I don’t love you, and I don’t want you.
After two years, of pain misery and hurt. That’s all I hear in my sleep those same words from the forest two years ago. You would think I would
get over it and move one, but no I can’t because deep down I know that Edward
and I are meant to be together and no one else could be for me. If I ever
started dating someone which I tried it doesn’t work cause I pick them to the
core. I would say I hated the color of their eyes if they weren’t golden, they
weren’t pale enough, their lips were icy cold and soft at the same time. My
love of my life is Edward and will; always be Edward even though he is not with
me now. Even though he left me, I forgave
him and dif I ever see him again I will still be in love him and hope to god
that he wants me too. All I do now is hope that one I will see him again, even
if it’s just a glimpse seeing his face again in the flesh would be more than
enough for me to be satisfied….for the moment.
I needed Edward with everything I had. The thought of him brought tears
but happiness of the memoires I share with him. Even though the time was short I
will remember it as long as I live. We were young and were in love well at
least I was. He stopped loving me a human it made since which made it easier
for me to forgive him. I love him plain and simple as that.
Well for the past two years, I’m now twenty and officially out of my teen years. I moved out of Charlie’s and bought a apartment close to
Forks Community College where I now attend. Classes are easy for me considered I
passed with all A’s in senior year with all AP classes. I’m smart but I don’t know what to major in
yet I keep changing my mind every semester. I guess I am undecided or I am just
waiting for him to come back to me so I don’t have to worry about this anymore.
Who knows? Also did I tell you Angela and I share the apartment and we also go
to school together. Ben attends Yale so Angela is gone a lot visiting him on
the weekends. Angela only stayed here
for me, she said that she didn’t need a big fancy college to major in
photography she said she would be fine. But of course I almost forced her to go
with Ben. She wouldn’t budge, she is so stubborn. Just like me I guess that’s
part of the reason we get along so well we are exactly alike.
It’s the weekend finally. I left my last class and climbed into my truck, yes the best still works but barely I really need a new car. I
shrugged and then pulled out of the parking lot and drove to Angela’s and I’s apartment.
It was only like 5 minutes away so I pulled up to the building fast and put the
truck in park and hopped out. I had a
paper to write this weekend that was it thank god. It was going to be really
easy. Right now I am majoring in journalism and I minor in photography with
Ang. It’s pretty fun, I take pictured on
the weekend with Ang and then a do my other homework fast. My weekends barely
are ever filled with homework. Tonight Ang planned to go out to Yale to see Ben
but Ben had a huge test to study for so they decided against the visit. Ang
being Ang said we were going out. I got a text earlier during class. She said
we were going to a club. I didn’t really want to go but I really didn’t have a
I shrugged and walked into my apartment. Ang was waiting on the couch for me while reading a book. She looked up from her book and smiled. I rolled my eyes.
“Take a shower and get ready!” She said and I nodded and walked into my room
I threw my stuff on my bed and then grabbed my towel and walked into the bathroom. I took a quick shower. Then I blow dried my hair and straightened
my hair. I put on a little bit of make up and walk out of the bathroom in my
“You should go like that.” She said I laughed.
“Yeah the guy’s would love that wouldn’t they? Shut up Ang pick me out an outfit.” I said and smirked.
She rolled her eyes and walked into her room. I guess I was wearing her clothes tonight. I laughed and walked into
her room. She threw black shorts with a gold shirt looked cute until she threw
huge gold heals at me. This part of me reminded me of my other best friend Alice.
I looked at Ang and she smiled and shoed me out of her room. I walked into my
room and got ready. I threw on the outfit and then came out to see Ang in white
shorts with a red top and bright red shoes she looked amazing. (outfits: font-family:"Tahoma","sans-serif";color:black"">http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=19737024)
“You look awesome!” She squealed.
“You too!” I said and she smiled and then linked arms with
me. We walked out of our apartment and then down to her car. She upgraded from
high school she now owns a white Alero. Cute car I liked it a lot. We climbed
in a drove off toward this college party! Yeah I know I should be excited but I
am not, I was never one for parties. But Ang said I need a night out so I decided
go. Decided? Ha more like forced!
“Aren’t you excited at all?” Angela asked.
“Not really Ang you know me.” I said
“Whatevs you’ll have fun!” she said and then blasted the music in the car. I laughed nd just listened to the music.
We pulled up to this huge house with a bunch of college
student were surrounded in side and out. They were everywhere, it screamed
college party. It sort of looked fun. Something inside of me told me to have fun.
I didn’t really know why though. Was something going to happen tonight?
Theres chapterr onee i got the next one done so as soon as some one likes this it will be up (: