Suicidal

Summary: Bella is a wreck and she has mental issues and is suicidal so she gets taken to a Mental Assylum hospital where she meets a young handsome Doctor Paul Lahote. Paul tries to help her but he ends up falling in love with her. What will Happen?

This was going to be all Human but I decided to keep Paul a werewolf.

These were made by my lovely friend Nikki :)

Content:

Chapter 1~Memory (Page 1)

Chapter 2~Saved (Page 2)

Chapter 3~Helpless (Page 4)

Chapter 4~Flashback (Page 5)

Tags: Suicidal

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Permalink Reply by Chris on August 21, 2012 at 6:44pm

Will Paul still have the same character?

Permalink Reply by Summer Love on August 22, 2012 at 8:07am

no because he's a doctor so if he was a jerk he'd get fired pretty much

Permalink Reply by Seugnet du Toit on August 22, 2012 at 11:27am

How did he get to be a doctor?

Permalink Reply by Summer Love on August 22, 2012 at 11:30am

it's a different world sort off, so he's a doctor/wolf

Permalink Reply by Summer Love on August 22, 2012 at 10:08am

Chapter 1: Memory
Bella’s Pov:

I remembered the first time I tried to kill my self like it happened just yesterday, only it happened 1 month ago. My parents split up when I was a young kid and I had trouble of them being split up and I hated to move from my mom’s to my dad’s and to my mom’s again. When I turned 15 I went crazy, I turned suicidal because I had a few mental issues. It’s not something I like to talk about, my anyways back to the first time I tried to kill my self.

I was standing on the motor way bridge and I started to climb over the railings. I wanted to jump and drop 20 or so feet to my death. I would plunge into the abyss of the cars and meet my end. I got over the railings and stood on the edge holding onto the railings, watching the traffic pass. The wind picked up and blew my hair back.

“Don’t jump.” A little girl yelled behind me “Mommy she’s going to jump.” It sounded like she was in tears as I let my hands dropped and I started to step off the edge and falling but when I landed I landed on a top of a car and dropped to the floor out cold. There was blood, pain, chaos, but I lived. My suicide attempt failed.

In the distance I heard the police and ambulance sounds. I was half conscious but I was slipping away, deeper and deeper what seemed like my death but it was just a coma and when I was waking up I smelled an odd smell, kind of like in a hospital but I heard screaming, struggling. It sounded like I was in a mental asylum.

“Open your eyes.” I heard a voice say

“No, I am dead.” I said and kept repeating the word, dead over and over again “Dead, dead, dead..I am dead!” I screamed now. “I am dead.”

I felt hands hold me down as I was shaking “You’re not dead, shh calm down everything’s going to be okay.” The voice said, it sounded like a male. I was scared to open my eyes as I did not want to see what was around me and where I was.

“No!” I said shaking “You’re gonna hurt me.”
“No I promise. No one will hurt you. I just want to help you.” He said, his voice sounded so sincere. I opened up one eye to see a tall, tanned, handsome man leaning over me, I opened my other eye up and blinked. I looked at his name tag. Dr.Lahote. He looked too young to be a doctor, around 20 something. And here I was 15 years old and crazy.

“No one can help me.” I said, my eyes looked some what blood shot and I looked paler then a ghost. I looked around, It was true. I was in a mental asylum, I was locked up like an animal “They all think I am crazy.”

He put a hand on my shoulder “Shh, I don’t think you’re crazy.” He said looking at me, it sounded like he meant it “You just had a tough life and you didn’t handle it well.”

“But I hear voices, they tell me things, make me do them.” I said, my voiced filled with panic.

He looked at me, worry in his brown eyes. I wondered how a young doctor like him could care for a such a screw up like me “What do they tell you? The voices?”

“They...I want to die.” I said

“No no you don’t.” He said looking at me “You’re young, your life is in front of you, your whole life, you got things to look forward to, marriage, kids.” He said, was he trying to make me feel better? Or feel worse by pointing out the many things I would miss out on seeing as I am not normal like others in my life.

“No you don’t get it.” I said looking at him “They tell me I want to die.”

“Do you....want to die?” he asked me, he sounded unsure of the question he just asked me. I sighed

“I...I don’t have anything to live for.” I said, it was true “I have no one, my parents split up, they don’t even care I am stuck here.” I said. No one ever visited me, no one even cared I tried to kill my self, so why did the doctors even bother trying to tell me that things were going to be okay and that I had some much to live for. I had nothing to live for. Nothing!

Nothing, you hear me. Nothing. You’re a mess, you’re a screw up. You don’t belong me. Jump of a cliff, kill your self, you know you don’t want to live. The world would be better off with out you. You know it’s true. The voice was back and it was taunting me. I hugged my knees to my chest and rocked my self back and forth “I am not crazy. I am not crazy.” I kept muttering to my self. The doctor was about to touch me but I recoiled “Don’t touch me.” I screamed.

“I wont hurt you I promise.” He said as he looked into my eyes, the heartbreaking look in his eyes tugged at my heart strings

“I...” I broke down in tears and curled up into a ball sobbing.

I felt his hand wrap around my waist so he pulled me closer to him and his arms were around my waist hugging me and he rubbed my back softly “Shh it’s okay.” He said as he rocked me in his arms slightly.

I calmed down slightly and looked at him, my eyes red and all swollen from tears “Thank you doctor. Lahote” I said trying to pronounce his last name , it sounded slightly odd coming from my lips. Did I even say it right? I asked my self but shrugged it off.

He smiled looking at me “Just call me Paul.” He said, his voice so soft, it made my heart ache. Paul. He wanted me to call him Paul.

Permalink Reply by Envy Breeds Hate on August 22, 2012 at 10:53am

This is really good :) I like it. Keep it up! I love Paul in the Saga and from what I can tell, I'll love him here too. The only thing that was confusing was knowing the difference between the voices in Bella's head and her actual thoughts. Maybe just make the voices different then the rest of the text like this or this so that it's easier to tell the difference? Just a thought. But anyway, Loved it. Can't wait for chapter two! Keep me udated on your posts, please?

- Dajah

Permalink Reply by Summer Love on August 22, 2012 at 10:56am

Aww thanks Dajah I am glad you like it :) aww thanks lol. Yeah I know in the saga he was a jerk and what not, but he;s a doc so he has to be nice or he'd get fired lol and thanks for the tip, Yeah her thoughts are normal and the voices in her head is this so yeah lol but sometimes her thoughts might be like that too as it's the voice in her head saying her thoughts if that makes sense, and I'll keep you posted thanks for reading :)

Permalink Reply by Nessie + Jake ;D on August 22, 2012 at 11:06am