probably the shortest blog i will ever write that has to do with the whole quil imprinting story
"so mckinsey any guys catch your eye?"molly asked i knew they were talking about quil "nope"i said popping the p "well ,you know if you see a guys that are interested i-"seth started but i cut him off "i dont want a boyfriendand you can tell quil that too"
"why dont you want a boyfriend?"jacob questioned i didnt say anything they all just starred at me waiting for an answer
"i got to go"i said getting up from the lunch table even though it was only half way through lunch.
It all started when i was 6 years old,my dad died.my mom would spend everynight crying about it and not only did it really mess up my sleeping patterns it also made me think whats the point of loving someone if 1 day there eventually going to leave you. when he died my mom would say dads on a buisness trip but the truth was he left because he didnt love me (at least thats what i thought when i was little and didnt know better).
many other things lead up to my conclusion stuff thats just a little to painful for me to talk about but after years of my heart breaking events i came to my final conclusion love doesnt exsists
EXPLANATION:whenever i would find myself falling for a guy (quil)i would push away trying to avoid the hurt of the fall, all the way down