As he lay next to me I couldn't help compare to him to a Greek god. He was to perfect. He was immaculate. Perfect on so many levels I couldn't count. A part of me longed to reach out and touch his marble face. But another part of me held back because I knew I didn't deserve anyone so amazing as him. And another part of me felt a pang of guilt for taking him away. He wasn't mine to take but I did so anyway. Could anyone other than myself be so greedy and needing? I think not. But I dont think anyone could resist him. He was like a drug. He always called me his drug and it was true. But he was also my drug. His was in the mental sense but mine in the physical. I could never live in a world where he could never exist. I already knew how that went. How much I depended on him. How much I loved him. How much he loved me. I could not function properly without him around. I was dead. Numb. Blank. I lightly stroked his cool skin examining the tiny sparkles on his skin. Like crystal. They shone this way and that when I moved his arm the smallest fraction of an inch. He sighed perfectly content.
"What is it?" I inquired of him.
"You just remind me of the first time I brought you here. You studied my skin so carefully. I thought you would have been frightened and ran away but no you were fantasized by the glowing vampire-- of course you were. You are always full of surprises--. "
"Do you still feel a difference in temperature when I touch you." I smiled remembering when I asked him if he minded and his response being that I had no idea how it felt.
"After all this time of touching you, you dont think I would be used to it?"
"Good point. Edward?" He turned his perfect head to look at me. " Why is marriage so important to you? Why is it that we must wait till after we are married? It shouldn't make a difference. I mean you already have my forever."
"What brought all this on?"
"Iv'e been thinking about it for some time. Now can you please stop avoiding my question and answer it."
He took in a deep breath. "There are lots of reasons for me wanting to marry you. You love me and of course I love you. It only makes since. I know that it is hard for you to except but when I to turn you," he took in an unsteady breath," I want to be able to to it right. I want to be able to tie you to me in every way possible."
"But we will have forever. Why now? Why not wait a while to get a foundation in before we do anything?"
"Because Bella when you are turned we will try." I had a confused look on my face. "Let me finish. I want to do this right. I feel that marriage should come before the others. Its the right think to do. The moral thing to
I couldn't speak for a moment. When I finally pulled myself together I took in a huge breath. "So I have to marry you before any further plans are made."
I didn't want to argue any more. I leaped on top of him and kissed him.