Dreams

Well hey. I don't think anyone's going to read this, but i guess its better that way. No one to make fun of me, or tell me i'm cliche. I have a dream. I want to act. In movies. Plays are fun, but the thrill isn't as high. Last year I tried to get into a few agencies, but nothing was good. They all just wanted my money (and by mine, i mean my mothers)
Then one day, it happened to be the day Stephenie Meyer herself was signing copies of the host, High School Musical was being filmed. And Me being the idiot I am, left my books to my sister and went down to the high school. I thought that would start something. I thought that going there, something would spark my future. Maybe a casting director would see my face and think of a role. Or a talent agent would see me playing along and want me for something big. But after two days of working until 1 am, I had school the next morning, and reality slapped me in the face. I wasn't going to hit it big. I wasn't going to get famous. I am just another teenager who wants to be the cliche. But I really want it.
And today I was on Stephenie Meyer's website and I saw they are putting together a The Host . I want it so badly. More than anything I've ever wanted. More than the lead role of coraline that I imagined trying for and making. More than my pet rabbit I wanted soso much. MORE. And I know I can't have it. I know if I dwell on it, the punch will hurt even worse. But thats not stopping me. I'll try, although I don't know how, or what to do. I can dream, can't I?