I didn't want to think. I didn't want to move. I didn't even know if i wanted to live.
I guess i spent awhile there in my mothers arms sobbing silently, because Jake came in silently and stared at us with a shocked, scared pained expression. It didn't last log though because he came running over and i broke away from mom and ran straight to him.
"Jake, Jake, Jake..."I sobbed.
He released me only to pull my hands to his face . He stared into my eyes and it just caused me more pain.
"Renesmee, what are you thinking about? Tell me! Please, you don't know how hard this is for me, seeing you like this!"
I shook my head as a few tears slipped from my eyes. Dad appeared next to me and without looking away from me, Jake begged him to tell him what I was thinking. I turned away from Jake and stared at my dad with a pleading expression.
"Nessie,i think it may be best to tell him. This matter affects both him, and you."
"You tell him, i can't" i croaked.
Dad turned to Jake.
"Jacob, Nessie is having second thoughts about the wedding. She feels that marrying you would make it easier for her to break your heart and she doesn't want to hurt you."
Jake was silent. He pulled me close to him and kissed me once with more passion than i would have thought possible. Then, he just held me there in his arms. Silent. But this silence was more powerful than any words. I knew what I needed to do.
~Renesmee Carlie Cullen