Looking forward to hearing from fate. But nothing else would surprise me.

Dreams are never good,'cause even when they're good, they're not true and this is bad. I had a nightmare in which the saga was over and I couldn't live through the story again. It used to make more sense then, but now it's like dying. I woke up and realized we cam always have some more. I've read Bree's story in two days... I was awesome to check that other side of what happened. That made me realize I can't remember how Bella felt that day, I only remember she was tired. It's wonderful…

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It's been a long while again and I haven't got any time to escape for my enchanting refuge.

At least for some seconds here I can hide safely... and in a blink spare my thoughts in delusions. Who knows when my next chance will be to run away out of this messy real thing?

I wonder how could I have lived without knowing all the truth.. And how or when will my endless sleepless nights come to an end. I want to hear from him... only his whisper shall embrace my sleep. What other way is there to find in my bed a comforting hideoutwhere I can release my thoughts and drown in my dreams? Next time I come back from such journey I'll try to put in words the most of that... It seems to be hard enough to keep me from delusionating, deceiving myself, deciphering feelings… Continue

I woke up the other day with Bella in my mind. After I had watched New Moon for the third time, I went to bed putting myself in her shoes. I imagined what would have happened if it had been my vampire the one to abandon me... I was picturing those white pages, the hole Bella's described so well in that second book.

Where would the strength to wake up every morning come from? How would the will to keep on living overcome the wish to leave my…

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