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i write songs to express how i feel, i write them to fill in the spaces that need to heal. I sing, i dance, i laugh, i cry, i lie, but most of all i'm only me. Nothing too special out there and i'm lost in a sea of happiness. Everything around me seems light and happy, and i long to go back there. I used to be apart of them. So happy and care free. But then the darkness came and it took it all away and then all it left was a broken me. I try to write happy endings but everything i write is usually sad or depressing. I write about who i used to be, because back then, i'd look into the mirror and smile, satisfied with my beauty, but now i feel like nothing at all. I long to feel something, my laughter sometimes is forced, i work on my smiles. Everyone says "it'll all be okay, and i can talk to them" but i'm not willing to talk unless you make the first move. I write with a passion and i day dream, but i'm tired of living on false hopes and dreams.

Here's something i wrote about myself:


In a world full of fears,
with so many cries and tears.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
How do I go back to the way I was before?


Used to be so sure of myself
always walked with my head held high
used to feel like I could touch the sky
I used to know myself


I used to be so sure of myself,
but that was only when I knew myself

Who’s that girl looking in the mirror?
It surely ain’t me; I used to feel so superior
who’s that girl that cries all day?
It can’t be me; I used to smile all day


Take me back to the times I laughed
when my future headed in a different path
Take me back to the times I barely cried
when I didn’t believe people when they lied


I used to be so sure of myself
I used to know myself

Who’s that girl looking in the mirror?
It surely ain’t me; I used to feel so superior
who’s that girl that cries all day?
It can’t be me; I used to smile all day


My world was full of sunshine
it was so perfect and divine
but the damage has been done
and the traces of happiness are gone


I’m trying to put the pieces back together
letting go of the tears I’ve been holding back since forever
I wonder how I came to be who I am today
because it surely isn’t who I was yesterday


I used to be so sure of myself,
but that was only when I knew myself

Who’s that girl looking in the mirror?
It surely ain’t me; I used to feel so superior
who’s that girl that cries all day?
It can’t be me; I used to smile all day


I counted up all the days
until I turned 12
never knowing that they would be
the last few days that I’d know myself


I used to be so sure of myself,
but that was only when I knew myself

Who’s that girl looking in the mirror?
It surely ain’t me; I used to feel so superior
who’s that girl that cries all day?
It can’t be me; I used to smile all day



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Comment by HyperPixiexoxo on May 3, 2010 at 8:36pm
i can't believe the feedback i've been getting on this.... i absolutely adore it :D i can;t believe so many people can relate to what i write... to this song..... thank you :)
Kathy ~♥~
Comment by HyperPixiexoxo on May 3, 2010 at 8:34pm
@ ♱♥♫ღï§αbɛℓℓα Яסּzαღ♫♥♱, lol your comment had me smiling widely :D thank you....i never knew i'd get this sort of feedback... i never knew how many people could relate to this.... 6-7th grader year? hm... i'm in the 7th grade and life just sucks..... i mean my best friend goes through the exact same thing, but i still feel alone, i smile, i laugh, i dance, i sing, but still i feel that the darkness had HUGE control of my life....

of course you can post this on your page :) in fact, it would be an honor.... thank you for you kind words...
Comment by HyperPixiexoxo on May 3, 2010 at 8:30pm
@ Reed.... i know exactly what you mean... i wanna become a songwriter/professional singer or a psychologist.... but not too many people support my music career because it's not "stable" *rolls eyes* music is my only escape.... i'm glad you liked it :) i love "Sorrow" by Flyleaf... i was singing along to it all weekend :D
Comment by ♱♥♫ღï§αbɛℓℓα Яסּzαღ♫♥♱ on May 1, 2010 at 5:02pm
Wooow!!! I'm seriously feeling like you stepped into my life for a day XD I know very well what it feels like to put off a happy image but to feel torn and broken on the inside I had clinical depression the summer of my 6th-7th grade year. It was a hard time for me I felt like I had no one to talk to it was hard... but I made it through!!! lol It's hard to get past though I sometimes get the feelings still but I'm usually okay :) I'd like to ask can I have permission to put this on my page?!?! Of course I will say that you wrote it (I couldn't take credit for this)...
Thank you for writing this it is beautiful and I know what it feels like...
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xoxo
♱♥♫ღï§αbɛℓℓα Яסּzαღ♫♥♱
Comment by Gina Rose on May 1, 2010 at 12:41pm
HyperPixiexoxo your welcome and its ok and when i read it i connected it
Comment by Reed on May 1, 2010 at 1:33am
thats exactly how I feel I have no idea who I am or where i've been the only thing thats keeping me from going even crazier than people already think. I like to right and people say I should be a writer and I want to be a chef. I have no idea no who the girl is in the mirror.

Try listening to sorrow by flyleaf
Comment by HyperPixiexoxo on April 30, 2010 at 8:24pm
@Gina Rose- thank you... i'm glad you liked in and i'm sorry that u've been though something like this...
Comment by Gina Rose on April 30, 2010 at 8:14pm
i really like it and i can relate to it
Comment by HyperPixiexoxo on April 30, 2010 at 5:14pm
i dunno if you'll understand or not... but its about the darkness.... it drowned all the happiness and laughter and replaced it all with sadness and tears.... i write about my experiences a lot... and they are rarely about love... this one i'd consider a work in progress... kind of song :D Thanks for commenting
Comment by Bella Cullen on April 30, 2010 at 4:05pm
WHAT HAPPENED TO MAKE YOU FEEL THIS WAY?

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