The Twilight Saga

I don't have a prologe for this story. Just a warning. In this story Bella is looking for her self, please remember that not all stories have good beginings and happy ends, And to all team Edward and Bella's this story is confusing please don't hate me but I have to follow my heart to where it leads me. Let me know if this is worth continuing.

 

Sincerely, The Girl you Used to Know.

 

 

I can’t say I love my life, I can’t say everything is normal because then I'd be lying. It’s far from perfect believe me but this thought just hit me and now I have no idea what I want anymore. Why I am acting like this? Is unknown, honestly its freaking me out. My body is just there, my soul is somewhere else. Victoria is gone the danger is a figure in the past. For once being alone is different.

Sincerely, the girl you used to know.

I stare at the computer screen and my eyes linger on the last word. Different. Everything in my life changed at that second all because of one word.

I know I have said that my life is nothing without Edward, but can I stand on my two feet without him? When I think back I don’t know what to expect I know what I want, right? I want to be able to stand next to Edward and feel like I belong.

Something shiny caught my eyes and I looked down at my hand. Elizabeth Masen’s ring lay silently on my third finger. No the wedding is still undecided and I still sit here as Bella Swan.

My vision is blurred from the tears that won’t seem to come anymore.

I got back to my feet and walked over to my desk where my phone sat on its back. I waited, seconds later Alice’s favorite song that she picked out began to play.

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
we'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

For once it did make me happy.

“Alice before you say anything or think anything you know what you called for so I’ll be on the front steps in 20 seconds.” I whispered and hung up the already dead phone.

This has to be the right thing to do, when I finally saw my front lawn empty I sighed. Charlie died a week ago of a heart attack, it was unexpected and now I live in a house all by myself.

“Bella,” Alice was standing next to me, I reached over and took her cold hand.

“You didn’t let anything slip right?” I just stared at the nothingness in front of me.

 I haven’t seen very many people since Charlie. I ignored any phone calls, denied any visitors, and kept my windows shut. I’ve been a ghost and nights are not the same when all I can hear is my heart beating and nothing else, never again will there be a stiffled snore from down the hall when I scream at night, and I’m still not sure if I will be able to hold a cold hand for a while if so ever.

She sighed, “No.” She sounded chocked up, she would cry if she could.

“Oh.” I said.

“Bella what about Edward?” She waited.

“Undecided.”

“What about me?” She said lower.

“You’re my best friend.” I squeezed her hand still staring at the empty spot where Charlie’s car should have been.

“You can’t leave!” She appeared in front of me taking over my vision.

“I’m not leaving, I just have to get away for a while.” I grabbed the sides of her face. The only way I can make her happy right now is, “I didn’t think of this before but do you want to go with me Alice?” Her face lit up and she kissed my cheek.

“Go inside get packed, I’m going home and I will block my thoughts, when your gone I will tell Edward to come over here. Yes I know what you are going to do. And we will leave, it’s not going to be that hard to get tickets.” She smirked. “So you want to go to Paris?”

I just nodded, the thought popped into my head just as she said.

“Good choice, it’s really wet over there right now. See you in a little bit and hurry!” At that I ran into the house.

I walked into my room and shoved all of my clothes into my suit case not even caring what I put. A few minutes later I was finished packing I walked over to my window and shoved it as high as it would go, I only had one more thing to do, the only thing that has been on my mind.

 

I’m sorry,

I need time to think.

Sincerely, the girl you used to know.

 

One tear slid off my cheek and landed on the paper as I placed my ring next to the note in the middle of the bed.

Without one back glance I left to the airport.

 

Alice’s POV:

 

I was back within minutes and blocked my mind. Bella’s idea gave me a similar one. My clothes were pack within seconds and I wrote…

 

Family,

I love you dearly I will be back in a few days, I need to get away for a while.

 

I wrote a separate one for Jasper.

 

Jasper,

I love you so much, and I will be back in a few days safely in your arms.

Xoxo

 

I left them under my pillow that I never use. I let down my shield only enough for Edward to hear me say,

 

Be at Bella’s house, her window will be open, tell everybody to come to my room after I leave.

 

Edward’s POV:

 

I heard Alice’s shield go back up and she was gone. I told everybody’s Alice’s request and left to Bella’s house. I’m glad she is finally letting me see her, after her father died I wasn’t sure how long it would be, I know I told her, her family will die and she knew but I had no idea that she would go to such extremes.

Alice was right her window was open and her familiar scent hit me. I ran up the wall only to hear dead silence, she was gone. I knew it was there I just wanted to deny it, Bella’s engagement ring sat in the middle of her bed with a note that read,

 

I’m sorry,

I need time to think.

Sincerely, the girl you used to know.

 

 

 

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Chapter 7:

Take a breath and explode like bullets tearing through the wind
Cut me up with a razor blade that tries to separate the skin

Now in the
White flames of burning flags we
found a world worth dying for, yeah
We've been battered so hard that we don't
feel anymore

Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young?
So take me
from this world
save me
What if we
All die young?

Send me off on the morning breeze so far away from here
Feel me rise in the strength I've found inside the warm embracing air
I'm moving slow
Like a glacier melting watch me dissipate
I searched for love in an empty world but all I found was hate

Now in the
White flames of burning flags we
found a world worth dying for, yeah
We've been battered so hard that we don't
feel anymore

Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young?
So take me
from this world
save me
What if we
All die young?

Don't ask me why
'Cause I don't know
Don't ask me how
I'm gonna solve this on my own
Don't ask me why
'Cause I don't know
These things I've never faced
Scratch out, but won't erase

In the wreckage of a job well done
I saw a place I'd never seen before, yeah
And that moment I refused to close my eyes anymore

It mocked me, my worst enemy staring me straight in the eyes, looking back at me with hate I didn’t know existed.

The pain built a wall around me. Picture painted on the bricks forcing me to relive the worst moments of my life, daring me to deny all the pain I’ve forced onto everyone. The endless black hole dared me to scream, dared me to bring more pain on to myself, trying to add a new ornament to my wall of disgust. Every breath flew through my head in a new wave a pain.

Darkness exists in all corners, from what I heard it’s not always bad, but if you were in this hell hole you would understand…

“Miss,” the doctor stood at the door and had his hands together with perching eyes. He didn’t have to say the words they were already there the ones that haunted me. It was over, he didn’t make it, Charlie was gone. He ducked his head and whispered his apologies before disappearing back through the doors…

“Bella, I don’t want you anymore.”…

“We can’t be friends anymore.”…

“Bella, daddy and I are taking a vacation apart from each other.”…

The tree was dead in the middle and my car was ripped in half...

“Bella, she’s gone, grandmas gone.”

“Victoria’s back.”...

No matter which way I turned there were terrible reminds of just what kind of person I really was. With each wave I was hit with a heartbreaking pain, pain that I couldn't handle, pain I was too selfish to want to deal with. Everything left more marks on my skin, just more reminder of what kind of pain one helpless human can inflect of the people she cares about. I will always blame myself for everything, especially the death of my grandma and Charlie.

The memories were beginning to fade and I was back in place of my body. It was all clear, I may be alive but I wasn’t the same.

Of all the kings’ horses and all the kings’ men, they couldn’t put Bella’s heart back together again.

……………..

Nobody’s POV: (I wanted you to see what goes on.

“Edward, it worked! She will open her eyes when she chooses to.” Alice sat by silently until then. She had Bella’s head in her lap and was braiding her hair.

“Jacob, there is one thing I would like to inform you of. I have recently learned that in the first year of life as a newborn, if you are carefully bitten by a werewolf you can be changed back into a human. If Bella really doesn’t want this life there is a different way.” Carlisle sighed and Edward continued for him.

“I understand that Bella is very… sensitive to that subject now, and that she is stuck in a very bad situation with us,” He paused and nodded to the note Bella left for him. The words stung Edward’s insides. “But you don’t have to be a new born to change back. But if you are an older vampire your chances of being turned back are slim.” And that’s the second that Bella chose to open her eyes.

(SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO what do ya think? Was it to corny for you? What do you think Bella will say? Does Edward still want to become a human for Bella? Will someone die?

I know its short but it turns out my updates aren’t always going to be as long as you want them to be some will be long and some wont but I am going to update often. PROMISE!)
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