Bella’s happily ever after lasted two days. This is Bella’s own account of what happened after Breaking Dawn, her growing understanding of her powers, her battle to remain with the man she loves, finding her place in her new family, and the ever-present threat of the Volturi.
New posting Chapter 55 - Postscript
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From the moment I walked through the door I could feel his eyes on me. Boring into me, owning me, watching even the minutest move I made.
I thought that I’d lose this intuition when I became a vampire. But in reality it had just got stronger along with everything else.
I thought for a moment about the one big change that my transformation had made, my thirst. Although I was still young, and the thirst for blood should be overwhelming, I had been able to handle it from the first moment I awoke in my new life. No one knew why that was. I could cope with human scents even up close, when I should have wanted to drink them dry. The scent caused me physical pain, an intense burning from my nostrils all down my throat, and feeling my throat squeezing tight with the dryness. But it was bearable. This was unusual for a new born. My kind usual manage this much control after a few years. But even with my self control the thirst was still there, the longing for something to put out the dryness.
My mind churned again. My mind could think of so many things at once. The dryness was always one of my thoughts, sometimes near the surface, then moving back into the background. I could keep all the thoughts in my mind -- juggling two, five, ten thoughts in parallel -- but never mixing them. Like watching ten TV channels at once. Another vampire trait.
Maybe I was just being paranoid. Maybe there was no one looking at me. I still hated attention just as I’d done as a human, I still shied away from it. I was just letting my imagination run away with me again. No one was looking at me. But I could hear his heartbeat six feet to my left, slightly behind where I was standing. He was sitting on a chair next to the loveseat. He was close enough to feel the warmth of his skin in the cool of the morning air. I could smell the strong scent of the skin pouch he wore round his neck. A smell that forced out every lesser smell from that part of the room, like a car headlamp blinding out a flashlight. It was not just the animal fur with its heavy notes that I could smell, but what was inside it. The herbs and berries that it contained, each type giving a new harmony to the smell. Some sharp, some sweet. Some I knew -- citrus, juniper, cinnamon -- some I had no words for.
Maybe he was just looking at Nessie like everyone else in the room. My four month old daughter was reciting a poem for her audience in her beautiful childish voice, complete with dramatic pauses and carefully characterized accents for the speeches. She was a very advanced four month old. She looked more like a small four year old, but she would have been counted as a genius in any preschool. This was because she was half vampire and half human, and of course could never be allowed in preschool. Her brown hair, with a tinge of bronze that came from Edward, fell down her back in beautiful curls. Her eyes were a warm milk chocolate color that had been mine when I was human, and were now excited by the attention she was receiving. Her complexion was pale with a healthy pink glow of excitement. We knew now that her rate of growth and progress would slow and she would be fully mature in another 6 and half years, and then live forever. We’d learned this from Nahuel only two days before. My dark worries of losing Nessie had vanished. We’d thought we would have to watch our daughter grow old and die in fifteen short years, and we would mourn her for ever.
I didn’t look to check if I was right about Nahuel and his staring. I had caught his eye only once that morning, when we came in and gave the usual greeting to our family and their two remaining guests.
I still didn’t understand why these guest were still here. Yes, I was grateful to them, especially him. So grateful it hurt. He had saved us all: my daughter, my husband, my vampire family, my wolf friends, and me. And he put himself and his father and his sisters in danger. How could I not be grateful to him. We all were.
I’d asked Edward twice why they had not left with the other guests after the standoff with the Volturi. The first time was after the celebrations when all the other guests had left and we had taken Nessie back to our cottage to sleep in her own bed. This was the first day that we’d met them, the first day of the stares. Edward had given his answer, saying Nahuel was so glad to know that a family like ours could exist. A family with a half vampire child, the only one Nahuel knew of that was not related to him, and a surviving mother. Nahuel’s mother died in child birth and so did the mothers of his half sisters.
It is rare to find a vampire who would want a physical relationship with a human woman, even rarer to find a women who survived such an encounter. Her life could end at any moment if he did not concentrate fully on keeping her alive. And what about the outcome of such an encounter? Mortals are not compatible with half vampire babies, the babies are so much stronger than the women. I had only survived thanks to the care given to me by my vampire family and because Edward changed me into a vampire as soon as the baby was out. The memories of this violent birth were now dimming for me. The vampire venom had mended the terrible damage and left me whole, strong, and beautiful.
According to Edward, Nahuel had spent his long life, over 150 years, thinking he must be evil to the core to have killed his mother. But seeing me set him free from his guilt. He now blamed his father for not caring for his mother as Edward had for me, and for not changing her when Nahuel ripped his way out of her.
The second time I’d asked Edward why Nahuel and his aunt (a full vampire) were still with us, Edward said that they wanted to learn more about our vegetarian lifestyle. This was how we liked to describe our abnormal hunting habits in the Cullen family. Unlike other vampires we only hunted animals, not humans. This gave us distinctive golden eyes which intrigued the normal red-eyed vampires. When I asked this second time, it was not what Edward had said that set me thinking but the way he said it. If I wasn’t his wife and didn’t know him so well I would not have noticed the slight tightening of his straight shoulders under his tan colored jumper, and that he was holding his perfect jaw a eighth of an inch higher than normal. He was lying to me.
Edward lied a lot. He had to. When you can read the minds of everyone in a mile radius then you have to lie to appear normal. You have to learn to ignore the thoughts most of the time. You have to answer only the questions people say out loud and not all the far-reaching ones they think in their heads but don’t dare ask. Edward also felt he must not betray confidences of those around him. It was not as though he could stop hearing thoughts if he wanted to, and not as if people could stop thinking when he was around, so he just didn’t pass these thoughts on. I was a shield which meant that he could not read my mind, not even when I was only human. Now that I was a vampire I had learned to remove my shield if I wanted, but I could only do so for a few moments at a time and even then it was exhausting work.
But why would he lie to me about why Nahuel and Huilen were still here? We had just made it through the worst danger imaginable: the whole of the Volturi forces lined up against us, the judges, jury and executioners of the vampire world. We had survived that, so what now? What was he covering up? Surely we had to have a break from peril sometime.
Maybe bad luck was something that I’d brought with me into this life. Since I met Edward as a human I had always had bad luck. My life before Edward, before my return to Forks to live with my Dad, Charlie, was a quiet life in the big city of Phoenix with my Mom, Renée. The memory of this former life was becoming hazy, almost a pre life to my human life, as if I was now in my third life, not my second. I’d had too much on my mind to sit down and think about it, though that was the only way my family said that I would remember it for the future. As I remembered it now, it was a happy but lonely time of looking after my hair-brained mother and being the adult in the relationship even though I was the child. She didn’t need to be looked after in a physical way but in an emotional one, helping her to organize and control her life. I was the one who made sure we went to the store when we needed groceries and that we went to the bank when the bills needed to be paid. In many ways you could say I was her keeper rather than her daughter. This role was taken by Phil, her husband of nearly three years.
I argued with myself that I had already brought my shield through to my vampire life along with my strange ability for self control. I was sure that I could not have brought anything else. I had left my clumsiness behind, which was a truly good thing. I now moved so fast and was so strong that if I was clumsy lots of things would get broken. Not just inanimate objects, but living things. Even people.
I looked over at Edward, to keep my eye from straying to Nahuel. His beauty never failed to amaze me. He was stunning. His eyes were a warm amber color. But this morning more like stone than liquid. Something was bugging him. No doubt he was hearing things he didn’t like. His face muscles twitched slightly and his teeth locked together noiselessly. His smile remained, a facade to keep the others away from his upset within. I had no idea what he had heard or who it was that was having these thoughts, but my mind turned to Nahuel again, though I didn’t let my eyes follow. Edward would tell me when it was right and certainly not in the middle of this gathering.
Edward applauded when Nessie came to the end of her poem, pride now on his face. I felt a jolt of joy at his pride. I was proud of her, naturally, and applauded loudly too. But to have him so in awe of her gave me such a feeling of belonging. I had, in the end, been able to give him something so worthwhile. A daughter, our miracle. It made up for the lack of balance in our relationship. He had given me everything: his love, his life, my new life, money, possessions, a home, a car, a family. But the one thing that that he had never imagined, that none of our vampire family had thought possible, came from me. She was a delight to them all, and especially Edward.
It was only as I turned away from Nessie’s performance that I noticed Alice was staring into thin air, her eyes out of focus, completely still. I knew she was seeing something. My sister’s ability to see into the future was enviable. It had made her top of the Volturi’s list for acquisitions. It was this ability that had saved the family and herself many times over. The future she saw was only one of the possible outcomes. If decisions that had been made were changed then what she saw would change.
“Demetri is coming,” she said simply in a clear chiming voice, not altering her stance at all. “Aro has decided. He will follow Carlisle to us.”
Carlisle was at her side in an instant. “But why?” he whispered. “Why now?”.
The image of the the Volturi tracker was instantly in my mind. It was not possible for anyone normal to run from Demetri. He had a gift for finding them. But this gift needed access to someone’s mind, and it was something I could block with my shield. As well as being a tracker, Demetri was a warrior, with centuries of experience working with the Volturi.
“But why, Alice?” he asked again.
Alice had gone back into her trance. This time it took her over a minute to come round. “He comes only to observe,” she said with a little relief in her voice. “Aro will order him to stay with us and just observe. He is to watch Nessie grow for Aro and to find out more about the wolves for Caius. He is to cause us no trouble. He will be ordered to hunt like us. Aro wants to see how this will change his character. He is report back regularly by letter. This order will be made at full council the day after tomorrow. He will arrive three days after that.”
She looked around the stunned room.
“Please look for more,” Carlisle urged her.
“Demetri will bring a note with him from Aro but they know that I can see what it says so you will be forewarned. Aro is staring at it so that I can read it...
My Dearest Friend Carlisle,
I am sending my dear one Demetri to visit you as an emissary. I feel that our last meeting left a rift between us which I want to close. I have asked Demetri to learn about your life style and your beloved granddaughter so that we may better understand each other in future.
I ask you to take Demetri into your hearts and your home, and to this end I will ask him to make himself useful to you and cause you no trouble. Please use him as a son.
Yours in friendship,
Carlisle looked aghast. “Is there more?” he said, shaking his head.
Her face returned to the distant mask, but seconds later disgust was clear on it. She came back to the present again shaking her head. “Uh, that is so gross”.
“I saw part of the inner council meeting that was only the family, no guard. It is so gross.” she said, hardly able to speak for revulsion. “Aro says he wishes to watch a half vampire child develop first hand. He says that he will order Demetri to try to father a child when he has returned from his visit. He laughs and says that he may have learned some restraint from us. The mother is to be the only human they trust, their administrator Gina. They will promise her immortality if she successfully gives birth, but she has no choice. If she says no, she’s lunch. He says it will be a great honor for Demetri to father a child to be brought up and studied in Volterra. Caius is against the idea, the decision will be put off until a later date... I can’t see further than that, I’m not attuned to them, I can’t see so far ahead into their futures, I can’t see if she will become pregnant or if they will kill her, it is many months away, it may change.”
There was stunned silence.
All the joy after the last successful encounter with the Volturi was gone.
Then the speculation started. Alice could see the event but not the motivation behind it. It boiled down to three simple questions: why this? why now? and why Demetri? A dozen answers to each question came from the gathered family. The most likely answer was that they wanted to catch us doing something against the rules as soon as possible, and Demetri can stand up for himself.
The others gave little thought to the planned baby. It was beyond the immediate worry and didn’t affect us personally. But my mind was on Gina and how I could help her. I had only just survived my own pregnancy and I had had good medical care and love from all my family. I felt cold, cold to the heart.
Had I started some new vampire fashion? Would lots of vampire males want to father children? And what of the vampire females, would they want to become stepmothers? I thought of the loss of human life. I thought of Gina.
I found myself a spot on the floor and sat there still, shocked, horrified.
The discussion went on for nearly an hour, until Carlisle looked at the clock and said that he had to go for his shift at the hospital.
He turned to our guests, “Nahuel, Huilen. It may be best if you were not here when Demetri comes to call. I do not wish to ask you to leave but for your own safety I must ask you to think about what you want to do. You know you have our thanks for what you have done for us, and I owe you for the safety of all my family. You are welcome here at any normal time.”
It was Huilen who spoke this time. She spoke simply in her heavy accent. “We will leave before he arrives.”
Carlisle smiled warmly at her. “That is for the best. We can visit you before long, and maybe meet Nahuel’s sisters if that is possible.”
The others continued to speculate after Carlisle had gone, Emmett debating with Jasper the possibility of beating Demetri in a fight. Jasper thought that if there were several of us it may be possible, but it would only bring the rest of the guard down on us, a battle which we would not win this time.
Alice touched me lightly on the arm, tutting at my pants and jumper combination. My favorite sister was never happy with my lack of fashion sense. But she could see the future, and would have known the day before about this particular lapse of mine. I thought to myself that I would suggest to her that she warns me in advance next time, so that I don’t disappoint her again.
“You know, I thought you would have learned a little by now Bella,” she chided quietly. “I will just have to take you back to your cottage and show you how to match up those pants myself. I didn’t spend weeks putting together your wardrobe for you to use it like this.”
That morning I must have really gotten under her skin. How could she care so much about fashion when she’d just given us the news about Demetri? Really. It made no sense.
I looked down at my outfit. It didn’t look that bad to me. I’d made sure that some of the threads in the jumper were exactly the same tone as the pants, but if it made her happy we could be home and back in a very short time. A few minutes out of the house would do me some good.
“Edward,” she chimed. “I’m taking Bella back to your cottage, can you look after Nessie by yourself?” The look on her face one of great effort.
He smiled warmly at her. “By myself? I don’t think that I will ever be allowed to look after Nessie by myself. She has too many fans for that.” He looked quizzically at her while he made his answer, as if they were having another inaudible conversation but failing to understand each other.
It was true. Most of the room were watching Nessie again, just waiting to see what she would do next, fascinated by her. Her Aunt Rose and Grandma Esme sat on the floor with her.
“We’ll see you soon,” Alice chimed again, wincing with effort, like a small child trying to remember a really difficult times table sum.
As soon as she said this I looked around the gathering to smile a normal goodbye. Then I saw him, Nahuel. He was staring at me. Staring at me with total adoration in his eyes as if I were the only thing he could see in the world. The only thing he had ever seen. Like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
Oh no... no please no, I screamed inside my head. My face turned from a smile to sheer dread, his calm face turning from adoration to puzzlement at my expression.
Edward stiffened beside me, but said nothing.
Alice tugged my sleeve and we were off through the patio doors at the rear of the house, running back to my cottage hand in hand. I was only too glad to go, and Alice's excuse was perfect.
As soon as we were over the river she said in a very hushed voice, “Shield me, stop him reading my mind.”
New posting Chapter 55 - Postscript
oh....thats too bad...poor jake...wont they atleast treat him as a frnd...
and i realy luvd ur writing..pls update me too
Many thanks for your comment. I do appreciate it.
I've now posted part 3 of chapter 24 - sorry I missed this out when posting before!
Awesome chapter... Can't wait for more!!!
Thanks for the comment.
I'm aiming to publish on Wednesday evening.
another great chapter Chris :D
hope you had a great easter. Demetri seems pretty nice... still reserved about him though, i think it might be the whole him being from the volturi thing lol.... will wait and see. this should be interesting, Bella playng sport LOL. cant wait for the next update
Hi there Dark One,
thanks for the comment.
You can have nice people working for corrupt people in life - it does happen. But then again you get some people who are just very good at pretending ... I'm not saying which this is.
I’m seeing Bella as being highly coordinated now – her clumsy days all behind her. And in fact I see her as more coordinated than many other vampires. It’s all part of Bella. She just isn’t use to being co ordinate and isn’t confident in herself yet.
When Nessie and I got to the clearing, Embry and Jake were already playing ball. We sat and watched for a while, Nessie on my knee to keep her off the damp earth, a thick coat between me and her to keep her warm.
Embry was obviously the better of the two players. He could work the ball with either of his feet with such precision that Jacob didn’t stand much of a chance. Jacob would occasionally make use of his extra speed and strength to get a goal but they weren’t a match for Embry’s talent.
“Wow, Embry, you could play for one of the big teams.”
“Well, if I didn’t keep turning into a wolf I could,” he laughed, “can’t see that going down well in the middle of a game with all the crowd watching.”
Jake came and slumped down next to me. He wasn’t in the least bit breathless after his efforts. “Your turn now, vampire girl.”
“Hey, that’s no way to talk to me you know. Think what I could be in your future.” Nessie scrambled on to him gratefully, pleased both to have Jacob to herself and to have his hot body to sit on.
“OK Mom, just don’t tackle him. I want him to be able to run a patrol tonight, a broken leg will take at least a day to mend.”
“OK, got it.”
This was the first time I’d tried anything physical with a non-vampire and I was a bit wary. They did heal fast, the wolves, but I’d no intention of causing anyone any pain.
“Let’s start with a few gentle passes,” Embry suggested.
I misjudged the first one. Expecting the ball to be heavy like I remembered from school, I sent it flying off into the forest. I fetched it, only glad I’d not got it so wrong that I’d popped it.
After that the passing wasn’t bad. I could easily get the ball directly to Embry’s feet from a distance of fifty feet or more.
“Well, that would put you up with the internationals in the human world,” Jacob commented.
“OK let’s try dribbling.”
Embry set out a series of sticks for us to dribble the ball around.
“Now the trick is to not look at the ball, Bella.”
“OK, show me first.”
He expertly maneuvered the ball around the sticks at a run, but is was slow enough for me to catch what he was doing.
I took the ball and going more slowly, but faster than a walk, controlled the ball with my feet and successfully got round the sticks.
“Not bad at all, but this time a little faster and keep the ball well into your feet or an opponent will have it off you.”
I was just trying again when I heard someone approaching at speed. I wasn’t sure who it was.
I grabbed Nessie and pushed her behind me, “Get out of here you two”, I hissed.
“No chance,” they said in unison and phased.
Jacob took center point facing the direction of the intruder, Embry on his right and me on his left, with Nessie behind us.
The footsteps stopped and after a second the intruder strolled into the clearing. It was Demetri.
Hell, this was not good, not good at all. The second day he is here he finds me with a couple of wolves.
“Bella, sorry to startle you, I mean you no harm,” he had stopped at the edge of the clearing, surprised I presumed by my company and our defensive formation.
“I’m sorry Demetri,” I relaxed my stance and walked forward a few pace in front of the wolves. “I don’t recognize you gait yet. I didn’t know who it was, you’ve caught me having a bit of soccer practice with my friends, this is Jacob and this is Embry. They only phased as I thought there might be a stranger coming.” It felt odd introducing them in their wolf forms.
Demetri beamed. He walked forward and kissed me on the cheeks, then turned to the wolves, “I’m delighted to met you both, be assured I don’t mean you any harm or trouble. I just thought I’d take a stroll and see what Nessie was doing with her time.”
At this Nessie flitted over to Demetri and jumped up into his surprised arms, but he caught her expertly, obviously his fatherly instincts were still there. She touched his check and he smiled again seeing her explanation of the situation.
“Of course I’m not here to cause your friends trouble Nessie,” he reassured her. “I wish I’d been here to see some of the soccer first hand. It looks very skilful in your memory.”
“Jake, Embry,” Nessie called, still in Demetri’s arms, “can you play again, pleeease.” She flashed Jacob a huge grin, which I would have found hard to resist and which must have just melted Jacob.
Jacob whined softly then the wolves ran off into the woods.
“Did I say something wrong?” Demetri asked, popping Nessie back on the floor. “I had no intention of intruding on your game.” His face look sincere and apologetic. This morning he was wearing more casual clothes suitable for the forest - jeans, jumper and a hiker’s jacket. He was clearly trying to fit in with the locals. His eyes were the strange black they had been yesterday.
“They are just phasing back I think. They don’t like to do so in public because they need to change back into clothes.” I kicked at what was left of one of Embry’s shoes so that it landed at the base of the nearest tree.
“Oh, of course, that makes sense. I’m sure it is a little inconvenient for them at times.”
“Yes, I think it isn’t easy when there are women and children around. They try to maintain a little dignity.”
A moment later Jacob and Embry walked back into the clearing in human form, complete with clothes, new ones. I guess they had some stashed somewhere. Their old shorts were in slivers on the floor.
“It’s easier to shake hands this way,” Jacob said walking up to Demetri. “My name is Jacob Black, I’m one of the pack leaders in these parts.”
I was struck again by the authority in his voice. He smiled down at Demetri as they shook hands. Jacob at six foot seven dwarfed Demetri who was five foot ten at most.
Their handshake was friendly. Embry, clearly still on edge, stayed at the back of the clearing.
“I’ve not come here to interrupt your recreation, please continue. Maybe I can learn a thing or two. I don’t get to play much myself”
“Well, we were just doing a few technique drills with Bella, rather than anything competitive,” Jacob responded.
I felt the need to explain why I was here with the wolves. It looked bad but maybe he’d see the reasoning behind it, and realize it was all innocent enough.
My explanation spilled out in a rush, “I was so bad at sport when I was human and Emmett used to tease me so much that I thought that I ought to have a little practice before I have to play in front of the whole family I don’t want to be the butt of his jokes for the next century.”
“We’d better get to work then,” Demetri said, taking off his jacket and hanging it on a small branch.
The wolves relaxed at this gesture, clearly happy for another pair of feet to join us.
“We can’t tackle the wolves, Demetri,” I said, foreseeing a flaw in his plan. “They aren’t made of stone like us. They are tough, but not that tough in human form.”
“I thought that, let me just see you do your dribbling drill.”
I tried again. This time I was faster and kept the ball much closer in to my feet as Embry had said.
Demetri took a turn and although quicker than me, wasn’t as expert with the ball as Embry, which pleased me to see.
After a few more minutes all the men were discussing their favorite professional players, none of whom I’d heard of. Demetri favored a Brazilian call Pele, who had retired from playing the game many years previously. The wolves admired the current players. Embry idolized an Englishman called David something while Jacob argued for a Frenchman called Zee something. I’d no idea that this game was so international, but one thing was clear - there were few Americans at the top of the sport. The banter between the three of them was relaxed and friendly. We were all laughing and commenting on each other as we completed our drills as if this was a totally normal situation. It struck me how surreal it was to be playing ball with a member of the Volturi guard and two wolves. My life was full of truly strange events. What would Aro make of this when Demetri got home?
Embry was just showing us a one-to-one drill that I could practice with Demetri and he could do with Jacob when we heard another two sets of footsteps running at top speed towards us. I could tell it was Alice and Jasper. We all waited for them not bothering to start again until we knew what their mission was. Surely if they were running that fast they had a mission.
The two of them arrived in the clearing and suddenly the happy relaxed feeling we had felt was chilled. Jasper was doing his mood shifting again, and as they reached us Alice gave me an exasperated stare.
“There you are, I’ve been worried sick. We had to come and follow Demetri’s trail to find you. You’d totally blanked out of my vision, Bella, and then Demetri went missing as well. I thought ... well I wasn’t sure what to think but I guess these two explain it.” She looked over at the wolves.
“Can’t you see the wolves Alice?” Demetri asked.
“It can be tricky,” Alice reluctantly admitted, “I’m getting better at seeing past them to those around them but ... did you phase?” She looked accusingly at Jacob.
“Only because we weren’t sure that it was a friend who was approaching because none of us recognized the footsteps. Better to be safe than sorry, especially when we have Nessie with us,” Jacob explained, smiling at her. “There was no need for you to panic.”
I couldn’t take any more of this. “I think we should call it a day now. This place is too near town for any bigger games. We might make too much noise and have some human come to investigate.
Shall we go fix you some eggs for lunch, Nessie?”
“Yes please Mom,” she squealed, “can Jake come home with us too?”
“I think that he and Embry have things to do Nessie, but they are both very welcome of course.”
“I’ll come by the house tomorrow, if that’s OK,” Jacob said, picking Nessie up. “Oh don’t look like that kid, you’ve plenty of people to keep you entertained for the afternoon.”
End of Chapter 25 - Discovered
liked it....,wats nxt den...,waiting to read mre...,pls update soon..,
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I'm going to post a new chapter very soon.
Demetri is definitely very smooth. He even played some ball with the wolves! Very surreal indeed...
Jake handled the situation very well.
Even Bella seemed to have some fun until Alice and Jasper came to look for them.
Great chapter! Can't wait for the next one.