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Oh and I was stalking you liked things. I love Gotye and Sweeney Todd!!!! GOD you have no idea how much I run around singing stuff from Sweeney Todd. In fact, I have played an accoustic guitar-and-vocal cover of Johanna!!!

I'm sorry! Well, my sixteenth birthday was yesterday. As a present, my Mom took me shopping, and then I'm haing friends over saturday. Aaaand school's out for summer!!! YAAAAY!!!

Vampire Chronicles is a book series. Interview With The Vampire, Queen of the Damned, The Vampire Lestat, etc. I'm totally and utterly in love with it. Gonna cosplay one of the characters in August, actually. There's so much cannon boy-on-boy love it's adorable. MY favorite has to be Armand and Daniel. "You're five hundred years old and you don't know how to use the telephone? What are you, some kind of immortal idiot? Read the instructions!!" haha Daniel totally blows up at him and Armand just stands there so confused.

This Albert guy seems like a total jerk. And in any case, "Albert" is a stupid name xD. Judging someone for having emotions is way, way heartless. It's not something they can control! Really, darlin' there's nothing wrong with you. Who cares if someone else doesn't like it? *hug*

OHHHHH I LOVE ONCE UPON  A TIME! RUMPLESTILTSKIIIIIIIN! <3 I loveee him.

Hey, congrats. A little stagefright is beyond normal, and you have presence and creativity. Those are marvelous traits in an actor, trust me! So don't feel awkward about it. Especially if a teacher told you outright you were good. 

I don't believe I've heard those songs, but I shall look them up!!! I've been listening to "Ikea" and "Skullcrusher Mountain" by Jonathan Coulton. He's beyond hilarious. And I've recently bought the soundtrack to Phantom of the Opera. So dark... I love it! I agree about crappy autotuned music with no real meaning. Music should make you feel something, you know? 

Ummmm I saw Snow White and The Huntsman. It was okay. The only two I cared about were Ravenna (the Queen oddly enough) and the Huntsman). I've been writing quite a lot... hahaha oh! As a birthday present, Hannah wrote me an email pretending to be Lestat (the main character of the Vampire Chronicles who I ADORE) wishing me a happy birthday. It was very sweet. 

Last but not least, I've been watching an anime called Trinity Blood which is pretty cool.

SORRY! I've been studying for exams a lot. But now that they're here I'm prepared and chill.

I'm trying to get a cosplay together. YAY!!!! and I turn 16 in one week!

hahaha I miss Oz. I'll admit, I never gave Tara a chance because of how hung up I was on Oz.

I'm totally and utterly obsessed with the vampire chronicles now... GYAH. All the slash relationships are cannon, and I love the characters! Amadeo makes me cry... but in a good way.

God, I'm so sorry about your boy thing. Is it better?

O.o TWO? Wow. My only thought was "HULK... SMAAAASH!" (I went to see The Avengers on Sunday. Sorry.)

Ouch, I'm sorry, hun. I wear very little mascara hahaha. Unless I'm cosplaying, I become bored with the time involved in makeup. My upcoming cosplays for August are a Soul Eater one aaaand Armand from the Vampire Chornicles.

I don't mind Willow as a lesbian, I just didn't like her girlfriend. Tara was annoying as a person. Also I missed Oz. I love htat they had a lesbian couple. Buffy was one of the first shows in the U.S. to do that.

Another cancelled show... is the wonderful FireFly.

Random NPH relatedness: Ever seen Dr. Horrible's Sing-along blog? Ooooorrr have you seen the youtube video where he sings a random duet with Hugh Jackman? It's hilarious.

Hey, congrats on Glee Club! I miss singing. The choir teacher at my school is the only teacher to have ever made me cry... so I quit his class, but now I dont get to sing for people any more and I'm sad.

I'm sorry for yyour experience with the guy. Something tells me he's got an ego large enough to the point where he liked to test how far he can get with people... 

Hmmm.... aaaand I actually ENJOYED one of my homework assignments recently. Weird, right??

hahahaha I have no lyrics, trust me, I'd be suckish at that. My poems drag on foreeeeever.

Hmmm, I'm not sure about Babydoll, myself. She may have or may have not. That's up to the viewer.

That's horrible about the lying thing. That is not only confusing but rude and a causer of unneeded stress. I'm so sorrt.

hahaha not til 30, but at the least not until I've moved out, so like 18 or 19. I wanna be open with them... just not when I have to deal with so many effects, you know?

I'm sorry about nail polish. Currently mine are a sparkly blue-ish clearish thing. It makes my nails look like frosted glass, I love it! And eyeliner... my god I don't think i'd be able to live without it.

hahaha I like Willow and Oz as well, that's a great pairing FICTIONALLY. I just think it's cute that two actors from the same show got together. Of all Willow's significant others, Oz was my favorite. Tara as a character was kinda... bleh.

hahaha sweet! I'm sure it looks cute!

Ah, I write sins not tragedies is a wonderful song. Ever heard Build God Then We'll Talk? (Lordy, their titles... love 'em.) It's one of my favorites by them.

And hmm... yeaaaah, that's a little odd. Flashbacks are always weird like that. Evidently they recall to the detail, right? xD

Oooo, I uysed to watch Kyle XY a while back,. I can't believe it either! All the good shows get cancelled....

I'm sorry about Vincent. But hey, there's more fish in the sea. And who knows, maybe your new fish will have a shinier tail.

Sorry for not replying, I've been busy with play stuff. My performances are over now though, so I can return to normal.

So, I'll start from the bottom and work my way up with the replies.

Hannah is a few inches (abooout eight centimeters) taller than me made taller by high heeled combat boots, very thin, pale with dark brown eyes. Her hair is down to her elboys and a wavy, white-blonde. Her face is heart-shaped and often covered in heavy eyeliner, lots of glitter and a heart on her right cheek. Her clothing stands out as well, generally consisting of either a corset and petticoat or broomskirt on top of a frilly blose, or brightly colored shirts with 2 belts at the waist, a pair of colorful leggings and a tutu of some kind (her favorites are either a rainbow one or a purple and white one). She... is easy to pick out in a crowd.

The play is good. I'm just worried cause we lose a weeok f rehearsal over spring break.

Sucker Punch is a wooonderful movie!! The soundtrack is...asdfghj and the visuals are cool! 

haha Neon Trees are pretty great. Animal is a great song. And I know how you feel. I get crushes on way-older celebrities, anime guys and fictional people aaaaaalll the time. Jared Padalecki (sam from Supernatural? Mmmmmm. He's like 30 and married xD. That's twice my age! (I'm fifteen, soon to be sixteen). Kate Beckinale (the leading lady of the Underworld films)? Watching her in underworld made me realize I was bisexual. She's almost forty xD.

hahaha good point about NPH. Fun fact about me: I have nooooo 'gaydar.' I could meet a man in high heels, find out he's gay and be totally shocked. Though I was able to tell with Alec Lightwood from the Mortal Instruments books...

I'm soooo sorry, sweetheart. The transferring... you sure that wasn't to try and get rid of bullying? My best friend transferred to my school to escape bullies at her old one.  About your grades, trust me, I understand that under stress and bullying they can go downhill. Just chin up and keep trying. I nearly failed seventh grade science the year I was depressed. The following year I qualified for honors. Stress can really affect performance. So don't let ourself feel stupid, okay? *hugs*

For yyour mother to invade privacy like that really is horrid!! And for someone to call ANYONE (epsecially their own child) such a name is truly awful. Because of a diary! They're supposed ot be vents for one's most extreme and upset points, to prevent any outbursts. To read it is one thing, but to CRITICIZE? I'm so, so sorry, my lovely. 

But hey, Myself and one of my friends (Karina), have both been through where you are right now (at similar ages, actually...) and I've gotta say... wanting to die is a very common feeling. And its very understandable right now when everything feels so hopeless. But were you to, you'd be telling everyone that hurts you that they've won. That they've gotten to you. Things will hurt but you've gotta perservere, nd inthe end when you come out on top? They'll be blown away.

My friend often quotes Chris Colfer here. "People that hurt you are like sandpaper. Rough and painful now, but in the end, you come out smooth and shiny and they end up flimsy and useless."

Or, on the topic of how to go on? Emilie Autumn's One Foot In Front of The Other may be of use...

"How did I get myself into all of this mess?
How did I end up with this deadly holocaust?
How did I come to this when every song I sing 
is nothing but a list of pain and suffering?

We never will forget, and no, we will not forgive.
We walk along to die, yet we don’t know how to live.
How do we change our world to what we want it to be?
How do we move beyond all of this misery?

One foot in front of the other foot
In front of the one foot in front of the other foot
In front of the one…

I’ve been in chains since I was nothing but a kid
We don’t know freedom, not quite sure if we ever did
Now that we’ve found it, how do we make use of

Did I press the send button? O.o

It's a comedy skit series about communication called 'said and meant.' I'm the Clerk in the first scene who messes with this customer, and a guy's psycho ex whose character is read as 'Miss Apocalypse.' She's fun to be.

Ahhh, I liked Glee a few years ago, but the music has gotten old for me. Plus a lot of the fans are unpleasant. Chris Colfer is a cool person, though. 

So, until reading your comment, I didn't know Nei Patrick Harris was gay (despite having seen him in countless films and shows, including Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, my favorite).  So the next day I go up to my girlfriend in school and I' like "HANNAH NEIL PATRICK HARRIS IS GAY!!!" and she's like. "... Yeeeeeess? You didn't know?" I felt quite stupid.

O.e that you even WENT to a National competition is pretty amazing! Be proud of yourself, girly! I've given up singing, myself. Our choir teacher made me cry one too many times. I dropped.

Aaaaaand yay for your grades! I've made honor roll at school, my self. A significant improvement from two years ago when I was too depressed to care and nearly failed science. 

I understand. I'm now a freshman in highschool. Weird, eh? O.O drama class tends to eat up my life--I'm in my second play this year. I've also been reading a lot.

So, how are ya? Any new obsessions?

Hey, sorry! Since they took away all the allowances for off-topic stuff I kinda withdrew. Miss ya too

ahh, I know. I dopn't like Buffy with Spike.... I like Spike left with his "Princess" Dru.

haha yeeaaah Adam can do some stupid stuff sometimes, but, hey, he has a pretty voice.  That's what counts.

I've never heart pretty reckless... I'll check 'em out though!

David Boreanaz *sigh*  A lovely little vampire, hmm?

I'm obsessed with Amy Lee (Evanescence) xD  I don't listen to most pop, though Adam Lambert is a guilty pleasure

ha, Jane Lynch's character was cool.  Her character, Blaine, Kurt, Mercedes, Tina and Artie were the only ones I liked.  I couldn't STAND Rachel, Quinn, Finn, Puck, or a few others.  The rest i didn't really care about (Britney, Santana, etc...).  Plus they butchered some songs, so I don't really watch any more.

It's TOTALLY normal!  I have tons of older celeberity crushes. ha, I could list a few even if ya asked.  Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Johnny Depp.... mmm,....

haha my Dad and I go to Irish things all the time--his family's from Ireland so I know a lot.

I can see why you'd want Helena to be with Johnny... they've been love interests and co-stars countless times and are both crazy and awesome.  Helena Bonham Carter has got to be my favorite actress of all time.

Really sorry you get yelled at and punished for no reason, hon.  Good luck :)

I don't know what it's rated... but, hey, Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter in a horror musical.  Funfun. And I'm going to an IRish Festival today! YAY!!!

Oh gosh, why'd she rip up your stuff? Was she mad at you and trying to upset you?  My friend's mom did that to her once with some of her stuff.

Wait, like SERIOUSLY threaten? If you're not safe, you should probably get some help.... Either way, I'm sorry, hun. *virtual hug*

Yay!  The Veronica's have got some great vocal talent.

Ugh, I don't know Lily should've married Snape.  I feel he never made it apparent he loved her, and she may never have grown romantic feelings for him... He loved her deeply, but it was right over her head, sadly :(

Ha, that sounds fun!  Hannah and I plan on going to an Iriush festival Saturday, then having a Tim Burton DVD marathon. Corpse Bride, Nightmare Before Christmas, Sleepy Holly, Sweeney Todd, etc.

Mhm, me too. Oh gosh, Snape and Lily.... *cry*

hahaha I know what you mean. I listen to my favorite albums a million and five times.... per week.  I actually liosten to music really loud to wake me up.  IS that odd?