Alice had an alarming vision that connects with Bella’s disturbing but accurate dream. With Jasper’s help, Alice will try to save Edward from a terrible fate.
(Alternative story to New Moon)
Bella Swan wakes from a disturbing but accurate dream and tries to spare her beloved Edward of the pain he endures with every breath.Bella leaves Edward (Alternative story)
This alternative story started, like Twilight, with a dream. I was reading the draft of Midnight Sun till late that night. I went to sleep thinking about how hard it was for Edward to be around Bella. So in my dream I was Bella. I was deeply in love with Edward and then I realize the pain he was into with every breath. I decided to leave him for his own sake thinking he would be happier without me. So it’s basically New Moon in reverse. Enjoy.
I want to share with you a bit of the music that inspire me while writing this Fanfic.
All of it is about the music and how it set the tone to the story
Some of them are also about the lyrics. Here is my playlist:
Breaking my heart – Aqualung
The hardest of hearts – Florence + the machine
Blackout – Muse
Goodnight, travel well – The killers
Reel me in – Aqualung
Tonge tied - Aqualung
Falling - Florence + the machine
This little drawing is from chapter 5 Buried
“But I’m not saying goodbye”
“Don’t you see? That’s what proves me right. I care the most, because if I can do it… If leaving is the right thing to do… Then I’ll hurt myself to keep from hurting you, to keep you safe.”
“And you don’t think I would do the same?”
“You’d never have to make the choice”
It was really fun to be alone hunting with my husband. We haven’t been able to do this in a long time. It was like an end-of-summer party. I will soon be starting my senior year at Forks High school and Jasper will be pretending to go to college. He really wanted to go this time, he said there was some subject he was interested in studying, but the simple thought of being apart was too painful. I couldn’t find it in me to try to persuade him to go.
It all happened so fast. I wasn’t keeping tabs on him, just the usual watch-out I normally do for my family. Suddenly Edward was blazing, dying in our fireplace. Thought the vision was blurry its significance was so powerful that I lost my attention on the bear I was about to finish off and its paw sent me flying before I could anticipate its move. “I have to find Jasper”.
I followed his scent; he was draining a mountain lion, a remainder of Edward I didn’t need. “Jasper! We need to get back to the house, now!” I yelled.
“Alice! What’s wrong? What did you see?” He knows me too well.
“Edward.” I answered “We’re going to have to leave the Jeep behind; we only have four hours and seventeen minutes”
He saw the dread in my eyes, there was no time to explain. We started running at full speed. When we made it out of the Big Bend Park he finally asked. “What did you see? What kind of danger is he in?”
I tried to make sense of my vision, searching backward into the future. “Bella”, it sounded like an expletive.
“Is he going to…?” Jasper asked fighting the pool of venom in his mouth. He never believed Edward will be able to overcome his temptation.
“No. I think she is going to break up with him”. How could she do that, my brother was quite a catch. Fun to be around, good to the core, handsome and totally in love with her. I couldn’t see the reason for her defection. I hopped my blurred vision wasn’t true.
She most has been determined to this outcome for some time now, or I wouldn’t be able to see it. But, why?
Jasper was sensing my fear and he voiced his concern “He’s going to try to kill himself, right?”
I just nodded, I didn’t trust my voice.
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Thanks, hope you like the rest
I woke with a start. It took me some time to realize I was still on my bed; my dream have been so real, I could almost feel the pain, like a red hot iron being shoved down my throat. Why didn’t he mention this before? He lives in pain every waking hour, and I know he doesn’t sleep… He talked about the desire he feels for my blood in the meadow, but not excruciating pain. Is this true? I need to know?
“Bad dream?” he asked his angel face so close to mine.
“Yes” I whispered in the dark.
“Do you want me to sing you to sleep? It’s not yet dawn” He leaned over to kiss my forehead and a saw it, the little wince of pain triggered by my scent. I can’t believe I’ve never seen it before.
“No I’m fine” I started to move away. “Why don’t you go home for a while? I’m sure Esme misses you, especially today that Carlisle is out of town.”
“I’m sure she’s ok with my staying here tonight” he said a little confused.
I needed some space to think about the implications of my dream, but I’ve never been a good liar. “Do you want me to go?” he asked seeing my hesitation.
“Only for a couple of hours…I…I need to…I need some human girl time?” It wasn’t completely a lie. I was having my period and I was totally sure he could smell it, adding to the pain he endured.
“Oh… Sure. I’ll meet you for breakfast” He looked embarrassed. He kissed my lips and for once I couldn’t take advantage of his proximity. I couldn’t shake the thought that my kisses were torture for him. No wonder why he restrained me so much.
After he was gone it only took a minute to make up my mind. I was sobbing by the time I started the shower.
I’ve never heard her said anything about her period. We usually just ignored it. Well I try to ignore it. Maybe she was a little embarrassed. To be honest I was. There was a spot on the bed that I was trying not to notice with all my might. I should be more thoughtful about this and give her the privacy she deserves.
I need to hunt. I hope I can find something nice on the way home. That’ll keep my mind occupied till morning.
Why were we hunting so far away from home? Even at vampire speed I wasn’t sure we’ll make it.
It was like a sick joke; Edward and I were talking about this the other day. I remember saying that if Jasper was to leave me I would followed him everywhere until he took me back. Edward said that if Bella was to leave him he wouldn’t follow her, because she deserves a life without him. At that point Emmett interrupted us with his new videogame-silly brother of ours-, but Edward became suddenly sad and went outside for a run.
I know he was going to say something else, but I never thought it’ll be relevant. I should have tried seeing the rest of his answer. That way I would’ve been able to see what my brother was capable of.
“Don’t worry, we’ll get there on time” Jasper was reading my mood.
“Maybe I’m overreacting, my vision wasn’t really solid” I said without much hope.
“We’re not taking chances” Jasper knew how important Edward is for me.
“Thanks” I mouthed.
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Next chapter BREAKING, wait for it next weekend : )
No mountain lions on my way home but the couple of elks I took down will help me concentrate when I get back to Bella. I hate this days of the month.
This has been the best summer of my existence. Bella waking every morning in my arms, spending every hour of the day with me, and having breakfast at her side has something I’ve really come to enjoy. She eating breakfast of course. I love watching her enjoy her meal, even if her food is repulsive to me.
“Mom, are there some of those cinnamon rolls dad brought yesterday?” I hope she hasn’t thrown them away, they were a gift from a colleague and I wanted to take Bella a little treat for breakfast.
When I got back Bella was talking to her mother on the phone. I caught the last words of her conversation.
“Are you sure Bella?”
“Yes mom, I think is for the best. Sorry for the inconveniences”
“Ok, then sweetheart, bye”
I put the rolls on the table though it was obvious she was done with breakfast. How odd, Bella always eats breakfast with me or her dad.
“Was Renée trying again to convince you to go back with her and Phil?” I asked in a teasing tone.
“No, not exactly” she was biting her lower lip, a gesture of tension; something was off with her voice.
“Are you all right love?” I asked while I tried to put my arms around her. Try, she took a step back away from me.
“We need to talk, have a sit please.”
I was suddenly tense. Why did she look so sad yet so determined, like someone who is about to deliver bad news. It took great part of my concentration just to obey and sit. I wanted to smooth the tense furrow between her eyebrows with my fingertips, but something about her eyes stopped me. They were cold, like frozen chocolate.
“What’s wrong, love?” Something definitely was.
“I think it’s time for me to go back to live with my mom. I know she misses me and I miss her too. Phil is home most of the time, therefore she can stay with me. This is perfect timing, school it’s about to start and…” She was talking so fast; I could see she was nervous. Maybe she thought I wouldn’t want to live confined indoors. Doesn’t she know I’d go to the end of the world for her?
I got up and open my arms to her once more, and again she rejected me, I turned into a cold stone, paralyzed in the middle of her kitchen. My mind was racing, trying to find a different reason for her rejection, a different meaning to her words. I couldn’t find one.
She touched my face and I thaw with the warmth of her fingertips. “Edward? Are you ok?” she asked with a monotone voice.
Was I ok? No … no, of course I wasn’t. She is attempting to shatter my world, and she asks if I’m ok? For some reason I can’t fathom I nodded.
She dropped her hands and in their sudden absence I shivered. I couldn’t stop trembling; something really rare for my kind, stillness was more natural.
I went back to my seat, waiting for the words to come out, her death sentence to me.
I remembered this same conversation with Alice only few days away. I told her then that if Bella was to leave me I wouldn’t follow. I’ve always know that I shouldn’t be with her, that her safety and happiness was infinitely more important than my own.
I deluded myself into thinking that I was making her happy, that I was protecting her from her bad luck. How arrogant I´ve been!
She was staring at the chair I was sitting on; it was shaking with me; so I got up again, afraid I would break it. This time I didn’t reach for her. She was motionless, cold; like our bodies were responding in reverse to the tension of the moment.
Just to be sure I asked “You’re going by yourself, aren’t you?”
“I’m sorry. I should’ve given you some warning” Like some warning would’ve changed the outcome.
“Why? I mean, why now? I thought you wanted to live in Forks. Why are you leaving? Alone? You don’t need to give into your mother’s pressure. Why?” I was talking so fast, trying to stop her from breaking me, I hopped she could catch every word.
She took a deep breath to make me know she was going to answer. I wasn’t sure I wanted her to. But I stopped the questions just the same.
“Like I said, I miss my mom. I want to spend my senior year with her” her voice was shallow, lifeless.
“I’ll come with you. My family won’t like it there so I’ll go by myself” I was pleading; I knew what her answer will be.
“No Edward, it’s not the right place for you. You need to be with Carlisle and Esme. Alice would miss you too much, and Emmet…”
“It doesn’t matter, I want to be with you” My voice was just a whisper. I could tell she was lying, she was making excuses for me to stay; she didn’t want to voice the real reason for her departure.
“Edward” She said my name with a determination that frightened me. “I don’t want you to come with me”
The shivering finally stopped. I was a cold stone again. I was only able to move my lips to ask “Why?”
“Because you’re dangerous” she said showing me her half-moon scar over her right wrist. “I don’t want my mom under any risk”
The rest were just formalities, I just wanted her out of reach before I… I couldn’t think the words.
“When are you leaving?”
“My plane leaves in an hour at Port Angeles, I’ve already talked to Charlie, he’s picking my truck from the airport’s parking lot, I was only waiting for you to come back so I could tell you goodbye” her eyes didn’t meet mine while she was talking.
“So, this is goodbye then?” Goodbye forever, the dangerous creature was going to become harmless.
“Goodbye” I reached for her again and for once she didn’t stop me. I held her in my arms for a second that felt like an eternity. “Be safe” I murmured in her ear. The next instant I was out the door running through the thick forest, toward the end.
I read this aloud (in front of my mom might I add?), and she kept looking at me when I yelled or gasped. I'm a passionate reader as you can say XD This is awesome! Could you please continue?
Wow, thanks. Your praise is my fuel. I'm writing right now
Wow I really enjoyed that.
You write very well.
Bella with a bit of back bone - that is good to read. Even if it is sad - but we all like 'sad' stuff that is why we read twilight books.
Please don't stop writing. lookjing forward to more.
This can really take off I think if you stick at it.
I really appreciate your compliment. I’m a fan of Cold Gray Light, so I like your writing a lot. I must confess, English isn’t my native tongue, Spanish is. It’s been a challenge to write this story, one I’m really enjoying. If you find a mistake in spelling or grammar, please let me know. Thank you.
Tomorrow I'll be posting THE FIREPLACE Part 1. Alice and Jasper are running to save Edward's life. What will they have to do to get there in time?