Will Someone Help me?

My Full name is April Lillian Heart.I always thought my name was ironic since my hearts been smashed so many times, but before that let me tell you my story. When i was born i had two sisters 5 years older then me there names were Annie and Marie. I loved my sisters they were pretty and smart i always wished i was like hem. But on April,33 2000 my two sisters were in a car crash and died, thats when everything went wrong. My Father started to drink and my mother...My mother commited suicde. I thought me and my father were on our own togther, but he just hurt me he would beat me up and when he was drunk which was always. Finally i ran and ran, i ran to a dark ally i know dumb of me but i had no where to go. But then i saw 3 boys come from the shadows and they started to Rape me i cryed for them to stop agin and agin but they wouldnt they just kept going. i was scard. years past afterwords and i started to trust pepole agin i thought i was getting back on my feet. Then I feel in love but littel did i k now it wasnt real, he just cheated on me, i was mad but he decided to tell everyone i broke up with him which made me even mader he had no right to do that. so i sobbed i felt broken, kids made fun of me which caused me to grow deppresed i started to hurt myself and everytime i looked in the mirro i would sob i felt ugly inside and out so i went anarexic it didnt help so i stoped but countied to hurt myself i thought about suicde but i decided to go on with my life day by day i try but i end up standing outside in the rain crying or sobbing in bed barley moving. But i Fake a smile and say im okay, and no one see's threw my games. and thats my story

(^----- that's how I feel but plez still talk to me