On my 18th birthday the Cullens threw a party on my behalf which wound up in disaster. I was attempting to open a gift and cut my finger, leading Jasper into a frenzy and causing Edward to rethink about being with me. He left Forks, they all left Forks, leaving me with nothing to remember him by. I was alone, broken inside that my one love left me forever. The next few months went by in a blur; it was like I wasn't even alive, and I ceased communication with everyone at school. I didn't care anymore. No one could understand what I was going through, and I couldn't even tell them because it would mean giving away Edward's secret. Plus, no one would believe me if I told them the truth; they would probably lock me up in a mental institution.
light in my life during this hard time was Jacob Black. He and I became closer than I ever imagined. Then one day, Jake started acting distant, keeping secrets from me. I thought he joined some kind of weird gang, but eventually I got him to admit the truth--Jacob was a werewolf and there were others like him. Just like vampires, the wolves weren't like the ones people are familiar with in legends. They don't have to change at the full moon, and would never hurt a human. Jake and I spent all our time together, and I was so grateful that I had such a great friend who I knew would always be there for me no matter what.
However, a part of Edward was never gone, because when I was in danger I could hear his voice in my mind. It was only in my mind, but it was so tempting to hear his voice, that I purposefully put myself in dangerous situations to feel closer to him. I became somewhat of a daredevil. Jacob taught me how to ride a motorcycle, and it got to the point where I decided to attempt to jump of a cliff in La Push and into the water, just like I'd seen Jacob and his friends do. Little did I know that Victoria awaited me at the bottom of my cliff, and it was much to my luck that Jacob was there to save me. Alice cannot see wolves in her visions (she sees the future), so she was under the impression that I killed myself, and came back to Forks immediately.
Edward became suicidal thinking about a life without me and ran to Italy with the intention of making the Volturi, who are vampire royalty, kill him. Luckily, Alice and I were able to make it to Italy in time to save Edward, but not without a confrontation with the leaders of the Volturi themselves. Jane (a member of the Volturi) tried to use her power on me, and the entire Volturi was shocked when her power was ineffective, because I blocked it with my mind. The Volturi decided to make a deal: I become one of them, or I was to be killed. After some negotiation, Carlisle agreed to change me after my high school graduation. I cannot wait to become part of their family, and spend eternity with Edward.
When we got home Edward agreed to change me into a vampire if I would marry him. I loved him but the idea of marriage was more fearful than the idea of being a vampire with him for all eternity. The Volturi left us with warning that they will be keeping an eye on me and the Cullens, so I knew it wouldn't be long until they had to change me.
Unaware of what was actually going on, Charlie grounded me. Not that I can blame him. after all, I did disappear for three days without letting him know where I went. Charlie eventually decided it was about time to let me mingle outside our out-of-the-way home after a few weeks of being grounded in order to rekindle my friendships with those from school. It was difficult at first, I guess. I'm just glad that a few of my friends proved faithful even after those traumatic seven months.
I was born in the small town of Forks, Washington, but my parents soon got divorced, my mom leaving my dad in the town and taking me with her. We moved around a lot when I was younger, living first in California and later Phoenix, Arizona, especially how warm and sunny it was. I didn't have many friends at my large school there, but I never found that bothersome, as I was always busy trying to keep up with my mom. It was like I was the adult and she was the child, so I never found myself with lack of things to do. Then my mom married Phil, a minor league baseball player, and I could tell how wistful she was to enjoy life on the road with him, even though she never mentioned it to me. Wanting her and Phil to be happy, I made what I believed to be the ultimate sacrifice; I volunteered to move in with my dad, returning to the small town of my birth.
The move took place in January of 2005, and the town was just as cloudy, rainy, and cold as I remembered. Living with my father, Charlie, was much quieter than living with my mom, but my dislike of Forks still remained. It was so green. I missed the sun against my skin and the busy streets of Phoenix. I was pleasantly surprised by the welcome present Charlie purchased for me: a red 1953 Chevy pick-up truck. While different, the car was perfect for me, and it also demonstrated Charlie's appreciation of my decision to move in with him.
It wasn't long before I had to face what I dreaded possibly more than the dreary weather--my first day at Forks High School. All I wanted was to blend into the background, but the students adamantly tried to be my friend, especially the male population at the school. Mike Newton, Tyler Crowley, and Eric Yorkie vied for my attention, while Jessica Stanley and Angela Weber decided to become my new best friends. Jessica only befriended me because she had a crush on Mike, but Angela was nice, so I was happy for her friendship. There were so many kids and faces but I'll never forget that first day at lunch when I laid eyes on them--The Cullens. They were so stunning and beautiful that any model would envy their looks, and it took all my effort not to stare at them during the meal. Five strange pale skinned and gorgeous family, all dressed like they walked right out of a high-end department store, and I couldn't help but wonder what they were doing in a small town like Forks.
Despite the strange amount of attention I received from the male population at the school, it was Edward Cullen who I was drawn to. The first time we met, in biology class, he seemed disgusted by my presence, moving as far away from possible like I had some deadly disease he didn't want to catch. He tried to switch out the class that day, and when that proved impossible, didn't show up to school for an entire week. I couldn't help but feel like there was something wrong with me; there was no reason I should have repulsed him so much. I tried to go on living as though I never noticed Edward or the Cullen's, but couldn't get them out of my mind.
Edward returned to school after that week, surprising me by trying to make small talk during class. Saying I was confused would be an understatement, but I went with the flow, trying not to worry too much about what happened the prior week. The next day I awoke to find the roads covered in ice, and was grateful for my car that was able to survive any sort of weather. Unfortunately, Tyler Crowley's van wasn't as resilient as my truck. It all happened so fast, but I remember the truck spinning out of control in my direction, and a moment later Edward was there holding the truck above my legs. Yes, he lifted the van from the ground to prevent it from squashing me, holding it up like it was as light as a feather. That was the moment I knew there was something different about him, and I was determined to discover his secret.
HIs secret wasn't anything like the original ideas I had, but it all made sense once I put it together. Edward Cullen is a vampire, but not in the traditional, Dracula sort of way. As it turns out, real vampires don't sleep in coffins (in fact, they don't sleep at all), they don't mind garlic or crosses, sunlight doesn't kill them (although they can't be seen in it, since it literally sparkles off of their skin), and they are irresistibly beautiful. The one thing that is the same from the traditional myth is that they do need blood to survive. However, Edward and his family live off of animal blood, jokingly calling themselves "vegetarians." Edward and I spent every moment together after that, despite the fact that my blood had a particularly alluring scent to him, and every moment we spent together he had to focus on trying not to kill me.
At first, Edward tried to stay away from me "for my own good." I refused to accept this, and neither of us could resist the pull we felt toward each other. Edward was the only one who understood how my mind worked, which was ironic because my mind is the only one he can't read with his telepathic vampire ability. The rest of his family accepted me, except for Rosalie, who resented me for reasons I didn't then understand. Other than her they welcomed me with open arms, even inviting me to a field to play "thunderball" during a storm. Everything felt so perfect; I finally found a place where I belonged, even if it was with a family of vampires.
Perfection can't last forever, and that day in the field others of their kind decided to join us. Even though they were the same species, there was something different about the three nomads. Their eyes were red instead of topaz, as they fed off humans instead of animals. There were three of them--James, Victoria, and Laurent. The moment James set sight on me I could see the evil in his eyes, and I knew I was no longer safe. I had to leave home that night, lying to Charlie so James wouldn't hurt him and escaping with Alice and Jasper while Edward and the others tried to locate James. We went to Phoenix, where I fell right into James's trap, finding myself alone with him the the ballet studio where I used to take lessons. With no way of defending myself I believed my life to be over, especially when James took that first bite out of my arm, causing more pain than I ever imagined possible.
Edward and the rest of the Cullens arrived right in time to kill James before he took too much blood. I wanted to let the venom run its course; I wanted to be like Edward and his family. Edward refused to allow it, and he sucked the venom out of my system, using all of his strength to not kill me in the process. I awoke in the hospital the next day still human, and that was the day I decided I would eventually become a vampire, no matter what it took. My future was with Edward, and I wanted to spend eternity with him.