If You Don't Want To Love Me

Description: This takes place in New Moon. It's the night of Bella's birthday party, right before Edward leaves. I hope that everyone, who reads this, enjoys this story.

Preface

It was my birthday and I was at the Cullen residence. I felt comfortable and safe here. I knew that if someone was trying to kill me, this wonderful family would save me. Well, except Rosalie. Little did I know that one member of this family would try to kill me tonight.

Chapter One - Birthday

I was standing with Edward waiting anxiously for Alice to start my party. "I can protect you from everyone, except my sister.", he told me. Just then Alice bursted through the door. "It's time.", she chimed as she grabbed my free hand and drug us downstairs. "Happy Birthday, Honey.", Esme said. I could already tell that she considered me a part of her family. "Thank you.", I said while blushing a scarlet red. Emmett laughed. Alice began taking pictures and I stared at her. "I hope that you don't mind. I got it out of your bag.", she said apologetically. I smiled. "It's okay.", I assured her. "Okay. Show the love.", Alice said while making Edward and I stand closer to each other. She snapped the photo. "Now, this one is from Emmett, Rosalie, and Jasper.", Alice said while handing me a brightly colored present. I opened it and then opened the box. It was empty. I stared at them with questions written all over my face. "Already installed it in your truck.", Emmett explained. Of course he had. He didn't like my ancient truck. "Thanks.", I whispered. The three of them nodded. "This one is from Carlisle and Esme.", Alice said handing me another wrapped gift. I smiled at them and began to, carefully, remove the wrapping paper. "Ouch.", I said while looking at my finger. Edward looked at me, worriedly, when a couple of drops of blood fell on the floor. I looked up. Edward, who was standing beside me, was now standing in front of me. I tried to grab him, but couldn't because I was flying away from him. I heard glass shatter as I landed on a table. I felt pain in my right arm, so I looked. I was cut, deep by all the glass. "Get Jasper outside!" I heard someone yell. I looked up, in time, to see Rosalie, Alice, and Emmett hauling Jasper out of the back door. Esme apologized and then followed them. I didn't see Edward, so I looked around until I found him. He was standing a few feet away from me, just staring at me. I could tell that he was scared and upset, so stretched, my unharmed, hand out to him. He put his head down as Carlisle came to examine my arm. "Go find Jasper. I'm pretty sure that he is upset with himself. You are the only one that he will listen to.", Carlisle told Edward. He nodded and, the next second, he was gone. "I'll need to take care of this in my office. I'm sure that you don't want to go to the hospital.", Carlisle said. I shook my head. That would be a mistake. I followed Carlisle, up the stairs, to his huge office. He cleared a spot off of his desk for me to sit. I sat down as Carlisle gave me a shot to numb my arm, so that he could get the glass out and stitch up my cut. I watched him carefully. He was quick. After the glass was out and he had the stitches in, he wrapped my arm up. "I'll take you home.", he said. I was just about to say 'okay', when I heard Edward's velvet voice. "No. I'll take her.", he said. I sighed. Edward was still mad, but I didn't know why. Edward carried me downstairs. I held my breath because it smelled strongly of bleach. I felt bad. I was blaming myself. "I'll clean up my mess, Esme.", I said quietly. Edward's arms stiffened. "It's okay Bella, Honey. I'm almost done.", she said smiling. I sighed again. Edward carried me to his silver Volvo and sat me in the passenger seat. He even buckled my seat belt. This wasn't good. I had to get him to talk to me. Edward got in, started the car in one swift movement, and we were racing down the driveway. I could feel tears beginning to fill my eyes. I tried to be quick about wiping them away, but, of course, he noticed. We had just parked outside of Charlie's. Edward turned to look at me and turned my face towards him. He wiped the tears, that had excaped, away. "Go inside, Bella. You need to go to sleep.", he said dryly. "Will you stay with me tonight?", I asked, even though I felt like I already knew the answer. "Not tonight.", he said. I nodded, got out of his car, slammed the door, and ran inside. I heard him drive away. "Bella?", Charlie called. Who else would it be? I thought to myself. "Yeah, dad.", I called back. "How was the party?", he asked still not looking at me. "It was good. I'm tired, so I'm going to bed. Goodnight.", I said, almost losing it right there. "Goodnight, Bells.", he said, still not looking at the tv. I was glad. I went up the stairs, remembering to drag my feet. I went straight to my room and fell on my bed. I felt cold hands touch me and I jumped up. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you.", Edward said quietly. I began to cry again. He grabbed me and pulled me back on to the bed. "I'm sorry.", he whispered again. I took a few breaths to calm myself. "I...I thought you said that you weren't going to stay tonight.", I whispered. "I'm not. I just couldn't stand being away from you while you are hurting.", he explained. I sighed. "Listen, Edward. What happened with Jasper, a few minutes ago, was nothing.", I told him. It was silent for a moment while he gathered his thoughts. "You're right. It was nothing. But what I did was unforgivable. I'm sorry.", he said. After that was said, he was gone. I laid down again and cried into my pillow all night.

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Permalink Reply by Aisyahbella Cullen on March 10, 2010 at 2:52am

Great chapter!

Permalink Reply by Summer on March 10, 2010 at 8:43am

Thanks and yes I will keep you updated

Permalink Reply by Zippora Mitchell on March 10, 2010 at 10:40am

i loved the story please keep me updated

Permalink Reply by Summer on March 10, 2010 at 10:40am

sure will

Permalink Reply by Madison P on July 22, 2010 at 1:21pm

write more soon keep me posted

Permalink Reply by Summer on July 27, 2010 at 1:16am

Chapter 5

Alice drove faster than I was comfortable with, but I tried to stay calm. We got to the Seattle airport in record time. We all jumped out of the car and ran at human pace inside. We got to the ticket and flight booth.

"Alice Cullen, three first class tickets please. I just called and ordered them." Alice said quickly, but just quick enough so that the humans could understand. The beautiful lady looked at us and then looked at her computer.
"Yes, Mrs. Cullen. Here you go and please enjoy your flight." the lady said while smiling. We all thanked her and ran straight to the gate.

We boarded our plane and took our seats. "How long do we have?" Emmett asked quietly so that only Alice and I could hear him. "We will arrive in Italy in a couple of hours. Edward plans on asking for death while we are flying. The Volturi will tell him 'No', but he will find a way for them to change they’re minds." she answered and I flinched. I couldn't stand the thought of losing Edward; Even if he didn't love me. "Sorry Bella. I know that you don't want to hear his name, but it will help. We, Emmett and I will need your help. Edward can't hear your thoughts, like he can everyone else’s. You will have to save him." she said while hugging me. I laughed a little to myself, or so I thought. "What's so funny little sis?" Emmett asked while looking at me like I was physico. "Me, a human saving Edward, a vampire and of course, I will help you two out." I said smiling. "Even if he doesn't love me;" I said. It had slipped out. Emmett and Alice both stared at me. "What do you mean 'Even if he doesn't love me'?" Emmett questioned while trying to copy my voice. I sighed. "When you all left, he told me that he didn't want me. I told him that if he didn't want to love me, then I would find somebody else who will. Find another kind of thrill; find another way to fill this loneliness." I explained. Alice gasped and Emmett looked shocked. "He still loves you Bella. He always has and always will." Alice said. "No he doesn't. If he did, he wouldn't have left me;" I argued. "Bella" Emmett said sternly. "He never got over you. He moped around the whole time. He kept beating himself up for leaving you." he explained. Tears filled my eyes and spilled over. I didn't like what they were telling me. I was still crying when the plane landed. "Come on Bella. The plane has landed. We have to hurry." Alice stated. I wiped the tears from my eyes and stood up. We ran until we got outside of the airport. Alice stole a fast looking car; I think it is a Porsche. Emmett and I jumped in and Alice pushed down hard on the gas pedal. The car lurched forward and I held onto my seat tightly, with such force. Emmett laughed. "Chill out sis. We have to drive like this so you can save Edward." Emmett said once he quit laughing. I sighed and relaxed a little bit. I knew that they were right. I couldn't let Edward die. Especially, if he was dying because he thought I was dead. We came up to a huge wall with a gate. It had taken us just seconds to reach this place. Alice rolled down her window as the guard walks up. "We need to get inside to the city. We have a reservation at a hotel." Alice explained to the guard. He just smiled and nodded his head.

The gate opened and we drove in. I gasped. This place was absolutely beautiful. Well, if only you liked ancient stuff. It was just dreamy to me, at least. I sighed as Alice pulled up to a hotel. She gasped and her eyes glazed over. "Alice?" Emmett and I asked at the same time. "He knows that we are here Emmett. He's mad. Edward has read our thoughts and he's coming. He thinks that we are lying about Bella." Alice explained. I began to shake. "What do I need to do?" I asked. "Here take this and go rent us all a room. We will get him calmed down enough to bring him to you." Emmett answered while smiling. He handed me some money and I got out of the car to run inside. "Bella?" I heard a cracked, velvety voice ask. I froze and Alice and Emmett jumped out. I couldn't look at him or even the other two. "Edward?" Alice asked in disbelief. "Bro?" Emmett asked shocked. I still couldn't move. Tears filled my eyes and slipped over again. "Bella? Love?" Edward asked again as he walked to me. I finally turned around to face him. Edward wrapped his arms around my waist and I began crying harder. "I'm sorry Bella, I’m so sorry." He apologized over and over again. I looked up at him. "Why? Why did you leave me? Why did you when you still loved me?" I asked impatiently, still crying. I wanted answers, but I also wanted him to hold me and never let me go. Edward sighed painfully, but never let me go. "I left because I thought it was best for you. I just wanted you to have a normal life. I left because I loved you. I thought that, if you forgot me, you would move on." He explained. I could see the pain in his eyes and written on his face. "Edward. I could never forget you or even about you. I'm sorry for what I said to you that day." I apologized. Edward sighed. "It hurt me to tell you that I didn't want you and to see you believe me, but when you told me that, I just thought that you were actually going to get over me. And then I got that call from Rosalie saying that you had died. I couldn't deal with it. I had to do something." he explained. Before I knew it, his lips were on mine kissing me with such passion, urgency, and joy. I lost my train of thought and forgot about Alice, Emmett, and how to breathe.

Permalink Reply by Summer on July 27, 2010 at 1:18am

Chapter 6

We were still kissing, until someone cleared their throat, of course. I couldn't tell if it was Alice or Emmett though, until Emmett started laughing. Edward and I both sighed and pulled away. Alice hit Emmett and then I laughed. "Ouch Alice! What was that for?" he asked in a pouty, little kids voice. "You interrupted the special moment between them. I hope that Bella gets her revenge on you." She said sounding angry. Emmett looked at me with puppy dog eyes and his bottom lip sticking out. "You wouldn't do that to your big brother, would you?" he asked while still acting like a five year old. I was just about to answer when I was interrupted. "If she doesn't, than I will." Edward told him. I laughed, but I was beginning to worry. If we went back to Forks, he wouldn't leave again, would he? He couldn't put me through that again, could he? Edward looked at me while smiling, but it suddenly vanished. "Bella? Are you okay?" he asked worriedly. I couldn't answer. I was frozen in my thoughts. Why had I begun thinking about this? The next thing I knew, everything was black. I just fainted, but I hadn't fallen. Why? Why was I floating? Why did I land on something soft? Then I remembered Edward, Alice, and Emmett. My eyes flew open fast. "Alice? Edward? Emmett?" I managed to ask. "Love? We are right here. You fainted, so we got four rooms." Edward answered. "Wh-why four?" I asked. "One for each of us." he answered. I began crying and buried my face into my pillow. Edward rushed to me and picked me up. "Bella? What's wrong? Please Bella, talk to me;" Edward begged. I wiped away my tears and looked up at him. "I thought you loved me. I thought you would stay with me. Apparently I was wrong, so just go to your room." I said as I pulled away from him. I stood up and waked out of the room, leaving him still sitting on the bed. I went to the stolen Porsche, got inside to the backseat, laid down and began crying again. I heard the door open and someone climb in. I didn't look up to see who it was. I really didn't care. Edward had hurt me for the second time. I was mad at myself. I had believed him after the first time. He had told me that he loved me and that he would never leave me. He had told me that he felt very protective of me. Well, if he felt this way he wouldn't have told me that he didn't want me, that he didn't love me anymore, and he definitely would not have left me. This time he called me 'Love' and kissed me passionately. I had believed that he still loved me. I was still crying, but not tears of sadness, tears of anger. "Bella? Can we talk?" Edward asked quietly from the front seat. His voice sounded pained. I quit crying and sat up. He climbed into the backseat next to me. I glared at him. "Bella I do, still love you." he began. I put my hand up to interrupt him. "Edward. You don't have to lie to me. I know that you don't love me and that's fine. Just don't lead me on like the first time. I don't think that I can put on another facade for everyone, again." I plainly stated. Edward growled and I jumped. "You're not listening Bella. I know that Alice and Emmett have told you that I have beaten myself up over leaving you and that I have moped around all day for the past five months. I'm sorry that I made you believe that I didn't want you and that I didn't love you. When I said those words and watched the pain flicker across your beautiful face, I just wanted to grab you, hold you tight and tell you that I was sorry. I didn't mean those words and not only did I hurt you, my Love, I hurt myself and my family as well. I honestly and irrevocably love you Bella. I bought four rooms because I didn't know that you still wanted me. I will never forgive myself for all the pain I caused you. I will also understand if you don't love me anymore. If you can't forgive me, then I understand that too. And if you do forgive me or not, I will not leave you, again, unless you order me away." he explained and the put his head down and looked at me through his long beautiful eye lashes. I was yet again, mesmerized by him. "I forgive you." I said. "But if you ever leave me again, I will never take you back." I snapped at him. I crawled into his lap as his face lit up. He wrapped his arms around me. "I love you." I whispered softly into his chest. "As do I.", he whispered back and then kissed the top of my head. "Are you ready to go back to our room?" he asked after about ten minutes of us sitting like this. I nodded. Edward climbed out of the Porsche still holding me, and took me straight to our room. He laid me down on the bed and then crawled in next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and I sighed. I fell asleep a few second later and dreamt of Edward once again happily.

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