The Light Of Our Existence - PG13 Written by Danielle and Melinda

The Light of Our Existence

CHAPTER ONE - RENESMEE'S POV

I walked into the pharmacy, quickly scanning the shop to make sure no one I recognised was anywhere to be seen. I swiftly found what I was looking for. I hid it in my jacket pocket and made my way to the check out. The cashier gave me a bright cheery smile, I grimaced back at her. I placed the item on the counter and looked down at the floor. I wasn’t in the mood for conversation, I could feel the cashier eyeing me pitifully.

“$10.90” She stated.

I paid and left without even making eye contact. As I was walking down the aisles to the exit I looked out the windows and noticed it was raining again. Pouring was more precise. It rained here in Alaska, just as much as Forks, but I guess that was the appeal. I dashed through the doors, the bell ringing in the process as it opened. I knew I had to make a quick run for it but I also had to make it look more human-like so I wouldn’t stand out. I hurriedly pulled my rain jacket over my head, the rain was whipping so hard at my face that it stung as I ran trying to get into my car without getting too wet. I hit the button on the key and the alarm disarmed. I climbed into my 1984 Mustang that Jacob had rebuilt for me and started the ignition. I pulled out of the parking lot and made my way home. I was going to have to get this over with as quickly as possible. The house would be empty for at least another hour or so. I didn’t know what I was going to do. How was I going to tell Jacob? I promised myself I wouldn’t think about any of this until I found out for sure. I was finding it so hard to not think about this at home as I know Dad would go crazy, he already knew something was up because whenever he was near me I would start reciting Wuthering Heights word for word.


I pulled into our drive way and killed the engine. Our house was so beautiful, it was right beside a large creek and backed onto a forest which made it easy for hunting. As you walked through the entrance, all the rooms were combined in a open style plan. The walls were painted a light green which complemented the décor and the rear wall was full length glass, just like our home in Forks. There were three stories, with the top two making up the bedrooms and of course downstairs which was the living area. Jacob and I were both on the second level along with Carlisle‘s office. Our rooms were separated by a two way bathroom which we shared. Dad and Mum still had a separate little cottage style home out the back which everyone had help build and the rest of the family were up on the third level. I had been very specific about not living in the cottage with my parents, they frequently woke me up and it was just repulsive to even think about what they were doing! Jacob and I rarely ventured to the third level, for obviously reasons. I quickly retrieved my package from my car.

“Hello?” I yelled as I flew up the stairs three at a time.

No one was here, I knew that but I was just so paranoid that I had to double check. I slammed the bathroom door shut and took the test out of its brown paper bag. I skimmed the instructions and tore the test from it’s packaging. The instructions were simple enough. Pee on the stick and wait three minutes. One line meant negative. Two lines equalled a positive result. I did the test, replaced the cover and sat it down on the vanity to wait. I started pacing. Since when did three minutes feel like a whole year?

My mind drifted… going over everything, trying to work out how this was probable. I was a week late, but that wouldn’t necessarily mean I was pregnant. My period was often not on time, but I also hadn’t been sexually active either. My heart pounded in my chest. We were so careful. Dad was going to literally kill Jacob if this result came back positive. We had been together for the last two years, but only recently decided to further our relationship. Jacob was quite reluctant knowing all too well of Dad’s views of premarital relations. But I was the one to push it, I couldn’t handle the chemistry anymore. All the pent up tension was getting out of control. The only thing we had to do was not think about it around Dad, but even if he got a glimpse of Jacob’s thoughts. Jacob always claimed them to be fantasies and not actual events. Three minutes was up.

I timidly walked to where I had left the pregnancy test. My whole body was shaking with nerves. Please let it be negative I chanted in my head over and over again. I was afraid to look. I tightly squeezed my eyes shut as I reached to pick up the test, this result had the capability to turn my whole world upside down. I opened my eyes the tiniest bit and looked down at the end result. My heart stopped, my head whirled, the pregnancy test dropped, in slow motion to the floor with what seemed like a loud bang. I placed my arms around my torso and hugged myself. It was positive. Tears welled in my eyes and overflowed seconds later. I couldn’t do this. I wasn’t ready to be a mother. Maybe I should take the test again? They could be inaccurate… Ha! As if I’d be so lucky. What was Jacob going to say? And Dad? He was being to be turbulent! I slumped to the floor in defeat.

I couldn’t manage to bring myself out of the darkening hole that was consuming me. I had never in my life been depressed - I had no reason to be, but this felt terrible. All I could think of was seeing my beautiful, Jacob. I went and curled up on my bed to wait for him. I forced myself to think about something other than the fact that I was pregnant. Me. Renesmee Cullen - a knocked up teenager, the only difference from this cliché situation was that I knew I’d always have Jacob; well at least I hoped I would. I heard the family arriving home downstairs. I concentrated hard on not letting my mind slip and started going over my homework.

“Ness!” Jacob called out from downstairs. His voice always sent butterflies through my stomach.

“In my room…” I replied.

I could hear Jacob stomping up the stairs. Where had he gone? He seemed to be taking an awful long time. He finally appeared, coming through the door of the bathroom which we shared. His eyebrows were squashed in a tight frown, his face was drained of colour. He had an expression of disbelief and fear etched across his beautiful features. In his hand, he was holding the pregnancy test. Oh crap.

“Nessie….” He choked out. “What the hell?!?”




CHAPTER TWO - EDWARD'S POV

“Bella, darling. Is that really necessary?” I asked.

“Yes Edward, It’s looking too serious,” she complained.

“But its fine nothing is going on, believe me. I read Ness…er…Renesmee’s mind everyday and Jacob as well,” I replied.

“Well I still think she should move back in the cottage. I miss her being with us all the time. Now it’s Jacob, Jacob, and
Jacob. We can schedule our “us time” when she’s not there,” she pleaded.

“Honey, she’s sixteen now. She wants space. Remember how you were with Charlie? You were barely with him besides cooking for him,” I grinned.

“That was different. Jacob sleeps next door from her.”

“I stayed in your room every night,” I reminded her.

“Edward, this isn’t about me it’s about her,” she insisted.

Bella…still stubborn as always.

“Bella I insist that you allow her to stay there. If you want I can have a schedule so the three of us spend some time together,” I persisted.

“And maybe some time with just me and her too,” she pleaded.

“Very well then,” I said.

“Promise?”

“Promise,” I grinned.

“So what should we do tonight?” she asked.

I swiftly came close to her and kissed her neck softly.

“You know what I think we should do…”I whispered into her ear.

She stared into my eyes. And then took my hand gently and held it tightly.

“That is a great idea,” she agreed.

I then just gazed at her thinking about her touch, her scent, and the way she made me feel blew my mind away. How she
was the only women who could literally take my breath away.

“I love you,” I said.

“I love you much more,” she replied.

“That’s not possible,” I grinned.

She then aggressively grabbed me by the arm and kissed me with a passion it almost knocked me over. I kissed back, as I our lips moved in motion.

Suddenly I felt a drop of rain streaking down my cheek. I pulled back gently. Then felt her not resisting.

“We should get home. We can get back to what we started, when we get home,” I insisted smiling.

“Fine,” she muttered.

She then quickly came close to me and moved her lips towards mine, but paused right when our lips touched.

“But I’ll race you there,” she grinned and quickly sprinted off.

I then trailed behind her. I could see the wind blowing through her glowing brown chocolate hair. She slowly glanced over at me and smiled.

What the hell are we gonna do?

Is that Jacob? I suppose we’re almost home. I completely forgot why we were racing; I just remembered thinking about Bella.

How did this happen? We were safe…Maybe I'll ask Ness to re-do the test, just to make sure that it was, um.... correct?

Safe? What does that mean? And re-do a test?

Dad is gonna kill Jacob, oh my god... this is all my fault... What's Mom going to think? She's going to be so disappointed, Nessie thought

Oh my beautiful baby girl, why was she so worried and upset?

Oh crap I think they’re coming…okay what to think about besides me being a father? , Jacob thought.

What! That damn mutt got her pregnant!

I began to run faster, passing Bella. A sudden rush of anger ran through my body, the anger was taking control. I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about killing him.

"Hey Edward! I knew you were holding out on me!" Bella laughed as I was now in front of her.

I couldn’t look at her. She would know something was wrong. I kept my jaw tightened and my eyes towards the trail, making sure she couldn’t see my face.

The heat was rising within me as I neared the house. I could already imagine myself ripping him into pieces. Every single tear in his body would make him pay for doing this to Nessie. I could see the house now, the door was open. I ran faster, so I could kill Jacob quicker and get on with it. I raced through the door and up the stairs.

Someone’s here… its Edward I can smell him, Jacob thought.

Oh god he’s here. Okay time to recite Wuthering Heights. Chapter 1, “1801—I have just returned from a visit to my landlord…” Nessie thought.

I ignored their thoughts. I ran through the door finding him and Nessie sitting on the bed. I grabbed him so quickly he couldn’t flinch. I pushed him on to the wall with such force it made a clashing noise.

“How could you do this!” I yelled as I bashed his head onto the floor, gripping my hands on his neck.

I could feel him defending himself. But it was not enough strength; it was the fall that made him weak.

What the—d-mn it Edward! Get the h-ll off me you blood-sucker! It wasn’t supposed to be like this. We used protection for crying out loud! I’m sorry okay! What do you want me to say? It was a mistake, like with you and Bella... Jacob thought.

I ignored his thought, hearing his voice in my head made me even more irritated. I felt him trying to push me away. I heard his screaming ringing in my ear. He was trying to talk but my grip blocked his esophagus.

“I…I…am sor...ry,” he choked.

Dad stop! Please I love him. He’s the father of my baby! Nessie thought.

I couldn’t bear to look at her. I didn’t have the strength to look in her eyes and see the pain for this dog… like Bella did.

“Edward! What the hell are you doing! Let go of him!” Bella shouted.

“Dad, please. You’re hurting him,” Nessie shrieked.

“I can’t… Bella, Nessie is pregnant,” I said through my teeth clenched.

Oh god. Here we go, Nessie thought.

Bella paused to let the words sink in. She finally spoke.

“Nessie, what the hell were you thinking! Do you have any idea what excruciating pain you are going to go through!” she said choking.

All the words Bella said reminded me how bad it was when she gave birth to Nessie. All the yelling, tearing, and pain that happened just got me more outraged. I smashed his head into the floor again. I felt something crack in his skull; I could feel the blood leaking onto my hands.

I felt him trying to push me off of him but it didn’t work. I stayed locked on his neck choking him vigorously, I was in no control.

Edward, please. Not in front of Nessie, Jacob thought

My hand loosened a little.

“Jacob can you hear me? Answer me!” Nessie screamed as the tears flowed.

“Ness…ie…” Jacob moaned but suddenly stopped talking.

Oh god! Why isn’t he talking! Dad stop it! You're killing him! Nessie thought

Bella tried my arms away but they were locked on his neck.

“Edward don't! Killing him won’t solve anything!,” Bella yelled.

Wait …was he dying? I couldn’t feel him fighting back anymore. I couldn’t even hear his thoughts. My hands began to tremble from his neck. I finally let go.