Man, I feel so dumb. Dumb, dumb, dumb. What I am doing now is so damn DUMB.
But Mom says I have to. 'Cause she told me that I'm not very good at expressing myself. So, now I have a diary. And it's this pink little book with feathery sides and it even came with-*shudder*-a fluffy pink pen.
Jake laughed his ass off.
I thought I was gunna choke my mom, I was so pissed. But whatever. So, now, I shall tell you a little about me and my crazy-ass life.
My name is Reneesme Carlie Cullen and I'm 15. Kinda. I look like I'm 18. I have the mind of an 18 year-old. And I have the experiences of an 18 year-old.Yeah, that's right. I've been with Jacob. But oh Lord, if my dad found out... I'm so glad that Jacob and I have been able to learn how to keep Daddy outta our heads. If not, he would have made Jake into "mutt stew".
But anyways, I'm graduating from Forks High, which is impossibly funny, because, my parents use to go there and sometimes I'll hear a whisper here or there about that weird family that once went to Forks High. Sometimes it's so hard not to go to anyone there and be like, "YO! Shuddup, fools! That's ma family you be talking about!"
But then again...
After I graduate from High School, my parents want me to go off to collage. But I keep asking, why? I mean, they didn't go to collage, nobody in my family did. They just picked up a book and read it. Or at least that's how Daddy learned.That is, until he met mom and they got married right outta high school.
Which brings me back to my parents story.
This story fascinates me, annoys me a bit, makes me wonder and truthfully? Kinda grosses me out. Dad made it a point to not leave anything out. So he explained how he left my mom after her birthday, how he was miserable, how she was miserable, how she jumped off a cliff-which I do all the time with Jake now-how he tried to kill himself and how she saved him. He explained that my Jacob once loved my mom and had kissed her. Then mom punched him and broke her hand. I couldn't help but slap Jacob.
"HEY! I thought I loved her. But then I saw the most beautiful girl in the world and then Bells was outta my mind."
Then Daddy explained moms graduation, the huge battle between Riley and Victoria, the wedding and even Isle Esme.
They went to a point that I was plugging my ears and screaming LALALALA over and over again.
Then, they explained Mom's pregnancy, how I was her little nudger, how Dad wanted to get rid of me and how mom literally fought to the death for me. Then, dad changed her.
Then, my favorite part of the whole story.
When Daddy brought Mommy home to see me for the first time and she saw how Jacob was staring at me. She had relived that Jacob had imprinted on me, which totally pissed her off at first. Then, Jacob jumped into the story and explained that he couldn't help but love me because I has his perfect other half. Daddy was extremely pissed off.
The first time they told me this story I was 14. So, to piss Daddy off even further I leaned over and kissed Jacob. That, of course was not our first kiss.
Our first kiss... Oh that was... Yum.
So, the main point here is that I am in love with Jacob Black, Bella and Edward Cullen are my parents, I'm graduating soon and I'm half Vampire.
And while I could rattle all day about my life, and Jake and what our babies would look like, or hell, what they would BE, I know I should stop writing. Mostly 'cause my hand is cramping. I don't think I've even written so much before.
Alright well... How do I like sign off this thing?
Uh, well... Bye?
Reneesme Carlie Cullen.
I closed the little pink fluffy book of death and sighed.I was laying down on my bed and I dropped my head onto my black comforter. The sun was coming up, the sky a hazy pink-orange. I could hear Mom and Daddy whispering back in forth, in their room. Pushing the book to the side I rolled over and looked up at the pictures I taped up on the ceiling. There was one of my throwing my head back, laughing at something Aunt Alice said, while Jake looked at me with such happiness I felt my eyes fill. His dark features were alight with some emotion I couldn't put my finger on but either way, it made me happy to know I made Jake feel something.
I heard the roar of an engine about a mile away from our tiny cottage. The bird seemed to quite down and I smiled already knowing who was on their way. I grabbed a pair of jeans knowing that, just like every other day in Forks, it would be wet and rainy. Throwing on a black long sleeved top I walked out of my room. Mom and Daddy started talking louder knowing that I was awake.
"Good morning, love." Daddy greeted me, using the pet name I only ever hear him use on me or mom.
"Mornin'." I replied grabbing an apple. Daddy made a face as I took a bite and I couldn't blame him. This stuff was God awful but it filled me up until the next time I went hunting.
Mom walked into the room and her smiled lit up her beautiful face. She walked to me, placing her arms around my shoulders and dropping a kiss on my copper hair. Her brown hair fell in her face and she cocked her head as she said "Morning Nessie."
I smiled before backing away and mumbling a "Morning" back. The engine cut off and my ears immediately perked up.
"He's here!" I exclaimed as I pushed my feet into my boots.
"He's driving his car, right?" Daddy asked, his eyes narrowed. His eyes were a soft amber color and I still couldn't picture them the vibrant green that mom told me they use to be.
"Uh, no Daddy. But you can't say anything! You use to let mom go with him!"
Daddy's eyes widened before muttering a "Fine" and walking to their room.
The door opened and Jake's huge body walked in. And by huge, I SO do not mean fat. He has broad shoulders and he hovers between 6'5 and 6'6. And I always looks so tiny next to him, my body only stopping around 5'11.
"Hey Ness." He said grinning my favorite smile.
"Jakey." I said throwing my arms around him. He bent down and his warm lips pressed against mine. I pushed my body closer to his and his arms wrapped around my waist.
"Ah hem." I heard Daddy say as he walked back into the room. "Jacob, hands off. Now."
Jacob just grinned at him, his infamous "I just got my hands caught in the cookie jar" grin.
"Alright, let's go so we're not late." I said pushing Jake out the door. I grabbed my jacket and yelled over my shoulder "Bye Mom, bye Daddy!"
Shoving one arm into the sleeve, we got on Jake's motorcycle. He turned slightly to kiss me one more before putting a black helmet on me. I grinned up at him as he turned around and started the engine.
As we drove off I saw Mom and Daddy watching us from the window, his arms wrapped around her waist.
Heyyy! What do you think? I don't really have a name for it yet or anything, but I just thought hey, I'mma right it anyways!
So drop me a comment, and tell me what you think! Thank ya!
Peace Love Monica
Me and Jake