Why them......Why not Me????? Thats the question. So, what is stopping me from not killing myself right now?

My parents died, a week ago in a plane crash. I had gotten on the earlyer flight. The plane had a leak and exploded. I have no other family. I live alone, i am alone. I never wished so much that i was dead. To be with my family. They may have been my foster parents, but i still loved them. See my parents beat, me. I was takin away.Twice. My first family was a dream come true. Until, my faster father raped me. I Called the police. I was takin again and i was now in Heaven. My foster parents were so kind. I loved them. Now they are dead.