Jasper Whitlock HaleThe Brave.The Soilder.The Emotion. The Seeker.
"Hes the one who looks like he's in pain"“When sadness comes, just sit by the side and look at it and say,
I am the watcher, I am not sadness,” and see the difference. Immediately you have cut the very root of sadness. It is no more nourished. It will die of starvation. We feed these emotions by being identified with them.”
...but you can call me Jazz.
The year of my birth was 1843, I was born in my home state of Texas. During the years of my human life I made a decision to become a soldier, the only thing that mattered was fighting for my country, i never considered dying. I was in a majority of wars, During those years I gained ranks that made me into a Major in the Confederate army during the Civil War. Twenty years after my birth, I was changed into a vampire by a woman known as Maria. Her clan consisted two others, Nettie and Lucy, who are also vampires, they transformed me into the being I am today.
"When you live for the fight, for the blood, the relationships you form are tenuous and easily broken."
The vampire clan that changed me in 1863 was very different from the Cullens in their drinking habits - they fed off humans, That was how I started off. Maria tought me a way of life that I myself did not enjoy very much. While under my leadership, the coven grew to twenty members in a few weeks. Due to my ability to control emotions of people around me, I managed to keep the newbornes under control. We had our first fight in Maria's hometown in which we won. This would be the beginning of many battles and many nightmares. I was eventually put in charge of getting rid of the newborns that were to old. There was one newborn that was picked to live and to help me. His name was Peter. He soon became on of my friends do to his civilized behavior. Peter and I were told to kill the newborns that were to old, but Peter tried to convince Maria that some were still useful. She told him that all were to go. When one of the newborns named Charlotte entered the room, Peter shouted for her to run. They both ran away from were I was standing but I refused to follow them, I felt averse to destroying him. This made Maria furious with me. Her attitude soon made me uneasy around her. I stayed with her for five more years until I planned to kill her. I was close to fulfilling my plan until Peter returned to me and told me about his new life with his mate, and all the options I never dreamed I had. In one conversation he had me convinced, I was ready to go, I left with him that night without a single word to Maria.
I stayed with Peter and Charlotte for a few years. We hunted humans which helped feed my strength. The only problem was that each time I made contact with my victom, I felt their emotions. Their fear. This made my life a living nightmare. I tried to stop feeding as often but I would end up failing at that. The more I tried to stop, the more pain it caused me when I killed again. I became depressed over my way of life and soon I thought enough. Eventually i left Peter and Charlotte but I didnt know where I was going to go, A part of me knew something was missing but of course even I didn't know what it was, but i still searched for it.
My search led me to Alice in 1948, There was a storm in Philadelphia, and I was out during the day, I knew standing in the rain would attract attention so I ducked into a half empty diner, that was my first sight of Alice, She was there sitting on a high stool across the diner, it was like she was expecting me, naturally, she hoped down from her stool at the counter as soon as i walked in and came directly towards me, from than on, from the first time she smiled at me, i knew she was what i was looking for, what i was searching for. Alice told me what she had "seen", She told me about Carlisle and his family, This fascinated me, After all, It was all new to me.
"You held out your hand, and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing. For the first time in almost a century, I felt hope."
Later on, Our search soon led us to Carlisle and his family in 1950, a mere two years later. Carlisle taught us about his “vegetarian” lifestyle, Which meant that we drink animal blood rather than human. Surviving off animals is extremely difficult for me, but I manage to do it with Alice on my side, she brought love and support in my life. I’d do anything for her. It is extremely difficult for me to be around humans aswell as drinking animal blood, and going to school certainly does not help. But I managed with all my strength for Alice, of course.
I choose to use the last name Hale, because Rosalie and I look so much alike, and because people assume us to be twins. Rosalie insists on using Hale as a last name because it is her last name from her human life, and therefore, I took it as mine, too. Anything to make our living easier, Though my real last name is Whitlock, Occaionally I use both.
A couple of years later, the second time we moved back to Forks, Washington. Life changed a lot for me and my family. We had not been there long before when we found out the chief's daughter, Isabella Swan, was moving into town to live with him. Little did we know at the time what an impact this bit of news would have on our lives. The moment Edward saw Bella, he knew there was something quite different about her. We were all shocked to discover that Edward had found an individual who's blood called, or "sang" to him. It is something that we vampires rarely come across, but it does happen. Edward began to spend more time with Bella, offering her rides to school and such. Soon they fell inlove, it was difficult at that time. Vampire and human together, it seemed impossible to me but Esme said that it would work out, that it makes Edward happy to be around her.
Yes, This caused some trouble between them, First, nearly losing her life during the incident with James, and then being sought after by his mate, Victoria, who was determined to avenge James' death by destroying Bella. Thus leading Edward to destroy Victoria as well. But it all went terribly wrong at Bella's 18th Birthday party at our home, Which Alice consisted to arrange. Clumsy Bella cut her finger whilst opening her birthday present, Thats when i spelt her blood, her delicious mouth watering blood, I have to admit, Bella is no ordinary human girl. I have controlled myself near her and yes i have been alone with her even for the shortest time but never had she ever revealed her blood like that, ever! I couldn't help this time, i lunched for her with no thought of what it could cost us, what it would do to Edward. It was merely a vamprie instinct. I was the monster that I once feared myself of becoming. But Of course Edward read my mind therefore saved Bella.
"What happened the other night made me realize that it’s time for a change"
Later that night after Edward drove Bella home, he came back to us and told us that we had to leave, that it was dangerous for Bella, i could see the pain it was causing him even considering it but he did and we left. I felt gulit in me, it was my fault we had to leave, it was my fault Edward had to lie to his love and leave her, i would never do that to my Alice, i wouldn't even consider it like Edward did. When he left her, thinking he was merely giving her a chance at the life she deserved, We had no idea how much his absence would affect her. Edward fell into a darkness that was so extremely painful to see. It was a disaster, we almost nearly lost Edward, and Bella suffered tremendously because of it. Edward will forever regret the decision.
The worst part was that while our absence, Bella got to know her old friend Jacob Black and soon they became best friends. She spent her time with that dog! No not a dog but a pack of vicious dangerous Werewolfs! Edward did not approve of this. It's not something you should play around with, Werewolfs are very dangerous but of course knowing Bella, she disagreed, saying they were safe, not a wise choice to make.
Soon after Edward and Bella got married, we discovered something impossible, something unique. While Edward and Bella's honey moon, our kind found out that pregnancy was indeed possible, it is unlikely our kind and humans fall inlove but physical love was the main situation, as shocked as i was, it still didn't change anything, Bella was pregnent and the thing inside her was ought to harm her. Though she knew this, she still carried and delivered Renesmee while she was still human. The thing obvisously nearly killed her beacuse of her vampire desires and strength. Edward turned Bella into a vampire afterwards and all the problems were gone. They were finaly on the same line. That was until the mutt imprinted on Nessie (a nickname he made up for Renesmee). Bella was so pissed off and angry she lunged for his throat, Edward seemed pleased with her actions. But after a while Bella and Edward were okay with it, after all its not something the dog can control, its like love at first sight but stronger, much more stronger. Renesmee is not fully vampire yet fully human, she is half of each. From my perspective of life, I can say that she is one of a kind, a miracle. After Renesmee was born, Alice saw the Volturi (The only thing closes to royalty for the vampire world). They were coming because a member of the Denali family, Irina Denali to be exact, saw Renesmee from a distance, She merely thought of her as a hybrid. The Volturi have rules against the Immortal children, The creator and hyprids must be killed.
"If not for the Volturi, the rest of us would be quickly exposed"
My family and I were all shocked when Alice dropped a crystal vase, She was cleaning around the house, when the vase shattered into thousands of tiny shards of glass. She’d seen a vision that Irina had gone to the Volturi and told them that we had a Immortal Child under our wing. The Volturi guard were coming, all of them. They were even going too bring the wives. Alice told us that they wouldn’t give us chance too talk, or defend ourselves, they’d just come and rip our heads off. I wouldn't alow that, not to Alice, If i had to die to save her that was what i was going to do, While everyone was in shock, I planned the ways to save Alice, no one knew of this maybe except for Edward but he kept quiet, Which I was thankful for, I tried my best not to let my mind decide anything for cetain, The last thing i wanted was my wife knowing my plans to save her. But there was a way, A way to save all of my family, We needed witnesses and we needed them as quickly as possible. Me and Alice left the family to try and find a half human and half vampire that could stand with us. We gathered many friends to show and prove the Volturi that Renesmee was no threat. Alice was able to find this breed and we presented it to the others, They saw that she was more human and was no threat to them. The Volturi are back in Italy and we are finally at peace with the wolves. Things are finally at peace in Forks, Washington.
Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence.Before I loved you, love, nothing was my own: I wavered through the streets, among objects: nothing mattered or had a name: the world was made of air, which waited. I knew rooms full of ashes, tunnels where the moon lived, rough warehouses that growled 'get lost', questions that insisted in the sand. Everything was empty, dead, mute, fallen abandoned, and decayed: inconceivably alien, it all belonged to someone else - to no one: till your beauty and your poverty filled the autumn plentiful with gifts.
She was there- expecting me naturally. "He chuckled once. "She hopped down from the high stool at the counter as soon as I walked in and came directly towards me. It shocked me. I was not sure if she meant to attack. That's the only interpretation of her behavior that my past had to offer. But she was smiling. And the emotions that were emanating off of her were nothing like what I had felt before. 'You've kept me waiting a long time, ' she said. "And you ducked your head, like a good Southern gentleman, and said, 'I'm sorry ma'am'"
FULL NAME: Jasper Whitlock Hale Cullen
HAIR COLOR: Golden Honey Blonde
EYE COLOR: Gold/Black
HEIGHT: 6” 3”
YEAR OF BIRTH: 1843
DATE OF CHANGE: 1863
ORIGINALLY FROM: Texas
LOYALTY: Olympic Coven, Olympia, USA.
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION: muscular, but lean
SOURCE OF CHANGE: Maria
FAMILY MEMBERS: The Cullen family
RELATIONSHIP: Mary Alice Cullen
HOBBIES: Baseball, Reading & Spending time with Alice
FOOD: Deer & Elk
VEHICLE: Ducati Silver Motorcycle
SPECIAL ABILITY: Able to manipulate the emotions of those around himMary Alice
Alice is the true meaning of my existence, My life had little meaning until I found her. I discovered a sense of peace I never knew existed. She has made all the differences. I'd still be living the life i hate. It seems strange, our relashionship & our instant bond. From the first time I set my eyes on her, I knew she was the one, Like love at first sight, Yes it sounds cheesy but that doesn't mean it isn't true. In many ways our relashionship is the strongest out of our siblings though it might not seem that way. I don't need heaven, I have my Alice. You and I forever my love. My Family. The Cullens.
Mary Alice,"The future is not a result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, The future is not some place we are going to, but one we are creating."
Emmett McCarty, "Nothing is so strong as gentleness. Nothing is so gentle as real strength."
Edward Anthony, "Mind reading doesn't come from power, It comes from how superior you really are."
Rosalie Lillian, "Some people, no matter how old they get, never lose their beauty - they merely move it from their faces into their hearts."
Isabella Marie, "A sheild means strength, power, yet it all combines from your mind."
Renesmee Carlie, “The child must know that she is a miracle, that since the beginning of the world there hasn't been, and until the end of the world there will not be, another child like her."
Carlisle Cullen, "By compassion, we make others’ misery our own, and so, by relieving them, we relieve ourselves as well"
And Esme Anne, "A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts."The Emotion Seeker
There is always something ridiculous about the emotions of people whom one has ceased to love"
It is known that vampires take their most dominant characteristics into the afterlife and these are emphasized in their new immortal forms. My gift is to manipulate the emotions of those around me. Reading/changing peoples yet vampires emotions can be very helpfull for me, as i am always in pain because of the lifestyle i live in, i still haven't gotten used to it like the others in my family, sometimes i can see me even calming myself down, which is a odd thing to do, but it helps. Speed Is Everything
Us Cullens enjoy speed, if the vehicle is not fast then there is no point in it, i can simply walk faster than some vehicles in this life time, ones like Bella's old truck. This Ducati silver motorcycle is my pride and joy, This vehicle was formally Edwards, he simply bought it so he could ride with Bella, knowing it was one of her hobbies, what a strange hobbie for a girl, very dangerous. But After understanding Bella only enjoyed riding with Jacob, he easily gave it to me, I was thankful, before he had shown Bella I was admiring it in the garage, Though he might have noticed that.My Reading List
I enjoy doing a variety of things in my spare time, when i'm not spending time with Alice or hunting. One of those is reading. Here is a list of some books I've read and still enjoy reading:
-The Twilight Saga Series (;
-The Jamestown Colony
-Count Your Way
-As I Lay Dying,
-Secrets of the Andes
-The Vampire Diares
-The Power and the Glory
& -The Awakening Music From The Heart
I can be quite musical at times. My guitar is one of my most prized possessions. It allows me to release all of my wrapped up emotions at one time through song. My guitar is my source of true calm and compassion for one thing. Most of the songs I write are dedicated to Alice. As for music i enjoy listening to well.. I’m a big fan of British rock & roll. Though, I rather listen to Southern rock from my native state of Texas.Hunting
After a century of instant gratification, I found self-discipline… challenging"
Although I hate feeding from animals, I have learned to adapt to this life. I always felt regret for feeding off of humans, but I still feel the urge. Adjusting to such a lifestyle-- of never harming humans again-- is extremely difficult, given my history. I still struggle much more than the others to control my urges. Sometimes, I lose control, and it is in those brief moments that I no longer possess my ability to think rationally but I try my best and most of the time I do succeed. History Is A Marvelous Time
History is a marvelous thing. Knowing the past of people, places and things is something I find incredibly helpful. I go by this; If you do not know the history of them. How can you say you know that person? I think that not only goes for people, but places and objects too. Without history - we would be nothing. You must learn from the mistakes of others to get anywhere in life. I have learnt alot during the past 100 years, history changes in time. what use to matter, might not matter anymore. Out of my family, I can say that my history is nothing like any of theres.