I walked up to the gates ,my heels lightly clicked on the marble smooth tiles. Below was clear Blue skies and few clouds.Steven's back was facing me. Quietly i sighed and nodded. Swirls and curving lines appeared on my skin and glowed bright gold. Thats when the gates slowly opened. Steven turned around and the breath was taken out of my lungs. he looked like he had been crying,his soft hair looked perfectly placed. his deep blue eyes just bored into mine. i tried to grin but i just couldn't. i took a step towards him and he took one back. my heart felt heavier with every breath i took.
"Elizabeth?..."he squinted his eyes. i felt like crying. i had to tell him everything.
"Steven...i" i looked down and shook my head. i saw that the golden lines on my arms and legs were slowly fading.
He looked confused. "where-where am i ?"
I sighed and looked around me and the light that came from everywhere. i took two steps towards him. this time he didn't move. he looked down at his outfit and then his eyes shot back up to me. "this is heaven..." my eyes met his again. he zoned out and two minutes later i knew that he remembered everything.
"I-i died..." he looked broken now. i saw him about to collapse. i moved so fast and caught him. i helped support him. our faces were so close. he still smelled like him. that sweet aroma. i took it all in. He still loved me, i could see it in his eyes. by the way he looked at me. a tear that i couldn't catch slowly wet my cheek. i felt Steven's finger move across my face and i looked at him.
"why are you crying?" his voice was rich and soft.
i felt his balance returning so i let him go. "i don't have much time left...but you deserve the truth"
He looked confused again but not as bad. "what are you talking about Elizabeth?"
"i love you Steven,but i have been keeping something from you ...something important" he could tell by the look on my face that this was serious,and i new that he had numerous questions for me,but there wasn't a whole lot of time to explain. i prepared to tell him the truth,the whole truth.
"i know that you wondering, if this is heaven then why am i here? the truth is...that i died two years ago."
his facial expression told me that he still didn't understand. at least not fully.
"i was sent down to earth to...collect a soul. Thats my job, i cross over condemned souls into heaven."
"so you are a..." he couldn't seem to get the word out
i nodded once. "yes.im an Angel"
it felt like that awkward silence that sometimes happens between friends, but the difference is that this silence was expected.He looked shocked. i new that he was hurt.He had every right to be,i had kept this a secret from him.
"so...you lied to me.All of this time"
"Steven i want-"
"this whole relationship was based on a lie?"
i started to cry. i just wanted to hold him and tell him how sorry i was,And how much i loved him, but it was clear that he didn't want me to touch him.
"no,this whole relationship was not based on a lie. my love for you was never a lie." i sobbed. "i love you Steven. Please don't second guess that."
"if you loved me the way you say you do ,then why would you keep this from me" his voice got louder. he got closer to me.
"because i couldn't..." i cried. i put my hands on his face. "if i would have told you the truth, would you have believed me anyway?i would you have had that much faith in me?" i shook my head. my face was cloaked in tears.. he took my hands in his and i laid my head on his chest.
"im so sorry..."i sobbed into his smooth jacket. i felt his hand on the back of my head and his other hand wrap around my waist. i wrapped my arms around him. i never wanted to let him go,or better yet i never wanted him to let me go. this boy was the love of my life. i watched my younger fall in love and thought that it was something i would never have,but once i found it in Steven i never wanted it to go away. i pulled him closer because i knew that this would probably be the last time that i would be able to hold him this way. to kiss him,to touch his face,or tell him that i loved him.all of that realization made this goodbye the hardest thing i ever had to do.
" i have to go" i whispered in his ear.
"away..."was all i could say.i sighed. "i love you" i cried.
i felt him quiver. he was crying! " i love you too"
i heard wings behind me and i new that it was Micheal. i moved back a little but didnt let him go. i unwrapped my hands from around his neck and looked at his beautiful green eyes one last time. his face was smooth as i held him there. my hands slid to his face and i kissed him. every kiss from him felt like magic. like anything was possible. The gates opened again. my lips parted from his and i tried to smile . we both looked to the gates where Micheal stood. Steven looked back at me. we starred at each other, in his eyes i says fear. i smiled and rubbed his cheek.
"don't be afraid..."
he shook his head "when will we..."
"see each other again?" i finished his sentence. he didn't say anything. i looked at Micheal who nodded, then i looked back at Steven.
"i don't know" my voice was low and soft. "but i promise that we will see each other" i kissed him one more time and then moved back. his hands slid from my waist as mine slid away from his chest. we now stood apart. he turned towards the light and walked through the gates. he looked back at me and smiled. i waved goodbye. hoping in my mind that it wasn't forever. then his body shimmered and he was gone. the tears came back and i walked up to Micheal. i looked at him,stretched my wings and we flew back to the court.