I asked myself what if bella had choosed jake?
chapter one what i never saw
I sliped off my converse and walked into the kictchen, to start dinner for charlie than I would be able to leave and go see edward. the thought of edward made me smile.
I finished making spagette and sett it on the table, I sat down and decided to start eating.
when was charlie going to get home I muttered under my breath, befor I knew it edward was right behind me "so did the human eat" he smirked I kissed him feeling his cold lips press agianist mine, bliss i thought as my memmory slowly disapreared I forgot everything.
" so what are you doing"
" ummm not much can we go to your house already?"
"okay fine.. but were is charlie"
I shuged " I think he is just working over time agian"
edward pulled me close " okay lets go" i walked next to him, and smiled up, he smiled back showing his perfectly white teeth. He is just so perfect, i smiled and got into his car and we drove off.
" so what is alice doing is she at the house?"
" no she went shoping for clothes agian, and I diddent tell her that you were coming but I am sure she has already saw you here"
I sighed " so your saying she might be here"
" bella you know alice"
" yeah probaly than"
the car stopped as I waited for edward to open my door but there wasent even enough time to think. I smiles at him as I fell into the pools filled of gold that I like to call his eyes, i went into my dream land agian.
I walked not even knowing were i was going edward as my leader pulling me along through life.
I saw alice there waiting for me.
" um hi alice" I tried to smile
"bella!" I felt her cold arms grasp around me
" so why diddent you tell me you were coming" she frowned
" um well " i shuged " I thought edward was going to"
edward shot me a look like really bella, I sighed.
" edward!" alice made her voice sound mad when she was smiling I laughed as alice hugged me agian.
" okay alice that is enough" edward voice took me into dream land agian.
" um okay.. bella wait here I got somthing for you"
" umm okay" alice returned carring a bag full of clothes
" here bella I got you some clothes"
I smiled knowing she was going to make me wear what ever she had bought for me. I took the bag and griped the handle with my hand.
" thanks alice" I said knowing if I wore the outfits she bought me it would bring happinus to her.
" come on bella you have to try them on" she grabed my hand and draged me upstairs, I shot edward a glance.
he looked back at me and I knew what he was saying he was saying it will make alice happy.
I went along with it, fine i thought.
I took the clothes out of the bag slowly and saw that alice got me a dress, i took a deep breath and shoved myself into it.
alice walked in slowly and smiled wide and bright at me.
" bella you looks so good in dresses"
I sighed agian " I dont like them" i whisper under my breath.
" I like it alice" and forced a smile onto my face. she smiled back at me and I felt warmth run though my body.
I got situated on the coach and edward pulled me ont on his lap.I played with his hair for a while as his cold lips pressed aginst my forhead.
" I love you bella"
" I love you too" I touched his his lips with mine and I felt bliss agian . he stared at me and I fell into the wonders of his liquid gold eyes.
esme walked in and smiled warmly.
"hi bella how are you?"
" hi esme I am good you"
" I am great bella"
I got up slowly and went and gave her a hug I felt her cold arms rap around me.
" so what are you two up too?"
" um not much" I replied
" okay bella but you have to try my new recipes"
" okay esme" I smiled back at her as she walked out of the room.
I kissed edward slowly and his eyes ment mine and I fell into the liquid gold pools of his eyes. my mind went blank and all I could think of was jacob.. thats not right what the hell..
my mind wondered for a few minutes till i came to a conclusion..... I missed jacob. I looked up at edward and took a deep breath, he stared at me knowing somthing was bothering me.
" should I ask bella"
" um no I dont think you should" he stared at me and told me with his eyes that he was really worried about me agian. but when wasent he, I sighed and another deep breath.
I thought about it alot in fact I couldent stop thinking about it.. when I closed my eyes all I could see is jacobs face. what was my problem.
"umm I have to go use the bathroom" I got up and he stared at me with a worried look still on his face. I closed the door tight and layed aginst the door slowly sliding down "god" I muttered to myself. I got up and washed my face looking deep into my eyes and all I saw was jacob. I could her alice standing outside of the door.
"bella you okay"
:" i am fine alice"
I walked out to find alice waiting for me, not a big surprize I thought.
" um bella I had a vision.. I saw you with jacob.."
"alice do we have to go though this agian were still friends jacob and I"
she stared at me giving me a look like your up to somthing agian. ha i must get that alot.
I walked next to alice it was silent for a minute.
"bella so what is on your mind"
" nothing I think" I frowned, I could tell that she knew I was thinking though somthing, but when do I not. edward was waiting for me I feel into his arms.
" esme made you some food is the human hungary?"
I looked down at my shoes " um sure" I wasent really hungary but I am sure that esme wanted to try some new recepite on me, I followed edward into the kictchen and got situated at the table as esme carried out a fancy plate of food.
" um wow esme thats alot" esme smiled warmly
" bella thanks for being my tester" I smiled at her.
" your welcome esme"
" so have you talked to your mom latley?"
I nodded " yess"
"so um how is she?"
" umm good just worried like always" I sighed agian.
esme set the plat down in front of me, and I picked around at the plate.
"so do you like it?" she smiled at me
" yeah its good" I picked around the plate for a while, till esme seemed satisfied. Edward saw that I was done and now bored.
" you wanna go for a walk bella?"
"um sure I guess"
he held my hand and I walked with him, every step felt light and eassy. he grabed my rist and pulled me toward him, his cold lips pressed aginst mine, I smiled.
" I love you" I muttered under my breath. he shot me a look and I knew what it ment.
"so what is really on your mind"
I looked down " um well just stuff like always"
"what type of stuff?"
"umm just school stuff" I lyed.
" what the matter bella" I looked at his face I saw that he was confussed.
" um just jacob.."
"I see bella.. you love him too I know we already went though this"
I sighed " I know"
" um we should get you back okay so charlie doesent get worried"
" umm okay" we walked back to the car as he opened my door for me. I stared out the window for a while, it was silent and awkard foe a while.
" i love you bella"
" I love you too " I muttered.
I got out of the car, and walked in charlie was sitting at the couch, were he should be I thought.
" hi bell"
" hi dad" I muttered, I walked up stairs and closed my door tight also closing my window so edward wont come. I took my phone out trying to decide if I should call jacob. I should I thought.
" jake you there?"
"yes.." I took a deep breath and bit my lip " so um how are you"
" I am good you bella?"
" um fine... confused agian though" I muttered.
" whats wrong bella?"
" umm well I just wanted to see you tomarrow or somthing I need to talk to you"
" umm okay bella.... tomarrow than"
I smiled " um okay.... so what are you up to jake?"
" not much.... worked on the bikes today for a while"