Suicidal

Summary: Bella is a wreck and she has mental issues and is suicidal so she gets taken to a Mental Assylum hospital where she meets a young handsome Doctor Paul Lahote. Paul tries to help her but he ends up falling in love with her. What will Happen?

This was going to be all Human but I decided to keep Paul a werewolf.

These were made by my lovely friend Nikki :)

Content:

Chapter 1~Memory (Page 1)

Chapter 2~Saved (Page 2)

Chapter 3~Helpless (Page 4)

Chapter 4~Flashback (Page 5)

Tags: Suicidal

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Permalink Reply by Summer Love on August 28, 2012 at 5:02am

Chapter 3~Helpless

Bella’s Pov:

I kept staring at the pills in my hands and sighed and closed my eyes. Maybe the voice in my head was right, maybe people were better off with out me around. I felt so worthless and like my life was not even worth living at the moment. I sighed and tears ran down my cheeks and I looked at the pills.

Do it, you know you want to. The voice said in my head again, it was taunting me even more then before. What was there for me to live for? I felt like there was nothing I could live for at the moment. I was not normal and I would miss out on the normal things everyone else did. It just made me feel even worse.

I knew I could never hold a child without freaking out or being depressed, have a weeding without being a normal bride. I’d probably cause a scene with my condition. How could anyone help such a wreck and a screw up like me?

They can’t. You cannot be help. Accept that.

I sighed. Maybe I do need to accept that but how can I? How can I accept something so hard for me to even think about? Let alone admit it’s true to my self.

Because you know no one will care. You don’t even care about your self.

I sighed and thought about that. I remembered all the times I was worse off as a child. I did reckless things and no one seemed to care because I did not even care about my self either. I closed my eyes and then put the pills in my mouth and swallowed them back with some water.

I leaned over the sink and closed my eyes and my eyes began to close and I felt my self drift away. I started to feel numb and I fell back and laid there on the floor out cold and my head fell to the side as I did not move. The floor was very cold beneath me but that did not bother me as I didn’t feel. What I wouldn’t give to feel the pain when awake.

Paul’s Pov:

I walked back to check on Bella “Bella?” I called out when I walked into her room, but it was dead silent. I looked around and saw the bathroom door slightly open. I walked in too see Bella out cold on the floor “Bella!” I gasped and dropped to my knees and saw the sleeping pills on the counter. I looked at how many were missing, only 5 or 6. I picked her up and took her to the emergency wing and the doctors attended to her and got the drug out of her system so she would just be sleeping and be okay.

I was pacing up and down the hall as they helped her. I wondered why she did what she did. I sighed. I knew she probably felt hopeless or something. I wanted to help her, but how could I when she did not speak what was on her mind.

Did she think I would think she was crazy? I wouldn’t think that. I sighed and dropped onto the seat and leaned my head back against the wall and sighed. I felt like I was the helpless one right now. I groaned and buried my face in my hands.

Later the doctors called me in as they were finished. I sat down by her side and watched her, she looked so innocent and pale. I sighed and held her hand in mine rubbing it softly with my thumb “Bella if you can hear me, listen.” I said, when the doctors were out of the room.

“I promised you. I would help you.” I whispered, my voice sad “I didn’t lie when I said that Bella, please believe that. I know you feel helpless but this won’t solve anything. I want to help you, I always did and that’s not going to change. Next time please just come to me, we can get through this together.” I said. I felt tears burn in my eyes and I let them slide down my cheeks.

I sighed and placed a hand on her cold cheek and I stroked her cheek softly and Bella stirred as she was starting to wake up.

Bella’s eyes flattered open and she looked around “W...where am I?” she asked, her voice weak

“Emergency wing.” I told her and sighed “You took too many sleeping pills and I brought you here.”

“Why did you?” she asked, that threw me off. She sound guilty and upset, not mad. I sighed. Because I love you.

“I promised I would help you Bella, I never lied to you. I couldn’t.” I said looking at her. “Why did you try and hurt your self?”

“The voices told me to.” She looked down and sighed “I don’t feel worth it. No one even cares about me. I just can’t go on, The voice is right, I am just a useless person, the world would be better off without me.”

“Don’t say that Bella. It’s not true.” I said looking at her.

Permalink Reply by Envy Breeds Hate on August 28, 2012 at 11:08am