It was the hardest decision I had ever had to make in my life. I was torn. Edward seemed so perfect for me, almost like a soulmate, I had thought he was my soul mate...until I kissed Jacob. Everything had seemed so perfect, almost like a dream, but, dreams are just fantastys and at some point you have to wake up. After kissing Jacob my whole world seemed upside down, and my fantasy world of eternity with Edward kept drifting to a world of love with Jacob. No matter which I chose, I would break the other's heart and mine as well.
No matter which I chose, the one I didnt pick would probably vanish from my life and would be gone. My heart was breaking, when I came to live with Charlie in Forks, I never would have imagined myself being thrust into a world of vampires, and werewolves forced to choose between the two.
Throughout the night, I didnt sleep at all. My mind was busy, thinking about the heartwrenching decision I would have to make in the morning. Some of the people I loved were about to be hurt, and it was all my fault.
Before I knew it, it was light outside people were waiting outside, waiting for me. Knowing about the decision I was about to make. I knew that none of them knew what I was going to pick, I didnt even know for sure. So there was no possible way Alice could have seen my decision.
Taking a deep breath, I stepped out of my tent into the chilling air. Edward and Jacob were stainding in an awckward silence among the members of their familys. I glanced up and saw the glares Edward and Jacob were giving each other before dropping my eyes. I was pretty sure if what I was going to do but it hurt me so much, i didnt want to speak.
I drew in the deepest breath I had ever taken in my life.
"Um...hi..everyone." I mumbled in a low voice that no one would probably be able to hear..
Edward stepped forward, followed my Jacob a second afterwards. "Bella, I just want you to know that whichever one of us you choose, I dont care, as long as you are happy I"ll be happy. I'll admit I'll be happier if you choose me but my main concern is that you're happy. I'm not just going to go around smug and gloating like the mutt over hear."
Well, at least I I'm not a filthy bloodsucker that's not trying to make her feel guilty you.."
I cut him of before this conversation got REALLY ugly.
"I have made my decision, even though I dont really want to have to choose between my families, but I think the choice I"m making will be the best overall for me, and my life" A tear fell from my cheek, follolwed by another, before I was flat out crying.
Both guys made a motion to come foward but at seemign the other do so, each backed off.
"Im really sorry, Edward, I love you, but I love Jacob, and I think that my life..." I wasnt able to speak anymore through my sobs. The rest of the Cullens had mixed reations.
Edward- A look of disappointment
Emmett- A look of disbelief
Jasper- same as Emmett
Rosalie- Relief- not becasue i was hurt and choosing Jacob, but because of her belief about being a vampire.
Carlisle- Hurt and Understanding
Alice- Fury, hurt, disappointment
I had hurt soome of the most imporant people in mylife. I felt awful
I expected Jacob to be gloating and rubiing it into Edwards face, but instead he just cam over and gave me a gentle hug, petting my hair and brushing away the tears that were falling form my face.
I felt safe an Jacob's arms, like it it was where I belonged.
And this was only the beginning.
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