PeanutJazz930's Blog (147)

I can't speak i have a lump in my throat . "Your bleeding ." You say in a mix between a caring and almost angry tone .  I bring my hand to my face .  Looking at the blood on my finger . Now i'm really embarassed . "Ariana , what were you running from ?" You ask crouching down so your face to face with me . I'm looking into your eyes . There a different color then i remember . I remember them being the clearest light blue . Now there a liquid gold . " Come on ." You say your breathe fanning…

I stare out the window into the night sky . I can here the clink of the glass on the table . I hear the chair scrape agaisnt the floor . The heavy footsteps coming slowly closer . I don't turn my head as i hear the turning of the knob . My heart doesn't skip a beat . My eyes don't burn with awaiting tears . The knob only turns three times before it stops . I lay my head down on the cool pillow just staring at the darkness .

The sun is barely up . I get my things together…

I stare at the back of Chance's head. I see little specks of gray in his deep brown hair. His breathing is slow. The air is still muggy. I feel itchy. I sit up walking to the bathroom grabbing my gray one- piece i had it for a few years it was worn but comfy. I pulled my hair up into a messy bun. I grabbed my towel. I walked out of the room quietly. They had a pool inside the resort. I opened the door quietly. I got into the cool water instantly feeling refreshed. I laid on my back floating…

I woke up the air muggy. It was going to be a warm day. It brought a smile to my lips. I shook Chance. "We should go swimming." I whisper. He smiles and presses his lips lightly to mine. I know thats a yes. I jump up basically running to get my stuff together. I'm exicted this is the first swim of my summer. I took out the swimsuit Lila sent me. It was a bronze two piece. When she sent it too me i called her wondering what was going through her mind. I wasnt fat but i wasnt a small girl. I…

I looked at him. Everything disappeared around me. "Janaila ?" You whisper in Awe. The ache is gone. I feel lightheaded. You walk forward almost to see if i'm real but i step back. Someone calls your name. I look to see her. She is still as beautiful as she was the day in kitchen. She looks at me with the same expression you had. Awe and unbelief. I only see that because the next thing i know i'm running. I'm running hard. Air not being breathed. Everything blurry. I open door. My legs burn…

"Janaila Michaels." Mr. Roberts called my name into the microphone. People appauled i heard Janine and Evan hooting. I smiled grabbing my dipolma. I looked at my Mr. Roberts mouthing thankyou. He nodded in a welcomed gesture. Everything was a blur after that. Soon i found Lila pulling me to my feet and us throwing our hats in the air. We made it. We made it through high school. Happy Tears flowed freely down my face as i pulled Lila into my arms. "We did it…

Everything was packed. I looked at the bare home. It was the way i bought it. I smiled thinking about how far it had come. "You ready ?" Naivei said. "Yeah." I said looking at the place one more time. I walked out of the house locking it up one more time. My stomach flipped. I put the keys in the mailbox. I got into Naivei's truck. He drove slowly through the woods. I watched as the tree's passed. I would miss everything about the forest. We reached the house.…

I woke up monday morning thinking nothing in particular. I hadn't heard from Seth since the friday dinner. It hurt but i pushed through. I went to work. I smiled played nice. Esme came over saturday afternoon. We started on the back out the house. She never mentioned friday night. I spent Saturday night studying for my geomtry test. Sunday i started studding a jean jacket. I never checked my phone. I kept it off. Now i was standing in front of the mirror doing…

My eyelids were warm. I opened them slowly. I found i was in Seth's room. The bed was cool. Seth had been gone for a while. I sat up grabbing one of his shirts and shorts to pull over my cami and boyshorts. I walked out of the door to hear giggling. I walked down the hall and all i saw was brown beautiful long hair. Almost as beautiful's as Bella's. Seth looked up his smile widening. "Goodmorning Gorgeous." He said standing up walking over to me. The girl turned…

I watched as the tree's passed by. The cool air sweet from the light rain. Daughter's voice floating around me. The car started to slow. My heart beat rose slightly. We all got out. I opened the back seat door. She wouldnt look at me. Tears filled my eyes. My heart tug. I helped her out of the car. She didnt put up a fight. I took her hand. Her grip was loose on mine. Her hand was cool and brittle. We walked to the small building. We walked in we were hit with a sweet almost to sweet small.…

We all turned as we heard my mother's voice. My father gasped as he took in her form. He was seeing for the first time what she had become. She wasnt the vibrant spit fire any longer. Her fire had died long ago and was replaced with a brewing volcano that when ready to erupt it was going to be a disaster. My father took a small step closer to my mother. I stepped in front of him blocking his view of her. "I think it's time for you to leave Naivei." I said in a…

Seth's hand was flaming in mine. But it felt right. I needed him here. I needed something to cling on to so i could be strong. Naivei looked down at our connected hands seeing we were one. Naivei must have felt it because when he looked back up me his eyes were swimming with hurt , pain and jealousy. Seth cleared his throat and Naivei glanced at him giving him a hard look then looked back at me. "So how long have yall been together ?" Naivei finally spoke. "Why…

The air was cool against my skin. But it felt refreshing i felt alive. I clung to Seth as he picked up the speed. Everything felt right . In place like it was supposed to be. I laid my head on Seth's back letting the engine's vibrations come through me. I closed my eyes listening to the pur's of the bike. I didnt realize i had fallen asleep until i felt Seth's warmth enclose around me. I opened my eyes slowly. I was met with a sleepy smile. "Sleep Beautiful." He…

We reached the house. I turned to say something but Seth stopped me by pressing his lips to mine. I was caught off guard but soon i matched his slow rymthm. Butterflies were running through my body and i felt alive. Seth pulled away looking at me like i was the only thing that mattered in his world. "Happy Birthday Janaila." Seth said his voice rough. "I love you." I said my voice sounding breatheless. Seth smiled and picked me up pressing his lips to mine once again. He carried me upstairs…

Seth brushed a piece of hair out of my face. I closed my eyes feeling his warm hand trace the outline of my features. " Your so beautiful ." Seth whispered. I smiled and opened my eyes. "Thank you." I said. Something started to vibrate. A beautiful smile stretched across Seth's face. "Happy Birthday Janaila." Seth said before i could respond Seth pressed his lips to mine making my mind turn to goop. Seth pulled me close knocking the breathe away from me. When he pulled away i was breathing…

"I think it's time you met my mom." Seth said as i handed him a wet dish . My stomach flipped and i gave Seth are you crazy look. Seth smiled and dried the dish not meeting my eyes. "She wants to meet the girl i'm always talking about." Seth said embarassment coloring his tone. I smiled warmth enveloping me. "Is tommorow night okay ?" I said. Seth looked at me love all in his eyes. "It's perfect." Seth said.

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"Goodmorning Beautiful ." Seth said bending down to kiss me. I kissed him back his lips warm and soft against mine. Thanking god silently that i brushed my teeth before coming outside. Seth pulled away pulling me up with him sitting in my seat and sitting me on his lap. I snuggled close to him closing my eyes finally feeling at ease. "So are you going to spend the night at the cullens tonight ? " Seth said quietly. " No , i cant leave my mom for a whole night ."…

Seth ran his hand over my wrist. I moved it away and made him look at me. "I'm fine. " I whispered. I could see worry all in Seth's face. " Janaila , she's getting worse." Seth said. I let out a deep breathe and pushed Seth off of me. " I don't want to talk about Seth." I said grabbing my boots. " Janaila she needs help." Seth said grabbing my hand.  " She's fine. " I said standing up. I felt like i had to throw up.  I knew i was lying. I knew my mother was…

"Seth, there going to think i'm crazy." I said nerves rolling through me. Seth smiled and shook his head. "No, Janaila there very understanding." Seth said squeezing my hand. I rolled my eyes and watched as the tree's passed us. I itched for some paint so i could paint this beautiful forest. I havent painted in a while. But my dreams had been made of paint swirls and colors. I smiled thinking about this beautiful dream i had about Seth. Everything was this burnt…

I turned and looked at Seth. I could feel the nerves vibrating through his body. I rose my hand lightly tracing his face. "Imprint?" I whispered. Seth looked at me and took a deep breathe. "Imprinting is when you find the person your were destined to be with." "Soul mates." Seth whispered. I looked at Seth to see if he was joking. But i only found seriousness in his beautiful features. "You imprinted on me ?" I said still tracing his face. "Yes." He said…