He gave me a reason to live.......Even when I had no hope.
Chapter 1: Death Is Painful.....Even More For The Mother
My baby boy was laying in the hospital with all the cords in his arm and his heart and his little head. My baby boy was dying and i coulnd do aything about it. My tears were still coming but i was silent.
The doctor walked over to me. He looked sad
"Mrs.Evenson, he's dying...There is nothing we can do about it..He will be gone in a few hours..Im so very sorry." He said and put is hand on my soulder. "You can go say goodbye."
My tears were coming faster and faster but i walked in anyway. I walked over to the crib where Camron was sleeping. He was takeing deep breaths. A tear rolled off my cheak and landed on him. He opened his eyes and looked at me. His dark green eyes were still sparking but his face was was dying of color. I covered my mouth with one hand and took his little tiny hand in my other.
"Don't leave me...Camron" I choked out
"M.....M......mo....m" He said and he started breathing really heavy.
I looked over to the nurse and she nodded and bit her lip, looked down and walked to the door. Befor she walked out she turned back around shooke he head and walked out.
I started crying. My baby just said my name and he was dying. His breathing started to slow and he looked at me. I watched a single tear roll down his face as his eyes closed. And his breathing slowed to a stop. I felt his hand slide out my mine. I started shaking, crying and covered my mouth with both my hand. He was dead. My baby died right in front of me. I droped to the floor. It was all i could do.
I felt a cold hand on my soulder. I looked up.
"Im so sorry Esme. I really truely am. We'll have someone come up and suchlude a funural. You wont have to do anything. We will have him placed next to your husban. It's going to be ok."
I shooke my head.
They had someone take me back to my little home. I just walked over to the little couch i had and sat down. I sat there for 5 days. I only got up to eat and use the bathroom. I didn't shower or change my clothes. I never answered the door when people what to come in and tell me how bad they felt. I just sat there staring at the wall.
They day was coming closer and closer. My baby's funeral. I just didn't know how i would go on. First i loose my husband 6 months before Camron was born, and now i loose Camron 1 year after he was born. Just thinking about that made tears start flowing again. I couldn't go threw with the funeral. I walked over to my little room and walked over to my closet. I choose i dress. But not just any dress, my wedding dress. That dress was what i wanted to die in. I pulled it on. I walked over to my bedroom and pulled a brush threw my hair. I put some make up on. Then as i was walking out of my room. I walked into Camron's room. I leaned against his crib.
"I love you Camron" I whispered. And i leaned in to kiss his bed.
I walked out of his room and out of my house leaving my front door wide open. I had no use for my house. I was going to join my husband and son. I walked from my house all the way to the cliff's. I have seen people jump off before. But never during a storm. The wind was blowing hard as i walked up the steep hill to the highest cliff near my home. I strode on the edge and lifted my arms as the wind blew my dress.
I took a deep breath, bend my legs and threw my self over the edge.
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