"As much as i struggled not to think of him, i did not Sruggle to FORGET
I worried late in the night.,
when the exhaustion of SLEEP DEPRIVATION broke down my defenses.
That my MIND was a SIEVE..
And that someday i wont be able to REMEMBER the
.. PRECISE color of his eyes.. ..the FEEL of his SKIN.. ..or the
TEXTURE of HIs voice..
could NoT think of THEM.. .. But i MUST remember them"..