Tears, they run down my face like blood from the cuts,
Cuts you and I cant see but I feel them deep down,
The words scratch the surface of my heart making the wounds bigger and emotions stronger every time,
Words hurt more than thinking about you,
When I think of you I break down into a million pieces,
The pieces get larger every time and sharper than the knife you used to hurt the ones you love,
You say “keep your head up baby and everything comes together in the end.”
“How do you put the puzzle together when pieces are missing mommy?”
I hope that one day you will wake from your dream and walk back into my world,
I get reality checks every day of my broke apart life and I’m only fourteen,
Bleeding makes me wonder how you feel,
Do you cry every day just because you miss seeing my smile?
When you leave the house do you have to hold in your love for your daughter so others don’t think your weak,
I cry for the little things,
Do you cry for the large things?
I had to grow up fast to become the mother you never were and never will be,
It rips me to shreds of paper when I watch my sister cry cause she misses and loves you,
And yet some how you don’t see how much we care,
How can you sit there on the phone and blame me for all this?
When you tell me your not doing anything bad and you drop me off at my fathers and he tells me that your stoned beyond believing,
Hard is when your own father that you think hates you cries when he sees you in me.
Don’t every tell me its complicating when it truly is not,
Tell me that you asked when you stole from loved ones,
Lie strait to my face and tell me off when all I need is a friend to listen,
Thanks Mommy I see the difference between real and strait up unbelievable.
Love or don’t I care less either way
Marissa N Jones