know how long I lay there, and the rain continued.
“Sweet heart…” I heard a husky voice. It seemed too far away. I shivered as warm hands pulled me in a hug.
“Darren…” I whispered and closed my eyes leaning in his warm chest.
“I m here…” he rubbed my back.
“Go away…” I managed to say through my sobs.
“No,” he said firmly and lifted me up.
I didn’t say anything; I didn’t have the strength to.
Even though I was in his arms I shivered the whole time…he opened the passenger door of his car and made me sit there.
“I m wet,” I croaked.
“Its fine,” he cupped his hand on my cheek.
“I m getting your bags, you stay here,” he said and switched on the heater and closed the door and left. I hugged my knees and rubbed my hands together to stop shivering. I didn’t know what was happening. I felt incredibly tired, numb and couldn’t stop shaking. Maybe it was because of the shock. I didn’t know…
I looked up startled as Darren sat in the car. I looked at him for the first time since he came. His eyes were tight around the edges as if he was trying to hold his emotions.
“Are you alright Ade?” he asked, his expression changed, he looked anxious and worried.
“No,” I found myself saying.
“I m gonna make it alright,” he said.
“Did Sam call you?!” I asked, I needed to know…I didn’t want any favours from my so called father.
“No…” his voice trailed.
“How did you find me?” I asked with difficulty.
“I don’t know…I just knew I had to come here…I just knew,” he said confusedly.
“Oh…” I didn’t know how else to react.
“Come-on, let’s take you home,” he said and turned on the car. “Why did you come here anyway? Were you trying to run away or something? What if something had happened to you?!” he sounded angry.
But I hardly heard his questions…I was stuck on the first statement of his.
“Home?” I stuttered.
“Yeah…” he looked so worried.
“I don’t have a home,” I muttered.
“Don’t be silly, I m taking you to Sam’s place,” he said confusedly and gave me a concerned look. Maybe he thought I was going crazy or having a mental breakdown.
“No! Stop!” I shouted understanding his words.
“What?” he turned to me.
“I don’t want to ever go back there! I don’t want to…” I started sobbing again.
“Don’t…don’t cry, please…I wont take you there, lets go to my home, okay?” he looked helpless.
“Okay,” I wiped my tears through trembling hands.
He put his arm around me, I was shivering so badly.
We didn’t speak the whole time; there was some peaceful silence between us. Soon he stopped the car. I snuggled closer to him and his arm tightened around me.
“We’re here,” he stated after a while and got down.
He came over to my side and took me gently in his arms. I didn’t protest, I didn’t feel like I could walk.
After we got in, Darren took me straight to a bedroom and put me on the bed wrapping a quilt around me, and then brought in my bags.
“You need to get changed, I will get you some clothes,” he said biting his lip. He handed me a couple of towels.
“I have clothes,” I whispered looking at the bags. Thank god for them being water proof.
“Oh, you change, I will get you some food,” he said and went out closing the door without waiting for my reply.
I stood there for few seconds, and then sighing went to my bags, I wasn’t really thinking, I picked out the first thing that felt comfortable. I went to the bathroom with my sweat pants and a tank top and inner wear.
I wiped myself dry and put on my dry clothes; I sneezed twice as I changed. I bundled up the wet clothes and placed them in the corner and went out. I was shivering again! And the minimum clothing wasn’t helping me. I sat on the bed hugging myself with the slightly damp quilt.
As I sat there trying to stop my shivering, I heard a knock.
“Come in,” I mumbled.
Darren came in with a tray and a bowl, he looked at me disapprovingly. He placed the tray on the table and went towards the wardrobe. He turned to me holding a sweater, I realised I was in his bedroom.
He helped me wear it, buttoning it up faster and then got the bowl and sat across me.
“I made some soup for you,” he said and handed it to me.
“I already ate,” I told him, it felt like years had passed since I had that dinner with Grandma. Oh. Grandma. I never thought of her, maybe I could stay with her for a few days until I arrange things with Carol. Yeah, I could do that. Some hope.
“It will make you feel better, please have some,” he requested.
When I didn’t make any move, he sighed and held the spoon in front of me. I swallowed the soup…I couldn’t taste it but the hot liquid felt good against my throat.
“Thanks,” I mumbled after a few spoons of soup.
“What happened?” he asked, I looked into his eyes…so worried.
My lower jaw trembled and fresh tears started rolling down my eyes. It was getting hard to breathe.
“Shush…just tell me what happened?”
“I…” I hugged him. His warm hands embraced me making me feel protected and loved.
“Tell me when you’re ready,” he whispered.
After a while my sobs subdued, I moved away from him feeling embarrassed at my outburst. I couldn’t look at his face. I loved Darren…and I knew he loved me too, maybe more than I ever could…but it felt like I was taking advantage of his love. Taken him for granted. Taking what I had decided not to.
“Where do I sleep?” I asked. I knew I was hurting him. I hated myself.
“You can sleep here, I’ll leave,” he choked. I knew exactly what he was thinking, that I didn’t trust him…that I didn’t love him at all.
I watched his back, he had hunched his shoulders. My heart broke into thousand’s of pieces…I needed him. He needed me…but I was rejecting his love. He would probably be the only one who will love me selflessly…forever. But I was destroying my future with him…for past.
She left! My daughter left…it felt like a part of me was lost. And I could do nothing about it.
When she came here I promised myself to keep her happy always…this was also a part of repentance. What I had done to Leah had ruined her whole life, I knew I left her broken beyond repair and she never healed. I always had that pain in my heart…when our daughter came here…I decided to fill those 15 years of her life of my absence.
But now she was gone…I had hurt her. I had done the exact thing that I did to Leah. I chose my imprint instead of my daughter. I had no choice…Emily is my life; I had to obey her every wish. But Adriana was my daughter, and the love I felt for her was very different…very strong. I knew I had done wrong, I had made things go badly…and I knew for sure that my life with Emily would never be the same. I never knew what it was to have a daughter, but when Adriana came into my life…
“Sam, sleep honey,” Emily broke my thoughts. I started at her blankly. For the first time her honey sweet voice didn’t appeal me…didn’t bring peace to me. I felt irritated instead.
I hadn’t spoken to her since Ade walked away, I had tried to stop her but she didn’t listen. I went out calling for her, but she didn’t turn.
I had walked back then straight to my room trying to think of ways to make sure she was safe. I could have easily phased but I didn’t want others in my head to despise me at what I had done.
“Sam, sweet heart,” Emily placed her hand on my shoulder.
“Go to sleep,” I told her and turned away.
I was aware that she was hurt, a part of me was in pain for her but I was worried for my daughter who was out there in deadly rain.
I just prayed and hoped that she would be fine.
I was the worst father ever…Adriana was right…I didn’t deserve to be called Dad.
A/N: Soooo…what do you guys think of it?! Was Adriana a little too dramatic in leaving? But come-on we cant blame her, she is Leah’s daughter! And it seemed liked the right thing to do, but on the bright side it brought her closer to Darren. Aw...I feel wretched hurting Darren, please don’t hate me! But I promise, next chapter things are going to change a lot. Hint hint *more Darren~Adriana*
Alrighty, a review? *puppy dog eyes&pout*
Awesome chapter! Gosh, Emily is really starting to annoy me. But Sam is still to blame, he shouldn't have listened to her.
I hope that Adriana tells them about what happened to Leah soon. It seems like even Emily might soften a little then.
Haha, update soon!
Ahh :( I am glum now!
How could he choose Emily over his own flesh and blood? that's so screwed up...
Gosh!! What is wrong with Sam? He's so screwed up and Emily, what is going on in that brain of hers? How could she make Sam do that to Ade (that's my nickname for Adrianna)?
Love the moment between Darren and Ade and might I say Darren is gorgeous, well he is a werewolf!
not bad bt emily is gettin on my nerves bt other than that i loves it
Wow...thank you so much! :') its really amazing to get such response from a reader! Thank you! :))