I've been working on this fan fiction for about a month I suppose and I've been posting it on Fan Fiction.Net. It's called The Twilight Saga - Solar Flare. It's basically the story of what would have happened if Jacob and Bella had kissed in New Moon without that phone call interrupting them. It's the story of what would happen if Jacob and Edward's roles were reversed. I've already got 3 chapters made and I'm working on chapter 4 now. I thought I might as well post them here as well.
The story begins right when they're about to kiss.
"Bella," Jacob whispered.
I was frozen.
No! I hadn't made this decision yet. I didn't know if I could do this, and now I was out of time to think. But I would have been a fool if I thought rejecting him now would have no consequences.
Maybe it would feel nice. Maybe it wouldn't feel like a betrayal. True love was forever lost, so who was I betraying? Only myself.
Keeping his eyes on mine, Jacob began to bend his face toward me. The closer he got, the more unsure I became. Was I really going to do this? How badly would this end up? Would this end badly? He held my face still and closed his eyes as his lips met mine, my eyes shut as well, a little too tight.
As his mouth had discovered my passive resistance, he moved his right hand to the back of my head and his left gently around my waist, pulling me closer now. The closer I became, the more my lips would resist. I wasn't trying to pull away, but wouldn't respond back, I couldn't. Jacob could see this now, he started to rub the back of neck trying to get a response out of me; I just couldn't.
That's when Jacob stopped, his right hand slowly releasing my neck, his left unwrapping around my waist, and his lips fading away. I didn't need to look at Jacob to see the hurt, I could feel it, and his pain was my pain. Something in me broke free just then and I couldn't hold it back. My hands reacted before I could realize it, my left arm wrapping around his waist, my right hand grabbing the back of his head, pulling him closer to me now. Just as I could feel his pain, I could feel his joy now too. Jacob responded almost instantly; he wrapped his arms around me and began kissing me back, his warm lips gentle. I couldn't tell how long we were kissing, it felt like forever, and I didn't want it to stop.
That's when it hit me; I'd been wrong all this time, I'd been lying to myself. Jacob was more than just my friend, he was more than someone I could rely on to make me feel better. I knew I needed him more than I needed most people, but I had no idea just how much until now. I've never felt happier before, after being so abnormal for so long, it's like a breath of air after being underwater for hours. The hole in my chest is completely gone now, I didn't think it were possible, but Jacob cured everything. He is everything to me, I was in love with him. I'd loved him all this time, but I was too afraid to get it through my thick skull. I was too afraid of betrayal, too afraid of him. I wonder if I'll ever hear his voice again, not that it mattered anymore.
Suddenly I felt Jacob stiffen up, he jerked away from me and released his arms. I opened my eyes, ready to pull him back, but he was shaking again. The expression on his face was half angry and half horrified.
He jetted for the front door, grabbing the handle with a little too much force. I stumbled after him with my arm out in front of me.
"No!" I shouted. It was a reflex.
Jacob stopped then, releasing the handle. He looked at me distraught, still standing right next to the door. He took a quick glance at the door handle and back at me, like he was deciding something. I didn't want him to leave, now more than ever. Did he have to leave now? If he did leave, would I go with him? What about Alice?
Jacob turned his entire body in my direction. He slowly walked toward me, wrapped his one arm around my waist, and positioned himself in front of me, as if trying to protect me.
Protect me from what, was Victoria nearby? Did she get past Embry and Jared? Was she attracted her by Alice? That's when it hit me, Alice, of course. Alice came through the back door and walked gracefully into the kitchen, resting her arms onto the kitchen table. Jacob backed us away toward the sink, he was shaking again and his teeth were clenched. Alice's face did not look approving either.
"I see you two get along well," Alice judged, staring directly at Jacob.
I nodded gently, a little embarrassed. Jacob pulled me closer to him.
"Alice this is Jacob. Jacob, Alice," I said, blushing now.
Jacob stabbed me a disgusted look and growled. Alice rolled her eyes at me.
"Bella, I think it's time I left."
Jacob gave a brief sigh of relief, while still holding me tight.
"No!" I shouted. Jacob stabbed another look at me, a look of betrayal.
"Really though, Bella, I think it's time I left. If Edward finds out I'm here…" Alice explained, looking a bit nervous, "He can get really angry sometimes."
I flinched a little and Jacob growled again.
"Do you have to go now? Just a few more weeks, please?" I begged.
"I'm really sorry Bella, but it has to be tonight," She said, looking truly sorry.
"Tonight. Good," Jacob muttered under his breath. Alice seemed to hear that and glared at him again. She looked back at me, suddenly cheerful.
"How about we spend the entire day doing whatever you want together. We could drive around, catch a movie, go to the mall, I'll buy you whatever you want. We won't separate for a second," She said, smiling wide.
I nodded sadly. "Yeah, that sounds good."
"You don't look very happy."
"No, I am. Really."
Alice pouted. "It's the best I can do. All the clothes you want, on me."
Jacob's shaking began to increase, his teeth clenched, and his eyes shut tight. I embraced him, it was almost instinctual.
"Jake, please. Calm," I whispered.
"Right…calm," He whispered back, his body going stiff now with only his hands shaking.
"We can go as soon as you put the dog out," Alice said critically. Jacob began to shake again.
"Calm," I reminded. His shaking only slowed down this time. He released me and started to back away.
"Don't worry, leech. I was just going," He hissed. He looked at me, his expression broken, "Bye, Bella."
Jacob began to walk towards the front door. I wrapped me arms around him, trying to get him to stop. "No, please. Stay. Please," I begged.
Jacob turned to look at me. "Bella, I have to go. I was only supposed to come here and get information. I have to report back."
My face fell, of course he was right. He was a werewolf, she was a vampire, and Jacob had responsibilities. But I didn't want to let him go, it was either go with Jacob and abandon Alice or go with Alice and leave Jacob betrayed. Stupid conflict. Why couldn't they just get along?
"Can't you just tell Embry and Jared, and then come back?" I insisted.
Jacob made a disgusted sound. "I don't think so, Bella. Besides, we've been neglecting treaty lines enough as it is."
Alice sighed. "Well, I'm the only Cullen here. So I guess if I say it's okay for now, than there shouldn't be a problem. For now." She grumbled.
My face lit up giving Alice a look of thanks. Jacob looked at her half angry, half confused, and back at me.
"You seriously want me around her? Remember what I said earlier, Bella."
I hadn't forgotten. This could end badly, very badly. By the end of the day, both of them might end up… I couldn't even think about it. I'm not going to let my selfishness hurt them both. I had to choose.
Before I could say a thing, Jacob wiped a tear from my eye. I was crying, I hadn't realized. He stood there for a few seconds, once again distraught. He then grabbed my arms and freed himself from my embrace. He stomped out the front, slamming the door behind him. My legs started to shake.
Alice made her way next to me and put her arm around my shoulder. "Sorry." She mouthed the word.
I rested my cheek on her head trying to fight back the tears that were welling up. This was for the best, right? I can manage to be away from Jacob for today, couldn't I? Just then, Alice groaned and released her arm from around me, folding them over her chest.
"Great. Just wonderful," She said with heavy sarcasm.
"What? What's wrong?" I asked, my voice breaking.
"The dog's tagging along."
I gasped, my eyes widened at the thought. I then heard a shout coming from outside, followed by angry and irritated voices. Were they arguing? My eyes were locked on the front door now. After a minute, I heard the sound of an engine starting up, followed by the squeal of the tires driving off, all a little too quickly. My eyes were still locked onto the door, my heart was racing.
The door slowly opened and Jacob came through. He looked at me and smiled, I smiled back wiping the tears that had escaped my efforts. Jacob glared at Alice, eyes very distrustful. Alice stared back at him with the same eyes.
"You better watch yourself," Jacob warned.
"Oh please, I should be saying that to you." Alice turned toward me, changing her expression to cheerful again. "So, where to first?"
"Really, you should decide. I'm sure you have better ideas than me."
"Oh, but I'm doing this for you."
"I think your last day here," I grimaced at the words, "Should be exactly what you want."
"Hmm…" Alice looked far off in concentration. Jacob put his arm around me again and backed away from Alice.
"It's okay," I whispered to him.
"Don't wanna take any chances," He whispered back through his teeth.
Alice groaned loudly, suddenly very irritated. She glared at Jacob.
"This would be so much easier if I could see our plans and go by those." She put extra emphasis on 'see'.
Jacob raised one eyebrow in confusion, but his face quickly lightened into one of understanding. He laughed once mockingly. "What? The future to blurry for you?"
Alice's mouth fell open for a split second, she gave me an accusing look. I let my head fall, looking up at her with apologetic eyes.
Alice sighed. "Yes, because you're around."
Jacob's eyes widened in surprise. "You can't see the future when I'm around?" That's great!"
Alice let a growl escape her teeth. I changed the subject. "Why don't we go see a movie first? Sound like a plan?"
"Sure," Alice agreed, "As long as we take Carlisle's car."
Alice headed out the front door leaving it wide open. Jacob hesitated to move, I tried nudging him with my elbow, no effect. Alice came back into view, seeing her clearly through the open door, she gave Jacob a mocking smile.
"Scared?" She called back.
Jacob rolled his eyes, but it seemed to do the trick. Jacob kept his arm securely around me and headed out the door slowly. Alice had already gotten in the driver's seat and the car door to the backseats was already open. Alice must have guessed that we'd want to sit together. Jacob walked up to the car at the same pace and hesitantly got in with me alongside him. I closed the door.
"Ugh, it stinks," Jacob groaned silently.
Alice turned the keys in the ignition and drove off immediately. Alice drove fast, almost as fast as Edward did; to think that I was frightened by the speed of the motorcycles. Jacob was very restless the whole way. He fidgeted, shifting his body from side to side and re-adjusted his arm around me. This was ridiculous, the point of this was to have fun with Alice, have fun while she's still here. How are we suppose to have fun when she and Jacob will be at each other's throats the whole time, it defeats the purpose. Maybe this is what I deserve, for being so selfish.
We were almost there, took no time at all, Jacob groaned and started staring at the car floor. He then, to my surprise, started to laugh.
"I cannot believe I'm doing this," Jacob laughed at himself, "Not only am I tagging along for your girl time, but with a bloodsucker as well. I've really lost it."
I hung my head down, slightly turning to look at his face. I was about to apologize, but Alice caught me off guard.
"We're here!" Alice sang, "So, what're we going to see?"
My head snapped up at her voice, that was a good question. I suggested the movies, but had no idea what to go see. I just wanted to get out of the house before Alice and Jake killed each other. My past experiences going to the movies were not entirely pleasant ones, I hoped that this wouldn't be the worst.
Alice waited for my answer; I grimaced at having to be the one to decide. Jacob raised his head and sighed.
"I hear Tomorrow and Forever's pretty popular," He suggested, looking directly at me, ignoring Alice.
I nodded my head, eager to agree, I was up for anything. Then it came back to me, I remember I'd turned down this movie before, back when Mike asked me. It was back when I was too broken to handle a romance. How would I feel now? I truly believe that the hole in my chest is somewhat gone at least, plus I have Jacob and Alice, for the moment. Maybe it won't be so bad.
"Bella," Alice looked at me doubtfully, "Is that what you want?"
Alice got out and opened the door on my side. She reached out and took my hand, a warm smile lit up her face. Jacob, with his arm still securely around my waist, pulled me back. Alice grabbed my hand again and yanked, while Jacob firmly resisted. It was a brief match of tug-of-war with me as the rope, both competitors glaring each other down.
"Jake!" I snapped at him.
Jacob grimaced but gave up, releasing me hesitantly. Alice yanked me from my seat, causing me to stumble, but she caught me before I could cause any damage to myself.
"Sorry," She apologized, "Forgot how fragile you were."
"You sound like Edward."
Jacob got out on his side and made his way next to me, Alice to my right and Jacob to my left. We headed toward the theater; Alice bought two tickets for herself and me, leaving Jacob to pay for his own.
There weren't that many people in the theater, I'm assuming everyone had seen the movie already. It had been out for a while, this might be it's last week in theaters. We sat down, Alice to my right and Jacob to my left like before. I kept my eyes on them both cautiously; they wouldn't fight in here would they?
Alice suddenly started giggling, I looked up at the screen and a man was coming up with every excuse in the book to keep from getting fired. I was so occupied with watching Alice and Jake that I hadn't realized that the movie started already, for who knows how long.
I actually began to watch now; the man that got fired meets a rich woman who enjoys working with children. They fall in love and the man begins to help out with the children too, while still jobless. The man is secretly involved in some shady business involving loans and dangerous favors. The woman finds out what he's up to and the man confesses all that he's done, which in turn gets the woman involved.
So far the movie was pretty good; I wasn't feeling any pain from what I've seen up until now. Unfortunately, I'd spoken too soon. The man felt terrible for burdening the woman in his problems and decides to leave her.
I winced at the words "I don't want you to come." The man had spoken the same words as his. My head sank, I didn't want to look up at the screen anymore, I felt tense.
Jacob saw this; he put his arm around my shoulder and leaned his head against mine. I rested my head on his shoulder and shifted closer to him. Normally, something like this would set me off. I could see myself breaking into tears, screaming, and running out of the theater after witnessing this. But Jacob made everything so much better, he was my own personal sun again, but something else radiated from him besides the usual happiness and comfort. Love.
I let out a deep sigh of relief and looked up at the screen. Apparently I had missed a lot; the man was already begging the woman to take him back, saying that they can work something out as long as they're together. The woman all too happily takes him back and they agree to start a new life together somewhere far away.
The credits started rolling and the lights came back on. Alice eagerly got up and started toward the exit, Jacob and I followed.
Back in the car, Alice started the engine immediately but left it in park for a few minutes.
"Mmm, cliché ending," Alice said, looking thoughtful. Jacob nodded his head, looking past Alice.
"Yeah," Jacob looked at me now, "It's better than that other movie you took me to, though."
He laughed and I joined in; comparing it to Tomorrow and Forever just makes Crosshairs seem even more ridiculous. Alice looked back at me, a wide smile across her face.
"Shopping now?" Alice asked, delighted. I rolled my eyes.
"Of course, Alice."
"I'll make sure you have the most beautiful clothes in the store."
"Don't overdo it."
Alice pouted; she started driving straight for the mall which wasn't far from the movie theater at all. It took only two minutes to get there.
I told her not to overdo it, but in the end she ignored me. We went to every clothing store the mall had to offer, buying at least three things from each one. Every so often Alice would find something that she wanted for herself and get me the same one in my size. Jacob was enjoying the ordeal even less than I was; Alice was making him carry all the clothes. I could tell Jake was trying very hard not to lose his temper, I had to tell Alice to ease up a little. Alice was having the time of her life however, at least she was happy.
By the time we were done, it was dark out. The bright headlights of cars were passing by, avoiding people as they walked out of the mall and varies other stores around us.
"Well, I'd better get you home," Alice reminded.
I nodded slowly, knowing what will happen afterwards. The drive home felt longer, either Alice wasn't driving as fast as before or I was just trying to cling onto this moment for as long as I could.
Charlie wasn't there when we walked in. He must still be at the Clearwater's, probably doing whatever he can to help out. I felt bad that I wasn't there too, felt even worse that I was keeping Jacob away. I sat down on the sofa and Jacob joined me. Alice was arranging the clothes she bought in one pile and the clothes for me in another on the kitchen table. In a flash, she darted upstairs and my new clothes disappeared. The next second she was back, looking as cheerful as before.
"Hope you don't mind, but I'm sure you'll find your new beautiful clothes in perfect order," Alice said confidently.
Alice started to stare off into the distance, her expression lost. Jacob shifted himself closer to me in a protective position. Alice let out a gasp, her cheerful expression didn't return.
"It's time for me to go."
I couldn't speak, I just let my head fall.
"I'm sorry Bella, but it's time. I can't stay any longer."
I just nodded. I was starting to feel the pain come back to me.
"Come on." Alice grabbed my hand and lifted me off the sofa. She led me outside to her car, Jacob followed quickly.
She let go of my hand to give me a hug. Her hard cold skin felt strangely soft and gentle when her arms wrapped around me. The wind blew her sweet clean scent toward me, I'd remember it for a while. I embraced her back, trying very hard to fight back tears. It seemed to last for a lifetime.
"Bye Bella," She said quietly in my ear, "I promise I'll be back."
She nodded, "Promise."
29. Together Forever?
Her whole sleeping bag was shaking. Curled into herself, her body violently trembled as her teeth chattered endlessly. I couldn't see her skin as she was making every attempt at keeping it away from the exposure of the sub-zero temperature. Her sleeping bag didn't zip up all the way, so she had to lower her face just below the opening where the heat from her own body radiated. The bloodsucker definitely picked a top-notch sleeping bag there…
"Why didn't you yell or something if you were cold?" I asked with a frown.
She didn't look at me, keeping her face hidden and away from the cold.
"I-I-I c-can b-b-barely even s-s-s-speak," Bella stuttered.
It pulled at my heart seeing her like this. I shouldn't have been talking to Edward when Bella was freezing to death in this lousy tent. How did I not hear her suffering in here with her teeth rattling as loud as they were? Did the extreme chills just hit her?
"Scoot over, I'm coming in," I instructed.
"N-no, I-I-I'm f-f-fine," she struggled to say.
My eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "Has the low temperature driven you insane?"
"I d-d-don't wanna m-move."
"Well, if you don't, you're gonna freeze to death."
"The hell you are…"
I didn't listen to any further protests she had. I crawled over and unzipped her sleeping bag all the way down. She let out a distressed whimper as a gust of wind shook the tent and seeped in through the opening I made. She didn't have to worry for long as I squeezed into the down bag with her, forcing the zipper up behind me since it wasn't exactly built for two, especially with someone as big as me.
I quickly wrapped my arms tightly around her, pressing her into my chest. Bella responded eagerly by returning my embrace, and as her icy palms pressed into my bare back, I realized just how cold she was.
"Jeez, you're freezing, Bella," I complained.
"S-s-s-sorry," she stuttered.
I sighed. "And you didn't want me to join you, why?"
"I f-f-found the w-warmest position. I-I-I d-didn't want t-to m-move."
"But isn't this much, much warmer?"
"Well alrighty then." I smiled at her, not expecting one back since her chattering teeth didn't look like they'd let her. "Try to relax. You'll be warmed up in a minute. Of course, you'd warm up faster if you took your clothes off."
Bella tilted her head up at me, her expression curious. "W-what?"
I chuckled. "It's just a simple fact. That way we share body heat. Y'know, survival one-oh-one."
I gave her a teasing smirk and rubbed my hands on her back. I didn't expect her to actually do it and she really didn't need to. My body heat was enough to get her sweating in no time. Of course I wasn't always right and apparently this was one of those times in regards to my former thought.
Bella started squirming in my arms like she was trying to get loose, which didn't make sense to me. Why would she want to get away from my warmth when it was still a crazy winter wonderland outside?
"C-could you l-l-let me g-go for a s-second?" she asked. "Unless y-you want to t-t-take them off."
My mouth popped open. "You're serious?"
"I-I-I…" Great, now I was stuttering.
I ended up loosening my hold on her enough so she could move around, although it might've just been from surprise and not on purpose.
Bella started shivering like crazy and rushed to get her thick sweatshirt off that was damp from all the melted snow. She struggled to pull it over her head with the little room she had in her sleeping bag, but ultimately succeeded, throwing it in the far left corner of the tent. Next came her jeans, which she quickly unzipped and squirmed out of. Just inches away from me was Bella in only a dark purple bra. We were too confined for me to see what was below torso level, but I could only assume there were panties down there. I didn't get to look for very long, hardly even a second, as Bella quickly tightened her arms around me, pulling us flush against each other and legs tangled together. I flinched a bit at how much of her icy cold skin was touching mine and she gave me an apologetic frown for it, but I really didn't care. She felt sooo good.
I had never felt so much of Bella's skin before. She was so smooth, despite the goose bumps. Her body was shaped in just the right way; with waist curved inward and hips modestly extended out, but not to such a degree like most super models are these days. My hands had minds of their own as they curiously explored along her slender legs and especially taking a liking to her bare thighs. I lightly traced my thumb along the edge of her panties at her right cheek, which was pretty much all covered, making me wish she had smaller underwear. But what was I complaining for? My heart was racing from just how much of her I could touch right now. Not to mention her pillow-soft breasts squeezing together as they pressed against my own chest definitely adding to my arousal.
"Y-y-you're right," Bella stuttered. "This is m-much better."
"Hell yeah, it is," I wholeheartedly agreed.
I really hoped Bella wouldn't complain about getting 'poked', because it was gonna happen.
We laid there quietly like that for a while, holding onto each other and sharing warmth, although I was doing most of the giving. I could hear Seth outside as his paws stepped in the snow at a constant pattern; probably pacing to keep himself active. It'd just occurred to me that I didn't have any kind of alarm clock with me that I could set for the time of battle. I was hopeful that Seth would stay up and fill that role.
"Thank you," Bella suddenly said in a soft voice.
"You're welcome," I responded. "For what exactly?"
"For being here. For keeping me warm."
I nodded. "It's my pleasure. How do you feel? Still cold?"
"As long as I hold onto you, I should be fine."
"Glad to be of service." I smirked.
She smiled back at me and rested her head against my shoulder. I sighed happily and lightly rubbed her back, feeling how incredibly smooth her skin was now that she warmed up.
I really, really missed her. It was amazing what just one week apart could do. But after days of fearing the worst, she was here in my arms again. Her smell, her beautiful face, her perfect body, her sweet voice, her melodic heart beat; everything was right here. I wanted to hold her like this forever, but even if the vampire was out of the picture, the sad truth was our problems weren't over yet. An old foe that might even be more frightening than the bloodsucker once again reared its ugly head.
"Bella," I whispered.
"Do you love me?"
She lifted her head up to look at me. "Of course I do. I always have."
"Okay." I nodded and paused for a second. "Why do you love me?"
A warm smile stretched across her face.
"You make everything worthwhile," Bella began. "You're very warm-hearted, thoughtful, protective, funny, and just a blast to hang out with. You mean so much to me. I don't know what I'd do with my life everyday without you there."
"Really, really," she giggled.
Her words warmed my apparently already warm heart, but her needing me like this wasn't all good. I needed her too. I felt the exact same way. But all those feelings would disappear the moment it happened. I wouldn't even miss them.
"If I wasn't there for you…what about Edward?" I asked, kind of afraid of her answer.
She frowned. "It's not that simple, Jacob. Edward isn't some band-aid that will make everything okay. Nothing would be the same. I couldn't be completely happy without you. Not anymore."
"What about vice versa? If you didn't have Edward, would I be able to make it better?"
"Well…you did. Remember?"
I chuckled lightly. "Oh yeah."
It was quiet for a moment. Even the wind outside seemed to be calm for the moment. I could hear Bella's heart beat at a steady rhythm. Relaxed.
"If you felt like you're life would be nothing without me, then when I got mad and yelled at you to get away from me, how come you didn't, y'know, fight back?" I asked. "I mean, I'm glad you didn't because you could've gotten hurt if I phased, but you didn't stick around at my house or come looking for me either. Things definitely weren't clear with how that ended."
She winced, her expression filled with guilt. "Because…I didn't think I had the right to fight back. I kissed someone else that I still had feelings for behind your back. Your anger and…" she winced again, "…rejection of me would've been understandable. I hurt you. I would have deserved being lonely."
"Jeez, don't talk like that…"
"Why not? Isn't it true? Usually you break up with someone if they cheated on you."
"True…" I frowned. "But you did tell me about it. You weren't kissing him behind my back in hopes that I'd never find out…right?"
She shook her head. "Of course not. It was a mistake, I felt horrible."
"I guess that makes me feel a little better," I sighed.
Absent-mindedly, I brushed my fingers along her back, feeling her smooth, but still slightly cold skin. It reminded me of her possible fate if it wasn't a 'mistake.'
"My main worry was that you'd love him more and toss me aside the moment you guys reconnected," I admitted. She looked like she was about to say something, probably that I was wrong, but I quickly continued before she could. "But I know now that I mean a lot more than that. Plus, even if it was true and you chose Edward over me, I still would've fought back."
"Fought back? Really?" she asked curiously.
"Yeah, because you're too important to lose."
She smiled at me for a moment.
I smiled back and chuckled lightly. "Coming to your graduation party and begging was kind of Plan A."
"Really? And what if that didn't work?"
"I probably would've just kissed you." I chuckled guiltily. "I was thinking if Edward could do it and win your heart back, then maybe I could do the same."
She rolled her eyes. "What is it with you two and kissing me without permission?"
"Sorry. I know that you'd forgive me anyway."
"I would have." She nodded. "And…if that didn't work?"
I could feel my heart beat faster. My Plan C was definitely my most desperate one and not one I was too proud of.
"Well, we were sort of exploring further into our relationship recently," I mumbled. "I was thinking maybe you'd be more interested if I reminded you what we could do together that we'd been trying to do for a few weeks."
Her eyes widened. "You were gonna bribe me with sex?"
"It was Quil and Embry's idea," I blurted out quickly to save myself. I'd be blushing if my skin wasn't already red.
"Really now?" she giggled, which kind of surprised me.
"Well, since you obviously can't do it with him safely, I figured I'd offer you something that he couldn't. Unless…" I swallowed thickly, thinking of the other alternative.
She raised a brow at me curiously. "Unless what?"
I grimaced and let out a deep sigh. "Unless he changed you. No worries about breaking you when you're as sturdy as he is."
I looked her straight in the eye. "Bella, I'll be honest with you. If I ever lost you to someone else, even though it would hurt a lot to see you go, as long as you were happy and healthy, I could accept it and maybe move on. But…if he changed you and made you like him, taking away your soul, your humanity, your life…" I shook my head, cringing at the thought, "I don't think I could handle that."
She frowned and slowly brought her left hand to my face, brushing her thumb on my cheek. Seeing her now, gazing at her beautiful eyes, feeling her incredibly soft skin, and listening to her precious heartbeat, it stung like flaming needles in my chest to think of her as a cold, hollow, bloodthirsty version of what she once was. I didn't want the girl I loved to become a monster, especially not one I was perfectly designed to hunt and kill.
"Jake, don't think like that," Bella whispered. "I don't want to be a vampire anymore. Even if I chose Edward, I still wouldn't want it."
My heart skipped a beat at what she'd said. "What?"
"Yes. Even though I don't think I'd be losing my soul or humanity by becoming one, I do know I'd be leaving the life I had behind. I might have to constantly move around every few years so people don't get suspicious. I'd never be able to see my parents or my friends again. I'd probably have to come up with some bogus reason for why I'm gone forever, maybe fake my own death or something. To abandon them and put them through that pain just so I could live a perfect romantic life with a vampire would just be selfish and wrong."
I just nodded my head, agreeing with everything.
"And the biggest reason is that we couldn't see each other anymore. With the treaty rules and our supposed natural instincts, it'd be too difficult. That alone is reason enough."
"Yeah…" I mumbled, my face scrunching up as I imagined her out of control with bloodlust. The whole pack would have to take her down.
"Besides, I hate blood," she said humorously. "I can't imagine having to consume that for the rest of my existence."
"Tell me about it." I shivered in disgust.
Another gust of freezing wind rocked the tent from outside as I tightened my arms around her reflexively. I couldn't hear Seth pacing anymore so I assumed he must've sat down to rest. I just hoped he wasn't buried in snow by now. Bella hid her face in my chest until the violent air finally calmed down.
"Thank you," she said with a warm smile. "I'll say it again, I couldn't handle losing you for good. Not for anyone. I might have months ago, but not anymore. You're too important."
I knew those words should've planted a permanent grin on my face, but I just cringed instead. Even if Bella was one hundred percent devoted to me forever, could I be?
"Um…about that," I said in a low voice.
"Hmm?" She looked at me with concern when I didn't give the response she was expecting.
"I talked to Edward outside for a little bit."
Her eyes widened. "Oh, really? You didn't fight or anything, did you?"
"Maybe just a little." I smirked for a second.
I shrugged. "Anyway, I mentioned to him what Alice said about not being able to see you in her visions or whatever she has. He was concerned about me imprinting, but I told her that it wouldn't happen because Alice can't see you."
She nodded. "Yep, that's right."
"But…?" She raised an eyebrow, looking at me like I really shouldn't be saying anything else and just leave it at that.
I just frowned and sighed. "He said something about Alice only seeing things based on decisions, but it's still not absolute, because she can't see anything unexpected."
She was silent for a moment, looking at me in confusion.
"What does that mean?" she asked.
"Well…imprinting is pretty unexpected."
"So?" Her tone was a little snappy, scowling at me like she really didn't like this conversation. She wasn't making this very easy.
"Bella, it means that I might still imprint."
"Says Edward! What does he know?" she suddenly shouted. I could feel her hands clench into fists at my back.
I shrugged. "Beats me, you know him better. Does he usually know what he's talking about?"
Bella didn't say anything, or look at me. I could hear and feel her heart accelerate along with her trembling body. I guess that was a yes at the leech knowing his stuff.
Her lip started quivering too and I cringed when tears began falling from her eyes. I wasn't sure if they were angry tears or sad ones, but that really didn't matter.
"Bella…" I whispered, trying to make my tone soothing.
I moved one hand to the back of her head and pulled her in as she planted her face into my chest. At that moment she began sobbing and tightened her hold around me even more. I wasn't sure what to say to make things better because it was a crappy situation. All I could think of doing was to hold her and rub the back of her head lightly until she calmed down.
I didn't think the tent felt quieter than the moment Bella stopped crying. I was waiting for her to say something. Anything. What did her silence mean? Was she re-thinking having a relationship with someone like me who could leave her unexpectedly at any time? I wouldn't blame her. Why stay with someone that you know isn't a stable choice? As dangerous as the bloodsucker was, at least she'd know that they'd stay together, as long as he didn't pull another 'I'm leaving you to save you' deal. It really made me think what would be the best choice for Bella. I couldn't keep her just to make myself happy. To spend years and years loving her only to leave suddenly had to be the worst thing I could put her through. It'd be better to end things now while there was still a chance to recover. She was still young, plenty of time to get over it, right? Hopefully she could find someone else to fall for, preferably someone whose main diet wasn't blood.
"Bella," I whispered, "I know this is a lot to handle. So if you don't think you can go through with this, I understand."
She removed her face from my chest to look up at me. "Huh?"
"It's a lot to ask of you to stay with me when I might not even do the same. So if you'd rather be with someone a little more stable, then I won't stop you."
Her expression suddenly turned angry, like I insulted her. And if her expression wasn't proof enough that I made her mad, her knee deliberately ramming into my genital regain definitely was. I flinched back in pain and crossed my legs to guard from any further attacks, but it didn't help take away the intense, stinging pain.
"Argh!" I shouted and gritted me teeth. "What the hell, Bella?"
"You had three plans to win me back and now you're just letting me go?" she asked with a deep frown.
I groaned, mostly from the pain I was still feeling. "But, what about the imprinting? Aren't you worried about that? I could leave you anyway."
"Or maybe you won't."
"It's a big risk though."
"Jacob, I am not going to give you up over something that might never even happen. Didn't you hear me say I couldn't handle losing you?"
"That's the point, it might happen later in the future."
"MIGHT!" She put extra emphasis on the word. "It MIGHT happen, Jacob. Why ensure that I lose you right now when there's a good chance I never will? Isn't imprinting supposed to be rare?"
"Yeah, but look at our pack. It's already happened with three."
I sighed deeply and squeezed my eyes shut as I waited for the pain to subside. I was grateful that it wasn't a full blown kick or I might not have been able to offer one thing to Bella that the bloodsucker couldn't. After a minute passed, I opened my eyes again and looked back into her deep, brown ones.
"Bella, I just don't want to hurt you," I said sincerely. "To live with you for years and years, making you feel secure, only to one day suddenly imprint and leave you. That has to be the worst thing I could possibly do to you."
"You're not doing anything, Jacob. It's not your fault if you imprint. You can't help it and you can't see it coming, right? This is my choice. If anything, I'd be causing myself pain if that ever happened."
"And I don't want you to do that. I don't want you to be miserable."
"No one wants that, but like I said, it's my choice. At least I'll be fully aware and understand what's going on if it happens. I can't say for a fact whether I'll be alright, but at least I'll know you found someone who can still make you happy."
I sighed. "Bella…"
She put her hand to my lip, stopping me from saying anything else. She didn't say anything immediately; we just stared into each other's eyes as time felt like it suddenly stood still. Bella removed her hand and I'd forgotten what I was going to say in the first place.
"I will hold on to you for as long as I possibly can, Jacob Black," she announced.
I didn't feel like I could argue against it anymore. Bella was fighting to keep us together, why was I making such a fuss? She had the positive attitude, why not me? We were dealing with something that might not even happen. It wasn't like I was going to imprint for sure. We could have a wonderful future ahead of us and I was suggesting she throw it away. What the hell was wrong with me? If Bella wanted to take the risk, then I was more than ready.
"Bella, I don't know if it's even possible, but if I ever do imprint, I'll do everything I can to fight it," I said with certainty I wasn't sure if I was allowed to have.
"You'll fight it?"
I nodded. "Yeah. I honestly don't know how, but I'll think of something. Maybe the pull won't be as powerful if I've been with someone else for years. I mean, I have to have some kind of mind of my own. I can't be a total slave to her, right?"
A smile slowly stretched across her face. "I'm happy to hear that."
And then we were staring again; both of us getting lost in each other, not caring how long. In that moment, it really did feel like everything had been officially set. I felt more connected to her than ever before. If I ignored the stupid imprinting, it felt like nothing could possibly get in our way. Sometimes you just have that gut feeling that things will work out, and looking into those beautiful orbs of brown complimented by the brightest smile in the world, I knew I found the one. No imprinting necessary.
Our faces were slowly moving closer to each other, both wanting that one thing we hadn't experienced since our fight. Bella's arms found their way back around my neck as she closed her eyes in preparation.
"Wait," I said sharply, putting my hand up in between our magnetic lips.
Bella looked at me confused. "What's wrong?"
"Well, you kneed me in the balls, Bella. I think I need more time to forgive you for that one." I looked at her with narrowed eyes, making my expression as stern and serious as I could.
Her eyes widened for a split second before filling up with guilt. She hung her head with a grimace, her arms loosening around my neck slightly.
"I'm sorry," she whispered. "I shouldn't have done that. I'm not a guy, so I don't know how it feels."
Wow. Even though I was trying to look serious, I didn't expect her to really feel bad. I was hoping she could see through my jokes.
"Yeah, you don't know," I scolded, playing it along a bit further.
She was quiet after that. Her heart started beating faster out of nervousness, guilt, or maybe embarrassment. After just ten seconds, I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted her to be happy, and frankly, I needed a kiss.
"Okay, times up," I said with a smile and lifted her chin up for her to look at me.
I wasted no time and pressed my lips to hers, the contact sending a spark through me that felt familiar, but so much more powerful. I'd missed this feeling and having it back was like a breath of fresh air after nearly drowning. Of course one breath wasn't enough, I wanted as much as I could get. I pulled her tightly against my chest, arms flexing around her, as our eager lips moved with each other perfectly. With her hands at my neck, Bella slowly snaked her fingers upward through my hair, grabbing a fist full when we intensified the kiss. We both opened our mouths, letting each other in. Our tongues became reacquainted as they twirled around each other in the same way we always did, like dance partners that hadn't danced together in a while and were happy to finally perform again.
Our hearts were racing, but from excitement, not fear or nervousness. We kissed for what could have been hours, but again, I wasn't counting the time. Our lips refused to stop. When they took a break to breathe, they found themselves pressed together again. In that moment, absolutely nothing matter to me except her. Were we still in a tent? Were we still on a freezing mountain? Was Seth still outside and possibly listening to our lips smacking? I had no idea. All I knew was that I was in my own personal heaven and I did not want to leave.
"I love you, Jacob," Bella whispered a little breathlessly.
"I love you, Bella," I whispered back before my lips found hers once again.
Author's Note: I'll admit, this chapter should NOT have taken this long. I am back in college so I am more busy with school work, financial issues, and making time for new friends I've made, but still, it's been almost 2 months...and I apologize. I don't think I can make my goal of getting this story done before BD Part 2 hits, but DAMMIT I 'WILL' finish this story. I might even continue it in a part 2 if the Twilight fanbase is still alive.
YES, YES, YES, you should do a part 2!
I really hoped Bella wouldn't complain about getting 'poked', because it was gonna happen.
^ This was just :'''''''''D.
great update! can't wait to read your next update!
The sudden loud canine noise blasted, startling me awake and cutting my wonderful dream short. I felt Jacob jump from the noise as well, causing him to tighten his arms that were already around me even more. He looked around frantically in alarm all while I was struggling to breathe. I couldn't break out of his bind. Usually it was pleasant being held by Jake, but this was what I could only imagine being squeezed by a boa constrictor felt like.
"Wha? What's going on?" Jacob asked, disoriented.
"Jake…too tight…" I managed to cough out, almost choking on my words.
Jacob immediately released me and pulled away, which meant ripping out of the sleeping bag since we didn't have much room. I gasped for air as he cursed under his breath. I wasn't sure if it was because he felt bad for squeezing me or ruining the sleeping bag.
"Oh god, are you okay?" he asked, his tone extremely anxious.
"Yeah…" I answered short of breath. "I forgot how tight your hugs can be."
"I'm sorry, it was a nervous reaction. What was that noise?"
The answer stood outside the tent, pawing at the ground and making low grunt noises. Its huge shadow covered most of the tent's right half while the other side was much brighter from the sun shining outside. I didn't need a cell phone or watch to tell me it was morning.
My face turned red knowing that Seth was right outside and I was still in my underwear. I'd almost forgotten about him. I wondered how much he heard of us last night. Jake and I didn't go further than kissing, but we did kiss for a really long time; probably our longest session yet.
"Hey, are you okay as far as the temperature goes?" Jacob asked, propped up on his elbow.
I nodded. "Yeah, I think I'll be fine once I'm dressed."
Maybe I should've lied. Once I told him I was okay, he nodded and sat up to unzip the tent's entrance. He slipped out of our sleeping bag through the rip he made and exited the tent without a word.
It clicked in my head that this was it. The moment I dreaded was finally here. Jacob, Edward, every vampire and werewolf I loved; they were all going to put their lives on the line for me. And the one I cared about the most was leaving right in front of my eyes. I was afraid of imprinting taking him away, but I could potentially lose him right now.
I scrambled to my feet and rushed out of the tent. I was in too much of a hurry to care about getting my clothes on, but the chilled air outside made me regret the decision as I instantly tensed up from the cold. Luckily, Jacob didn't go far. He was just a few yards away, having some kind of wolf chat with Seth.
I cringed with every step I took into the snow, but I didn't stop until I got to Jacob. I reached out and grabbed his arm with both hands. He looked at me with wide eyes.
"Bella, what are you doing?" Jacob asked in astonishment. "You're gonna freeze out here. Put some clothes on."
I ignored his demands and focused on what I needed to say.
"Jacob, don't go," I pleaded, staring into his eyes. "Please, please don't go. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to you. Please."
He sighed and turned his body to face me with Seth positioned behind him.
"Bella, I'll be fine," he assured me. "We'll all be fine, the bloodsuckers said so themselves. We've got the perfect strategy."
I shook my head. "You can't just leave me here worried sick and wondering if you'll ever come back."
"I will come back. I promise you. Besides, like I said, it's Sam's orders, not mine."
I still wasn't ready to let this go. I squeezed his arm and kept my eyes locked on his as I fell to my knees, begging. "Please."
"Bella," he sighed.
Jacob quickly lifted me back up to my feet, pulling me closer with his blazing arms around me. Without a word, he leaned in and pressed his warm lips to mine. It was impossible to resist kissing him back and my arms found their way around his shoulders. I felt my feet get knocked from underneath me and in the next second I was in his arms. It would have startled me, but with his lips connected to mine the whole time, I was easily distracted. His warmth made my whole body melt. It was as if we weren't even outside in the cold. I noticed that we were moving, but I wasn't concerned where at the moment. We were together. He was with me. That was all that mattered.
Suddenly, our lips parted and I opened my eyes to see that we weren't outside anymore. He was lying me back down on my sleeping bag, his arms leaving me as he backed away.
"I'm sorry," he apologized, but quickly gave me a smile. "But I promise I'll be right back."
"No!" I shouted.
Before I could reach out to grab him, he was gone. The tent shook as he pushed through the entrance and bolted down the rocky path we took to get up here. I just watched helplessly.
I began to tremble as the fear slowly took control of me. Images of Jacob's body, broken, mangled, and lifeless started flashing in my head. I felt sick to my stomach. There was nothing I could do but pray that Jacob was right. Pray that he and the rest could handle the newborns with no problem. But as much as I tried to think positively, my body refused to relax. My breathing became shallow and tears started rolling down my face. I got goose bumps, feeling colder than ever before despite the weather being far tamer than last night. Getting dressed didn't help either. Even with an extra thick sweatshirt, jeans, and jacket, I was still shivering uncontrollably.
The only thing that kept me from completely going insane was the fact that I wasn't alone. I heard a soft whimper come from outside and once again his giant shadow covered up half the tent.
Wondering if he wanted something, I crawled toward the entrance of the tent and poked my head out. Seth was standing just inches from the tent, looking at me with his huge black eyes, filled with concern. I hadn't looked at myself in a mirror or anything, but I assumed I didn't look so good. I rubbed my eyes and they were still puffy from crying. Normally I would've told him that I was okay, but who was I fooling? I didn't even bother to lie.
"I'm sorry," I said, my voice a little shaky. It was all I could think of saying. I wished he didn't have to see me like this.
Seth made a whining noise and leaned in closer to me. I didn't move as he gently rubbed the side of his snout against my cheek. The gesture was comforting and I could feel the warmth radiating from his body. Somehow, I began feeling a little more at ease.
It dawned on me how glad I was that Seth was here with me. He was probably the most caring, sincere, and purest member of the pack. He reminded me so much of a younger, more innocent Jacob. If I was going to worry about everyone, at least I had someone to worry with; even though I was sure he felt the same as Jake and he was usually optimistic anyway. Maybe that's what I needed though, someone to help me think positively. People's moods could rub off on others; why not werewolves'?
I managed to smile at him and wrapped my arms tightly around his huge, furry neck.
"Thank you, Seth," I said sincerely.
He made a soft mutter and leaned his large head against my side as if returning the hug.
His warmth was hard to resist, especially in this cold. I had a difficult time pulling away from our embrace, but I didn't have to worry. Seth broke my hold as his head suddenly perked straight up and looked off at the horizon, his overall stance very alert. Did he hear something? Was he getting a message from the pack? Did the fight already start?
"Seth, is everything alright?" I asked anxiously.
He kept staring and didn't move, like he didn't hear me; which made no sense because his ears were huge and I was right next to him.
"Seth!" I shouted.
His head snapped back in my direction; eyes fully open and giving me his attention.
"Is everything alright?" I asked again.
This time he nodded, thankfully.
"Are they fighting already?"
He shook his head and started wavering back and forth between me and the horizon, like he wanted to know if I had any more questions before he went back to what he was doing; whatever it was…
"Okay," was all I said and sat back down inside the tent.
Seth turned away and started walking further out toward the edge of the mountain devoid of trees, but plenty of leftover snow. He was pretty far away where his wolf from behind was about the size of my fingertip if I held it in front of my face. I could still tell that he stopped walking before getting too close to the edge, standing very still and attentive.
Curiously, I left the tent and started walking over to him. There was no easy path to take. Snow was everywhere and there was about eleven inches of it on the ground. I had to lift my feet straight up every time to keep from falling.
Once I got to him, he turned his head around to look at me; suddenly not so alert.
"Sorry, I got kind of lonely, I guess," I said, which was partly true.
Seth's muzzle pulled back to show me a grin as he positioned himself right next to me. His heat really was irresistible and I found myself leaning against him. Absent-mindedly, my fingers would snake through his fur and I mentally compared it to Jacob's longer, shaggier hide.
Aside from seeking comfort and warmth, I wanted to know how things were going with the others. I knew he was connected to the pack, and even though he couldn't speak to me, his body language and simple nods were better than nothing. Right now he just seemed focused, staring beyond the cliffs at nothing in particular. Was he trying to listen to the others in his head? I would ask if everything was alright, but I'd end up asking again in five minutes, maybe not even that long. I didn't want to be like the little kid during car rides that constantly asks 'Are we there yet?'
Suddenly, Seth tensed up and his head lowered. A deep growl resonated from his chest which made me flinch away from him. His eyes were still focused, but he had a new threatening vibe to him.
"Seth?" I said in concern.
He kept his stance firm, not moving and still growling.
"Is it happening? Is the fight starting?"
With another growl, he nodded.
I felt like my heart traveled up to my throat. Despite it being so cold, I started sweating and my breathing became heavy. It was happening. It was finally happening. The newborns were here and everyone I loved were about to fight them. Kill them. Or the other way around.
My legs were shaking and I wrapped my arms around myself. I stared at Seth, trying to judge his reactions and what they could mean.
"Wh-what's happening?" It was the first thing that came to my mind and I ended up speaking it, even though I knew he couldn't properly explain.
Seth just glanced back at me with calm eyes, but the rest of him said otherwise.
"Could you phase back for just a second so you can tell me?"
He groaned and shook his head. I knew the answer would be no, but I had to try. He needed to remain connected to the pack.
I started to feel like I was going crazy again. Seth wasn't enough to keep me calm now, not with him half crouched down and snarling like he was on the battlefield himself. Pacing wasn't helping either. It wasn't calming my nerves, only moving away from the perfect warm spot. I would give anything to be down there helping them. I didn't care what Jacob or Edward thought, using myself as a distraction like Jasper mentioned was a good idea. I'd be making things easier and if anyone got hurt, it'd be me, not them.
"Is anyone hurt yet, Seth?" I asked anxiously, sticking to yes or no questions.
He shook his head although his stance still seemed on edge as his teeth remain gritted.
Nonetheless, I sighed a breath of relief. "So, are we winning?"
Seth didn't respond this time. In fact, everything changed in that moment. Seth's low growls ceased and his whole body suddenly froze. Everything was so quiet; not even the whisper of the cold wind gave this mountain top sound.
"Seth?" I asked nervously.
He brought himself back up standing straight as he slowly turned his head toward a massive group of trees heavily covered in glittering, white snow. His whole body soon followed as he was now pointed directly at the trees, staring intently. He slowly moved closer, one paw at a time separated by at least two seconds. I found myself following a few feet behind him, just as curious and uneasy as he seemed to be.
"Seth, what is it?" I demanded. "You're freaking me out."
He stopped moving. The incredible silence was broken as a snarl so strong and monstrously vicious shot out of Seth's huge mouth; it made me yelp and jump almost five feet away from him. He wasn't paying attention to me though; it was all on the trees. What could they have done to make Seth so angry? Wolf or not, I'd never seen him this enraged, and honestly, scary.
Seth started backing away while he continued growling like a wild beast. Instinctively, I moved further and further out of his way with each step he took backward. It was hard for me to stop looking at him, but when I glanced at the trees once more, I couldn't look away.
There, about twenty yards away from us, stood a man. He was pretty tall, well built, and looked about my age. He had light blond hair that seemed to shine once he was away from the tree's shadows, a tattered denim jacket with ripped jeans to match, but was admittedly pretty handsome despite the messy clothing. Everything else I could say about him would explain why Seth was so angry. I could take note of his incredibly pale skin or his intimidating glare, but his vivid, piercing red eyes was enough.
My body was shaking all over, but I couldn't get myself to move.
The vampire wasn't alone. Behind him, still shaded by the trees, was her. She looked just as I remembered her, slender and beautiful, although her incredibly fierce demeanor kind of ruined that. She had the same long, curly hair of brilliant orange, looking a lot like fire. Even in the shadows, her hair was the brightest part of her. It almost looked like it was shimmering.
She glowered directly at me, her razor-sharp, blood red eyes piercing straight through. As if she was Medusa and I was her victim, I couldn't move an inch. I might as well have been made of stone, standing there completely useless, helpless, and overwhelmed with fear.
The blond man stood there glaring cautiously at the growling wolf in front of him. He was slightly crouched down with one leg behind the other, ready to spring at any moment. No one moved. One wrong step could mean the end.
He glanced back into the shadows for a split second, like he was asking what to do next. She, still staring daggers at me, mouthed what could only have been 'Go', because that's when it all started.
Everything happened impossibly fast. In one second the blond vampire was yards away and the next his left arm was locked in Seth's powerful jaws. He roared as he struggled to get free, but Seth refused to let go, shaking the blond around like a rag doll. For the moment it looked like Seth had the upper hand, but he suddenly recoiled back with a pain filled yelp as the blond furiously kicked the side of Seth's head with one powerful blow. Seth stumbled backward, dazed and confused, as the blond retreated with his arm still intact. Seth quickly shook off his dizziness and looked around for the blond vampire. He'd moved over much closer to the edge of the mountain than we already were. Seth snarled and sprinted over to him, his huge, sharp teeth bared and ready to bite.
I wanted to shout at him to stop, but I'd lost my voice. What if the blond vampire was trying to trick him into running over the edge? Seth was in so much danger, I couldn't stand it. But the moment I saw her triumphant smirk, I realized what the blond vampire had done. Here I stood frozen with a huge wide opening between me and her. The blond vampire was trying to get Seth out of the way so she could get to me. Nothing could stop her. Seth hadn't realized this yet, he was still focused on the blond. I felt so conflicted. One half of me wanted Seth to run away, I didn't want him getting hurt or worse. But the other half wished he could see what was going on and protect me. If not him, then who? Seth was all I had.
She took a step forward and crouched to the ground, her movements feline like a lion stalking its prey. Then, in the blink of an eye, Victoria sprang.
Time seemed to stop in that moment. There I was staring death in the face, but I completely accepted my fate. More than anything, I just wanted all of this madness to end. If Victoria got what she wanted, maybe she'd call back her army and leave. Seth didn't have to worry about me; I just wanted him to live. I just wanted everyone to live. If that meant just me being sacrificed, that was fine. Jacob would probably be devastated, Edward too, but I was just one girl. Hopefully overtime Jake would find happiness in someone else. All of this was my fault and I needed to be the one to end it. I couldn't fight, so this was my best option. I only prayed that Victoria would make it quick.
Noooo, this can't happen. I HATE cliffhangers! Really good chapter, though!
awesome make more I hated the cliffhanger!!!!!
love it! can't wait to see how this goes...please continue sooon!
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