The Twilight Saga

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The worst part....” I hesitated, and then let words spill out in a flood of truth. “The worst part is that I saw the whole thing – our whole life. And I want it bad, Jake, I want it all. I want to stay right here and never move. I want to love you and make you happy. And I can't, its killing me...”

You can't or you wont?” Jacob whispered in my ear.

I could hear the tears in his voice, the hesitance. It killed me to hear him like that. The truth was that I loved him. I was in love with him. I loved him with every part of me.


Just hear me out. You said yourself, you love me. And you know that I love you. I would go to the ends of the earth for you. I would give anything for you. My heart, my soul...”

I froze, those two words stunned me like a punch to the chest. My soul. If Edward was right my soul would be gone soon. It suddenly hit me how nervous about that I was.

....we were meant to be Bella, we're soul mates. I know it.”

I lay there still on his chest, considering his words.

Jake, I know you love me, and I know that what your saying is probably true, I just need time....”

Well I'm not going anywhere Bells, you know I'm here for you, just like I always have been.”

I pulled away sharply, after all he had said he was making a dig at Edward for leaving me.

Your really trying to score points over Edward at a time like this?” I asked as I stood up and straightened my dress down. “You know what Jake, you nearly had me, for a second I questioned myself. For a second I thought you'd been right all along.”

I headed for the door and grabbed the handle. Suddenly his warm hands were on my shoulders as he leant to my ear to whisper.

You'll always have me Bella, take all the time you need. I'll wait as long as it takes.”

A wave of heat ran through me. Passion or fury, I didn't know. I felt my eyes fill with tears. I didn't want him to see me cry. I needed to get out of there. To breathe.

I shrugged Jake off and pulled the door, headed for my truck.

The tears came sooner than I expected. I fired up the truck and headed out of La Push.


When I couldn't see anymore, I let my tires find the rough shoulder and rolled slowly to a stop. But I wasn't alone for very long – just exactly long enough for Alice to see me here, and then the few minutes it took him to arrive. The door creaked open....

Don't” I sobbed as Edward tried to scoop me into his arms.

Bella...” he whispered

No!” I tried to shout through the sobs but it sounded more like a muffled whisper. “I need to be alone, just, please”

“Let me drive you home at least.” Edward replied.

I scooted over and let him take the drivers seat. Hoping that for once he would drive the speed he usually drove in his Volvo. No such luck.

He was silent all the way home. I could feel his usual confident composure slipping away. I knew my state was scaring him. It added to the hurt to know I was hurting him.

I was hysterical. The tears wouldn't stop pouring from my face and I couldn't do anything to stop it. The pain ripped through me. How could I do this to Jacob? Although I knew he was trying to point score he was right, he had always been there for me. I knew that until my dying breath he would be. Whether that was out of old age or out of being...changed.

After what seemed like a lifetime the house came into sight. I needed to be alone.

Bella, I don't know what to do. Let me help you. I've never seen you like this...”

No because last time you abandoned me” I spat back. I didn't know where the anger was coming from. Suddenly the rage inside me grew. “Last time I was in this state it was because of you. And you were nowhere to be found. You left me Edward. Do you remember that?”

Of course I remember that” he whispered back looking down at the key in the ignition as he turned it off. “And I'll apologise for the rest of your life if that is what it takes. I was trying to protect you...”

Protect me? Protect me! By leaving me to fall into depression? Wishing I was dead? Risking my life for the chance of seeing you again? Tell me how that was protecting me?” I shouted. My emotions were running away with me now. I knew my words were hurting him but I couldn't stop.

Bella I...” he began. His voice was frantic now as he leaned towards me to try and get hold of my hand.

No!” I pulled quickly hitting my elbow on the door. “No. Just....don't touch me. I need time.”

Edward smirked.

What?” I demanded “what's so funny?”

I'm sorry” he replied, immediately his voice returning to the frantic state. “It's just now you need time? You wanted to be changed as quickly as possible. Now you need time?”

Oh so you as well now? Now you're trying to point score? Well good for you!”

No, Bella....”

Don't come to my room tonight. If you don't want to give me time then …. then don't. You left me once. And I'll be dammed if I let you do that to me again.”

I jumped out my truck slamming the door and stormed up the path way, knowing that my last sentence would be cutting through him like a knife.

In that moment I wanted to turn and run to him. Comfort him. Tell him I didn't mean those words.

I turned to the truck and he had already gone.


Luckily Charlie had fallen asleep on the sofa. Trying to hold back the tears and remain quiet I turned off the flat screen and gently threw the blanket over Charlie before retreating to the safety of my room. I knew he would be waiting. Regardless of my wishes.

I told you not to be here” I muttered as I closed the door behind me.

I was shocked to see Alice in front of me.

It took me a second before the panic set in. Had I made the decision? In my subconscious? Had she seen it before me?

Edward wanted me to comfort you. You know that you're like a sister to me. Nothing could change that. Not even if you were not sure that you wanted to become one of us anymore.”

Alice wait, I just....”

Bella if you want to stay human we will all understand. We want you to be happy. I love my family, I love Jasper, this is what the powers chose for me. Fate I suppose. But if I were in your position...” she hesitated “I'm not sure I would put myself up for this.”

The confusion of this was too much to bear. I put my head in my hands. I needed to be alone.

I will leave you to your thoughts. I just wanted to let you know, to make sure you knew that I will be here for you no matter what.”

He voice was barely a whisper “Edward needs me now.”

When I looked up she had gone. Leaving just the flutter of my curtains behind her like a cool breeze.

I dropped to the bed and the pain hit me once more. I pulled my knees to my chin and let the tears fall from my face. How could I chose? How could I let one of them be in this kind of pain? I wouldn't wish this hurt on anyone. How had I managed to fall in love with two people?

From the moment I had set eyes on Edward I had known that he was the one for me. It had been embedded on my mind, on my heart. How could I question that now?

On the other hand Jacob was my life line, for a better choice of words. My best friend. My soul mate. Part of me wanted to take the kiss back, so that I would never be in this position. But I knew I couldn't. And if I was honest, I didn't want too. It was done. Jacob knew how I felt and even worse, Edward would know. Even if he didn't know already, I knew that Jacob would push it to the forefront of his mind next time they came into contact. So that he could torture Edward with it. Did I really want to be with someone who would cause that pain on someone else?

Yet I would cause pain for one of them. Whether I wanted it to happen or not.

All Edward had ever wanted since we met was too protect me. I knew that. But I also knew that he had left me. And I could never forget that. I didn't know if I could forgive him for that not matter how much I tried to convince myself otherwise.

I stared down at my bracelet letting each charm slide through my fingers. The beautiful wolf that Jacob had carved for me. The exquisite diamond heart that Edward had given me.

For hours the same thoughts pulsed through my head as I held each charm in turn.

When the tears stopped I gave in to the exhaustion and allowed myself to sleep. Knowing that in the morning, I would break someone's heart. I only wish that I knew whose that would be.


I woke to the sound of an engine running. I walked to the window to see Charlie pulling away in his cruiser. Headed for the station no doubt. Part of me was glad to have him out of the way today.

It took me a moment to realise that my head was pounding. I looked around the room for pain killers before deciding that a shower was probably the best medication.

As I let the cool water rush over me I knew that my decision had been made. And that I had to stick with that decision. I could not continue to torture Edward or Jacob in this way. I loved them both more than my own existence.

I dressed slowly. Part of me was in no rush to get the day over with. But part of me wanted to run to him. To hold him. To tell him that I knew for sure now. He was the one for me. And that this time it was forever.

As I made my way to the truck I caught a glimpse of movement in the woods. A wolf? A vampire? I couldn't be sure.

This was it. I had to stand by my decision.

I climbed into the truck and headed out. The window down allowing the morning air to wash over me. To clear my mind. The silence of the open road calmed me.

But not for long. As I reached the boundary line I saw him stood by the road side.


I pulled in beside him, my heart in my mouth, and got out of the truck.

Alice told me.” he began as he enveloped me in a hug, his cool cheek resting against the top of my head.

Edward, I have to tell him...” I began.

I know my love” he replied as he tilted my chin to look into his eyes. Dark now I noticed. Darker than I had seen since the first time I saw him in the chemistry lab if that was possible.

He kissed me, hard, cold. I surrendered to his touch and kissed him back. It was electric. Tears welled in my eyes, the kiss brought memories of our good times together. But it also reminded me of the time when I couldn't kiss him. When he was no where to be found.

I had to make a decision.” I whispered as he twined his fingers through mine lifting my wrist so I could see my bracelet.

Alice saw the charm drop just after midnight. I knew your decision had been made.”

For the first time I noticed that the charm was missing. It wasn't intentional. Or was it?

This decision is forever Bella, you know that? Right?”

Yes” I murmured in response. “I'm sorry that you had to see my like that last night. I'm sorry for the words I said. You know that I didn't mean to hurt you.”

I know, I know my love” he whispered quickly as he pulled me to him and kissed my hair holding the back of my head with one hand and my waist with the other. Tightly. Tighter than he had held me before.

I love you Bella. More than you will ever know.”

And with that, he was gone.

I stood for a moment, staring at nothing. Letting my thoughts run with me. Had I made a mistake?

I shook myself and took in a deep breathe. I needed to hold myself together. Deep down I knew that I had made the right choice. It was the only choice. It was my destiny.

And then I heard them. The wolves. Their howls loud and clear. Happy. Triumphant.

I looked down to the bracelet, held the wooden wolf tightly in my hand and finally let a smile spread across my face.


I turned and walked towards the truck, the anticipation took over me, forching me into a run before jumping into the drivers seat.

As I closed the door I saw Seth appear in wolf form through the woods at the road side.

Is he transformed Seth?” I asked nervously. I wanted to be the one to tell Jacob. I didn't want him to hear this from the pack.

Suddenly it hit me that he couldn't answer me.

Lay down if he is Seth” I said, I could hear the desperation in my voice. He stood tall and made a sharp grunt at me.

Okay okay, I know your not a pet. But please, just this once?” I spoke quickly. He cocked his head to one side and stood tall again.

If he transforms think about something else Seth, I want to be the one to tell him.” I shouted out the window as I pressed my foot to the floor and headed to the reservation.


As Jacobs house came into sight the nerves kicked in. My palms were sweating. I glanced at myself in the rear view mirror. I looked awful.

As the van rolled to a stop I took another deep breath before sliding out of the truck.

Billy...” I began as he rolled himself onto the porch.

“He's waiting for you” Billy replied impassive. I couldn't work out whether he was pleased to see me or not. Darn Seth... had he told already?

I headed for Jacob's room. It was empty. I looked out the window and saw him pacing out the back. One arm folded across his chest, he was chewing his thumb nail on the other hand. He looked so nervous. I'd never seen him like that before. Brows furrowed deep in thought.

Hey” I called to him. He immediately came to the window and lifted me out. His old smile creeping across his face for a second before he seemed to force it to disappear again. His warm hands against my skin felt different now.

I had a feeling you were coming” he said as he placed me gently in front of him. His hands dropped from my arms as soon as I was safe on the floor.

Jake...” I began.

Bells, please, let me first” he pleaded.

I stood confused. This was not the way I expected things to go. He looked so... tortured.

I love you.” he declared. Confident and clear. “I love you more than words can describe. Those 3 words don't do how I feel justice. When you left yesterday I ran. I ran and ran for miles just thinking about you. About us. And I realised, I don't need to imprint. The way I feel about you is bigger than that. Its euphoric. You are my heart, Bells. I cant let you go again. I cant bear it.”

A feeling of relief washed over me. I stared into his dark eyes for a moment taking them in.

Say something” he said pleadingly crouching slightly so he was face to face with me. His eyes full with tears. “I cant bear this any longer, I need you to...”

“Jake stop” I said

No Bella” his hands on my shoulders now, shaking me slightly “I need to make you see, you're my everything”

Sssshhhh” I replied, allowing myself a nervous giggle. “Jacob, just kiss me”

His hands left my shoulders like I had shocked him. He stepped back. Looking confused he ran a hand through his thick black hair. It felt like a lifetime had passed when finally his eyes locked on mine and he asked “huh?”

I smiled again.

I said, kiss...” but before I could finish his warm lips were on mine. And it felt right. I kissed him back pulling myself onto my tiptoes wanting to get closer to him. He felt warmer than his 108 degrees now, almost to hot to bear.

Our past flew past my eyes. How had it taken me so long to realise. I loved Jake. I was in love with Jake.

I felt Jake giggling against my lips and pulled back still in his arms. Had he changed his mind? Jake read the confusion on my face. I was an open book to him.

We have an audience” he whispered. I turned to see the wolf pack in the tree line. On queue they began to howl again.

I giggled and turned back to Jake letting my face rest against warm dark chest. I stood there for a moment taking in the heat before looking back into his chocolate eyes.

Jake” I began, “I don't need to imprint on you, because you've already imprinted on my own useless human kind of way” I smiled.

For once Jake seemed speechless. He pulled me into a kiss again, I could feel his smile against my lips and smiled back.

I love you Isabella” he murmured warm and sweet into my ear.

I giggled knowing what he wanted to do. “Go ahead” I said. He smiled at me again. The old Jake smile? I wasn't sure. It was just Jake's smile to me now.

His face was beautiful as broke away from me into a run and transformed mid air. Show off. I laughed as he ran to his pack and they ran around excited, like a soccer team that had just scored the winning goal. Billy was at my side within seconds. He gently touched my hand and we both broke into laughter again.

Charlie was right. Sometimes you've got to learn to love whats good for you. And I knew Jacob Black was good for me.


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It didn't take long for the news to get back to Charlie and to Emily and the rest of the reservation.

Emily arranged a barbeque down on the beach. Jacob and the rest of the pack went to help carry the food down to the sand whilst I trailed behind with Billy waiting for Charlie.

“Billy, can I ask you something?”

“I wondered when this moment would come Bella. Go ahead.”

“Do you have the gene?”

“Of course. I was never Alpha material like Jacob. Put back before Jacob was born we had an incident were the cold ones came to the reservation. Just like Jacob, I always believed it was an old wise tale. But Harry sat me down one day and explained what was happening to me. He carried the gene when he was young and explained to me and the other members of the pack of the truce with the Cullens. But that was nothing like recent events Bella. Back then it was two vampires who'd lost their way. We soon stopped them in their tracks. It was just one attack.”

I let the information sink in.

“And what about Charlie? Does he know?” I asked.

“I'm sure he has his suspicions, but just like when Jacob first joined the pack. Alpha's orders had to be obeyed. I was bound. Still am. The only people that can tell Charlie now is Jacob.... or you”. He replied.

Just as I was about to ask if he would mind Charlie caught up.

“Well hey Bells” he grinned as he hugged me. I couldn't remember the last time I had seen him so happy. I knew that Jacob and I was his dream come true.

“Ok, ok, its early days” I replied trying to play it down.

“You might want to tell Emily that Bella, I hear she's working on ideas for the wedding cake as we speak” Billy laughed as he wheeled himself down the cobble path to the beach.

Charlie put his arm round me and pulled me close as he slowed us down.

“Bells, Jacob's grown into a decent young man you know. I know that the Cullens were good people, but I feel like your safe here. With Jacob. I feel at ease.”

“I think the drama is over dad, all I want now is to be with Jake” I smiled.

“You don't know how happy I am to hear that” he smiled back.

Jake scooped me into his arms as soon as I set foot on the sand. “Come here luka” he chuckled as he pulled me into his warmth.

“Everyone is looking” I giggled.

“Let them look” he laughed back as he kissed me warm and deep.

“Ok, ok, father present!” Charlie laughed as he rubbed the back of his neck. His tell tale sign of feeling uncomfortable.

The night was perfect. Sam told wise tales, Billy and Charlie spoke fishing and hunting. Emily made suggestive comments about weddings. Any fears I had of not fitting in after spending so much time with the Cullens were quashed. I felt like part of the family. Part of the pack.


Weeks past. I hadn't spoken with any of the Cullens. Then the news hit that they had left town. I would miss Alice, Esme.... Edward. But my life had been so calm since my decision. And I knew I had to stick with it.

“Dad, I'm headed for the Res” I called into the kitchen as I pulled on Jacob's sweater. It was huge, but it was his and I loved the smell of him.

“Yep, be careful” he called back.

“Always am” I laughed claiming his usual line.

As I jumped in the van I saw a rustle in the woods. I grinned. Jacob no doubt.

That night Jake and I took a walk to La Push beach to be alone. I didn't feel the cold as Jake wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him as we watched the waves crashing on the sand.

I felt completely at home in his arms, not a care in the world. It was as if it was meant to be.

I turned to Jake. My Jake. “Is it how you imagined?” I asked him.

“No..... its better” he replied as he leant to kiss me. I tilted my head towards him, breathing in his scent and feeling his warm on my face. But the kiss didn't reach me.

“Whats wrong?” I asked opening my eyes. Jacob was frozen looking to the left, his nostril flaring.

“Vampire” he spat.

Before I knew it I was on my feet, behind Jacob. I felt his body tense and quake. “No Jacob, calm down” I whispered.

I felt his body relax against me.

“Blondie I can smell you a mile away” Jacob murmured knowing full well Rosalie could hear him a mile away.

“I wanted to see Bella” she replied as she moved at the speed of light and stopped in front of us. I peered from behind Jake trying to read her mood. Her outstanding beauty still struck me, even after living like sisters for all this time.

“Alone” She said, so final.

I let myself relax. “It's ok Jake. Why don't you head back, I'll catch you up”

“No way, I promised I would never leave you and I wont”

I squared up in front of him, trying to reach to look into his eyes. “Jake listen to me, its just Rosalie. She's not going to hurt me” I replied as I gently stroked his arms to calm him.

“I'll be over by the gate” he murmured to me as he turned away. I wanted so much for him to kiss me then.

“So....” I began

“So.... Quick mover” Rosalie sniggered. “So, good job he didn't change you huh?”

“Rosalie, please...”

“He's heartbroken you know? He's up and left. Again. You just keep driving him away don't you Isabella. Maybe this time he'll join the Volturi. He's probably praying on innocent humans as we speak”

“You know that's not true” I replied.

“I will never understand the power you held over him” she cut in. “Before I met Emmett, I was jealous of anyone who came close to Edward. He was everything to me. He helped me understand what was happening to me. For a time I thought he was my soul mate. Then Emmett came along. And you” she spat. “You have it all Bella, you're pretty, you're smart, you have men falling at your clumsy feet. And you're.... human.”

“Rosalie, I loved Edward, I love Edward...” I stammered.

“Then make the sacrifice” Rosalie whispered as she approached me “and bring my brother back to us”

Terror filled my veins. I wanted to scream for Jacob. This was not happening. It couldn't happen. Not now.

I felt my legs go weak beneath me as she pulled my hair roughly to the right exposing my neck. All I could see as I closed my eyes was Jacob's face as I felt her cold breath hit my skin.
WOW! this is so good and sad for me I can only pic Bella with Edward not ask me cause i dont why that is but good story anyway keep writing plz
cant wet for the next chapter.
Thanks so much for the feedback - I'm writing more at the moment, will post it as soon as poss :)
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cooll make it soon this story is really interesting~!♥
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Thanks so much guys, i'm writing more at the moment! watch this space! :)

For a split second I was back there. Back in the meadow. The same meadow where I had spent so much time with Edward. But now the feeling of love and safety had gone. Instead I was cold and scared.

A loud growl knocked me out of my daydream. I opened my eyes to see Jacob transformed, bounding towards us.

Rosalie pushed me aside and leaned into the fighting pose I had seen her fall into countless times before. Usually she was fighting for me, to protect me. Now she was against me.

Jake flew for her neck, teeth bared. She pushed him away with her stone arm and tried to regain her composure. I saw a flash of worry in her eyes, Jake was stronger than she thought.

Jake snarled, he had seen the worry too. He was ready to pounce again.

“Stop” called a familiar voice, calm but firm. Edward.

Rosalie and Jake froze, both looking behind me. I didn't dare turn round. I didn't dare face him.

“Rosalie, this isn't what I want” he began. He moved to her side in the blink of an eye, gripping her wrist.

“Well well well, looky here, it seems we have a direct breach of the treaty” Paul quipped as he sauntered towards us. He paused and sniffed the air dramatically “come out come out little Cullen” he called to the tree line “I can smell you. What is this? An ambush?”

Alice emerged from behind the trees rolling her eyes as she moved to stand at the other side of Rosalie taking her hand. She had seen what Rosalie planned and brought Edward to the rescue. As always.

“Well lets even the numbers up” Paul laughed as he made the familiar wolf call. Embry, Jared, Sam and Quil were beside him within seconds.

“What the hell is going on here?” asked Sam. I could tell he was angry.

“Its OK Sam, we were just leaving” Edward replied.

“Its sure as hell not OK Cullen” Paul spat “Your in violation of the treaty”. He was quaking, Sam held up his fist to the rest of the pack. His way of telling them to calm down.

“Stop!” I called “Charlie is here, you can't do this now.” I looked into Jake's russett eyes. “Please Jake, change!”

Jake looked to Sam who nodded at him. He huffed as he strode away from me. Embry followed pulling a pair of shorts from his rucksack. He was back within seconds and gently pulled me to stand beside him with the pack.

“Sam, we never intended on breaching the treaty...” Alice began as she stepped forwards.

“Looks like blondey had every intention of breaching the treaty” Jake snarled angrily

“Which makes you fair game” smirked Paul.

“Lets not get carried away here...” Edward butted in

“Carried away? Carried away??” screamed Jake “Your sister here... or whatever she is... was about to bite Bella!”

Rosalie snarled and I saw the slight twitch in Edwards hand as he tightened his grip on her.

“Maybe you should gather your family and meet us in the clearing in an hour” Sam suggested. And from the tone of his voice it was clear the Cullens didn't have a choice.
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