Bella’s happily ever after lasted two days. This is Bella’s own account of what happened after Breaking Dawn, her growing understanding of her powers, her battle to remain with the man she loves, finding her place in her new family, and the ever-present threat of the Volturi.
New posting Chapter 55 - Postscript
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From the moment I walked through the door I could feel his eyes on me. Boring into me, owning me, watching even the minutest move I made.
I thought that I’d lose this intuition when I became a vampire. But in reality it had just got stronger along with everything else.
I thought for a moment about the one big change that my transformation had made, my thirst. Although I was still young, and the thirst for blood should be overwhelming, I had been able to handle it from the first moment I awoke in my new life. No one knew why that was. I could cope with human scents even up close, when I should have wanted to drink them dry. The scent caused me physical pain, an intense burning from my nostrils all down my throat, and feeling my throat squeezing tight with the dryness. But it was bearable. This was unusual for a new born. My kind usual manage this much control after a few years. But even with my self control the thirst was still there, the longing for something to put out the dryness.
My mind churned again. My mind could think of so many things at once. The dryness was always one of my thoughts, sometimes near the surface, then moving back into the background. I could keep all the thoughts in my mind -- juggling two, five, ten thoughts in parallel -- but never mixing them. Like watching ten TV channels at once. Another vampire trait.
Maybe I was just being paranoid. Maybe there was no one looking at me. I still hated attention just as I’d done as a human, I still shied away from it. I was just letting my imagination run away with me again. No one was looking at me. But I could hear his heartbeat six feet to my left, slightly behind where I was standing. He was sitting on a chair next to the loveseat. He was close enough to feel the warmth of his skin in the cool of the morning air. I could smell the strong scent of the skin pouch he wore round his neck. A smell that forced out every lesser smell from that part of the room, like a car headlamp blinding out a flashlight. It was not just the animal fur with its heavy notes that I could smell, but what was inside it. The herbs and berries that it contained, each type giving a new harmony to the smell. Some sharp, some sweet. Some I knew -- citrus, juniper, cinnamon -- some I had no words for.
Maybe he was just looking at Nessie like everyone else in the room. My four month old daughter was reciting a poem for her audience in her beautiful childish voice, complete with dramatic pauses and carefully characterized accents for the speeches. She was a very advanced four month old. She looked more like a small four year old, but she would have been counted as a genius in any preschool. This was because she was half vampire and half human, and of course could never be allowed in preschool. Her brown hair, with a tinge of bronze that came from Edward, fell down her back in beautiful curls. Her eyes were a warm milk chocolate color that had been mine when I was human, and were now excited by the attention she was receiving. Her complexion was pale with a healthy pink glow of excitement. We knew now that her rate of growth and progress would slow and she would be fully mature in another 6 and half years, and then live forever. We’d learned this from Nahuel only two days before. My dark worries of losing Nessie had vanished. We’d thought we would have to watch our daughter grow old and die in fifteen short years, and we would mourn her for ever.
I didn’t look to check if I was right about Nahuel and his staring. I had caught his eye only once that morning, when we came in and gave the usual greeting to our family and their two remaining guests.
I still didn’t understand why these guest were still here. Yes, I was grateful to them, especially him. So grateful it hurt. He had saved us all: my daughter, my husband, my vampire family, my wolf friends, and me. And he put himself and his father and his sisters in danger. How could I not be grateful to him. We all were.
I’d asked Edward twice why they had not left with the other guests after the standoff with the Volturi. The first time was after the celebrations when all the other guests had left and we had taken Nessie back to our cottage to sleep in her own bed. This was the first day that we’d met them, the first day of the stares. Edward had given his answer, saying Nahuel was so glad to know that a family like ours could exist. A family with a half vampire child, the only one Nahuel knew of that was not related to him, and a surviving mother. Nahuel’s mother died in child birth and so did the mothers of his half sisters.
It is rare to find a vampire who would want a physical relationship with a human woman, even rarer to find a women who survived such an encounter. Her life could end at any moment if he did not concentrate fully on keeping her alive. And what about the outcome of such an encounter? Mortals are not compatible with half vampire babies, the babies are so much stronger than the women. I had only survived thanks to the care given to me by my vampire family and because Edward changed me into a vampire as soon as the baby was out. The memories of this violent birth were now dimming for me. The vampire venom had mended the terrible damage and left me whole, strong, and beautiful.
According to Edward, Nahuel had spent his long life, over 150 years, thinking he must be evil to the core to have killed his mother. But seeing me set him free from his guilt. He now blamed his father for not caring for his mother as Edward had for me, and for not changing her when Nahuel ripped his way out of her.
The second time I’d asked Edward why Nahuel and his aunt (a full vampire) were still with us, Edward said that they wanted to learn more about our vegetarian lifestyle. This was how we liked to describe our abnormal hunting habits in the Cullen family. Unlike other vampires we only hunted animals, not humans. This gave us distinctive golden eyes which intrigued the normal red-eyed vampires. When I asked this second time, it was not what Edward had said that set me thinking but the way he said it. If I wasn’t his wife and didn’t know him so well I would not have noticed the slight tightening of his straight shoulders under his tan colored jumper, and that he was holding his perfect jaw a eighth of an inch higher than normal. He was lying to me.
Edward lied a lot. He had to. When you can read the minds of everyone in a mile radius then you have to lie to appear normal. You have to learn to ignore the thoughts most of the time. You have to answer only the questions people say out loud and not all the far-reaching ones they think in their heads but don’t dare ask. Edward also felt he must not betray confidences of those around him. It was not as though he could stop hearing thoughts if he wanted to, and not as if people could stop thinking when he was around, so he just didn’t pass these thoughts on. I was a shield which meant that he could not read my mind, not even when I was only human. Now that I was a vampire I had learned to remove my shield if I wanted, but I could only do so for a few moments at a time and even then it was exhausting work.
But why would he lie to me about why Nahuel and Huilen were still here? We had just made it through the worst danger imaginable: the whole of the Volturi forces lined up against us, the judges, jury and executioners of the vampire world. We had survived that, so what now? What was he covering up? Surely we had to have a break from peril sometime.
Maybe bad luck was something that I’d brought with me into this life. Since I met Edward as a human I had always had bad luck. My life before Edward, before my return to Forks to live with my Dad, Charlie, was a quiet life in the big city of Phoenix with my Mom, Renée. The memory of this former life was becoming hazy, almost a pre life to my human life, as if I was now in my third life, not my second. I’d had too much on my mind to sit down and think about it, though that was the only way my family said that I would remember it for the future. As I remembered it now, it was a happy but lonely time of looking after my hair-brained mother and being the adult in the relationship even though I was the child. She didn’t need to be looked after in a physical way but in an emotional one, helping her to organize and control her life. I was the one who made sure we went to the store when we needed groceries and that we went to the bank when the bills needed to be paid. In many ways you could say I was her keeper rather than her daughter. This role was taken by Phil, her husband of nearly three years.
I argued with myself that I had already brought my shield through to my vampire life along with my strange ability for self control. I was sure that I could not have brought anything else. I had left my clumsiness behind, which was a truly good thing. I now moved so fast and was so strong that if I was clumsy lots of things would get broken. Not just inanimate objects, but living things. Even people.
I looked over at Edward, to keep my eye from straying to Nahuel. His beauty never failed to amaze me. He was stunning. His eyes were a warm amber color. But this morning more like stone than liquid. Something was bugging him. No doubt he was hearing things he didn’t like. His face muscles twitched slightly and his teeth locked together noiselessly. His smile remained, a facade to keep the others away from his upset within. I had no idea what he had heard or who it was that was having these thoughts, but my mind turned to Nahuel again, though I didn’t let my eyes follow. Edward would tell me when it was right and certainly not in the middle of this gathering.
Edward applauded when Nessie came to the end of her poem, pride now on his face. I felt a jolt of joy at his pride. I was proud of her, naturally, and applauded loudly too. But to have him so in awe of her gave me such a feeling of belonging. I had, in the end, been able to give him something so worthwhile. A daughter, our miracle. It made up for the lack of balance in our relationship. He had given me everything: his love, his life, my new life, money, possessions, a home, a car, a family. But the one thing that that he had never imagined, that none of our vampire family had thought possible, came from me. She was a delight to them all, and especially Edward.
It was only as I turned away from Nessie’s performance that I noticed Alice was staring into thin air, her eyes out of focus, completely still. I knew she was seeing something. My sister’s ability to see into the future was enviable. It had made her top of the Volturi’s list for acquisitions. It was this ability that had saved the family and herself many times over. The future she saw was only one of the possible outcomes. If decisions that had been made were changed then what she saw would change.
“Demetri is coming,” she said simply in a clear chiming voice, not altering her stance at all. “Aro has decided. He will follow Carlisle to us.”
Carlisle was at her side in an instant. “But why?” he whispered. “Why now?”.
The image of the the Volturi tracker was instantly in my mind. It was not possible for anyone normal to run from Demetri. He had a gift for finding them. But this gift needed access to someone’s mind, and it was something I could block with my shield. As well as being a tracker, Demetri was a warrior, with centuries of experience working with the Volturi.
“But why, Alice?” he asked again.
Alice had gone back into her trance. This time it took her over a minute to come round. “He comes only to observe,” she said with a little relief in her voice. “Aro will order him to stay with us and just observe. He is to watch Nessie grow for Aro and to find out more about the wolves for Caius. He is to cause us no trouble. He will be ordered to hunt like us. Aro wants to see how this will change his character. He is report back regularly by letter. This order will be made at full council the day after tomorrow. He will arrive three days after that.”
She looked around the stunned room.
“Please look for more,” Carlisle urged her.
“Demetri will bring a note with him from Aro but they know that I can see what it says so you will be forewarned. Aro is staring at it so that I can read it...
My Dearest Friend Carlisle,
I am sending my dear one Demetri to visit you as an emissary. I feel that our last meeting left a rift between us which I want to close. I have asked Demetri to learn about your life style and your beloved granddaughter so that we may better understand each other in future.
I ask you to take Demetri into your hearts and your home, and to this end I will ask him to make himself useful to you and cause you no trouble. Please use him as a son.
Yours in friendship,
Carlisle looked aghast. “Is there more?” he said, shaking his head.
Her face returned to the distant mask, but seconds later disgust was clear on it. She came back to the present again shaking her head. “Uh, that is so gross”.
“I saw part of the inner council meeting that was only the family, no guard. It is so gross.” she said, hardly able to speak for revulsion. “Aro says he wishes to watch a half vampire child develop first hand. He says that he will order Demetri to try to father a child when he has returned from his visit. He laughs and says that he may have learned some restraint from us. The mother is to be the only human they trust, their administrator Gina. They will promise her immortality if she successfully gives birth, but she has no choice. If she says no, she’s lunch. He says it will be a great honor for Demetri to father a child to be brought up and studied in Volterra. Caius is against the idea, the decision will be put off until a later date... I can’t see further than that, I’m not attuned to them, I can’t see so far ahead into their futures, I can’t see if she will become pregnant or if they will kill her, it is many months away, it may change.”
There was stunned silence.
All the joy after the last successful encounter with the Volturi was gone.
Then the speculation started. Alice could see the event but not the motivation behind it. It boiled down to three simple questions: why this? why now? and why Demetri? A dozen answers to each question came from the gathered family. The most likely answer was that they wanted to catch us doing something against the rules as soon as possible, and Demetri can stand up for himself.
The others gave little thought to the planned baby. It was beyond the immediate worry and didn’t affect us personally. But my mind was on Gina and how I could help her. I had only just survived my own pregnancy and I had had good medical care and love from all my family. I felt cold, cold to the heart.
Had I started some new vampire fashion? Would lots of vampire males want to father children? And what of the vampire females, would they want to become stepmothers? I thought of the loss of human life. I thought of Gina.
I found myself a spot on the floor and sat there still, shocked, horrified.
The discussion went on for nearly an hour, until Carlisle looked at the clock and said that he had to go for his shift at the hospital.
He turned to our guests, “Nahuel, Huilen. It may be best if you were not here when Demetri comes to call. I do not wish to ask you to leave but for your own safety I must ask you to think about what you want to do. You know you have our thanks for what you have done for us, and I owe you for the safety of all my family. You are welcome here at any normal time.”
It was Huilen who spoke this time. She spoke simply in her heavy accent. “We will leave before he arrives.”
Carlisle smiled warmly at her. “That is for the best. We can visit you before long, and maybe meet Nahuel’s sisters if that is possible.”
The others continued to speculate after Carlisle had gone, Emmett debating with Jasper the possibility of beating Demetri in a fight. Jasper thought that if there were several of us it may be possible, but it would only bring the rest of the guard down on us, a battle which we would not win this time.
Alice touched me lightly on the arm, tutting at my pants and jumper combination. My favorite sister was never happy with my lack of fashion sense. But she could see the future, and would have known the day before about this particular lapse of mine. I thought to myself that I would suggest to her that she warns me in advance next time, so that I don’t disappoint her again.
“You know, I thought you would have learned a little by now Bella,” she chided quietly. “I will just have to take you back to your cottage and show you how to match up those pants myself. I didn’t spend weeks putting together your wardrobe for you to use it like this.”
That morning I must have really gotten under her skin. How could she care so much about fashion when she’d just given us the news about Demetri? Really. It made no sense.
I looked down at my outfit. It didn’t look that bad to me. I’d made sure that some of the threads in the jumper were exactly the same tone as the pants, but if it made her happy we could be home and back in a very short time. A few minutes out of the house would do me some good.
“Edward,” she chimed. “I’m taking Bella back to your cottage, can you look after Nessie by yourself?” The look on her face one of great effort.
He smiled warmly at her. “By myself? I don’t think that I will ever be allowed to look after Nessie by myself. She has too many fans for that.” He looked quizzically at her while he made his answer, as if they were having another inaudible conversation but failing to understand each other.
It was true. Most of the room were watching Nessie again, just waiting to see what she would do next, fascinated by her. Her Aunt Rose and Grandma Esme sat on the floor with her.
“We’ll see you soon,” Alice chimed again, wincing with effort, like a small child trying to remember a really difficult times table sum.
As soon as she said this I looked around the gathering to smile a normal goodbye. Then I saw him, Nahuel. He was staring at me. Staring at me with total adoration in his eyes as if I were the only thing he could see in the world. The only thing he had ever seen. Like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
Oh no... no please no, I screamed inside my head. My face turned from a smile to sheer dread, his calm face turning from adoration to puzzlement at my expression.
Edward stiffened beside me, but said nothing.
Alice tugged my sleeve and we were off through the patio doors at the rear of the house, running back to my cottage hand in hand. I was only too glad to go, and Alice's excuse was perfect.
As soon as we were over the river she said in a very hushed voice, “Shield me, stop him reading my mind.”
New posting Chapter 55 - Postscript
Forgive me catching up ever so slowly. I'm bad about keeping up with all of the fan fictions I read.
This was a really good chapter. Even though Fred has caused so much chaos, I really do hope that he returns somewhere into the story. I kind of like him. :)
I'm excited to read the next chapter, I think Bella trying to find out more about herself will make for an interesting time with Eleazer.
I'm glad you like the inclusion of Fred, he is such a great charater. I just feel so sorry for him. A good guy who was dealt a bad hand both human and vampire, not fair at all.
And how is he going to feel about Bella? Well, how would you feel about the only person in the world who can bare to be near you, especially if you find them very physically attractive.
I've put up Chapter 14 now so please enjoy when you can.
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I'm glad that you're still enjoying the story.
I hope that you are plesaed by what Eleazar says - it's important and will effect the rest of the plot.
I have just got around to reading the new chapter. I love the cliffhanger at the end... nothing like a little suspense teasing :D nothing more to say other than your story is simply brilliant.
Hi Dark One,
thank you for being supportive about the cliffhanger - some people don't like them at least that is what they say...
I'm glad you are enjoying the plot. I will post the next chapter soon.
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The next chapter is important so please read it when you have time.
“I can only throw off my shield for a very short time,” I admitted. “It takes a great deal of concentration.” And with that I did concentrate again. It was so much harder than it was at the cottage with Edward. I still ached from using my shield earlier. It hurt like trying to throw a heavy rock would have hurt when I was human. But somehow I managed for a few seconds. I concentrated so hard I had to close my eyes.
When I let my shield fall back and opened my eyes, Eleazar's face was full of alarm. “Bella,” he hissed, “you have such great powers. Powers that I have never seen before. There are a few with something similar, but nothing like this.”
“Eleazar, what do you think that I can do?” I was surprised by the look of terror on his face.
“Bella, you have the ability to put thoughts into people’s heads.”
“Oh, like Nessie. Well that's not so bad, is it. Why are you looking so worried by that?”
“No Bella,” he whispered. “You put thoughts into minds, not pictures. You can make people think the way you want them to think and they will not realize that it is not their thought. Not a picture but a thought. Thoughts don’t just go away immediately like a vision. They can stay buried in the mind for a long time, then surface. Or they can swim around at the front of the mind, and dip below, and resurface later. Forgive me, but what Nessie can do is child’s play in comparison with you.”
“Well, I don’t think you can be right about that,” I tried to reply, but he immediately turned on me.
“Do you find you have too many admirers at the moment?”
“Er, well, er, yes, as a matter of fact ...” If I could of, I would have blushed scarlet at this. “I have had a little trouble in that area. What of it?"
“You are putting a thought into everyone’s mind of love me.I think that you will find some are much easier to convince than others, but they will all fall in the end.”
I was smiling now. He must have this very wrong. “Are you really trying to tell me that I’m convincing every vampire I met to love me?”
“Yes, and every human too, I would say.”
“But I’m not, I’m not doing anything of the sort.” I snapped “I’m a happily married woman with a child, for goodness sake. Why would I do something like that?”
“You are doing it. I can feel it. I think all the men around will fall for it. We are attracted to you but without too many thoughts around it. Just the thought I love Bella. It is weak in my mind and I can suppress it easily enough. But I don’t spend too much time around you. It must be much harder for the men you live with. I think women would mostly feel I love Bellaas friendship, but there will be some that don’t. I know that you don’t know that you are doing this, but you are. You need to accept it and control it before you cause too much trouble for yourself and Edward.”
“You must have this wrong,” I stammered. “I can’t control people’s thoughts. I’ll pull my shield away again, please look again.”
I pulled it away, this time for longer. I had to fight, but I won against it. When I opened my eyes this time Eleazar was confused.
“There are other things too. I can feel something. I’ve felt it before very weakly in others, but I’m not sure what it is.”
“Who are these others?”
“It may come from your mother. At your wedding I felt she had some talents, but it is not the same because she is human and I can’t tell as well as I can with a vampire. It seems like yours, but with a different aspect, like the same patten in a different color.”
“My mother? Renee? But she’s just ... ”
“And then there’s Chelsea, of course. She has it more strongly than anyone else, but only a tenth of your strength. And then there is Alice and Siobhan, they both have only a smattering, the same pattern, though very weak and in a different color."
"And sometimes in Jane and Alec I see it, just a tiny amount, very very weak, less than a watermark on a piece of paper."
"I know this sound very odd, but it is the only way to describe what I feel. I’d not really put it all together until now, until I felt your talents."
"Bella, it is a great power I can feel, but I don’t know what it is or what it does. You are not like any vampire I have met before. Bella, you have more power than the ancients in Volterra.”
He looked at me gravely. ”You must keep away from them. Whatever you do, keep away from them. Aro will want you or he will kill you. There will be nothing else there for you.”
I just stood frozen to the spot. He expected me to believe that I had inherited some great power from Renee, but he couldn’t tell me what. Was this a joke? Maybe he was deranged by his sickness. I didn’t know what to say to him. I was cross and worried for him, both at the same time.
After a silent minute, Eleazar said, “I’m going to go into the forest now so that I won’t be near Edward. I think that you should tell him this rather than him hearing it in my thoughts. I’ll make sure that you have left before I return to the house. Goodbye Bella, I wish you well.” And with that he was gone.
I wondered why he had left so fast. Did he think his joke had fallen flat? Or maybe he thought I was very infectious or something. Did he think he was going to fall in love with me if he stayed here another moment? I felt gutted and alone. I wanted Edward. What started as an idle curiosity had gone wrong, badly wrong. Either Eleazar was mistaken for some reason – and that wasn’t good – or, worse still, what if he were right? I doubted Eleazar, and then I doubted my own doubt.
I ran off in the direction that Edward and Carlisle had gone to hunt but pulled up after a minute. I needed to get it together. Eleazar was wrong, I was sure of that. There must be some other explanation. I had to pull myself together before I saw anyone else or I would worry them too. I sat on a rock covered in snow; it didn’t feel cold to me. There would have been relief in tears but I couldn’t even do that. I debated hunting but I really wasn’t thirsty. If I were human, I would have cried, slept, cried some more, and eaten too much chocolate, and then understanding and acceptance would have come. But here in this stone body I was trapped.
What options were there? Firstly, Eleazar was just wrong. This was the most likely explanation and was easiest to accept. He’d looked confused and said that he'd not seen anything like this before, so if this option was correct I wasn’t sending out a thought to everyone to love me. Maybe I had some other power he just couldn’t see. Maybe I could put out a false picture of what I could do, another defense mechanism, something that wasn’t so scary.
I hunted for a second option and all I came up with was that Eleazar could be lying. Perhaps it was a sick joke. Or was he really a spy for the Volturi after all? Would he run and tell them what powers I had without me even knowing them? It would have been very tricky to keep spying a secret from Edward and Alice for long.
I couldn’t think of any third option other than that Eleazar was right. I tried very hard to think about it dispassionately, as if the power belonged to someone other than me. I really focused – I knew I hadn’t much time until someone came looking for me. He had said it was a raw talent and I guessed that like all raw talents the results of using it would not be very focused or particularly effective. I thought of all the training I had done to be able to project my shield. Trying hard to suppress my own feelings, I asked myself whether it was possible that a vampire could get other people to do things for them, out of all proportion to any obligation. Of course it's possible. If that vampire was putting out a "love me" thought, then even people that had no reason to love her might love her.
I started to breathe heavily. Emmett and Nahuel – was I the cause of their strange behavior and plans? How long had I been doing this? Was I doing this when I was human? What about Jacob and Mike, and a whole list of others that Edward said had fallen for me. And then the awful thought hit me. What about Edward? Did he really love me at all? Had I tricked him into it? If I stopped putting out this thought would he stop loving me? What would happen if I couldn’t stop? Would I always be a menace to those around me?
I had to stop thinking about it. It was too awful. I stood up and ran, ran as fast as I could just for the sake of the speed. It deflected the thoughts a bit, but not enough. I kept away from the house but realized what I wanted more than anything was to be with Nessie. That would put things into perspective. I want her to hug me, and just want me as her mum, an understandable relationship not tied up in this mess. Please, no, not tied up in this mess.
But as I turned towards the house I knew it was too soon even for Nessie to see me so I took my cell from my pocket and phoned Alice. I wanted to hear a familiar female voice.
“Hi Alice how is ...” I didn’t get any further than that.
“What’s going on? I saw you win. Well done. Very impressive for a first fight. I was on the edge of my seat all the way through, giving the others a blow by blow account. I’ll get Jasper to give you some more training. A few of your moves are a bit too human. A right hook? Not very vampire, you’re lucky he was untrained. Oh, and wasn’t he dishy! He’d give Carlisle a good run for his money in a ‘male vampire of the year competition’.”
“I saw you all talking to him and saw the decision to let him leave. I can’t tell if he will come here yet, he hasn’t made that decision.”
“And what did Eleazar say to you? You looked distraught. Was it something about your shield? It isn’t getting weaker is it, or something?” She was rambling on again.
“Alice, hush a minute. Has the future vision of Emmett changed since I went away?”
“Umm, sorry, no it hasn’t.”
“What has Nahuel been doing since I left?”
“Moping about would be the best description. He isn’t happy at all, almost as if he is in physical pain from something.”
“That's not good. How has Jacob been?”
“Very similar I think, but I’ve not seen much of him. He has been with his pack and at his dad’s place for nearly all the time, but Seth called into to complain about him and ask when you guys were coming back as the pack's getting fed up with his pining.”
“What did Eleazar say?” Alice demanded.
“Alice, I may have trouble, real trouble.”
“Have you ever known Eleazar to be wrong or joke about someone’s talents?”
“No, he would not have been with the Volturi for centuries if he was wrong about things.”
“Oh. That wasn’t the answer I wanted.”
“What can you do? I missed that bit, it was when Seth was here. You’ve got me on the edge of my seat again. I can’t see it, it must be something that isn’t tangible.”
“You can control you thoughts around Edward, can’t you?” I asked.
“Yes, but why wouldn’t you tell Edward?”
“Because he's going to be really cross with me and it’s not my fault. I’m not doing it on purpose.”
“Doing what? Come on, the suspense is killing me!”
“Eleazar thinks I can put thoughts into people's heads, like a thought virus that stays there, they won’t realize that it is not their thought.”
“But I’m doing it without knowing. I’m sending one saying love meto everyone.”
“Oh. I see.”
“I’m a menace to all the people around, mostly the men though I guess. I have to find a way to stop it or go and live on an island somewhere.”
“I see we need to get you training but that is going to be tricky when we can’t tell if your projecting thoughts or not. I’ll have a think about it.”
“But I don’t know what it means.” My voice cracked at this point. “Does Edward love me at all?” I was sobbing down the phone now. “Have I just been making him love me? Will he stop loving me if I stop putting out this thought?”
“I’m not sure that should be the focus of your concern right now.” Alice’s voice was sharp. “You need to keep your family safe first and sort you love life second. If you don’t sort this Edward will end up fighting for you and you don’t want that, do you.”
“No. No, that isn’t what I want at all.”
“Well you know how jealous he gets when he finds people are thinking improper thoughts. What is he going to do? Defend his claim on you.”
“Please, help me Alice.”
“Bella, you know that I’ll do everything I can. After all I do love you... joke ... not in good taste perhaps. I’m sure Edward does love you completely and utterly so don’t worry. See you tomorrow.”
After a few more minutes I had recovered enough to go back to the house to find Nessie.
I found her inside with Kate and Tania just as I’d left her. Garrett was there too. I excused Nessie saying that I needed to take her to hunt before we set off home. I couldn’t be around this man just in case.
As I held her hand and we walked through the trees, I found all the control I needed to pretend that everything was fine. Nessie was playing back the highlights, both real and imagined, of the time we’d spent apart, using her pictures rather than words. I saw her image of me with my foot on a prostrate Fred and my hands over my head in a victory salute. I laughed, and I told her that such victories were necessary, but nothing to be proud of, I was only trying to protect my family. I couldn’t admit to her how much pride I had taken from it at the time. It didn’t seem a proper thing for a mother to admit.
When we got back to the house, Carlisle and Edward had returned and we said our goodbyes to Tania’s clan. We said we’d have Alice Keep an eye on Fred to make sure that he wasn’t planning to harass them again. Although we knew that they felt vulnerable we had to leave. Demetri was on his way and we were needed back in Forks.
ooh! the talents the Eleazar is picking up sounds really interesting!!!! Absolutely enjoying this Chris :D can not wait for the next installment.
Thanks for your comment.
I'm glad you like the talents, at least the thought one does explain the trouble the Alice sees with Emmett.
However, will Bella believe what she has been told? Will she try to do something about it? Will she just run away? This is Bella after all, nothing is ever easy.
I feel so sorry for the men about her, they get no choice in this the thought is there, they have to handle it how they can.
Eleazar gave Bella quite alot to think about. This power he speaks of explains alot. Hope she doesn't feel too guilty about things she cannot help. She should trust in Edward's love for her. Hopefully Alice can help her to sort things out before it gets out of hand.
Please write more!