I looked out the window. The sun was starting to rise. I heard my door open. "Goodmorning, Amena." My mother said in a tired tone. I turned towards her. She was still beautiful and even though it was physical possible she looked older tired. My heart ached. I knew i did this to her. She came and sat down with me on the bed. "Today everyone is spending the day at Auntie Janaila's house." My mom said brushing some hair out of my face. "Do you want to come?" She said with some hope in her face. I really wanted to see everyone but something inside of me was afraid. My mom little hope faded and was replaced with sadness. She kissed me lightly on the cheek and left my room. I turned back to window. The sky was a lighter and the sun was more of a yellow than orange. I listened to the birds chrip. "Janiece, she'll come out of it soon." I heard my father say to my mother. I could imagine my mother being held by my father. "I dont know Sem." She barely whispered. I heard them leave. I got up and walked to the bathroom. I turned on the water. I looked at myself in the mirror. I didnt even recognize myself. My face was blotchy and sunken in. My eyes were red and puffy. My hair was puffy and matted. I turned away from the mirror disgusted. I stripped down and got in the shower. I scrubbed and scrubbed until it felt like my skin was pilling. I got out and walked to my room. I grabbed a tee and some jeans. I slid into some shoes. I combed my hair back into a high bun. I grabbed a bag. I put some clothes in. I looked down at my hand. I still had on the ring. I took it off and set it on my dresser. I finished packing. I grabbed my wallet and made sure all of my cards and money were in there. I turned and looked at myself one more time. I watched as tears slid down my face. I grabbed a jacket and my phone. I made sure i had everything. I walked down the stairs slowly. I didnt look at anything. I walked to the front door not looking back. I walked to my car. I got in. I backed out of the driveway. My stomach was in knots. I wanted to look back so badly. But i knew if i did i would go back inside. I needed to get away from him start a new life. Start over. I closed myself calming myself down. I pulled off not looking back. I needed something to distract me. I turned on the music. Jazmine's sullivan Fear was on. I turned it up blasting it. I felt myself relax.
4 hrs later...
I pulled up to a little diner. I walked in and sat down. A pretty girl came to my table. "Hello I'm Cat. your waiter today." She said handing me a menu. I smiled and nodded. "What would you like to drink?" She said. "Pink Lemonade." I said softly. It sounded weird to hear my voice. Cat gave me a soft smile. "Are you a visitor to town?" She said. I nodded. "I thought so i havent seen you around here before." She said. "I'll be right back with that lemonade." She said. I looked at the menu. I decided on a cheeseburger and fries. Cat came back with my lemonade. "I'll just have a cheeseburger and fries please." I said handing her back the menu. She nodded. "Good Choice." She said with another friendly smile. I smiled back. She left and not even 10 minutes later brought back my food. "Thankyou." I said softly. She nodded. I ate the burger like i never ate in my life. My body felt different with food in it. I knew i needed to slow down or i was going to be sick but i didnt care. I ate all of my food in less than 15 minutes. I got up and left 30 on the table. I was about to walk out before i felt a warm hand stop me. I turned to see Cat. "Hey, some of my friends are hanging out tonight and i was wondering did you want to come?" She said. I smiled and i was about to reject. "Starting Over." Echoed in my head. "Um, sure." I said with a small smile. "Okay." Cat wrote down her number. "Just meet me here at 9 and we can ride together." She said. I nodded. I turned and left. I got in my car. I drove around until i found a hotel. I walked in. An older woman was behind the desk. She looked up at me with a small but warm smile. "Hello, 1 room?" She said. I smiled. "Yes, please." I said. I took out some money. "That will be 100." She said. I handed her the bill. She handed me a key. "Room 9." She said. I nodded and smiled. "Thankyou." I walked up the stairs and got to door 9. I opened the door. It was a regular hotel room. I sat down on the bed. I laid back staring up at the cieling. I took a deep breathe. "New life Amena." I whispered to myself through the falling tears.
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