this is right after alice visits bella in new moon, but noone tells edward that she's dead...enjoy, and comment please!
Alice left me after staying with me for two weeks. I went back into my zombie like state. This time it was way worse though. The zombie impression was only a front. Inside, the whole in my chest burned all the time. I stopped returning Jake’s phone calls, and I didn’t do any of my school work. I stopped eating again. The nightmares got worse and longer.
That was only a few days later.
Now I was driving home from a painful day at school. My cell rang. I let it go on for a while so it would go to voice mail. Then on the last rig I changed my mind and pick up quickly.
“Look Jake! Please stop calling. I…I don’t think I can handle doing anything besides going to school. I’m sorry-“
“Bella, its Alice.” I nearly swerved off the road. I immediately put on my happy voice, even as the wounds of the whole were burning painfully.
“Oh! Sorry, my mistake! What’s up?” my voice came out rough, and way too squeaky to be convincing.
“Well…I thought I should warn you first. We’ve comeback. ALL of us. For good.” She said hesitantly.
My heart skipped a few beats. “I’ll be right over.” I was about to hang up before she said, “wait!”
“Um…maybe it’s not such a great idea for you to come over.” She said reluctantly. It was like a punch in the face, but I was too happy to dwell on that. I was going to see Edward! It didn’t matter that he didn’t love me.
“I don’t care if he doesn’t want me. I’m coming over.”
“Bella-“but I hung up and pressed on the gas pedal.
The drive was still so familiar. With each mile I came closer to Edward; I could breathe a little easier. The whole stopped aching so much. This was beyond regular happiness.
I finally pulled into their driveway. I couldn’t sit anymore, and I just hit the brakes halfway through the driveway and jumped out. I ran as fast as I could toward the house. I saw Alice waiting for me at the door. I barreled into her open arms.
“Bella! You look worse than when I first came back!” he said, shocked. I shrugged and tried to hold in my tears to no avail they poured down my cheeks like mini rivers.
“Come on! I want to see everyone else!” I said frantically while tugging her hand. She reluctantly followed with a worried face.
I walked inside to be greeted by a big bear hug from Emmet. Then esme looked at me with concerned eyes. Carlisle smiled politely, but he seemed to be dreading something to come. I ignored all the signs because I didn’t want to be brought out of my happy bliss.
“Ii-i-i- miss-s-s-ed y-you guys!” I choked out. My eyes were blurry, and I wiped them on my sleeve so I could see their beautiful faces. I was even happy to see Rosalie’s glaring face. Jasper stood far away from me. I felt bad for that, but didn’t comment. Suddenly, my emotions calmed a bit. I was able to stop crying.
“Thanks jasper.” I hiccupped and they all laughed.
I looked around the room for the one person I was dying to see.
“E-Edward?” I called, knowing he would hear me.
“Be right there!” the angelic velvety voice replied casually. My heart was pounding as he descended the stairs.
The first thing my brain processed was his eyes. His amazing depthless eyes! Then I focused on his smooth beautiful face. I tried to memorize every angle of it. My heart melted.
Then reality caught up with me. He wasn’t alone.
A breathtaking strawberry blond vampire was clinging to his waist. He had one arm draped lovingly across her shoulder. The heart that had just begun to feel full broke into jagged pieces.
My breath came in short gasps. My eyes stung, but I refused to cry in front of him. I didn’t want to make a further fool of myself. I blushed a deep crimson. I had to tear my eyes away from his arm on her shoulder. I felt myself falling apart. I had to get out of there.
“Bella…this is Tanya. She’s from the Denali clan I told you about.” I briefly remembered the name. I shook my head to indicate a yes.
He tightened his grip on her. That was it.
“Uh…I have to go. I forgot to pick up some food for Charlie. Don’t want to have to order out.” I mumbled pathetically in a broken whisper. I said good bye to each of my former family.
Then I tried hard to pull out my faceless mask to say goodbye to Edward. All I ended up doing was grimacing a whimpering at him like an idiot. I thought I saw a small bit of regret flash in his eyes as I took one last look, but it was gone instantly.
I turned and barreled into the door. I ran to my truck and left the sobs overtake me. I didn’t even care if they could hear my painful mourning.
And morning is what I was doing. I stood no chance at getting him back now. I was so ordinary compared to her. I don’t blame him for it. I lost whatever tiny hope I had. I was mourning our love. I knew there would be no more delusions…no more numbness.
I tried to drive through my sobbing. Somehow, I got home. I parked in the driveway I stayed crying in there for who knows how long. Finally, no more tears would come. I looked around in my truck. Memories from Edward and me floated painfully through my head…taunting me.
Fury rose from deep within me. Anger at Edward, at Tanya, and mostly at myself. I couldn’t take it anymore!
I picked up the crowbar that I used to open my hood from under my seat. I jumped out of my car and smashed out my window. I took out the windshields and continued breaking my side door. Suddenly Charlie pulled up as I was beating my car full of memories.
“BELLA!!!” he screamed as he jumped out of the cruiser. He grabbed the crowbar out of my hand and threw it.
“What the hell is the matter with you?!” then he caught sight of my face. He instantly switched from anger to concern.
“What’s wrong?!” he said and grabbed me into a tight embrace.
“He’s back! He’s back with a new girlfriend!” I sobbed into his chest.
“I’ll kill him!” he said and dragged me into the house, leaving my destroyed truck behind.