Preface: It’s bean almost a year since that day at the field, the day we al thought that our existence was going to end in the hands off those that are the law for our kind, almost a year since the day that had let a mark in all of us. There where many things to considered this time but in a good way, this time nothing was coming to attack us, nothing of that source.
For now, at least.
Chapter 1: Renesmee´s Birthday.
I was lying in bed curled around Edward’s strong harms. We were having one of those very passionate moments looking into each others eyes, his gorgeous topaz eyes. This was one of my favorite things to do while we where waiting for the sun to rice. This was going to be a very long day, everything was already done, Alice had done all the planning, it was going to be a surprised party and for some reason she insisted in the fact that we will have nothing to do but get her our own gift. It was going to be very beautiful and Nessie will love it.
“What’s on your mind?” Edward asked. This was something that I was used to by now. He always wanted to know what I was thinking and it bothered him that my mind was off limits, a fact that I was graceful for.
“Just thinking about the big day Nessie will have today. She’ll love what Alice has been planning to do for her birthday tomorrow, well I guess I should say today since sun rice is not going to be too long now.” I answer him trying to give him as much detail about this as possible since this was a topic I feel comfortable charring with him. I had been working on letting my shield down some times but after five seconds of showing Edward whatever it was on my mind, memories or feelings about us, our life together, the beautiful things that we had done when I was a human or after the change he will start kissing me and that was all for my concentration. I hardly do that anymore, firstly because there where things that I like to keep private like the way I felt when he touches me, when he kisses me or when he looks intensely at me, and knowing like I knew Edward, he’ll probably will push it to know everything that I felt. The only times that I did that it was to communicate whit him when we were hunting or when we where in the house and I whanted to tell him something important.
“Yes she will love all of it”.
“I wonder where she inherited the taste for being the center of attention and loving gifts.” I said with a playfully smile on mi face.
“Well it was certainly not form you, that’s for sure” He said teasing me, all thou he was right about that.
The night was coming to an end, another day had passed and I was still living in a fairy tell. My gorgeous loving husband, my beautiful baby girl, this was more than I disserve for sure, all the people I love are a part of my life, even Charlie and Jake where here with me, all thou I didn’t like to give much thought to way that was. I was getting used to the fact that he had imprinted on Renesmme seconds after I gave birth to her, but thinking about the future was kind off painful for me. Nessie’s childhood was going to be very short and then like is was supposed to be she will go, fly out of the nest, into the loving hands of Jacob.Thank’s God it was Jacob, someone I knew and trusted.
That was something that bothered me, because of the little time I will have to spend with her after that, she will make her own life witch was a natural thing, but for me it was a bit early. This day was about her, and no dude she was going to enjoy it, but it was sad in a way for me, it was a year mark, the date that told me that it was one less year that I will be with her, our time together was counted. That is why I was compelled to spend as much time with her as possible and Edward understood that the second I let those intentions clear and felt the exact same way, we hade the nights for ourselves when Nessie was sleeping anyway.
No one was better than Edward to know when my thinking was going on a painful road, and the fact that he couldn’t read my mind was not a problem, maybe it was because he was thinking the same or maybe we where connected in an unconscious way to each other, like a defense mechanism to make any one of us feel good when the other wasn’t perfectly happy.
“There is still time, love. She is not going any where” He said while holding me tighter to his body. Yes he was perfect at making me feel better when ever I was worried about something.
“I know” I said. “I just can’t stop wondering what we will do, where will she go, when will she visit? I know I’m being such a baby right now but I can’t help it, it’s like a reflex.”
“You’re not being a baby, you’re just a concern mother, that is perfectly natural and besides maybe they’ll stay right here, maybe they won’t go away and if they do maybe another trip to Isle Esme will be good for us.” He flash a smile of anticipation at me and that give me an idea, in one quick move I place myself on top of him and look straight into his topaz eyes.
He cut up to my mood and started kissing me passionately. Yes my life was perfect and this was one of the aspects to it, kissing Edward was something I never got used to, every time it was a new feeling, a new emotion, every time it was like after I changed, before I always felt like he was holding up on me, our passion was never going to end if it was up to me, even now after a year of being both active participants in every love scene we had I never ever had enough. Actually I wish the day had more hours or rather night to be more precise.
What I was about to do was out of character for me but the sun was already rice up in the sky and we had many, many things to do. This will just have to wait until tonight.
“Edward” I said quickly trying to free my very busy mouth form his.
“Yes?” he said, apparently not anticipating what I was about to say and keep kissing my neck in the process.
“I think we better go to see if Renesmme is awake so we’ll be there to kiss her good morning and whish her happy birthday.” I said so fast that a bullet train got nothing on me right now, to make him understand the idea and make him stop so I could concentrate on something else like…Getting dress and presentable. “We could continue this lather if you don’t mind?” I said wile characin his bare chest whit my fingers and biting my lip. I’ve just realize what I just said and if I could I be bright read right now I would.
“You’re right.” He smiled at me amused by my shame. “Lest go get dress”
We went to our over sized closet and started to get dress. He put on his khaki pants and a white bottom-up shirt, like always he looked gorgeous, it didn’t help my concentration of going to see Nessie that the sun was already up- all thou it was getting darker and darker promising rain - and sending rays all over the room and all over Edward, there was nothing that I loved more about Edward that seeing him glow in the sun light. I remember in that moment the first day he had show me this in our meadow when I was still a human, I remember thinking even then with my dim human eyes that he was the moust beautiful man that I had ever seen, and now, seeing him get dress being able to appreciate the full image the way it was, with my immortal eyes, and record that in my photographic memory….This was more that my concentration will be able to bear.
I when to his side and gave him a big bear hug from behind and started kissing every part of him that I had can. I hug him real tight, like I never wanted this moment to end, in this moment there was nothing more important to me that being here with the love of my existence. Not even Nessie. The moment that thought crossed my mind I fell very guilty, this was my baby’s special day and we hade to be with her, better yet, we wanted to be with her, this was in no way an obligation. Like Edward had said to me since day one. “Is all about balance, love”
I let go of him and then went in to my oversized part of the closet and- just to please Alice and because of the fact that she already shop for it and had especially requested that I had to use this particular dress- I putt the dress I had separated for this day and got out the closet ready to go.
It was a very girlie dress, white cotton with a princess cut and a little white satin strip right under my breasts that ended with a little bow in my back. I lifted my hair into a high pony tail and put on another hand-me-down from Edward. A few weeks ago in our wedding anniversary he gave me something that he loved and cared very much, Edward’s father had also given this to her mother Elizabeth. It was a beautiful set of earrings that matched perfectly with my weeding ring; it had the same shape of the ring but there where little thin chains that united that part to a very discreet little diamond that was perfectly round and about half an inch of diameter. Edward’s father bougth this, especially for her and now it was mine and I loved it. It was one of those presents that you could not refuse, not only for the beauty of it, but also because this was something that passed on from one important women in his life to the most important women of his existence, like he said before giving them to me and besides, it was so romantic of him… This was the perfect day to wear them for the first time; I have being thinking about what will be the proper time and place too finally make Edward happy that I wear his anniversary gift and this was the perfect ocation. Hu, I wonder if Alice had seen this in her mind when she got me the dress, maybe not but the dress and the shoes matched perfectly with my jewellery, coincidence, with Alice? Not likely. Alice had brought me high heels for the ocation since we where having a big party, they where much more high that I would like but well, I had no way out by now and since I already knew that my balance was not longer an issue this was more of a character problem and not a comfort one. I also had to admit that they where very pretty and simple, which was very good for me; at least Alice had left me that one thing. They where silver sandals, the sating silver strips where very thin and curled into one another making some kind of net in the part of my feet right after my toes living those free outside the net, and then the strips got wider and separate in two that I strap in my ankles and make a little bow by the side.
Every one was invited. Charlie, Sue, Seth, Leah, Billy, Quill, Claire, Embry even Sam and Emily said they where going to try to make it -there where two packs now, after the Volturi went to Volterra and hopefully will leave us alone for good, Quill and Embry where devastated about the fact that they and Jake will not longer be together in the pack and went to Sam, they talked and Sam understood them, they and Jake had friendship bonds, even brothers bonds, long before being in the pack, Sam could feel that every time they phased to wolf form.
There where no more territorial fights between us.-About a moth ago they decided it was a good time to finally get married since there was no problem on the horizon and now all of us got along thanks to the bond between Jake and Nessie. The wedding plans where taking most of there time this days, they wanted to do it the old fashion style, like when the elders got married the bonfire and the dancing and the chartings. There were lots of things to do. I felt graceful in that moment for having Alice as my sister, annoying like she was sometimes she did know how to throw a party with style, wish ever style, you named it.
Being ready was not a very long time activity for me or any of us. This was one of the longest times I had took to dress up, usually I just throw up the first jeans I could find and a T-shirt. I was also glad for the fact that I din’t needed any make up of any kind or brush my teeth. I was ready in about tree minutes after I got in. I walked out of the closet at a very human speed, I wanted to see the look on Edward’s face, if I knew Alice well and I did, the effect this dress will have will end up being the dead of it by the time Nessie will be fully sleep in her bed, she always had given me what ever color of dress or clothes she was sure where Edward’s favorite on me, like when I was human, it was blue then, even after I changed she had put me in a blue dress when I was to under the pain to even notice, so this may be a change that she was sure will have the same effect that my clothes had that day, and like I knew her I was sure that like my wedding day she had been very careful not to think about me or the dress near him.
When I finally made it out of the closet Edward was sitting on the bed waiting for me, he had a very puzzled look on his face, I was sure that he was wondering what was taking me so long. When he looked at me I got the satisfaction I was hopping for, yes Alice was a genius when it came down to this.
“Wow” Was all he could say for a moment not bothering closing his mouth with surprise, then the corner of his mouth went up with that crocked smile that I loved so much.
I was on a very good mood and also I felt like joking a little, if Nessie where near to being up he will know.
“What do you think am I decent?” I was turning around in my own feet to let him watch me from all the angles.
“Utterly indecent” He said quoting like the day I met his family.” No one should be aloud to be so tempting.”
He got up from the corner of the bed where he was sitting and very fast came to where I stood outside the closet and in one quick move grabed my face in his strong gentle hands and kissed me. Like I said this was always a one of a kind experience. This time it was gentle, like when you’re seeing a movie and finally the actors kiss each other on the lips, it was a love kiss, soft and magnificent, Edward was good at everything. I moved along at the rhythm of his lips in mine and at the same time taking in his wonderful scent and make the best of it by letting my tongue taste the howl bit of him. I really love my new senses, being able to remember all of these moments in my life with such a perfect detail, was a wonderful thing for me.
“We better go see Nessie now; she is going to be awake soon.” He told me making a very hard effort to get away from my lips and staying very flew inches from my face staring at my butter scotch eyes.
I composed myself in one quick second and answer. “Yes, let’s go.”
We went to her room very fast and sat on the nearest end of the bed by her. My beautiful baby was growing so fast, she looked like a tree year old child now, I thougth, watching her still sleep; she looked like an angel. She was curled on her right side, her hands under her face. Beautiful, just beautiful. If I had the ability to cry my face will be full with tears of joy right now. I stayed perfectly still watching her sleep until she decided by her self wake up; I could not make myself disturb such a beautiful event. Edward was standing next to me with one hand laid softly in my right shoulder mesmerized by our daughter, and I guessed also by her dreams, since he was able to hear what she was thinking right now and I din’t. I felt jealous in that moment. I also wanted to know what her dreams where about, so I whispered to him very quickly. ”What is she dreaming about?”
“She is just picturing different types of places, all kinds actually.”
We stayed like that a little longer, she woke up after only two or tree minutes.
“Morning” She said to us with a huge smile spreaded across her face that made dimples in the corners of her mouth.
“Happy Birthday, sweetheart” We both said at the same time.
“Thanks” She said getting up from the bed and kissing and hugging each of us.
“So, what is on the agenda for today?” She asked while getting up and going to her own closet that was not as big as mine since Alice still hadn’t being able to get to it and Nessie also had Edwards room back in the big house.
“We want to stop by the family house first so they also get a chance to congratulate you and then we can do whatever you want.” Edward was the one that give the explanation since my laying abilities had not been improved after the change and she will have blow that cover in one instant, so I just smile in approval with what Edward had said.
“Ok, let me just get dressed and we will go, you think grandma Esme will make me breakfast at the house? I’m really hungry but I want to wait for Jake to go hunting. Is that ok?
“Anything you want” Edward said.
Nessie was already done getting dress so we went to the house. We where running at Nessie’s pace, she had wanted to run today instead of letting us carried her, we leaped over the river and headed to the main door. The house looked like there was no one in it, like it was deserted except for the two noises that Edward and I hear when we headed for the door. I tought it was a “Down” and a “Here they come” but now it was quiet, the only sound that came from it was the thirteen people breathing and the sound of seven beating hearts that I knew Nessie could hear.
Right after that thought crossed my mind Nessie jumped right into my harms, put her hand in my face and show me that exactly with a question edge to her thought. I had to come up with something fast or I will mess the surprise element for her. Why Alice didn’t thought of this and gave me the way out? Oh right, she could not see Nessie or the wolves. Well this one will better do.
“Maybe some friends came to visit or some of the doctors from the hospital are here to talk to Carlisle about something medical” I said putting a puzzled face close to the one she had. “Please, please, let this one work.” I thought to myself and it did work, she droped her hand to my neck and the next thing I saw was that she wasn’t giving this any more attention, she was dreaming about Esme’s omelet’s and pancakes. Thank’s god she was hungry.
We went thru the door and everybody got out of there hiding places and screamed “Happy Birthday Nessie.”
Every one was here except for Sam and Emily whom I guessed where too cut up in the wedding plans, and also will not want to make Leah uncomfortable with there presence here.
Nessie was very surprised and happy right now. She had the biggest smile I had seen in her face after the one she had give me the day we where introduce after I gave birth to her. I put her in the floor so that every one will be able to hold her and congratulate her.
The first who got to her was Jake; of course, I guessed that he was in that spot just to be the first to congratulate her from the whole crowd. He opened his arms and Nessie went to him with a big smile in her beautiful face. He kissed her and congratulated her smiling at her like there was nothing else in the word that mattered. I pushed away the same painful thougth that came to me minutes ago in bed with Edward and grabed his hand.
Nessie pass through the whole crowd, the hugs and smiles where always there. I was really glad that she was so happy. This had worked out perfectly I had to give that one to Alice.
Alice had went overboard like always, the house was decorated with white roses and beautiful lavender flowers, Nessie was in a purple face right now and she knew it. Well what didn’t she knew? She had got the whole bit; the cake was very very big, there where tree of them that formed a tower, and had three colors.
The first one was the biggest, the one that was holding the tower, it was purple and was also like the decorations flowers only this time the roses where bottoms all over the ends of the round cake and the other parts where purple and by the smell it had, it was a graves cake. The second one was the same in decoration only this time it was a strawberry cake and the third one was a cake with the face of Nessie on top of it, made out of what I gessed it was frosty. It was really creative of Alice to do this; well maybe the better expression was that this was so Alice, I also smelled something really disgusting to my taste in the kitchen and I guessed that Alice had really went overboar this time with a catering and everything, when the majority of us did not stand normal food. Well, since we had as guests five werewolfs, that had a very good appetite, -and will love this food since no vampire had let their scent in it, all thou they where getting used to that- and three normal people, well three and a half, maybe most of the food will be eated and the rest we will give to them to take for latter, well maybe I really didn’t have to pretend to eat and then had the unpleasant job to get it back out.
Also as an extra present Alice had a very beautiful dress waiting for Nessie to put it on, it was also purple and white, apparently Alice liked this combo, because the balloons where this colors and the big HAPPY BIRTHDAY NESSIE sign was too. The dress was mostly purple in a pastel shade with spots of white all over it without following any pattern, the white spots where just scattered all over it, It had a very thin strip that hanged around her neck, a to match with it a pair of very beautiful white satin sandals with no heels. Ones she put the dress on, Esme said.
“There is just one little thing that will make this outfit even more perfect” With that she went up-stairs and was back after five minutes -since Charlie was here we had to act humans which was very annoying- with a silver tiara in her hands that she put on Nessie’s head making her look like a little princess. She was right, now she was even more perfect and I guessed that the tiara would be another family antique.
Actually, now that I took the time to analyze, every one in the room were all very nice dressed. Every woman had put on a dress for the occasion, even Leah. She had a long down the knee dress, with black and white horizontal strips that looked very good on her, she wore a pair of black shoes, half the size o my hells, and had her very short hear down , this was one off the many disadvantages of being a women werewolf. Esme opted for a very inconspicuous black dress very tight to her shape; very 70ths style so I figured se had it for a wile. Alice had a pink fuchsia dress with thin silver verticals strips; this was the shortest of all and a pair of high silver heels. Sue’s dress was all full of daisy flowers with differents colors shades, in gold, yellow and white, she was the only one of the women’s that was not wearing heels, instead she had a beautiful pair of low gold to the floor sandals in a roman style. Claire had a very cute dress in a very pale shade of blue, and Rose, Oh Rose was…. There was no way to describe how exquisite Rose was today. She had a beautiful yelllow dress long to the thigh, that shaped in a perfect way her unequal body, it was like seen a goddess, her long blond hair fall all over her shoulders, and matched perfectly wiht the tone of her dress, the hells where golden with a classic form. She really was something painful to wacth when she was normal, but like this, it was almost unbearable to be around her and not fell insanely jealous of my big sister endless beauty, even after I changed.
The boys were also very nice. They all had bottom-up shirts in different colors, Jasper’s was a pale green that looked very good with the color of his blond hair and some beige pants. Em’s shirt was light blue and he had put on dark gray pants, Carlisle and Esme matched he also had opted black for both his shirt and his pants, Charlie had clean up very well too, he had a brown shirt that went really well with the color of his eyes and a dark black jean. Even the wolves where out of there normal sweat pants and bared chest style and blend in with the rest of the people here. Quill’s shirt was dark ocean blue and his pants where white, Embry was bone white from head to toe, Seth had an orange shirt and light blue jeans, Billy was wearing a beige shirt with brown squares all over it, and brown pants. Jake had a light yellow shirt that looked perfect on him, it made the beautiful color of his skin and his darker long hear pop out; I haven’t seen Jake dressed up like this in a long time.
After all of them where trough congratulating Nessie, Alice got her by the hand and said:
“Is time to open your presents”
“Grate” Nessie said very enthusiastic. I was very happy for Alice, now she had a niece that was able to express the appropriate amount of enthusiasm about parties and dresses and presents.
They both danced out to the table that was by the end of the large living room, Alice had moved all of the houses furniture to an unknown place and had put a large dance floor all over the big space, she had the stereo next to the cake table with a bunch of cd’s in the side and chairs for each and every one of us. We had to keep up appearances with Charlie around.
In the presents table there were six gifts. Edward’s and mine were a two part gift, and the wolve’s and Billy’s where going to give her one that they made together. All of us headed to the table, when we got there Alice got one little box and started jumping up and down like a little child and said.
“Open mine and Jazz first” With that she handed Nessie the little box.
“What will this be? What will this be?” Nessie was saying while tearing apart the rapper and finding a key inside the little box. Edward and I chuckled when we saw the confused look on Nessie’s face, we all knew what that key will be for, but she didn’t, yet.
“Alice’’ I said suppressing a smile because Nessie was starting to get irritated for the fact that apparently for her this was not a joke and didn’t understood why everyone was laughing abaut. “I think you better tell her what it is.”
“Ohh!!! It’s a key to your new stocked closet Nessie, I made you a new closet here in the room that was of you father, since making it in the cottage will mean for all of you to move in here for a week or two so that we’ll be able to do the renovation, I thought this will be better.”
“It is auntie Alice, is very nice of you, I can’t wait for us to get up there to see how it is.”
“We’ll go later, but there is something more in there. See?”
“Wow that is awesome auntie now we can go together.” Inside the black box under where the key was, there was also a discount special shopping card for all the major stores.
“Thank you so much, both of you, I love it” She said now to Jasper too and went to hug them.
“Now is our turn” Em said anxious to give her what he and Rose had got her. “Is this one” He reached and got a big square package and took a steep back to Rose’s side to wait for her reaction. Inside, there was a little rectangle Ipod that she loved as soon as she saw it, she loved music.
“It’s got eighty giga bytes and I put in some of your fathers songs, some of mines and some I think you may enjoy, I left you tons of space for you to fill with what ever you like later.” Rose said winking at her. Nessie went to hug them both.
“There’s one more thing in there, look” Em said, clearly this was the one he had bought for her. There was a little baseball uniform and also a cap. This was the uniform they used when they played any kind off sports.
“Now you’ll look like all of us when we play” He said with a very huge smile.” And don’t worry we bought a bunch more in other sizes for when you grow up, there in your new closet.”
“Thank’s uncle Em, I love it.” She said looking at him and then at Rose.” All of it.”
“Ok, I’m next.” Charlie said and handed her another little box.” I know it may be a little early for this but since I know you are growing at the speed of the light and all that maybe you’ll get to use this soon enough.” Inside the box there was another key, but this one I recognized, it was one key that I once loved. I could not believe Charlie had done this; this may have cost him a fortune to get it done.
“It’s kind of a hand-me-down, see, I gave a car to your adoptive -he said the word looking at me like he knew that it was one of the lies he had to know better than the truth, in the need to know bases he had agreed on- mother the day she moved back to Forks to live with me. So I thought that you may want to have it. I made some changes. I changed the engine completely and put a new one so that some of the limitations that had when she used it are not longer a problem, and repainted the old thing in the same color, it looks like new now.” He said that and winked at Jake. Of course he will have given my father the same services as a mechanic that he had given me long time a go.” We can go see it later after Alice takes you to se your new closet if you want? It’s out in the back, I brought it here”
“Thank you grandpa Charlie” She said with a much exited look and with that thru herself at him to hug him.” My first car, this is so exiting”
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We went home directly after we where done hunting, the female mountain lion had satiated my thirst and I was anxious to be finally alone with my one and true love. Edward…
We put Nessie to bed and told her that we will go to the big family house latter to go get her presents, and by latter I meant before she will be awake in the morning, I was looking forward to be alone with Edward without any kind of interruptions .
After Nessie was soundly asleep, Edward caught me in one fast move into his very strong gentle arms and we went to our room, he laid me gentle in the bed and started to caress my face with his very determined finger, making me want to tear apart all the clothes that where in the way. He came closer to me then, slowly as if he did not wanted to scare me and laid his marble, warm, soft lips in mine. Very soon our lips started to follow new patters that we had never experienced before, I wrapped me harms around his neck and hold him tighter to my body.
Then, suddenly, he let go of me and shouted.
“Oh, for the love of all that´s holy!”
I was very confused by this reaction, Edward was never in this bad mood, and in fact he had never done anything of this source when we were occupied in this kind of action.
My mind was starting to think fast, maybe even too fast, I wanted to make sense of what was happening, and suddenly before I was able to think the worst of this unlikely situation I heard.
“Hello? Are you decent?” A very familiar voice was calling from the front door.
It was Alice.
I heard a growl came out of my trough. This was my time with my beloved and I was very angry that Alice had interrupted us. Now I knew what Edward meant.
“Yes Alice, come on in.” Edward was the one that responded to her call; I was too infuriated and was working on getting a grip of myself, ripping Alice´s trough was not the very best thing to do so in this situation. In this moment I felt a rage that I had never felt before in this new life…
Suddenly all the rage I felt and all my discomfort toward Alice vanished. If she was here that meant that something was happening or was going to happen and this thought worried me.
I composed myself, took an unnecessary deep breath and went to the living room with Edward´s hand in mine.
“Here.” She said living Nessie´s presents in the living room table.”I brought this for Nessie. I guessed that she will be too tired to come to the house after the hunting was done.”
“Thanks Alice. Is there anything else in your mind?” I asked, giving her the in to the conversation I guessed she was here for.
“No, just this.”
“Alice” Edward gave her a strange look, one that I had never seen before.
“Ok, ok, this is nothing for you to worry about, is just that I feel something is coming and I can´t tell what it is. It infuriates me when I can´t see something, believe it or not I can´t get used to the fact that I´m not able to see Nessie or Jacob or any kind of people that is not like me or was not like me.”
“Alice we had talked about this before, is not your fault, your talent has boundaries like the rest of us does. There is nothing for you to be worried or infuriated about, is just the way it is.” Edward had told this to Alice many times, but I was more worried now of what Alice had said before. She said that she felt something was coming and didn´t knew what it was. She also put Nessie and Jacob in the same sentence, this was bad. Very, very bad.
“What do you mean you feel like something is coming? What does that have to do with Nessie and Jacob?”
“I told you there was nothing for you to worry about.” She said giving a complicit look to Edward so fast that I bet she thought I had not seen it.
“Spit it out Alice” I yelled at her. This time I was angry, with both of them, they shouldn’t be hiding things from me, not any more. Not when it involved Nessie and Jacob. Had I not proved myself trust wordy and useful in this kind of situation last year? Was that not enough?
“I told you there is nothing to be worried about”
“If there were no reason what so ever to be worried, or at the very least on the look for, then you will not be here Alice. Just get it over with.”
She was looking at Edward again and then looked back at me. The moment she did that I knew. I knew my beloved daughter was in danger and, if she was, then Jacob will be too. What other thing will be this important for Alice to be here? The answer to that questions was easy, none.
I lifted my shield very carefully, feeling the pain go through every fiber of my been, like some force was crushing me down to the floor, a force that I couldn’t fight, it was stronger than me. I felt the elastic fabric get away from me very slowly, this were going to be the final thoughts that I will keep to myself until the end, because it was near, that was what/why Alice was here to tell us. If this was it, the end of my happiness of my fairy tell, then every second I had left it will be like this, I will let Edward be inside my head to see all that I saw, to feel all that I felt, we will be like one person for the short months we had left to exist, or weeks. We could not resist another attack from the Volturi.
*I love you. You are my one and only, my life and my existence are complete because I have you. You gave me the one thing that I love and didn´t knew I wanted until she was a part of me. Thank you, for all of it.* I also let him see all my life with him, the happiness that I felt every single minute we shared, I wanted him to know he was all I needed to be happy, he, Nessie, our family, this was more than any one could have ever ask for, this was more than I ever imagined I could ever get, even for the shortest time, I was the most lucky person in the world because I had him, because they all were an important part of my life, because we all loved each other.
He meted my gaze and looked at me, confused. He didn´t understood what I was saying good bye, so I clarify that for him.
*I know they are coming for us again, what else will bring Alice here tonight with that lame excuse if they were not coming? Why else will she be so cryptic about, if not the end of us by their hand?*
“No, Bella is nothing of that source. Love, there really is nothing to worry about, no one is in danger.” He put his and around my shoulders and kiss me in the forehead.
I wish I could be able to produce tears; maybe they´ll wash away the pain, the agony that my body was in right now. Not only because of the danger we were in but also because of the little trust Edward apparently had in me.
He couldn’t comfort me. He had lied to me in the past to protect me. I let him heard this too, let him know that I was not fooled by his words.
“Are you happy now? She is worrying about nothing and apparently has also lost all her confidence in me. Tell her already, she is beating herself up for nothing.” Edward had every muscle of his body tight; he nearly growled the last part to Alice.
“Hey, is not my fault that she always jumps to the very worst possible conclusion. I said that there was nothing to be worried about.”
“Tell her! She will not believe me if I did.”
“Bella, stop that. Is nothing, maybe it will be a good news altogether. Listen to me. Bella!”
I had heard her words but they meant nothing to me until she yelled my name. She never had yelled at me before, not like this. I put all my attention in her now, trying to get away from the pain. I looked straight into Alice´s eyes trying to see the lie in them, to see what she was kipping from me, and I could not see anything. Her eyes were felled with truth and anger towards me, apparently.
“Now you listen to me! The only reason I came here tonight was to tell you that something new happened to me today. You know that I can´t see Nessie. I had never been able to see her, not even now, but the new thing is that I can feel her, feel the decisions she makes after, and this is me guessing again, she makes it.”
“If this is it, then why were you and Edward looking at each other so strangely?” I said this with an attitude; did they think I was a fool?
“The fact that I can´t see Nessie does not mean that I can´t see the two of you. I was apologizing to him for m, the interruption.”
“Oh”. For some reason I can´t explain, I believed her this time. Maybe it was the embarrass look on her face that was mixed with truth, maybe I just wanted to believe her desperately because of the implications of my own terrible thoughts. The fact was that I believed she was telling me the truth and now I was embarrassed. I took the elastic fabric of my shield back to where it belonged.
“Hey! Don’t do that, just a little more time, please.” Edward had protested the second I regain my shield and flashed that a crooked smile at me. He was trying to dazzle me and he succeeded. But there was no way I was going to let him in again, not after I had show him all my pain, not until I had some very beautiful memories, some new memories to show him.
I had to steady myself after that look, after seeing that beautiful smile, regaining all the happiness it had minutes ago, before I let my painful thoughts be seen. I felt embarrassed, not only for what Alice had said, that she could see what we were going to do, but also because in my accelerated conclusion I had hurt Edward, because of the desperation I had when I thought the Volturi where coming for us again, and also because I let him feel the excruciating pain I was in just a moment ago. Shame on me, on the weakness that pain had produced, of the pain that weakness had inflicted. Edward knew now the way I felt when someone or something was endangering the ones I loved, and I had no way to know if this was a good or a bad thing. Let´s just hope that nothing like this will happened again, because not only the pain will gain force of its own, but also because now I had no way to hide that from Edward and I knew he will suffer for us both. No, nothing like this will happen again, there is no reason for me to think that. No reason at all.
I focused on Alice this time, in what she just had told us. She was right; this may end up being a good thing, for her specially. Maybe this will be enough for her to stop complaining about this one little exception of her talent. Welcoming this new happy topic I gave Alice what now I knew she had come here for, I gave her the inner in the conversation she was really waiting to have with us.
“What makes you believe that you can feel Nessie´s decisions? How do you got to that conclusion?”
“I told you I can feel her.”
“Yes, you´ve said that already, I mean how can you be sure?”
“I think I was able to make a connection with her, because of how hard I was trying to see her and how much I love her. Then I could feel her making the decision, she wanted to go some were, she what´s to see someone. Am I right?” She said that last part with a smug smile on her beautiful immortal face.
I was right too. This will be enough for her to feel better for not seeing Nessie.
Now that she could feel her that will give her some space to maneuver with, something for her to came to the right conclusion, like now.
“Yes Alice, like always, you are right.”
“Don´t say that, I´m not always right. Thanks god for that. This has also helped me to understand my talent.”
“What do you mean?” Now Edward was also interested in what she had to say. I guessed she was thinking about the national deed or translating in her head any kind of book into a very complicated language to make him wait for her answer.
“Remember how many times I saw Bella died, how many different ways?” She said that as if she was expecting a confirmation, like we could forget.
Edward just nodded and I saw his fist clanged on at the side of his gorgeous body, lines were appearing on his forged; he was remembering it now. James, Victoria and the new born army, Laurent, all of them even thou that last one he had not witness from himself.
I grab his fist into my hand and undo it until he was grabbing my hand with our fingers wrapped around each other.
Alice just continued with her big discovering about herself, it was amazing how much could she missed when her attention was otherwise involved, she had missed the discomfort of her favorite brother; I knew this was not something that she had wanted to do, this was just some way to expose what she had learn, but it bothered me anyway.
She continued. “Now I know some of the visions I have are not definitive and some are, Edward was determined to be with you, so I saw you become a vampire. But there were events that I did not prevent, like when he was struggling not to kill you himself when he was sucking the venom out of your system, or when you jumped down that cliff for fun, I saw you died because I could not see Jacob…”
Edward was remembering again, I could see it in his face so I cut Alice´s new analogy.
“ We get it Alice, get to the point” I felt guilt after the words came out of my mouth, maybe I had been a bit too hard on her, she did not mean to hurt Edward. I had to keep better control of my temper!
“I’m sorry.” She said after realizing why I said what I said and how I say it.
“It’s ok, continue.” Edward answered her.
“Any way, that´s my guessed about what happened today with Nessie, she was determined to go were ever is that you are going, that is why I could felted it. Some are set in stone, so to speak and some are not. Now all I have to do is figure out which is which, the ones that admitted some kind of change and the ones that do not.”
“This is good Alice, and I think you meant where are we going.” I let the bait sit there, this will make her happy and will take Edwards mind out of painful thoughts.
“Really, all of us?” Wow, I did not see that one coming! Where are we going?”
“Yes, all of us; we are going to visit Zafrina, Nessie wanted to go.” Edward had taken the bait also, this was good.
“Actually, we need your help, we were going to go visit you in the morning, but since you are already here.” I needed some help in the Rose department.
“She will be difficult about it but she´ll enjoy the idea afterwards.” She responded after closing her eyes briefly. Yes, Alice was as good as ever.
“Thank you Alice; Do I need to buy her something? You know, to make her see sense more quickly?” They both laughed now, well, it had the upcoming I wanted.
“No love, that won’t be necessary.”
“Alice how will you feel about doing all the planning for the event?” I had to give her some fun; she will enjoy doing that very much and also this will take some things of my mind for the time being.
Like telling Charlie that we are going away for some time. This I was sure it will be the most difficult thing to do, living my father alone here, without family, at least he had his friends, and there was no way to go with him. I was not going to endanger the life or my father by taking him to South America to a house (or whatever place Zafrina, Senna and Kachiri lived in) of non vegetarian vampires with his mouthwatering scent. The other matter I had to take care of was Jake, I knew he will not take no for an answer so, I had to be at his disposal to help him make the arrangements, and then there was my family. I was almost 100% positive that no one but Rose will be a problem if I were to expose the things they will like best, but I had to tell them as soon as possible so they could start make arrangements of their own, for alibis, like Carlisle in the hospital.
“Done” She said and then she thought about it for a moment and added. “But you can´t complain when I´m making your bags, I am the one that decides what to get and what to take, take it or leave it.” I had to laugh at that, she will make the best of every situation, in her favor that is, and having me wear whatever piece of clothing she wanted was kind of a dream come true for her.
“Sure Alice, you´ve got yourself a deal.” I said, Edward joined me laughing a minute latter and then Alice did too.
We spend the rest of the night discussing what to do for the trip, what to get, what to do first. Alice was going with Nessie to the store in the morning; they will go shopping for everybody and anything we were going to need. We also divided the persons we were going to tell about the trip so that no one could refuse. Edward was the one that will take Carlisle, mostly to help him get all things done in the hospital, he had experience in this kind of thing, he had been Carlisle assistant many years ago and he knew what had to be done.
Alice will take Jasper of course and I will take everybody else. I was looking forward to see what Em will do ones I broke the news to him.
“Well, I guess this is it, now all we have to do is to get ourselves busy.” I said to Alice and Edward to stop the silence we were all in, just wetting for Nessie to wake up.
“Is she going to take long?” Alice asked Edward, her face was so readable when she was upset, I could see her discomfort and the impatience she was in. She didn’t like to be the one to ask the questions when she usually was the one that provided them, also she had a long fun day ahead of her, Nessie will be with her all the time, they will go shopping, we had arrange that in the plans conversation we had have.
“Ware’s your vampire perspective Alice?” He was teasing her, he loved to annoy his sister like she did to him some times, and this was something they’ll have always enjoyed, long before I came into the picture.
“Oh, come on Edward, don’t be like that, help me out here, you know this is annoying me to the point of madness.” She was like a little child when she did this, and she did it because she knew Edward will gave away the answer in less time that it took a human to blink.
“Ok Alice, maybe one hour” Like always she had succeeded, but this time she didn’t like the answer.
“One hour!” She shouted the answer, she was expecting minutes, maybe even less.
“Well, now that you’ve weaken her, maybe three seconds.” He said that to her with a reproving face. She was embarrassed by that but she couldn’t fight back the big smile that spread across her face. She had been picturing this howl day last night.
That is one other thing I love about being a vampire, we can think about many things at the same time, is like we don’t have a line to tell us that is the end. Like when we were humans, I remember always thinking about Edward, but after the transformation I could think about it all. Nessie, Edward, the new things I had experience, all was there.
“Well, then we better go to her now, don’t you think?” Yes, Alice was very eager to start this particular day.
“Yes, lest go, the earlier we start the faster will go to visit Zafrina and gave Nessie her last present.” I thought I better stopped them both before they got into another of there conversations and most likely will get deviated from the subject.
It was a good thing that Alice wanted to spend the howl day with Nessie, not only because they loved each other and wanted some time for themselves, well Alice did, Nessie will never complained when Jake will monopolize her, but also because that way we could all have more time to settle all this in one day. Edward will be the one to go get the tickets to South America for all of us, we aggraded to make a scale in Rio de Janeiro for all of us to take some time to enjoy the sites, maybe one day or one night, this will have to be a group decision.
“Let the games begin.” Was all Alice said after my response.
We all ran to Nessie´s room to find out that we had being beaten. Jake was already there, my guess was that he had came in true the window, like Edward always did when I lived with Charlie. I was not surprised by this, well less surprised about it, I knew Jake will always want more time with her and like I said Nessie will never complained about it, she will often demand his presence, but the fact that surprised me was that Edward had said nothing about this. I knew he was more pro Nessie and Jacob that I was, he had all the facts, he could read his mind.
I’m not saying that I don’t want Jake to be with Nessie, on the contrary I was graceful the it was him, is just that with her everything was so fast, her creation, her carrying, her childhood, everything was at full speed, even the love of her life was something that was waiting for her just minutes after she was born, and I… I was just craving something that I had for all eternity, time.
I knew she will be happy and that was the one thing that keep me from doing something really stupid, Jake will be the most loving companion she could ever wish for, and I knew this first hand, but this was something that I could not get out of mi mind, that like all the things in her life, this was something that will caught me by surprise.
“Morning guys” Jake said with a smile on his face, he was watching Nessie and had just lifted his eyes to say hello to us, he kept watching her like he always did when she was in the room, like nothing else matter.
“To what do we how this surprise this early in the morning?” I asked him, I knew the answer but it was something safe to begin with, knowing Jake like I did, he will not be happy to spend the rest of the day with out Nessie. Wile I was asking him I went to the bed put Nessie on my lap and started to caress her hair. Edward and Alice had come to the other sides of the bed and were watching us, Alice did not seam happy.
“Oh, I was just here to tell the news to Nessie first, I was about to go tell you guys. Want to tell them Nessie?” He turned too looked at her wile he was asking, goofy eye and all.
She just nodded and put her hand in my right side of the face, she showed me that Jake had arranged a play date with Quill and Claire today at the beach. Apparently he had talked to every one at the reservation to make this happened, it was going to be a first one. I felt bad for Jake the second she showed me this, he will not have time to do this today, and Alice will not allow it.
“So what do you think, can she come?” Jake asked. The minute the words came out of his mouth Alice was in rage all.
“No, no way in hell. Over my dead body!” She was southing. Nessie had her hand in my face in one minute, she was confused, and now every one was yelling at each other, Jake was saying Alice he could arrange that, Edward of course was putting Jake in his place with the word he most hated, Mongrel and Alice was still defending her right to be with her niece. This was what I was trying to prevent, put apparently the questions that seam safe to me had backfire; It had been the point of discussion. I thought I better take care of the situation, I didn’t want Nessie to ear us fight, some of the people she loved were in this room fighting for her and I had discovered that she had the same tendency that I have, to blame herself for all things.
“Every body, get a grip on yourself right this instant!” My voice rose from all the ones in the room. I liked that, all of them respected me because of my strength; I had not wore of, yet. But also because I did this very little, this was not normal behavior for me, but then again, the situation called for some extreme mayors.
“Nessie sweetie, why don’t you get dressed and then go to the living room when you are ready, we will be there explaining some things to Jacob, ok?” She put her hand in my face again. She wanted to go with him, of course she wanted that.
“Sweet heart, we have talked about this, balance, remember?” She nodded so I continue. “Besides you will have time latter.” With that she went to the closet, Jake was about to make a protest but I held one finger to him to let him know that we will not continue this conversation in here. God! I was sounding just like Charlie right now, he had told me this long time ago, actually it felt like another life time.
When we got to the living room I started to talk.
“Jake, let me explain” I was expecting for some confirmation from him but he kept quiet, so I continued.
“We have made some plans, we intended on keeping the promise I made to Nessie last night. There for Alice has all the day planed, she and Nessie are going to shop for all we are going to need for the trip…” He did not let me finish what I was saying; he just jumped to the worst possible conclusion.
“Bella, how could you do this to me? You of all people should know what it will be like”
“What are you talking about Jacob? One day is not going to kill you; this is not the first time.”
“He thinks we are going away without him” Edward was the one that answered that.
“Ow Jake, how could you think that, of course you are more than welcome to come, every one you want actually, from the pack I mean, I don’t think is safe to bring Billy thou.”
“Really? I can go with you?”
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