Well I finished the “Midnight Sun rough draft”. I have so many thought running through my head right now. I do have to say that in a way I do understand Edward’s desire, for I feel that same desire for more. I do understand Stephenie Meyer’s when she said that she can’t do the book right now. I see that it was very enjoyable for her to write these books but if you think about it, what was once enjoyable is now starting to feel like a job and that just takes all the fun out of it.
I have been toying with the idea of just finishing it (the draft) for myself. Then I thought if others out there thought the same as I, it would be fun to read the different ways others would finish it. Just a passing thought. I am going to play around with the draft.
I deeply thank Stephenie for sharing the draft with me. I see more now. The questions I had when Bella would question his expressions and so did I or why would he say that to her. Now I know why. And thank you for letting me know what the Cullen’s were like without the watchful eye of Bella.
I always knew there was more to Edward’s desire to keep Bella human, other than just her soul. If he could see that his need to keep her human is more selfish then his desires to be near her. How many times did he say that he felt human when he was with her? I also can see Edward’s fear that she may hate him for taking her soul. Once she was change there is no going back. The hopelessness of wonting to be human for Bella I see also thwarts his wavering thoughts to change her. How do you stand over someone with a dagger ready to thrust it into their chest and tell them, “I LoveYou.”