What if . Bella decided to reach over and kiss Jacob in her truck? Would that change how she feels about Jacob over all ? Knowing the feelings he has for her,knowing he could give her more. Knowing,she wouldn't have to change for him...
[Disclaimer]; not everybody posts the disclaimers in their fanfiction,but i'm going to. ;) Idon't own Twilight,or any of the characters in it. All belong to Stephenie Meyer- All though I wish I did.(;
A/N; I hope you enjoy ... :) & I'm starting at chapter 1 :)
Chapter 1; One Last Look.
My fingers were curled tightly around the steering wheel,as i stared out ahead of us. We were in front of Charlies-though his cruiser was missing. I bite the inside of my lip,my brows mashed together,listening to Jacob's breathing. He was staring out the window,as we sat in my old truck silently. Sometimes, I wish I knew what he was thinking,and then he let out a breath.
"What are you thinking,Bells?" he asks,breaking the awkward silence.
I loosen my grip on the steering wheel,and lean into the seat-sighing,"I,was ... Going to ask you the same thing." I tell him,glancing side-ways. He was still looking out the fogged window.
" You really want to know what i'm thinking about?" he questions,now turning to look at me.
His stare sent shivers through-out my body,and his question made me think about how to answer. Do I want to know what he's thinking about? The way he said it,makes me wonder if it's a bad thing- something I actually don't want to know. But,maybe I'm just over-thinking. I do want to know what he's thinking about,but,maybe when I do know-I'll regret asking what he was thinking about.
I'm over-thinking... I think.
I nod,"Tell me what you're thinking about Jake."
He smirks,his eyes slightly lidded."You." he whispers."Always..."
I sigh,and smile weakly."Jacob..."
He shakes his head,and takes my hands off the wheel-and into his hands,mine so small compared to his. I look down,not wanting to stare into his eyes-knowing it would be for the best. I think. Because,if I fall in love with Jake ... I'm just going to end up hurting him,when Edward comes back. Eward will come back,I know it... Jacob is my best friend,and i can't stand,loosing him.
"Bella,I love you. I've always loved you. And you know that,I know you know that." He sighs,"Bells,look at me. Please." I bit my lip,and shook my head.
"I can't." I whisper.
One hand disapeared from mine,and moved swiftly under my chin. Forcing me to look up at him,I tried to look away from his face,but mine landed on his. His gaze so intense,I couldn't look away. His hot breath was circulating around my face,the woodsy scent i always loved-intoxicating me. Wanting me to move closer to it. But I stayed where I was,our gazes interlocked.
I was waiting for him to say something,but he just remained speechless;his lips parted-as in lost in thought. I bit down on my lip hard,as the silence intensified. Just when realization hit me. My fingers slowly,crawling up his arms-as his hands hooked onto my waist-pulling me into his lap.
Jacob can never be just a friend to me. I've always seen noticed him,always known he was attractive to me in some way.But,Edward...
"I can't hurt you." I mumble,my lips brushing across his in the process. I never noticed how close we were until now.
"Do you love me?" he asks,his eyes closed-waiting for my answer.
I press my lips tightly together,curling my hands into fists-agaist his covered chest. "I..." i press my lips back together,taking a stead breath.
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Ahahah,I am thankful for all your comments/replies.
&& I am not able to add on tonight,but I will be either tomorrow morning,or afternoon(:
I was thinking of giving a spoiler of the next chapter... And I might do that for the next few. so something to look forward to ;
Spoiler of Chapter 43 ;
~ Jacob goes to deal with a final situation.
~ Bella, doesn't take his absence very well - at all.
Spolier for Chapter 44 ;
~ Jacob and Bella get into another massive arguement,which leads into something. Something they both needed(':
Well,goodnight! or goodmorning...<3
and good job
yes and she is very controling/and big headed everybody is in love with her!!!
Chapter 43 ; Not A Very Good Morning.
Bella's Point Of View.
I need you to know,that I did not leave you,because of that stupid arguement.
We can get back to that later. I need to put everyone out of their misery. I'm
going to help you,help Seth,and my family. So I hope you have no 'left over'
feelings with that blood sucker of yours. Because he'll be dead , no - gone
I read over the note several times,not sure how to take it this time. The first time I broke into another sob,not because he left,but beace he's doing it again. He's going out of his way for me. Why,though? Why does he have to do this. After all that just happened! After all that I did to him! How could he do this?! Honestly,I do everything to him,and he gives everything to me. It's not fair,I'm such a horrible person.
So horrible. I layed back against the headboard,my eyes closing,tears trickling down my cheeks. The breath huffing out between my lips softly.
Jacob. He loves me. Unconditionally. And I,Bella Swan,no matter what - will always love Jacob Black. I tossed the piece of paper to the ground,and sigh. I have nothing to do,no one to care for,no one to keep happy. I don't want to speak to the friends I had made,I don't want to speak to anyone. But,I don't want to be alone,ever. And,at this moment,I am terrified,terrified because there is no one here to protect me. I've never felt so exposed.
"But Jakee!" I whined,pouting,as we rounded the corner to the small nearby corner store.
"No,Bells,I told you! I'm not telling you." He grumbled,kicking at the rocks.
I stop in my tracks,crossing my arms,and sending him the Death Glare. I locked my jaw,and raised my eye brows. I always hated when Jake kept things from me,always. We're bestfriends,he's supposed to tell me everything!
He sighs,"Fine." He narrows his eyes,"I held hands with Kim." He mumbled.
I gasped,and then started smiling-but inside,I felt something turning,clenching,it hurt,but I couldn't identify it."Aww,Jake!" I forced a small giggle,and playfully punched him in the arm.
He smiles,his soft pink lips baring his pearly white teeth,that shined against his russet-brown skin."I think I like her." I could see the soft blush rising to his cheeks,but then he shrugs,"Then again,I like someone else too,a little more than her." He shrugs again,and starts to walk.
I snort,"You're like what,ten? And I'm turning twelve soon, even I'm too young to be thinking about boys like that." I state,trying to keep up with him. I was leaving back for Phoenix tonight,so I was trying to spend my time with him wisely."What other secrets?"
He sighs,"I'm not that much younger than you Bells. And we're not too young. And I have no other secrets."
I raise my eye brow,"Really?"
He nods,opening the door for me,"Really."
"I don't believe you." I mutter,my brows furrowing. We walk over to the drinks,grabbing a root beer. Jake takes it to the counter,paying for our drinks,and we had back out of the store.
I frown,"Who's the other girl?"
He cracks open his pop,then the other and hands it to me,"You'd laugh."
I raise one hand,"I promise I won't laugh."
"You say that now."
I sigh,as we turn back around the corner,and bump into someone. I purse my lips as I look up at the boy who stood before me. Sam. Sam Uley. I grimace and side step away from him,tugging on Jacob's shirt. That kid always gave me the creeps. I remember one time when Jake and I were at the beach and he threw sand on my sandwich. Then he joked how it was a real sand-wich now. Lame.
"Watch where you're goin!" Jacob shouted backwards.
"Excuse me?" The deeper voice grumbled.
I shudder,"Sorry,he was just kidding." I tried defending Jacob. He doesn't know what he's doing.
"No. I wasn't. He was in your way,and didn't say sorry. That's not very polite." Jacob said,out loud.
"Black,I'd back off if I were you." Sam threatened,walkign right into Jacob's face.
Jacob hands me his pop,and shoves Sam."I have a name,thank you very much."
"You're such a softy!" Sam yells,as he balls his hand into a fist.
I jump inbetween them,and push Sam out of the way."Touch my friend,and you won't have any fingers. Got it?"
Sam rolled his eyes,"I'm not gonna hit a girl,but I'd watch out Jacob." He turned around and walked away.
Jacob scratched the back of his head,"Well,gee,thanks Bells."
I shrug,"Notta problem." I smile.
He smiles back,"It's you,by the way."
Tears streamed down my face. Clearly,thinking wasn't good enough either. Or thinking about Jacob at least. I sigh,wiping away a few stranded tears.
It must've been at least a few hours since he's left. It's about twelve in the afternoon,and we had that arguement around eleven thirty last night,then he left... I got up,walking to our dresser-and open it. It was half empty. I look through the rest of the drawers- all of his were empty. I slid down to the floor,placing my head on my knees. He's gone.
I know I said I wouldn't... But,I just had to.(:
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