Inner Connection

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Permalink Reply by Rachy Lou =) on August 4, 2009 at 4:15pm

ooooh i hadn't thought of that
thanx :D

Permalink Reply by ALENA1o1o_NOTSINGLE N *OFFLINE* on August 4, 2009 at 4:23am

that was awome hope you write more soon

Permalink Reply by Isabelle Black on August 4, 2009 at 9:56am

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Permalink Reply by Caroline on August 4, 2009 at 2:08pm

write more!!!
please this chapter is amazing!!!!

Permalink Reply by Rachy Lou =) on August 4, 2009 at 4:14pm

Jaspers POV:

I watched Edward rip himself from the room. I had no idea where Alice was or Carlisle. I only hope he managed to save her. I couldn’t stand it if I had been the cause of all this grief. Looking round I could sense the guilt and despair radiating off of my family. This gift I was given is more like an unbearable curse. Right now I feel almost suicidal, it’s bad enough carrying my guilt, but carrying everyone else’s as well is pure torture. I tried to lift the mood but I just couldn’t I was already so miserable and this was not helping. I had to escape from here. If Bella died the next few weeks, it would be unbearable. As if it’s not unbearable enough already, the burden of this Would push me under. If that was the case and she was dead I would have to leave, at least for a bit. Thinking of Bella, brought back the few memories of her I had. Like yesterday, She looked so beautiful when we were wrestling and Emmet had her wave around some pom poms cheering for him, she looked so…..human, her cheeks rosy red, so red it’s enough in it’s self to change the moods of those around you, I wish I could blush like that. But now because of me she might never come back, I should have controlled myself, I tried, but not hard enough! How could I have given into the monster of my nature. I strive so hard not to be like that, it’s just I don’t have the same strength and will power as Carlisle has, he must be so ashamed at the moment. But not as ashamed as I am. My guilt would be enough to kill me alone, but the guilt of my family would make life not worth living. I couldn’t bare sitting around helplessly waiting to find out my fate. I had to find out the consequences of my actions, I had to find Bella.

As soon as I got out of the house, I felt instantaneously better, not much better, but better. My guilt was still strong, but doing something, something that might prove to be helpful, helped me forget the guilt. There were more urgent things to worry about and do. Sitting down and wallowing in guilt wouldn’t have done any good, in fact it would have made things worse for me and my family.

I didn’t know where Bella and Carlisle went, but it wouldn’t be hard to find them, they couldn’t have gone far. As I ran I could smell the sweet delicious smell of her blood, it was getting stronger. I stopped, I had to prepare myself, I didn’t want to lose control again, especially now I’d been the cause of her getting hurt already, I couldn’t finish her off.
But I can’t go, not for a selfish purpose, I had caused her enough pain already, what am I thinking, I can’t risk what isn’t mine to take.
I was about to go back to the house, when I heard this most ear piercing, blood curdling shriek.
BELLA!.
I ran like nothing before, something had happened, something bad.

Edward’s Pov


I had done it and now she was condemned, doomed to spend an eternity as a vampire, she might not even make it because of me. I took too much blood, I know I did, I didn’t stop when I should have. I looked down at her laying in my arms.
Her body wriggling and covered in blood. The life she used to have gone. I couldn’t lose her now, I love her. It would break me.
As me and Carlisle sat on the floor watching my lifeless angel, squirming in pain I could smell someone, someone advancing fast, I could hear the brushing of the leaves and cracking of twigs as it grew closer. Bella! I crouched over her a loud feral snarl ripping from my lips, she had to live. Just as I placed her on the floor she screamed kicking and tossing more than before. She was thrashing against the forest floor, and then she stopped. What had I done? Had something gone wrong? I looked over a Carlisle, What if she hadn’t made it?
‘Dad?..’
I waited for an answer but he was silent.
‘Dad do something……’
‘Son I can’t she struggling, struggling through the change, she might not make it and I can do nothing to help or make it better, we have done everything we can and now she has to do this on her own’
I didn’t know what to say, I just wanted a black hole to come and swallow me up. I was so absorbed in thinking I didn’t realise the tall dark shadow standing by the tree, Jasper.
‘Jasper, go away!, there’s nothing you can do!’
‘No! What have you done to her, she could have made it, why did you have to dam her life to this?’
‘She was losing too much blood, if we didn’t make the change, she would be dead right now, at least she has a chance’ Carlisle replied.
‘How big a chance?’
‘I don’t know’
Then it started again, the shrill screams of agony breached me and I couldn’t bear it. I picked up her limp body, cradling her in my arms as if it would help.
‘ALICE… …….AGGGGGGGGGHH!, ………ALICE!,I NEED ALICE!!’ she screamed suddenly.
‘Shhhh! Everything’s going to be ok’ I whispered in her ear. I wonder if she heard me. I doubt it though.
‘Edward Where is Alice?’
‘I don’t know, she ran out when Bella cut herself’
‘Well then you too can make yourself helpful and go find her’
‘But Bella’
‘No buts Bella will be fine with me’
‘what if she needs help?’
‘then there is nothing we can do, right now she needs alice and the only way to help her is to find alice’
I really didn’t want to leave her, but I had to, if I wanted to help I had to. I sighed defeated.
‘Come on jasper, we better hurry!’


let's go get alice :D

Permalink Reply by Jill Wachter on August 4, 2009 at 4:31pm

Yeah, go get Alice!

Permalink Reply by Caroline on August 4, 2009 at 4:52pm

wow!!!!

i love it!!!

please keep writing please!!!!

Permalink Reply by Ahsee Damha on August 4, 2009 at 4:57pm

Yay! Now thy're both on the way to realise their feelings for her!! Update soon, great chapter!!

~Bel

Permalink Reply by Yvonne A on August 5, 2009 at 1:33am

Well I hope the Boys find Alice soon!!

Permalink Reply by ♫forever as always♫ on August 4, 2009 at 5:27pm

love your story
i hope they find Alice soon

Permalink Reply by Ashley Salvatore on August 4, 2009 at 11:42pm

Great!!!
I hope, that they will find Alice soon :)

Permalink Reply by Rachy Lou =) on August 5, 2009 at 7:37pm

Heya guy's, here's the next chapter, Sorry it's late at the moment it's 12.35 at night so i guess that
means i'll post another chapter later on today :D Hope you like it..............x

Jaspers POV:

‘Come on Jasper, we better hurry!’
I didn’t want to leave her like this, I didn’t want to leave her at all, but it was my fault she was in this state, so if there was any way I could help her, then I would, because I doubt sitting around mopping would do any good.
‘Where’s Alice then?’

‘I said before, I don’t know, but I hope it’s not far’

‘mmm me too, she can’t have got that far though, can she, it’s only been a couple of hours’ I asked.

‘Hello, she’s a vampire, running away from something, she could be anywhere!’ Edward said in an impatient tone. I knew he wanted to find alice and get back to bella as soon as possible after all he was the one to change her.

I wondered where Alice was though, if it was me I would have ran as far away as possible, but I wasn’t that strong, I couldn’t rip myself from the room the way she did, it took a lot of strength and compassion to do what she did. I kind of admire her for that. That little bit of self restraint that gave her the will to leave when she knew she wouldn’t be able to resist. But what I don’t understand is how she could just leave Bella, when she loved her so much, she left her bleeding in a house of vampires, she left her to die.
I actually feel quite sorry for her, she must be feeling so guilty right now, I mean bringing her friend to a house of vampires, putting her in danger, then she watches her cut herself unable to do anything, she sees her friend dying, she doesn’t want to be there presumably, or doesn’t want to be the one to do the evil deed, she then leaves the house, knowing her friends fate helplessly trying to somehow wake up from this nightmare.
Me and Edward set off into a fast sprint, we had to find Alice and fast, bella needed her and the faster we got to her, the quicker Edward would calm down a little.

Running looking for Alice, I found myself to be strangely happy, not that I wasn’t guilty anymore, it’s just this could be my redeeming act, I was so ashamed of how I handled the situation, If I find Alice and bring her back I could earn my forgiveness.

It was that thought that pushed me on and kept me running alongside Edward at his Olympic pace. We were running for about 29 miles when I caught her scent, she wasn’t far. Me and Edward did a quick search of the immediate area, until we found her. She looked dreadful.



Alices pov:

I had been sitting here crying for I don’t know how long. Seconds turned into minuets, minuets turned into hours, and all of time seemed unnecessary. Just an endless subject holding me in place, making sure I spent the rest of forever in this unbearable agony.

The same agony I had brought upon Bella.

This brought a new wave of sobs, how could I have done that? Why wouldn’t the ground just open up and swallow me.

No no that would be too kind. I deserved to suffer, I had just left, I could have tried to stop it, the future isn’t set in stone, I should had tried to stop it.

I looked into my memory bringing out every good moment I had spent with Bella, there were so many of them and they weren’t just good they were great.

From the times where she would blush uncontrollably when the attention was focused on her, or when she tried to surprise me even though she knew it was near to impossible, to when she complained when I dressed her up.

Sob after sob ripped through my body as memory after memory ripped through my heart.

I heard a noise coming from the bushes, they were coming for me, Edward and jasper, but I didn’t want them to see me like this, I didn’t want there sympathy, I deserved everything I got now.

‘Alice’ jaspers careful voice whispered soft as a lullaby as he stepped into to sight closely followed by Edward.

‘Alice you need to come back Bella..’ Edward started but I didn’t let his finish, I couldn’t more sobs bubbled to the surface and I got up turning to leave. I could not bare to hear her name It hurt too much remembering what I had lost. Bella my best friend.

I started running but two strong hands gripped my shoulders.

‘Hold on please listen to what we have to say’ It was jasper and I could see he wouldn’t let me go without saying what he came to say.

‘bella’s..’ I winced at the name ‘bella’s not dead’ what?

I looked at Edward, this couldn’t be I saw it, I saw it all she was dead wasn’t she?

He shook his head. ‘No she is alive, but you have to come back, we have had to change her and she needs you’

I heard nothing after she is not dead.

I turned and fell into jaspers chest as more sobs broke free from me, this time however they were not tears of sorrow and guilt they were tears of joy. He held me in a tight embrace as I cried the emotion out of me and for the first time in ages I felt content, happy, I felt safe in his arms, I felt like I never wanted to leave them.

‘Edward can you call see if Bella is doing ok’ I asked, I really wanted to get back to her but I didn’t want to move from jasper side.

He nodded and went off to make the call.

And then I saw it, a gasp escaped my lips, never had I seen a vision as beautiful as this. A white canopy covered in fairy light decorated the front, a cool breeze swished around blowing the sent of flowers across the assembly, everyone was dressed up all nicely, they looked beautiful, but no one looked as beautiful as the man standing under the canopy, the man in the tux. Jasper. He looked so handsome, I had never seen him like this, his eyes were so captivating so full of emotion, beautiful. he watched his bride walk down the isle, if he could cry I truly believe he would, tears of joy would be streaming down his face, tears of love true love. I felt myself becoming more and more envious of this beautiful woman waking down the isle, this woman who could steal his heart from me so easily and make him so happy. I wished I could make him that happy. Just as the wedding march came to an end she reached the end turning so that I could see her face. Her face seemed familiar, so familiar, so familiar because it was mine. This was my wedding, my perfect day with the man I loved more than anything in the world, and that’s when the pieces clicked I loved him, jasper. He was the only thing that continued to make sense to me, it was as if he was the centre of my world and everything else ceased to exist.

If I was crying before, I was giving it all I had now, I had never been so happy, I looked at jasper and right then all I wanted to do was kiss him, I longed to feel the pressure of his lips under mine.

I looked into his golden eyes and leaned in this was the moment I had waited for all my life, I had found the other half that made me whole.

‘We should leave now, bella’s heart beat is increasing it won’t be long now’ Edward said ruining the moment as jasper pulled away. I wish he hadn’t, but he had and now Bella needed me. Me and jasper we had forever I could see that now, and I didn’t mind waiting, It would happen I saw it, it was so clear.

All I wanted to say as we headed of back to see Bella was I LOVE YOU JASPER! And one day I will marry you.

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