This is how a heart breaks
This chapter was wrote while I was listening to 'I'm going home' by Daughtry. Edward POV.
Chapter 1: Numb
"What?" I felt my mind shut down, and my memory could only replay one sentence.
"I... I don't love you anymore. You... Were my life, but now your not." She smiled weakly, and even my Vampire strength could not take this kind of abuse. "I only saved you, because I felt like I had too," she continued. "But, quite frankly, I don't want anything to do with you." She shrugged, and one name came to my mind.
Jacob Black. The wearwolf..
"Your in love. With Jacob." The thought hit me like a sledgehammer would any regular human.
"I.... I think I am." She whispered, and she touched my arm, as I stood up to leave."Are you going to be okay?"
I thought about it. "No. I will never trust myself again. It's not your fault. The Cullen's and the other Vampires will leave you and Jacob alone." I headed toward the window. "I will always love you, still." I choaked out, and I whirled around, and crushed her to me. I felt her tears slipping down and soaking my shirt.
"Let her go." Someone growled, and I saw that Jacob was standing in Bella's bedroom doorway. Bella turned around, and smiled.
"It's okay, Jake. He was just leaving." She turned back around, and kissed me softly. "Good-bye Edward." She muttered, and walked towards Jacob. I started walking backwards, and saw that he wrapped his arms around her waist, and I felt the window behind me, then he dipped his head for a passionate kiss, and I couldn't stand it. I ran away from Isabella Swan. My once was, Bella. Now she was His. Jacob Black and Bella Swan would never have to consern themselfs about Vampires anymore. We would leave.
I couldn't see anything on my way home. I heard my cell-phone rinning, and felt it vibraiting. I heard Alice, and the rest of my 'siblings' call for me, with their mind. I just couldn't see. My eyes were blinded. Isabella, the girl... No, woman, of my dreams. I was ready to offer her me. My name. My body. My family. I had already offered my love. She rejected it. If vampires could cry, I would be. I couldn't take it anymore. I pulled over the side of the freeweay, and put my head between my hands, and sobbed. Until I felt the impossible moisture on my cheeks. I sat there for hours, until my dashboard clock stated it was 12. Then, I put the car in gear, and drove home.
I saw Bella's future disapear, and I tried to call Edward. When he didn't pick up ( I called him twice) I started shouting in my mind.
'Where the hell are you Edward? It's important!!!' I hissed repeatedly in my mind, and I got no response.
After a few minutes of pacing, Jasper came downstairs.
"Your emotions are going to explode," He frowned, trying to send me waves of relaxation, and calmness. I sat down on Esme's white leather couch, and sighed. Jazz leaned lightly on the back of it, and massaged my shoulders. I turned around, and pecked him lightly on the lips, and shouted in my mind 'EDWARD!!!' at the same time. Suddenly, the front door creaked open, and Edward appeared. He sighed, and slipped to the floor, closing his eyes, and his limbs twitched.
"Carlisle!" I shouted, and Emmett, Roaslie, Esme, and Carlisle flew into the room. Seeing Edward laying there, twitching, made Esme gasp in horror, and she turned into her husbands chest, shaking.
"What happened?" Carlisle muttered, and stroaked Esme's caramel hair.
"I don't know! He walked in, sighed, and then fell!" I shouted, frantically, and I walked around to fall next to Edward.
"Edward? Wake up..." I whispered, and my shoulders started to shake, as my throat closed up. What could have drove my brother into this? I felt strong arms pick me up, and I felt Jasper clutch me to his chest. It was too much. I thought Edward was dying, I fled the house, and flew into the woods.
I woke up, with a throbing headache, and I sat up. My mind was blank, and then the memories of Bella, Jacob, and yesteday all flodded back to me, and I cried out in misery, hoping nobody noticed.
Esme of course was waiting outside the room. She called for the others, and they all stormed into the room. Seeing me awake, Esme ran to me, and in a flash was hugging me. I glanced at the family looking anxious, and I saw that someone was missing. Alice.
"Where is Alice?" I whispered, and I listened closely. Beyond the 6 people breathing in this room, I could hear another perso, downstairs, and in a shower.
"She... Was afraid. That you would die." Jasper muttered, and I groaned.
"I need to explain. It... Might be a while for me to get it all out though." I whispered again, Jasper nodded, and flew out of the room. A second later, the shower water shut off, and I heard the sound of fabric against skin. Three seconds later, Alice was up, with Jasper holding her hand, and their comitment burned my eyes.
"Bella.... Fell in love while we were gone. She told me last night, that she wanted me to stop. Loving her. She wants us to go. She thinks thats what is best. She said Alice needs to come get the things she gave her. She and Jacob Black,,, Are together now." I whispered, remembering what Bella told me, after we went up to her room, and before she had to repeat it. I felt 4 pairs of sympothetic eyes on me. I walked to the large glass window that was outback and I staired saddly out into the river that passed through the yard. I also heard 3 angry people's thoughts. Alice, Esme, and Rosalie were furious.
'I was Bella's best friend. Her sister almost. She crushed my brother. I can never forgive her. I'm sooo getting my stuff back...' Alice was conjuring a plan on how to get her stuff that she had bought Bella back, without having to talk to Bella.
'Bella was like a daughter to Carlslie and me. We loved her. How could she do this? She knows our secret, and it's dangerous if it gets out!' Esme was worried, and angry. I didn't know what happened yesterday. I just remembered stumbling out of my car, and falling flat. But, it haunted Esme. I now saw my body, a heap on the floor, twitching like mad, and I saw Alice flee, Carlisle stroaking Esme's hair, to calm her, and I winced in pain, myself.
I can't believe Bella. She claimed she loved my brother, and even when he killed himself by lying about not-loving her, she forgets all about him. I would be screaming, and fighting.... Hunting him down... But the thing that gets me most was, that 1, she saved him, getting his hopes up, and 2, she had already put Edward through hell, with her scent, her kissing him. His throat was probably on fire!!! And now she made a clean break, right?' It suprised me to hear Rosalie was the most angriest. I thought she would have accepted Bella's choice of remaining human for the rest of her life.
A little later, we started packing to leave. We would not stay, because it was too risky. We probably would come back, once day, when Bella was long gone, and my heart had patched itself up, somewhat. Our wounds don't heal quickly.
I glanced up, and saw Alice, in my doorway."Yeah?" I mummbled, and she sat on one of the boxes from my closet.
"I know you might refuse, but would you please go with me to get my stuff? If I go with anyone other then you, I would go off." Alice asked, and I nodded.
"Give me a momment, and we can leave." After half a second, we were halfway to the Swan residence.
In two minutes we were there. I walked with Alice to the front porch, and she wrang the doorbell. Charlie looked happy, and suprised when he saw Alice, but he looked sympothetic about me.
"Come in." Charlie grumbled, and we walked inside the warm house.
Alice wandered upstairs, and Charlie motioned for me to take a seat.
"Bella told me that you left her, because you wanted her to be able to date other guys. Spend more time with her friends. She was obsessed over you. But, you still loved her? I respect that. I told her that she should forgive you." I heard Bella and Alice arguing upstairs, and I wondered who was winning.
"But, she said, she didn't need you anymore?" Charlie shook his head, and continued. "Last night, she told me what she had told you, and then she announced that she and Jake were going steady. Jacob also asked me for her hand. I said I had to think on it. Honestly, Edward... Do you still love my Bella? I can object to their engagement, if you want to try to patch things up with her." Charlie shrugged, and I choaked inside. Charlie had always dispised me, so it suprised me.
"I do still love Bella, cheif Swan, but she loves another, and I hurt her. I couldn't stop it. It was bound to happen. Where she finds I'm unhealthy for her, and she'd move on. My parents decided to help me out, we were going to move back to where we were the past months, so that I can recover. I'm afraid this is good-bye... But, if you could, notify me when Bella ties the knot. I would send a gift..." I responded, and Charlie nodded. Then I saw Alice clump down the steps, with an arguing Isabella Swan behind her.
"I don't care what you think!" Alice hissed, and Bella glared at her, Bella froze when she saw me, and I saw Jacob Black slip down the steps, to wrap his arm around Bella's waist.
"Good-bye, Charlie." Alice said cheerfully, and she pecked him on the cheek.
"Good-bye, Charlie." I shook his hand, and he muttered for me to take care.
Heyy, Readers. This Chapter is taking place a few years later. The beginning takes place four years after the Cullen's move. This chapter was also inspired by Matchbox 20's 'I'm not Crazy'. It's a beautiful song, and I think you should hear it. NOW. Edward POV. Chapter 2: New Faces
It has been 4 years since Isabella left me, and I left Forks. Not a day goes by, when I don't think about her. Today, me, Alice, Esme, and Emmett were going off hunting. We have been living in Germany since then, and I heard that Bella and Jacob were married a year and a few months after we left. I also heard she became pregnant six months ago. I felt my heart throb every morning, as Alice and I played our daily chess-game, early in the morning. It was always this time, that Bella would wake up in my arms.'Focus on driving, Edward. I know what your thinking,' Alice thought, and I flexed my hands on the steering wheel. I never had any problems driving, but Alice just decided to use it as a excuse for wandering in my mind through her visions. In a few years, we decided, we would go back to Forks, Washington.
*** Years Later ***
Today has been my offical sixth month of living in Forks again. None of the teachers were the same, and the students were sometimes reletives, or even children of those who I went to school with, once about 11 years ago. They probably were pregnant in high-school... I couldn't remember any of those days, now. I had learned to shut out that part of my life.
'Edward?' I heard one of the girls in my math class think, and I glanced at her, She was stairing at her text-book, and didn't realize I had looked up.'Oh, I know.... I can't believe he doesn't date, he'd be a perfect kisser...' She smiled to herself, and I blanced. She was glad she didn't appeal to me. I never wanted another girl to do that to me, again.
I endured the rest of class listening to that girls perverted thoughts.
My next class was biology. I had the whole lab table to myself, and I offten threw my books on the seat next to me, and just read the whole class period, as I had taken this class 61 times, so far. I got A's on everything.
"M-Mister Masco?" I heard a new voice, shy, yet determinded girl stammer, and I grinned without realizing. "I'm Estella." She muttered, and rammed her hip into the side of his desk, blanching in pain. I glanced up, and was shocked. Her scent hit me hard. Harder then ever before. Even with.... I shuddered, and glanced back down at my book. The study of the new-found language, Tevrib, the now, north-eastern way of speaking. The thing that shocked me, was once again, I couldn't read this persons mind... What if she was one of her kids? I grimced, and listened closely, as the teacher asked for her to introduce herself, with her given name. She rolled her eyes, as she turned to her new-classmates, and stated to flush.
"Hi. I'm St....." Mr. Masco, the teacher glarred at her. She gulped and quickly changed her answer. "I'm Estella Burke." She announced, and her cheeks were filled with blood, as she was blushing.
"Go ahead and sit next to Mr. Cullen," Mr. Masco snapped, and she looked around frantically, before the teacher sighed. "The only open seat," he announced in a winey voice. She bit down on her lip, and stumbled into the seat next to me. I heard her mutter 'ouch!' as she dropped her books on her foot. I schooled myself to ignore her. I was decluded at first when I met with her, but I would introduce myself to this new girl, that way, she won't start making crazy acusations like Bella... I winced, as I thought her name.
As Mr. Masco assigned us work that we had to do together, I tried to listen in on my siblings.
X=68790496868586.475747584675 but to the human mind they simply just put it...' Alice was obviously in math, and I skipped to Jasper.
'I wonder what Alice is doing.... Ah, yes she is in math... Maybe tonight we could go hunting....' Jasper was ignoring his teacher as he was droaning on in physics.
'Damn, Rose looks hot in her uniform pretending to run slow. I want a peice of that...' Emmett was being innapropriate in gym, and I shuddered at the thought of my sister in a uniform.'Why is Emmett ignoring me!!!' Rosalie whined in her head, and I rolled my eyes. They were all too busy to worry about me, though.
I finally turned to Estella Burke, who was quietly doing our group work. She was already on number 34 of our 50 questions assigment on a lecture Mr. Masco had just talked about while I was in on my siblings. Good thing I had already heard this lecture.
"Hi." I finally spoke up, and she turned her head towards me. "I'm Edward..." Then her scent hit me again, but even stronger. It was choaking me, and I had to get out. She was still looking at me, and then I remembered what I was saying. "Sorry, I zoned out. I'm Edward Cullen." I mummbled through clenched teeth, and she looked confused. I shook my head, chastising myself, and then I turned back to her. "Let me do a few." I mummbled again, and she nodded.
"Okay. I got stumped on a few. He was talking to fast..." She gestured to a sheet of notes she had wrote, and I skimmed over it, I noted a few things she had missed.
"Mind if I fill in what you missed?" I gestured to her note page, and she smiled, and nodded. I reached over her (holding my breath) and quickly wrote three or four things that she had missed. She was pretty smart. For a human. She passed the question sheet over to me, and I quickly wrote down the rest of the answers, making us the first group done, by far. I glanced at the clock and saw that we had a half hour left of class, so I decided to follow Alice's mind....
"I'm Stella, by the way," Estella mummbled, and I pulled out of Alice's thoughts. It took me a second to regester what she said, but I quickly nodded.
"Why come to Forks?" I asked, curious. She blushed, and gazed into my eyes. I saw that hers were a startling blue-gray, and that the looked sad. It sort of twisted a knife in my chest, as many would say.
"My father and Mother divorced when I was three months old. I had never met my father until last year. My mother... Sara, told me that my dad, Alec, was dead. Then, I forced her to tell me, when she decided to get remarried, and I saw files, that she had to send in claiming that her divorce had gone through. I met Alec eight months ago, and when my mom's new husband, Jack, became a actor, she had to move all over the place. She wanted to go with him, to where-ever he needed to be, but she stayed with me. So, when it pained her, I called my dad and asked if I could move in with him," Stella shrugged, but I saw the shudder that raced through her frame. "I didn't have any friends in Yuma, Arizona, where I had grown up. I was the outcast, and offten got picked on, so it was not hard to move on. And as for the weather..." She grinned, and the corners of my mouth tugged upwards, happy to hear her get over her hard past. "I'll get over the rain!" She giggled, as a cloud of thunder rolled bye, and then the teacher spoke to the class, catching her attention quickly. As her long, blond, silky hair whirled back over her shoulder, I stiffined. Her scent was scoarching my throat. I felt like I was choaking. I glanced at the clock, and saw that time had flew bye, and in 3 minutes class would be over. I sighed, and watched the clock count down, and stood up, a second before the bell wrang, and finally took a breath when I was out of the classroom.
And away from her scent.
Chapter 2 left you with a thrill, eh? Wondering what will happen to our hot vampie, right? This next chapter was inspired by ' Aly & Aj's, Into the rush. Enjoy chapter 3!!!
Chapter 3: Buying Time with herThat night I sat across from Carlisle, and played a game of chess.
"I have a problem." I spoke up, while seeing his next move that he was going to make.
"How can I help you, son?" He asked without looking up, and he quickly moved a peice I was not expecting.
"I found another singer," I informed him, and he finally looked up.
"Who is it? Is it a child of Bella's? They would seem to be old enough to go to Forks high, if I am correct. How did you handle the situation?" His thoughts asked me, and I cringed at her name, again.
"Her name is Estella Burke. She couldn't be hers, anyway. Her mothers name is Sara. Her father is a professer in a college in Portland, or so I gathered from her friends minds. I can't read her thoughts either. Her blood sings for me. Worse then hers ever did. It was killing me. I... I don't think I can do this. I don't trust me anymore. What should I do, dad?" I croaked, and rested my head in my hands. I only ever called Carlisle 'dad' when I was scared, or nervous. I felt his hand ruffle my hair.
"Son, you do whatever you must. Just stay with us. We could not bear to loose you. If it means, your attracted to her blood, then okay. If it means you are attracted to the actual her, okay. You will do the best." He shrugged. "You deserve someone in your life. If a human is the one for you, then fine. This girl could be the one. She could be right whereas Isabella Swan was just a trial. If you have any more problems, don't hesitate to ask me." He smiled, and I lifted my head.
"Do you mind if I leave, and I'll be back sometime next week. I promise. I just want to sort this out. Make sure I'm doing the right thing. She might like me, might not. She seemed friendly enough, but if a friend is all I could be to her, then fine. I'll be the best friend. But, dad?" I started to get up, and I felt his hand resting on mine for a short second.
"When the time comes, I want to be able to be the one to tell her our secret. I don't want for her to find out like she did. Through false guesses. I will make the best decision possible." I muttered, and he nodded. I grabbed my car keys, shouted that I was leaving, and was gone.
Out of Character note/pause or whatever... Now for those who read 'One Drop' here is the part you've been waiting for:
Stella POV. Rayne was busy chatting with Melony, a former swim team member, and I was left out of the conversation, yet again. I didn't mind though. I kept stairing at the table of pale, beautiful people. The wierd thing was that I didn't even know them. It's been five days since I first came to Forks, Washington. I frankly, hated it at first, but then after three days of mist, and rain, I had enjoyed it. In Yuma, or at least the neighborhood I lived in, it rained twice every six months. It was so bad, we had artifical grass! Alec had me cooking for him, even though I sucked at it, I was enjoying learning from 'Cooking for dummies', and Alec didn't seem to mind my food, too. I felt kind of miserable, because I was new. My biology partner dissapeared after that first day. Edward. Edward Cullen. He was pale like the older students stairing at me. There was four of them. Two boys, er... Men, and two women. The older ones were made up of a beautiful blond, who was tall, proud, and hung on a strong, muscular, blackhaired boy. The other older one was a blond guy, with faint marks on his face that looked like old scratches, and a pained look on his face, while his eyes held another emotion, as he gazed at the short, blackhaired, girl beside him, between stairs at me. I leaned over to Melony, as Rayne had leaned over to her friend Layna, the prettiest person in the school if it wasn't for the pale people.
"Who are they?" I muttered, and she giggled.
"The Cullens. Rosalie is the tall blond, Emmett is the muscle man, Jasper is the one that looks like his in pain, oddly, and Alice is the small, pretty black haired one is Alice. They are all adopted. Well, Rosalie, and Jasper are Mrs. Esme Cullen's neice and nephew. Emmett, Edward, and Alice are just adopted." She shrugged, and something in my mind clicked.
"Edward Cullen?" I whispered more to myself then to her, and she smiled.
"You know him?" I shook my head, in wonder. All of his siblings were here, but he was not.... I glanced at the group again, and noted that they looked more like teachers then seniors.
As I turned away from them, one question lingered on my mind.
Who were these mysterious Cullens?
It has been eight days since I arrived in Forks. I had gotten used to having my biology table to myself, boys stairing at me, and girls surrounding me. Well, at least the ones that weren't glaring at me. My blushing made everyone laugh, and I giggled nervously. Being the new girl had it's ups and downs. Mostly downs. I hated attention, so this was hard for me. And a suprise. But, what was also a suprise was waiting in biology.
Edward Cullen came to class and occupied the seat next to me, now.
He smiled when I sat down next to me, and stiffined only slightly.
"Hello, Stella." He greated me, and as my sudden (out of nowhere) blush appeared, I smiled.
"Hey, Edward." I replied, and walked over to Melony's table, and talked with her like every morning. This guy who often tried to capture my attention leaned over from the next table, and interupted our conversation.
"Wow. Cullen actually speaks to people? How odd. All people can ever get out of any of them are a muffled 'hi'', or at the begining of the year, their name." This guy,,, His name was.... Brett? I think his name was Brett Newton.
"He seems pretty nice." I shrugged, and Rayne giggled, and suggestively put her hand on Brett's shoulder, and purred, barely loud enough for me to hear.
"He's too 'sexy' to talk to anyone apparently. He is damn good looking." She giggled, and Melony rolled her eyes.
"He is cute, but that's not the only thing. He's smart, nice, seems shy if you asked me." I argued back, and Rayne 'hurumphed'. I started to walk away, and the last thing I heard from them that class was from Brett:
"Cullen's a freak. You're gonna stand up for the freak? You are one." He whispered to Rayne, and she giggled, while Melony gasped, and I bit my lip. Critics.
Class started soon after I placed myself back in my seat. I avoided eye contact with Edward Cullen, and busied myself with the test infront of me. I should have slowed down durring the test, because afterwards, anyone who was done could talk quietly. I didn't think he was a freak. Or that he had heard our conversation in the back. Until he spoke up.
"He's too 'sexy' to talk to anyone apparently. He is damn good looking." Rayne Parkers sighed, and I rolled my eyes. I would never know why these humans were so attracted to me. Melony Hall, who I recognized to be the daughter of two students (Ben and Angela) I had gone to school with before.
"He is cute, but that's not the only thing. He's smart, nice, seems shy if you asked me." Stella Burke fought back, and a secret grin wandered its way to my lips. I had spent those eight days thinking about risks. And Stella Burke had won me over. She was absolutely beautiful to me. Her long blond hair, silver-blue eyes, outrageous blush, height, scent... I heard her start to walk back this way, and I heard Brett Newton (A old classmates brat) try to hide a whisper, but with my vampire hearing it didn't escape my notice.
"Cullen's a freak. You're gonna stand up for the freak? You are one." He whispered about Stella and it made me mad.
Class started just when I was about to turn to her and thank her. She had a test to take, so I told myelf to wait, and I listened to a few peoples thoughts.
When will Brett notice me? Rayne whined in her head, and she thrust her chest forward, trying to catch Brett's attention.
Estella Burke.... Here.... Erica Hallis... Here... Edward Cullen... Here. What a suprise. He decided not to skip? anywho.... Melony Hall.... Here. The teacher was going over his attendance chart. I ignored the comment about me being gone. Instead I focused on names, actually one. Estella. Stella. Stella Burke. I glanced at her, and saw that she was done her test, rather quickly, too.
"Stella?" I whispered, and she glanced up from a book she had quickly pulled out.
"Yes?" She mummbled, and nodded her head.
"I'm sorry that you had to stick up for me. Thank you, by the way." I smiled, and her eyes grew glassy looking.
"No problem," She mummbled trying to shake off the feeling. "In thanks though..." She mummbled, and her eyes narrowed, making them look green. "Would you answer a question of mine?" She asked, and smiled faintly, and her blood, which I could smell, was rushing into her face, telling me she was embarassed.
"It depends," I answered carefully, and her smile dissapeard, and became a frown, at my tone.
"Why were you gone for so long?" She asked, clutching the book closely to her chest, and stairing nervously at her test sheet.
"Oh," I sighed, releasing all but my clenched fist. "I was... Sick." I stated slowly, and her eyes narrowed, in suspician. Luckily, the teacher spoke up, and started to collect the papers.
"Sick?" Stella’s eyebrow shot up, but she also looked amused.
"I..." I started to stutter (Which I NEVER do...) but luckily, the bell sounded and within seconds I was safely out in the hall.
Her scent was all but forgoten. I shot across the hall, but glanced back to quickly see her duck out of the classroom, and to glance around for me. If only I could see into her head...
Edward... We have an issue. Alice called for me, and I hurried to where she was, and she explained.
"I see that a girl is going to die." Alice stated, and her look was blank. "Blood.... Everywhere." She whispered, and her head snapped to look at me, disbelief clear on her face.
"Is Jasper going to loose it?" I wondered allowed. As Jasper was our newest vegatarian to our diet, of only animal blood, Alice often caught him thinking about killing a human, and I often heard his thoughts being grusome.
"No?" It sounded like a question, coming from Alice. "You will." She whispered, and as my head snapped down to little Alice, I saw she was already across the hall.
"Who?" I whispered. and I could see her shake her head.
It’s so bloody, I can’t tell... Alice thought, and my eyes closed.
I didn’t need three guesses to know...
Who I’d loose my head over.
For her scent.
Even now, at four in the morning the question haunts me. Stella probably would die at school. Maybe a accident in the cafeteria? A major injury in gym? A slip up in biology? A gun in school?
I was afraid to know. I wanted to be there. To protect her. And if I can’t protect, then I want to hold her in my arms as she is dying. I wasn’t nessasarily in love. I was just drawn to her. Like Jacob to Bella.
But I was afraid.
Would I massacure her, in death? I didn’t want to hurt her. I didn’t want to hurt anyone.
Did I have to?
Did I chose to?
Yes. The moment I smelled her scent.
The question haunts me.
It has been an offical three weeks since Stella Burke moved to Forks, Washington. I had what a human calls a 'crush' on her, I believe.
But to me it seems idiotic.
But I'm just a crazy blood lusting vampire, right?
Today we have to go visit a college campus in Portland. To view one of the closer options. I knew that I could easily get into Harvard. Or dartmouth. Or anywhere I pleased. But, it was yesterday when I decided to come on this field trip...
***Yesteday at biology***
I know that Stella had realized already that there was something strange about my family, and I. I ignored her durring lunch. Though I didn't miss her glances at me, and Rayne's giggles to Layna Falls, about it. I would pass her in the halls, and not even glance at her. But in class, we never really said anything to eachother. I knew the questions were burning in her mind, and her glances asked them all. Mine answered, but she couldn't desipher. And then she approached me.
"Edward?" She sighed my name, her breath lashing at my throat. I slowly shifted my attention to her. Slowly. So the impact of her scent would not be butal.
"Good afternoon, Stella," I smiled, and her lips twitched up at the corners.
"I wanted to know... Are you going on the field trip tommorow, with your sister?" Her eyebrows furrowed, and I blinked. I had to make sure Stella was safe. I had to go on this trip.
"Yeah. I'm going." I wondered briefly if Alice would come if I asked her to. She would.
"Okay... But the project on the plants cross-breeding... I was wondering if you could help me." She was embarassed again, and she ducked her head.
"Yeah, what do you need help with..."
Then I got home.
"Alice!" I yelled, and closed the front door.
"Yes, Edward?" She answered lazily from the couch, and I didn't even bother asking.
"You want me to go on a field trip?" She sounded sort of suprised.
"Edward, you're acting diffrent lately." Jasper disaproved, coming down the steps.
Esme and Rosalie flauntered down the steps and sat on the couch across from Alice and Jasper. I sighed and leaned against the back of it.
"Edward. Please explain." Esme spoke up in her motherly tone, and I took a deep breath before throwing myself in the conversation. I had just explained about Stella's past when Carlisle got home.
"Evening everyone," he greeted us, and with his speed within 1.1 milasecond he was on the couch, his arms wrapped around Esme. Emmett appeared from the garage, and we all gathered around to hear the tale.
I spilled my guts to a bunch of unsensitive vampires. God how I hate myself.
What the hell were you thinking, Edward? Rosalie screamed in her head, and I winced. Do you want to harm yourself again? What about the family? You're putting us at risk too! She glaired at me. It's all her fault! We were fine, and then she came along... Who is she anyway? What's her name? Rosalie glanced at me, and I sighed.
"Her name is Estella Burke. Stella. She's my real singer."
Esme gasped. Alice shook her head.
"Why didn't I see this coming?" She growled to herself, and I chuckled.
"Don't blame yourself, Alice. I kept all thoughts of her away, so that it wouldn't be important. You did see her though." I whispered, and Jasper's head snapped up.
"You can't mean..." He trailed off, and Alice groaned.
The blood... The girl... You loosing it... It's her, isn't it?
"She is going to die. I need to protect her." I moaned, and my head sunk into my hsnds. My shoulders also started to rapidly shake, and Esme silently floated to my side, and rubbed her hand soothingly over my shoulders. I looked up, and she drew in a startled gasp.
"You're crying." It sounded like a question more then a statement, and I shuddered before nodding.
"I found that I could after...." I trailed off, knowing they would understand. "It's not important. What is, is that Stella stays safe. If I can't be her one, I want to be her best friend. And protect her no-matter what. But, I can't do this alone. Anyone up to help me?" I blurted, and looked up again. Alice, Emmett, Jasper, and Carlisle was infront of me.
"Edward... You know that I'd be there for you. No matter what, I'm here. And Jasper will follow." Alice unconsiously reached behind her, and squeezed his hand. I winced mentally, and nodded.
"You know that I will stand for you, Edward." Carlisle said gravely, and I put on a slight fake smile.
"I felt bad about you loosing Bella, and I've always wanted a little sister to torture, but Alice is no fun, knowing when I will attack..." Emmett punched me lightly in the shoulder and I looked at Esme, and Rosalie.
"You put all of us at risk, Edward! How could you do this again!" Rosalie shouted, making the glass vibrate, and Carlisle glaired at her.
"It's not something he can control, Rose." He growled, and she stuck up her chin arrogently.
"We could move again." She stated, and I moaned.
"No... Please. She's not like Bella. Her heart is pure gold. She's smart. She won't hurt me. Or harm the family.... I just don't want her to die." My voice broke, but I hear Esme's strong clear voice.
"Why?" I whispered, and she moved to stand next to her husband.
"Isabella was a daughter to us. She hurt all of us. Do you know how much it hurt me and Carlisle? I couldn't bear to let it happen with another girl. I had such hopes for Bella. And I loved her. She was unique. All of you are. She made the family feel complete. But with her gone, I can see the risk. Never again." Esme shook her head, and Carlisle stepped away from her.
"Esme, this isn't all about us. This is about Edward. He knows whats best. He thought about this from all angles. He also knows what is best for ALL of us." Carlisle shrugged, and I smiled. "We have to trust him. And don't you also want him to find the right one for him. I have confidence and believe that Stella is the one." Carlsile looked smug, and Esme looked like he was crazy.
"How do you know?" She whispered, and Carlisle smiled again.
"Edward told me the night he dissapeared what had been going on. I was the one who encuraged him to go, to clear his head and search for the answer." He turned back to me. "Did you find the answer?"
I smiled. "Yes." Alice relaxed and smiled.
"Good 'cause I need a new shopping partner." Jasper chuckled when she said this.
"I guess we are staying then?" Jasper asked, and Alice laughed.
"Yup." I answered.