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this is right after alice visits bella in new moon, but noone tells edward that she's dead...enjoy, and comment please!

BPOV

Alice left me after staying with me for two weeks. I went back into my zombie like state. This time it was way worse though. The zombie impression was only a front. Inside, the whole in my chest burned all the time. I stopped returning Jake’s phone calls, and I didn’t do any of my school work. I stopped eating again. The nightmares got worse and longer.

That was only a few days later.

Now I was driving home from a painful day at school. My cell rang. I let it go on for a while so it would go to voice mail. Then on the last rig I changed my mind and pick up quickly.

“Look Jake! Please stop calling. I…I don’t think I can handle doing anything besides going to school. I’m sorry-“

“Bella, its Alice.” I nearly swerved off the road. I immediately put on my happy voice, even as the wounds of the whole were burning painfully.

“Oh! Sorry, my mistake! What’s up?” my voice came out rough, and way too squeaky to be convincing.

“Well…I thought I should warn you first. We’ve comeback. ALL of us. For good.” She said hesitantly.

My heart skipped a few beats. “I’ll be right over.” I was about to hang up before she said, “wait!”

“Yes?!”

“Um…maybe it’s not such a great idea for you to come over.” She said reluctantly. It was like a punch in the face, but I was too happy to dwell on that. I was going to see Edward! It didn’t matter that he didn’t love me.

“I don’t care if he doesn’t want me. I’m coming over.”

“Bella-“but I hung up and pressed on the gas pedal.

The drive was still so familiar. With each mile I came closer to Edward; I could breathe a little easier. The whole stopped aching so much. This was beyond regular happiness.

I finally pulled into their driveway. I couldn’t sit anymore, and I just hit the brakes halfway through the driveway and jumped out. I ran as fast as I could toward the house. I saw Alice waiting for me at the door. I barreled into her open arms.

“Bella! You look worse than when I first came back!” he said, shocked. I shrugged and tried to hold in my tears to no avail they poured down my cheeks like mini rivers.

“Come on! I want to see everyone else!” I said frantically while tugging her hand. She reluctantly followed with a worried face.

I walked inside to be greeted by a big bear hug from Emmet. Then esme looked at me with concerned eyes. Carlisle smiled politely, but he seemed to be dreading something to come. I ignored all the signs because I didn’t want to be brought out of my happy bliss.

“Ii-i-i- miss-s-s-ed y-you guys!” I choked out. My eyes were blurry, and I wiped them on my sleeve so I could see their beautiful faces. I was even happy to see Rosalie’s glaring face. Jasper stood far away from me. I felt bad for that, but didn’t comment. Suddenly, my emotions calmed a bit. I was able to stop crying.

“Thanks jasper.” I hiccupped and they all laughed.

I looked around the room for the one person I was dying to see.

“E-Edward?” I called, knowing he would hear me.

“Be right there!” the angelic velvety voice replied casually. My heart was pounding as he descended the stairs.

The first thing my brain processed was his eyes. His amazing depthless eyes! Then I focused on his smooth beautiful face. I tried to memorize every angle of it. My heart melted.

Then reality caught up with me. He wasn’t alone.

A breathtaking strawberry blond vampire was clinging to his waist. He had one arm draped lovingly across her shoulder. The heart that had just begun to feel full broke into jagged pieces.

My breath came in short gasps. My eyes stung, but I refused to cry in front of him. I didn’t want to make a further fool of myself. I blushed a deep crimson. I had to tear my eyes away from his arm on her shoulder. I felt myself falling apart. I had to get out of there.

“Bella…this is Tanya. She’s from the Denali clan I told you about.” I briefly remembered the name. I shook my head to indicate a yes.

He tightened his grip on her. That was it.

“Uh…I have to go. I forgot to pick up some food for Charlie. Don’t want to have to order out.” I mumbled pathetically in a broken whisper. I said good bye to each of my former family.

Then I tried hard to pull out my faceless mask to say goodbye to Edward. All I ended up doing was grimacing a whimpering at him like an idiot. I thought I saw a small bit of regret flash in his eyes as I took one last look, but it was gone instantly.

I turned and barreled into the door. I ran to my truck and left the sobs overtake me. I didn’t even care if they could hear my painful mourning.

And morning is what I was doing. I stood no chance at getting him back now. I was so ordinary compared to her. I don’t blame him for it. I lost whatever tiny hope I had. I was mourning our love. I knew there would be no more delusions…no more numbness.

I tried to drive through my sobbing. Somehow, I got home. I parked in the driveway I stayed crying in there for who knows how long. Finally, no more tears would come. I looked around in my truck. Memories from Edward and me floated painfully through my head…taunting me.

Fury rose from deep within me. Anger at Edward, at Tanya, and mostly at myself. I couldn’t take it anymore!

I picked up the crowbar that I used to open my hood from under my seat. I jumped out of my car and smashed out my window. I took out the windshields and continued breaking my side door. Suddenly Charlie pulled up as I was beating my car full of memories.

“BELLA!!!” he screamed as he jumped out of the cruiser. He grabbed the crowbar out of my hand and threw it.

“What the hell is the matter with you?!” then he caught sight of my face. He instantly switched from anger to concern.

“What’s wrong?!” he said and grabbed me into a tight embrace.

“He’s back! He’s back with a new girlfriend!” I sobbed into his chest.

“I’ll kill him!” he said and dragged me into the house, leaving my destroyed truck behind.

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Permalink Reply by newmoonie123 on August 1, 2010 at 12:01am

BPOV

“it’s just that you try to be scary. But it’s obvious you would never hurt anyone! I’ve never seen a vampire who couldn’t act scary!!!” Croy barely barked that out while he laughed and wiped tears out of his eyes.

“wow thanks! You’re saying I’m bad at being a vampire?!”

“that’s a good thing. It saved your life.” ken had recovered and was now his usual serious guy.

“I guess. Since I’m going to be held prisoner here, can I meet my jailers?” I looked at the unfamiliar guys who were acting like we’d been friends for years and this was typical Bella behavior.

“yea, I’ll introduce you to the older guys. There are too many guys to introduce at one time.” ken nodded to a few guys further away who were staring at me. They came over at hi nod. I was impressed by the authority ken had over them.

“so you’re like the alpha wolf, right?” I asked him with curiosity.

“yes, I was the first bitten and was appointed pack leader. I recruited my friends buck, Croy, Taylor, Joe, and Jace. Then we kept recruiting guys and now we have this operation going.” my jaw dropped about halfway through..

“bitten?!” he gave me a confused look and nodded.

“how else would I become a werewolf?”

“you’re supposed to be born that way! It’s supposed to run in your family!” maybe this pack was different from jakes. I hadn’t even considered it. It explained why they had so many in their pack though.

“no…the ones born with it can bite a human and then they’ll change into a werewolf too. This way new pacts form. We only bite willing guys though. We explain what it means to be in this pack and then bite them if they agree.”

“that’s crazy!! You just go around blabbing your secret to guys?!” I looked at all of the smirking guys around me. I guess they didn’t care much about hiding their secret.

“so anyway, we were going to introduce you to everyone.” ken made an impatient hand gesture and a guy stepped forward to shake my hand.

He was tan and built! He was about six feet and towered over me. All of these guys towered over me. His hair was shaggy and brown. It fell in his eyes. He was the most innocent looking. His bright blue eyes shimmered with energy as if he was prepared for anything.

“I’m Jace. My rank is A.” I shook his hand but looked at ken to explain the rank thing.

He sighed and explained quickly. “the higher ranked guy are the A group. Then there’s the B, the C, the D, and so on…”

“right.” a short blonde haired dude stepped forward next. He had a sly grin on his face and his green eyes spelled trouble.

“I’m Joe. It’s a pleasure to meet you baby. I’m rank A too.” he brought his hand up to kiss it. I scowled at him.

Croy smacked him on the head. “we already met, and I’m rank A.”

“I’m Taylor and rank A.” he shyly shook my hand and stepped back. He had dirty blond hair that was completely straight. He had bangs that covered all of his forehead.

“I’m Buck. Rank A.” he roughly shook my hand but smiled while doing so. He was Asian and had very black hair. He was really pale too. Almost like I was as a human.

Ken sighed impatiently and pointed to the five other guys there and barked out their names.

“mike, Eddie, Conner, Jason, and parker. All rank B.”

Suddenly the doors to the warehouse were wrenched open loudly. A shaking pissed off werewolf came storming over to us. He glared at me with vicious hate. I flinched under his gaze. He walked straight up to me and lifted me up by my throat with a massive hand. His grip was tight and a bit painful. I cried out in surprise.

No one moved. No one came to my rescue.

“WHAT IS THIS PARASITE DOING HERE?! WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?!” he spit in my face and slammed me against a wall. The whole room went quiet. I waited for ken to defend me, but it never came. He stared at me stonily.

Why was everyone just watching him hurt me?! I thought they weren’t going to kill me!!!

The angry wolf leaned in close and hissed words into my ear.

“I will kill you slowly. You may have been able to sway everyone else with some kind of crap, but it won’t work with me. I’m going to rip you apart fro the legs up. I’ll let you watch your limbs burning while you scream.”

He tightened his grip and I did scream in pain. I was paralyzed in fear. This was it! I was going to die. He was going to finish the job Victoria originally going to do.

Thinking of Victoria made me angry. It was her fault I was in this situation! I wasn’t going to scream for anyone. If I could start running in the pain of the transformation, then I could stay silent when he tortured me. I wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction of that. I would die with my dignity.

“torture me all you like. I won’t scream for anyone anymore. Go ahead and kill me. I’ll die knowing who was the better person.” I stared straight into his furious eyes. He shook even more.

“PERSON?! YOU’RE A VAMPIRE!!!”

“and you’re a werewolf. Does that make you any better than a human or a vampire? That’s only your body. What about your soul or your heart? Do those not matter once someone bites you? It’s not what you are it’s who you are. Right now, I’m the only one who’s got any humanity left.” I stared around the room.

“you all watch while he says he’s going to torture me. You all think you’re better then everyone else, but you’re not. It makes me sick.” everyone avoided my eyes but ken and the one choking me.

He had stopped shaking. He stared at me in confusion.

“what do you know about me?! You have no idea what I’ve been through. You don’t knew me.” he got closer as he aid this. Our eyes were locked in a silent showdown. Both of us refused to back down.

“you don’t know me either.” I countered.

“vampires killed my parents.” he snarled and nearly bit my nose off while speaking. His angry breath was hot on my face.

“I’m sorry. Parents shouldn’t be taken away from their kids like that. My parents aren’t dead, but I’ll never get to see them again.” he was breathing in quick angry gasps. I could hear the pounding of his heart. Heat rolled off of him in waves.

“I wasn’t the vampire who killed your parents, nor am I a killer of anyone. Can you say the same?” he started shaking again.

“I only kill vampires.”

“well I’ve never killed any vampires werewolves or humans. Don’t you dare judge me. I was turned against my will and I lost everyone I love too. I responded by fighting to not be like the monster who did this to me while you became this.” I reached up and touched the hand that was strangling me. I didn’t need my lungs, but it still hurt.

He looked at our hands in shock. He brought his other hand up to cover mine. He looked even more shocked by his own action. He glanced at me in bewilderment. I tried to smile with as much kindness as I could must for a man threatening to torture me.

He suddenly pulled me to him in a kiss. The hand that had been choking me now held my face to his. His other hand traveled down my back to press me closer against him. His lips pressed against mine forcefully. Before I knew it, his tongue was in my mouth and his hand was in my shirt rubbing all the skin he could reach.

My shock wore of and I yanked myself away. I stared at him with wide eyes. My jaw was hanging open in confusion. One second he was about to kill me and the next he was making out with me!

“what the hell?!” he looked just as surprised as me. He turned and transform into a wolf s he bounded out of the warehouse.

“who the hell was that?!” I faced ken with coldness. I was stupid to start trusting him; any of them. The only thing I wished to do was leave, but I knew that would be impossible. I did want to know the name of this crazy bipolar guy though so I was forced to speak to ken.

“that was…Kay.” he was avoiding my eyes now.

My anger peaked and I had an urge to punch him, but I turned and slammed my fist into the wall instead.

“I hate you! I hate you so much!!! You stupid boys are ruining what’s left of my life. I’ve been through too much too be destroyed by a bunch of stupid boys! Just let me go!” I spoke to the wall, but my words were directed at everyone.

“I may have been foolish to trust you once, but it won’t happen again. I refuse to be peaceful anymore. Either let me go or kill me. We aren’t friends and we don’t know each other. It shouldn’t be a hard thing to separate. I’m not going to pretend like I’m going to enjoy being here and I’m not going to be kissing any of you either.” I was rambling in anger now. My lips could still feel his lips on mine.

The thing I was most angry about was the fact that I had enjoyed it. My stomach had flipped and for a second I had kissed him back. I didn’t want to face this guy a second time. I was afraid I’d do something stupid.

“I apologize if we led you to believe we were friends. From now on it will be strictly business…..I’ll talk to Kay too. He won’t….do that again.” I clenched my fist harder.

“no!” I whipped around and got in his face. “I won’t stay here!” I was panicking now. I couldn’t see Kay again…I just couldn’t!!!

If I was alive my heart would be pounding.

“Alice!!! ALICE, ALICE ALICE!!!!” I shouted her name to the air. Maybe she would see me and come to rescue me.

“please calm down.” ken make another hand gesture and buck stepped towards me with Croy and Joe.

I went into a defensive stance. They thought I couldn’t be scary?! They’re about to be proved wrong.

I jumped out and punched Joe while aiming a kick at buck. I jumped and spun to kick Croy with my other foot. They all stumbled but recovered quickly.

“call them off ken or I will hurt them.” I growled in his general direction. More guys were surrounding me. This time I wasn’t backing down.

“back off.” it wasn’t me or ken who said it. We all turned to the new voice.

Kay stood with an unreadable expression.

Permalink Reply by Kim67255 on August 14, 2010 at 2:41pm

**new reader*** OMG what a great chapter. I was not expecting Bella to run into another pack. What is with Kay kissing her. Did he imprint or something. I can't wait to read the rest.

Permalink Reply by newmoonie123 on August 1, 2010 at 12:02am

BPOV

I studied Kay closer. he had artfully messy hair that feel partially in his face to the side. it was a mix of blond, brown, and red hair. he was about six foot two. he didn't have a shirt on and his chest was chiseled to perfection. his face was angular in a tough guy way. his eyes were a bright blue. they reminded me of the ocean on a sunny day. I was sucked in by those eyes. he had a great tan too.

he seemed much more in control now. he didn't repeat his order, but the guys slowly did back off.

he strode over to me. my body was giving me mixed feelings. I wanted to both run to him and run away. I ended up not moving either direction. I wanted to look away too, but his eyes trapped my gaze in his.

"I’m Kay. I apologize for attacking you. Tyson told me your story in wolf form. it's nice to meet you Bella." as he said this, his impassive voice and expression melted. he looked at me warmly and he posture relaxed. I found myself doing the same.

"it's okay. I understand." he smiled and I was shocked by how many warm feelings it stirred up.

"would you take a walk wit me outside? we could go hunting." I nodded and we walked out together. ken glared at both of us. I ignored him completely.

Kay and I walked silently together in the woods. I didn't want to be the first one to speak, but the silence became unbearable.

"so...you make quite a first impression." he laughed and I joined him.

"the same goes for you." he blushed. I would have too if that were possible.

"I don't understand my feelings for you. they make no sense." I was shocked by his words.

"me too." I didn't mean to say it, but it just seemed to fall out of my mouth.

"I don't date girls let alone vampires. I’m kind of lacking any experience. forgive me for my strange behavior." he pleaded with his eyes and I instantly found myself nodding.

he smiled with affection and hesitantly leaned closer to me. he came slowly closer until he was close enough that I could feel his breath on my face.

"Bella?" he whispered. his breath was ragged.

"hmm?" I was a bit distracted by his lips that were so close to mine.

"may I kiss you again?"

I didn't answer, I just leaned forward to close the gap. his huge arms wrapped around me. our lips moved together like they'd been doing this for years. the heat from his body was warming me in an amazing way. he pulled away to breath, and I moved to his neck. I gently traced his collarbone with small kisses. they pulled my face back too his. he deepened the kiss and came away gasping again. this time he was the one to kiss my neck. he bit gently on the skin there. he pushed me against a tree roughly and his hands started exploring my body.

I gasped in pleasure. his hands were so warm!

"stay with us Bella!" he gasped out then crushed his lips to mine.

his words brought me back to reality.

"no...I can't." I pushed him away and straightened my clothes.

"please Bella." he reached for me but I took a step back.

"I don't belong here. I just want to go home." I sighed. maybe I wouldn't be able to reveal myself to my parents, but I could watch them in secret. I wanted to see Alice and Emmet and esme and Carlisle! was that too much to ask for?!

"okay...I’ll come with you." I stared at him in complete shock.

"what about the rest of the pack?!"

"I always go off on my own anyway. why do you think ken is in charge? when I go off for a couple of weeks he becomes leader and buck becomes second in command. I go as I please." he was getting excited by his own idea. I couldn't help but get excited too. it would be so much better if he came too. I didn't want to end this just yet.

"I don't know.."

"I want to check out this other pack too." I couldn't resist his smile.

"okay." he grabbed my hand and dragged me back to the warehouse. we walked in holding hands.

"I’m going to escort Bella back to her home and check out this new pack. I’ll probably be gone for a while. ken, you're in charge while I’m gone." ken looked shocked.

"I want to come too. "

Permalink Reply by newmoonie123 on August 1, 2010 at 12:03am

well there u go! some really long posts to make up for the wait! enjoy!

Permalink Reply by Angelica Chavez on August 1, 2010 at 12:17am