According to Nahuel, I’m supposed to have the body of an adult at my present age. I’m 7 years old but my body had not developed so much; grandpa Carlisle had told me that I look like a normal 10 year old kid; which is so good. Grandpa Charlie had been told the truth about us by grandpa Carlisle a few months back. It was hard for him at the beginning to accept that our family were different, but at the end, he finally accepted it and had come to see us as often as he can; he miss mom so much. I wish he could come and stay with us. He is the only human relative I can share all my feelings with. But being a half vampire and a half human, it’s not easy to live life when I have to deal with everything in the most secretive way. My mind, although had developed faster than my body. This made my father very happy. I was scared when they told me that I would have a body like mom at my present age. I was scared because I’d look same age with my parents, which would freak me out.
Grandpa had done so many tests on me over and over again. I’m quite fed up of being the center of attraction. My aunts and uncles always buzz around me. Sometimes I wish I could be away somewhere quite with my mom and dad only. Dad took us on a trip, once, to Isle Esme. How I love that place. I know that this place was where they had their honeymoon, and I respect that.
Of all the things I had come across, I find it hard to treat Jacob as my life partner. I knew I’ve been imprinted by him. He’s my best friend and he is nice and caring and understanding. But, I’m just 7 years old and he guards me 24X7 which sometimes can be very annoying. When I’m in a foul mood, I’d tell him to leave me for awhile; he does whatever I ask him. All my feelings about Jacob had been pure friendship and nothing like lover’s love. I don’t know if that kind of feeling would come later, but I’m not worried how fast or how late it comes, I have all the time in the world for that.
Grandma Esme used to tell me stories about dad. How he used to be lonely and not happy before he met mom and how he was changed after he met her. I like their story, it’s the best love story ever. Mom and dad are hopeless in telling me their story. They always elaborate the part where mom almost lost her life because I ate myself out of her. Yyeeeuuuu!!! But I did that, though I don’t remember a thing. Dad would tell me again and again how he was the hero in saving both my life and mom’s. Yeah! He is the hero in everything, I love him but sometimes I wish I hadn’t known all these things. Everything bad happened because of me. The Volturi came because they wanted to destroy me and my family. I remember that day very clearly but I have tried hard to not recall those days every day.
Dad told me that I’m like mom, humanly, about my curls and my clumsy moves. Sometimes my uncles and aunts expect me to behave like a complete vampire. How I hate being treated like a doll. The only people who understand me the most are my parents and my grandparent’s. Jacob understands that I’m not ready for the love thing but he’s cool with it. I love hanging out with him but having that vampire thing in you, sometimes I can’t stand his smell. Aunt Rosy would call him “Mutt” and I’d spring out to his defense. No friend of mine should be treated like that. He is my Jacob for crying out loud, my best friend and I’m sure no one would like it when their aunt’s call their best friends ‘mutt’ no matter who or what they are.
It is obvious that dad is still finding hard to embrace Jacob as his future son-in-law, but he’s trying very hard. The only thing that bugs me is my behavior in school. I’ve started going to school and when we play or do something physical together with my friends, I happen to use my vampire strength and last time I deflated a ball with my hand. I was lucky that no one was paying attention to me. But this is what I like about school, no one swarms around me to see the immortal child. Mom told me to be careful in picking friends and not to make too many of them. I play with Libby and Peter mostly. They are my best buddies in school. Libby had asked me to join their soccer team. I love soccer but I’m scared that I might expose my true identity when I get excited.